819Please respect copyright.PENANA2TeFfvbyzu
連綿的霪雨,不停不歇的下著。819Please respect copyright.PENANARa7ibdGQux
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『嘩啦——』819Please respect copyright.PENANAZtg7jjOp0S
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「這都下多久了......」819Please respect copyright.PENANAmnjoP2w169
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意識模糊的睜著眼,望著玻璃窗上那隨著風搖落的斜紋雨滴。819Please respect copyright.PENANAxB9OTPwH3B
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枕頭上一片濕溽,是淚水?還是雨水?伸手抹了一把臉上的濕潤,將手指送進嘴裡——鹹的、苦的,眼淚。819Please respect copyright.PENANAX1MCvCeyP5
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尚未收拾完畢的行李散了一床,只能驅著身體縮在僅剩的小小空間裡,無法伸展的四肢捲曲的互相依偎。819Please respect copyright.PENANAVNP3KOvbUd
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能夠一直這樣就好,不要醒來就好。819Please respect copyright.PENANAijTKW1m0Hn
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『鈴——鈴——』819Please respect copyright.PENANAiheemFRHzR
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終究還是被鈴聲驚醒,是男人的來電。暫時搬去了他家,盡管家人反對,但最後仍然坳不過我,讓我住進了他家。819Please respect copyright.PENANAE8OEHLXgxE
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一路上,我們都沉默不語,他也沒有一字半句。819Please respect copyright.PENANASaS5KrGKfM
819Please respect copyright.PENANAi86VV47ZDi
車子緩緩駛進曾經非常介意的那條路,那間A曾經去過的餐廳,以及A曾經去過的鞋店,都在。819Please respect copyright.PENANAAOLAucdqaa
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「怎麼了?」他擔心的瞟了我一眼。819Please respect copyright.PENANA4cHsQ8av45
819Please respect copyright.PENANAwOYmJETqHF
「......不,沒什麼」我別過頭,敷衍的給了他一句話。819Please respect copyright.PENANAo9xuT4plhe
819Please respect copyright.PENANAQQO8M8f0Yf
我幾乎忘了身邊還有個『他』存在,這個在我最難受時,毫不猶豫擁抱我的男人。819Please respect copyright.PENANAiT7681oAy9
819Please respect copyright.PENANAfY2kTYBUmh
我選擇了報答他的方式——我和他在一起了,我們交往,甚至做愛。819Please respect copyright.PENANAmZeJ3kiJFP
819Please respect copyright.PENANAXx2mAnSHDQ
離去時,我瞄了眼那七彩的招牌,燈光依舊炫麗,但我發現它的顏色似乎比以前更加地黯淡,是因為雨水沖刷,還是我的錯覺?819Please respect copyright.PENANABPlfYkwYz7
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到了他家,忍不住又陷入淺而混濁的昏睡,雖然,學校的報告一樣都沒寫。819Please respect copyright.PENANA8uzZgywrVg
819Please respect copyright.PENANAJnGugBppeJ
依舊是惡夢,那些還沒放下還沒看開的,一切。819Please respect copyright.PENANAaS2OIqkffw
819Please respect copyright.PENANANAQ2dvj80A
某天,一邊刷牙洗臉,一邊看著鏡中的自己。瞬間被熟悉的感覺淹沒,彷佛在經過長久的割裂與漠視後,從前的自己回來了。819Please respect copyright.PENANAmwekFxwBcS
819Please respect copyright.PENANAH27b3Drk4d
從前的我,站在現在的鏡前,這浴室,這房子,此處悲傷與歡喜的交界,明明是他家,但我卻看見了她的身影,然後開始做惡夢。819Please respect copyright.PENANAwMdLSIR0LH
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是妳帶著惡夢回來了嗎?開始恐懼,拍打著水面想讓她的倒影消失......819Please respect copyright.PENANA8FniXpEvY9
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「你在做什麼?!」他抱住了我,從背後將我泛著鮮紅的手腕錮住。819Please respect copyright.PENANANfZjaQKouH
819Please respect copyright.PENANAoykfaRgFw7
紅?我流血了?滿地的碎片,是被我破壞後留下的痕跡。幾片碎片上,還殘留著我的血液。819Please respect copyright.PENANAxHgvLjm1pF
819Please respect copyright.PENANAEolwKWxz7p
「還會痛嗎?」819Please respect copyright.PENANAv0RmLx5DkL
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「不會了,謝謝。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAqqI4iu9dyN
819Please respect copyright.PENANAyCz49gMLFB
他細心的替我包扎,也不管鮮血染上了他的手、他的衣服。然後,我們一起到了陽台,外面下著雨,小小的、細微的雨絲。819Please respect copyright.PENANAyGNqzNFGYs
819Please respect copyright.PENANAvZw1UGmYE2
這時候我想起了過去,也曾經與A在陽台,也是像今天一樣下著小雨。那時的妳,嬌嗔的說著,討厭雨天,希望能放晴。819Please respect copyright.PENANArLilrILXt8
819Please respect copyright.PENANA6T3A3IhXt4
那次是我的生日,沒有蛋糕、沒有蠟燭。盡管如此,我們還是用了火柴來取代那些,點了火光,許了三個願望:819Please respect copyright.PENANAgeRC9frWow
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聽說,第三個願望要放在心裡才會實現,但那時的我依舊認為『只要妳在我身邊,不管說什麼都會實現。』819Please respect copyright.PENANAEplM3qFZMU
819Please respect copyright.PENANAoYhJl4LY5I
『我的第一個願望是,希望每天都是晴天。』819Please respect copyright.PENANAhcgGZvKo9m
819Please respect copyright.PENANAUTbBLb6eOS
我一直以為,妳會陪伴在我身邊,直到一切的願望都實現。819Please respect copyright.PENANAdO5UkgPMFf
819Please respect copyright.PENANA1uSYhNL7Mu
『第二個願望是,希望每個晴天,我都能陪在妳身邊。』819Please respect copyright.PENANAfvLBGH4BpY
819Please respect copyright.PENANAC2aK3Eatnv
當時的我真的以為,我能夠給妳完整的幸福。819Please respect copyright.PENANAl3CE5WaIbF
819Please respect copyright.PENANAFbNWb7BCrq
『第三個願望是,能夠給妳幸福。』
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恍惚之間,我回到了現實。819Please respect copyright.PENANA0PdwXMHMch
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「如果......一直是晴天就好了。」我垂著頭,脫口而出。819Please respect copyright.PENANAeQSmWWGDMM
819Please respect copyright.PENANA9yWob0uLoV
「白癡嗎?一直是晴天,那地球得鬧乾旱了。」他抽著菸,望著遠方,語氣冷沉,卻帶了點譏諷。819Please respect copyright.PENANASoHqtiX2lK
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「也是。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAJTNVujVrAg
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我只是在逃避。819Please respect copyright.PENANA2FemjRYxuj
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因為我想起了A...想起了我跟A的對話819Please respect copyright.PENANATzm9jZv41s
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我對她說:『我愛妳,一定會給你幸福的。』819Please respect copyright.PENANAptKko3PHtU
819Please respect copyright.PENANA3l4ufMO4Di
她對我說:『對不起,我要的幸福,你給不了。』819Please respect copyright.PENANAmhHCZuqftE
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從那之後,我的世界彷彿只剩下了雨天。
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夜晚,仍是下著雨,外頭黑壓壓的一片,烏鴉猖狂的鳴叫,似乎對我叫囂著。819Please respect copyright.PENANA8p1uc8aYLN
819Please respect copyright.PENANAUPmYaKK7D9
我衝出了家門,正確來說,是他的家門。819Please respect copyright.PENANAe3VT0ARBBv
819Please respect copyright.PENANAuMXGuC3yln
發了瘋似地,彷佛聽不見任何聲音,看不見身旁呼嘯而過的景色......妳的一切始終跟著我,逃不開,離不去。819Please respect copyright.PENANAW2b2cHR3t0
819Please respect copyright.PENANAmHA09zMEjB
不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑——直到,我發現自己跪在地上,眼裡的刺痛,分不清是淚水或是雨水。819Please respect copyright.PENANAHiUX7ZaLB4
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A離開之後,我的世界開始下雨,傾盆大雨,那樣的雨聲像要撞擊在心臟上一樣。819Please respect copyright.PENANAOee2YMuWSr
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「別走!」
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總會想著,妳會不會後悔沒有緊緊抓住我?
總會想著,沒有我的晴天,妳是否也會那樣開心的笑著?819Please respect copyright.PENANAbLt1qZCluj
819Please respect copyright.PENANA8iH5Sf5fvB
「不要管我,你回去吧!」
總覺得,不需要再說出任何承諾。819Please respect copyright.PENANA9uHumCq7Io
總覺得,這個世界已經沒有晴天。819Please respect copyright.PENANAGReTZA3Xaz
819Please respect copyright.PENANAo9Sqwyr1Mq
就像聖誕節期盼著聖誕老人的到來,但隔天卻什麼都沒有一樣。819Please respect copyright.PENANAF9l4xZLB9S
819Please respect copyright.PENANAJfnDKKsIzp
「反正,許過的願望,從不會實現。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAASp3E7q3Zi
819Please respect copyright.PENANA5S2ZgOsL7D
雨水模糊了視線,令我看不清前方的景色,只依稀看見,背著光的他,眼裡閃著灼亮,不知為何,緊緊的瞅著我。819Please respect copyright.PENANAK7TBFa1MKM
819Please respect copyright.PENANAofFlw1iyOY
「過來!」他對我喊著。819Please respect copyright.PENANAIrCI8lK6jH
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「不。」我退後了一步。819Please respect copyright.PENANA7RZdCMRfzE
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他低吼著叫了我的名字,通常他只會在真正發怒時,口氣才會這麼重。他不斷地靠近我,我不斷地後退,直到他抓住我手臂的剎那,才忽然發現,眼前的男人令我感到一股壓迫,但卻又無比的溫暖。819Please respect copyright.PENANARGxzgdJEXu
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就像一道光線,逐步地想吞噬我築起的黑色高牆。819Please respect copyright.PENANAlFoNMIHJOn
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我又退了幾步,抗拒地想拉開與他的距離。819Please respect copyright.PENANA26splJSBgq
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「我......」819Please respect copyright.PENANAMX9FQOeLn6
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「不要靠近我!」819Please respect copyright.PENANA6qlmGVMY6o
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我一直知道,他很溫柔,很有耐心的想將我從過去給拉出來......819Please respect copyright.PENANAoig1CqNeoz
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但是,我卻無法相信自己。819Please respect copyright.PENANAI2A7Zwv5yc
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「結束吧,我們結束吧!我許的願望終究沒有實現!我給不起任何人幸福!我沒有辦法——」819Please respect copyright.PENANAN2Ttmv7opq
819Please respect copyright.PENANAGwmrREqcDA
「你是傻子嗎!」819Please respect copyright.PENANAzIpHYvLVmy
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一陣狂風掃過我的面頰,在我眯起眼的同時,跌入了那寬實溫熱的懷抱。我被他緊緊的抱著,緊緊的錮著,無法呼吸,無法思考,然、後......819Please respect copyright.PENANAfPtupX3DDg
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「你給不了,沒關係,我給的起就行了!」819Please respect copyright.PENANAn7f44ztDg9
819Please respect copyright.PENANAx9ZggDMppW
你打破了我築起的高牆,毫不猶豫的讓那強烈的光,刺透我的一切。819Please respect copyright.PENANAyQjfrFLwBb
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像烈日的太陽一般。819Please respect copyright.PENANAJcBHT2GNr9
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一直都相信著,只要許下願望,就一定能實現。819Please respect copyright.PENANAkdAiNbeNGv
819Please respect copyright.PENANA1Q60T3P5B8
就像期盼著十二月份的聖誕節、聖誕老人的禮物,明明知道一切都是假的,卻又想去相信。819Please respect copyright.PENANAV8dwl2FGDw
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「我們回家,好嗎。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAb3z5Gr0OND
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即使如此,你仍然滿懷著耐心,待在我身邊。819Please respect copyright.PENANAUEtSZFuKsP
819Please respect copyright.PENANAZOPwKCbosz
就算下著大雨,就算仍然待在黑暗之中,就算,依舊沒有放晴。819Please respect copyright.PENANAFfIgnYfvYt
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我衝上前,雖然無法完全拋棄過去,但是……819Please respect copyright.PENANAo3DQezLhoK
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我相信,未來的我一定會很感激妳,選擇給了自己一個沒有我的晴天。819Please respect copyright.PENANA6SUzt3Cbn3
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到底在打什麼鬼......
其實很簡單,就是受被前女友甩了,遇到了攻,但卻一直被過去的陰影所糾纏著的黑暗故事......
不知道這種敘事方式能不能被人接受......我盡力了Orz
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