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連綿的霪雨，不停不歇的下著。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRa7ibdGQux
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『嘩啦——』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtg7jjOp0S
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「這都下多久了......」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnjoP2w169
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意識模糊的睜著眼，望著玻璃窗上那隨著風搖落的斜紋雨滴。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB9OTPwH3B
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枕頭上一片濕溽，是淚水？還是雨水？伸手抹了一把臉上的濕潤，將手指送進嘴裡——鹹的、苦的，眼淚。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1MCvCeyP5
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyjojt9Ys6
尚未收拾完畢的行李散了一床，只能驅著身體縮在僅剩的小小空間裡，無法伸展的四肢捲曲的互相依偎。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNP3KOvbUd
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能夠一直這樣就好，不要醒來就好。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijTKW1m0Hn
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG5uum3TaQ
『鈴——鈴——』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiheemFRHzR
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終究還是被鈴聲驚醒，是男人的來電。暫時搬去了他家，盡管家人反對，但最後仍然坳不過我，讓我住進了他家。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8OEHLXgxE
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruuATrdLUX
一路上，我們都沉默不語，他也沒有一字半句。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaS5KrGKfM
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi86VV47ZDi
車子緩緩駛進曾經非常介意的那條路，那間A曾經去過的餐廳，以及A曾經去過的鞋店，都在。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOLAucdqaa
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JL0yaUN8B
「怎麼了？」他擔心的瞟了我一眼。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cHsQ8av45
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOYmJETqHF
「......不，沒什麼」我別過頭，敷衍的給了他一句話。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9xuT4plhe
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQO8M8f0Yf
我幾乎忘了身邊還有個『他』存在，這個在我最難受時，毫不猶豫擁抱我的男人。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiT7681oAy9
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY2kTYBUmh
我選擇了報答他的方式——我和他在一起了，我們交往，甚至做愛。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZeJ3kiJFP
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx2mAnSHDQ
離去時，我瞄了眼那七彩的招牌，燈光依舊炫麗，但我發現它的顏色似乎比以前更加地黯淡，是因為雨水沖刷，還是我的錯覺？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPlfYkwYz7
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e3OPwjxxe
到了他家，忍不住又陷入淺而混濁的昏睡，雖然，學校的報告一樣都沒寫。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uzZgywrVg
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnGugBppeJ
依舊是惡夢，那些還沒放下還沒看開的，一切。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS2OIqkffw
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAQ2dvj80A
某天，一邊刷牙洗臉，一邊看著鏡中的自己。瞬間被熟悉的感覺淹沒，彷佛在經過長久的割裂與漠視後，從前的自己回來了。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwekFxwBcS
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH27b3Drk4d
從前的我，站在現在的鏡前，這浴室，這房子，此處悲傷與歡喜的交界，明明是他家，但我卻看見了她的身影，然後開始做惡夢。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMdLSIR0LH
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbmsMu9rc5
是妳帶著惡夢回來了嗎？開始恐懼，拍打著水面想讓她的倒影消失......819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FniXpEvY9
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgNennKKzd
「你在做什麼？！」他抱住了我，從背後將我泛著鮮紅的手腕錮住。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfZjaQKouH
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoykfaRgFw7
紅？我流血了？滿地的碎片，是被我破壞後留下的痕跡。幾片碎片上，還殘留著我的血液。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHgvLjm1pF
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEolwKWxz7p
「還會痛嗎？」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0RmLx5DkL
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMUg6uQlnG
「不會了，謝謝。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqI4iu9dyN
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCz49gMLFB
他細心的替我包扎，也不管鮮血染上了他的手、他的衣服。然後，我們一起到了陽台，外面下著雨，小小的、細微的雨絲。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGNqzNFGYs
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZw1UGmYE2
這時候我想起了過去，也曾經與A在陽台，也是像今天一樣下著小雨。那時的妳，嬌嗔的說著，討厭雨天，希望能放晴。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLilrILXt8
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T3A3IhXt4
那次是我的生日，沒有蛋糕、沒有蠟燭。盡管如此，我們還是用了火柴來取代那些，點了火光，許了三個願望：819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeRC9frWow
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspYx3upsf6
聽說，第三個願望要放在心裡才會實現，但那時的我依舊認為『只要妳在我身邊，不管說什麼都會實現。』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEplM3qFZMU
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYhJl4LY5I
『我的第一個願望是，希望每天都是晴天。』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcgGZvKo9m
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTbBLb6eOS
我一直以為，妳會陪伴在我身邊，直到一切的願望都實現。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdO5UkgPMFf
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uSYhNL7Mu
『第二個願望是，希望每個晴天，我都能陪在妳身邊。』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvLBGH4BpY
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2aK3Eatnv
當時的我真的以為，我能夠給妳完整的幸福。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3CE5WaIbF
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbNWb7BCrq
『第三個願望是，能夠給妳幸福。』
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZqAoaZZqh
恍惚之間，我回到了現實。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PdwXMHMch
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTv7RGF4lp
「如果......一直是晴天就好了。」我垂著頭，脫口而出。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQSmWWGDMM
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yWob0uLoV
「白癡嗎？一直是晴天，那地球得鬧乾旱了。」他抽著菸，望著遠方，語氣冷沉，卻帶了點譏諷。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoHqtiX2lK
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLshdtAneh
「也是。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTNVujVrAg
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我只是在逃避。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FemjRYxuj
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOEQdx08dr
因為我想起了A...想起了我跟A的對話819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzm9jZv41s
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2pBsvbGZK
我對她說：『我愛妳，一定會給你幸福的。』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptKko3PHtU
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l4ufMO4Di
她對我說：『對不起，我要的幸福，你給不了。』819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhHCZuqftE
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiiqZjqXtu
從那之後，我的世界彷彿只剩下了雨天。
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpBn4lNRcD
夜晚，仍是下著雨，外頭黑壓壓的一片，烏鴉猖狂的鳴叫，似乎對我叫囂著。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8p1uc8aYLN
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPmYaKK7D9
我衝出了家門，正確來說，是他的家門。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3VT0ARBBv
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMXGuC3yln
發了瘋似地，彷佛聽不見任何聲音，看不見身旁呼嘯而過的景色......妳的一切始終跟著我，逃不開，離不去。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2b2cHR3t0
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHA09zMEjB
不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑——直到，我發現自己跪在地上，眼裡的刺痛，分不清是淚水或是雨水。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiUX7ZaLB4
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyORTJfHyw
A離開之後，我的世界開始下雨，傾盆大雨，那樣的雨聲像要撞擊在心臟上一樣。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOee2YMuWSr
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgnue9fNep
「別走！」
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MncnwsmkV
總會想著，妳會不會後悔沒有緊緊抓住我？
總會想著，沒有我的晴天，妳是否也會那樣開心的笑著？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLt1qZCluj
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iH5Sf5fvB
「不要管我，你回去吧！」
總覺得，不需要再說出任何承諾。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uHumCq7Io
總覺得，這個世界已經沒有晴天。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGReTZA3Xaz
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9Sqwyr1Mq
就像聖誕節期盼著聖誕老人的到來，但隔天卻什麼都沒有一樣。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9l4xZLB9S
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfnDKKsIzp
「反正，許過的願望，從不會實現。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASp3E7q3Zi
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5S2ZgOsL7D
雨水模糊了視線，令我看不清前方的景色，只依稀看見，背著光的他，眼裡閃著灼亮，不知為何，緊緊的瞅著我。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7TBFa1MKM
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofFlw1iyOY
「過來！」他對我喊著。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrCI8lK6jH
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHPJEE2HTR
「不。」我退後了一步。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RZdCMRfzE
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他低吼著叫了我的名字，通常他只會在真正發怒時，口氣才會這麼重。他不斷地靠近我，我不斷地後退，直到他抓住我手臂的剎那，才忽然發現，眼前的男人令我感到一股壓迫，但卻又無比的溫暖。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGxzgdJEXu
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qg3ulPozk
就像一道光線，逐步地想吞噬我築起的黑色高牆。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFoNMIHJOn
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTsRloX1MA
我又退了幾步，抗拒地想拉開與他的距離。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26splJSBgq
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DG1z2xuhB
「我......」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX9FQOeLn6
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XfcnEYNDT
「不要靠近我！」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qlmGVMY6o
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoE8SoPeCj
我一直知道，他很溫柔，很有耐心的想將我從過去給拉出來......819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoig1CqNeoz
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但是，我卻無法相信自己。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2A7Zwv5yc
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「結束吧，我們結束吧！我許的願望終究沒有實現！我給不起任何人幸福！我沒有辦法——」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2Ttmv7opq
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「你是傻子嗎！」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIpHYvLVmy
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一陣狂風掃過我的面頰，在我眯起眼的同時，跌入了那寬實溫熱的懷抱。我被他緊緊的抱著，緊緊的錮著，無法呼吸，無法思考，然、後......819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPtupX3DDg
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「你給不了，沒關係，我給的起就行了！」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7f44ztDg9
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9ZggDMppW
你打破了我築起的高牆，毫不猶豫的讓那強烈的光，刺透我的一切。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQjfrFLwBb
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMx9BtBAiO
像烈日的太陽一般。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcBHT2GNr9
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFcGgbwHDU
一直都相信著，只要許下願望，就一定能實現。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdAiNbeNGv
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Q60T3P5B8
就像期盼著十二月份的聖誕節、聖誕老人的禮物，明明知道一切都是假的，卻又想去相信。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8dwl2FGDw
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrurQ9er44Z
「我們回家，好嗎。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3z5Gr0OND
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即使如此，你仍然滿懷著耐心，待在我身邊。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEtSZFuKsP
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOPwKCbosz
就算下著大雨，就算仍然待在黑暗之中，就算，依舊沒有放晴。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfIgnYfvYt
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我衝上前，雖然無法完全拋棄過去，但是……819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3DQezLhoK
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我相信，未來的我一定會很感激妳，選擇給了自己一個沒有我的晴天。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SUzt3Cbn3
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到底在打什麼鬼......
其實很簡單，就是受被前女友甩了，遇到了攻，但卻一直被過去的陰影所糾纏著的黑暗故事......
不知道這種敘事方式能不能被人接受......我盡力了Orz
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