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整篇章節有一萬多字,文風正式並有倒敘法,非平舖直述類極短型網路小說,請小心閱讀。
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這篇文不太算是新故事,而是一個思考很久一陣子了。我想試著以第三人稱的方式再度挑戰看看。
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當然,如果有在追文的讀者,請放心。獅醬的後宮故事第一部已經完稿了,應該會在最近盡速發表。
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總之,感謝各位讀者支持。
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***回憶開始***2143Please respect copyright.PENANAG3EjZbP7gG
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一開始,僅僅只有陣陣沉悶的痛楚。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAloOLYSdntH
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但是沒過多久,疼痛感卻是不斷不斷地加劇,直到變成了一種彷彿要將腹中的內臟全都活生生拉扯出來般的劇烈。2143Please respect copyright.PENANApQv0DKfdYb
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我全身都緊繃了起來,緊咬的牙齒更是在不停打顫,握緊的指甲,痛得深陷自己的掌心。2143Please respect copyright.PENANALdCTdmBGHY
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儘管耳邊不斷傳來「請用力,伯爵夫人」「還差一點!」「夫人加油!」的吶喊,但我其實根本聽不清楚身旁這群的侍女和產婆在說什麼。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAQfB9GxSm87
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因為我發出的哀號把她們所說的話給掩蓋了過去。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAw8Ap2MWn2e
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直到那一瞬間,周遭吵雜的聲響頓時遠去。2143Please respect copyright.PENANA9PHnETlEUX
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下一刻——2143Please respect copyright.PENANArdU12Yh6Qi
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哇啊啊啊!哇呀啊啊啊啊啊啊!2143Please respect copyright.PENANAjS67oIAz4M
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稚嫩的哭聲傳入耳中2143Please respect copyright.PENANAbdJ9xM69ym
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「我...我的孩子......我的孩子啊...........」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAMPzs6fEPYC
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想到這裡,一陣暈眩感向我襲來。我疲憊的無法集中精神﹑只能放開意識,讓自己沉沉睡去。2143Please respect copyright.PENANADjk4Tixvs1
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那一天,我的身體承受極大的痛楚,也許比曾經在戰場或決鬥中受過的傷都還要來得嚴重。但是歷經漫長時間的等待以及重重磨難與試煉後,她終於降生在這個世上。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAxO24VrxxFF
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我最親愛的小天使......2143Please respect copyright.PENANASKEqgVDceO
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「夫人,請用熱湯。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAhhE8hj9stT
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「啊,謝謝。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAvxUk8OrDFO
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此時此刻,我在柔軟的床鋪上坐起身子,並從侍女手中接過一碗熱湯,小心翼翼地啜飲著。頓時,一股暖流立刻以胃為中心的向全身蔓延開來,尤其在這個大雪紛飛的季節,喝上一碗熱湯的感受再好不過了。2143Please respect copyright.PENANANObsJpijcJ
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位於不遠處還有一處壁爐,木柴在高熱下劈啪作響船來一股舒適溫暖的感覺,耳朵甚至還可以聽見火焰跳動的嗶剝聲。外頭正刮著寒冷的風雪,但身處於室內的我感到十分溫暖舒適,還有鵝絨製的被子保暖。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAOxRr0wTfNf
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即便如此,產後的日子真的很難熬,一整天只能躺著給人侍奉,只要稍微走下床就會被一群侍女們給壓回床上。美其名為休養,但我感覺用監禁來形容似乎更恰當。我多麼希望像之前那樣在外騎馬奔馳,就算揮個劍也不錯......2143Please respect copyright.PENANAO2qOubm3qP
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「咦,我的私人裝備呢?」我環顧四周,發現完全找不著那一身常用的盔甲與武器。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAt4WvZMoQmS
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「伯爵大人已經將您的盔甲和長劍給收入倉庫之中了,他早就已經預料到夫人您會想這樣做,因此交代我們嚴禁讓您產後再去摸那些東西。呵呵呵。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANALt0ULeDDJr
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面對侍女打趣般地說道,我卻感到有一絲忿忿不平,微微咬緊下唇。但是礙於身為高貴的『伯爵夫人』這個身分,我也只能把這份不滿往肚裡吞。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAVXJQjeAfPq
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「那麼你口中的伯爵大人,現在在什麼地方?」我酸溜溜地詢問侍女。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAPoWV7guUPj
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「咳嗯,也......也許是在書房中辦公也說不定吧?」突然被我這麼一問,支支吾吾地回答。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAUUv4ucD6Av
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「自從他看了一眼自己女兒以後,就不曾進來過了。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAG3JjLFGY1E
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「您就別想太多啦,夫人。假使是像我這種普通百姓的女子生產後,還得給寶寶哺乳、擦洗、安撫、搖睡、餵飯、穿衣,留意安全等等......如今這些事情交由我們這些侍女來做就行了。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANA7lljov4dMA
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「話雖如此......」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAXjm0FU4An6
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「發生什麼事了。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANADeLGsFQdiQ
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就在此時,年輕男子的嗓音傳入我的耳中。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAc8nZq5p16p
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我轉過頭,正好看見一抹熟悉的身影走入房間內。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAMfvEddOXbM
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「啊——」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAwP5Yeeit5i
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「伯爵閣下!」侍女行了個禮,並且準備退下去。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAqasP1OGWMM
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「不用刻意迴避,我不會久留。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANABJAHdCorWQ
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我抬起頭盯著丈夫,因為背對著火光,無法看清他容貌。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAMxzOem1udw
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「不好意思,最近的政局有些......不穩定。我們王國和其他幾個鄰國的關係也非常緊張,我不得不親自出面處理。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAF7IHLGh0P8
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「不只最近吧?你好像無時無刻都非常忙碌,像天上雲彩一樣的來去匆匆,我好像都已經習慣這種整天見不到你的日子了。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANA3xAy7WPNvU
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「別胡思亂想,妳是我重要的妻子。」他用一種語重心長,又像是老師囑咐學生的語氣說到:「妳現在該做的就是專心休養身體,知道嗎?這樣才能夠好好照顧我們的女兒。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAYOhqqo8Rz6
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「我的身體可沒那麼單薄。」我說:「我以前做過的鍛鍊都很札實。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAQs3iuZCblN
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「我建議妳別再做那種事了,妳的盔甲和劍我都收起來了。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAEMXRWLBurz
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「什麼意思?」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAEQUQfM2ipe
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只見丈夫搖了搖頭,說:「妳現在已經是一名伯爵夫人,在公開場合下穿著武裝棉衣(Arming Garments)跟其他男人對打,還讓自己汗流浹背,不時露出小腿或手臂的肌膚什麼的,這副模樣實在太不得體了。更何況妳有了女兒,也該變得穩重些。今後就別再去試著當什麼『女騎士』了。這都是為了妳好。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAZbnzloYfHV
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他彎下身撥開我的側邊的頭髮,輕輕在我臉頰邊親了一吻。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAbqVRzY3LSP
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「等到下個春天來臨時,我們可以帶著孩子一起到湖畔的城堡去悠閒的放鬆一回,也算是讓孩子出城開開眼界。到那個時候,我們夫妻倆可以做好準備,迎接另一個小生命的誕生。」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAO9Cq1Guo3Y
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「嗯......」我隨口應了一聲。2143Please respect copyright.PENANA6aMU685Yyp
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即便我再怎麼遲鈍,都聽得懂這句話意思:他已經想要另一個孩子了。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAQorptM4UfS
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接著,他轉向侍女命令道:「要細心照顧夫人的身子,不得任何怠慢。知道嗎?」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAcAWzvxHoqp
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「遵、遵命!」2143Please respect copyright.PENANAAsY9vMVkM9
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等到丈夫離開房間後,我感到極度疲倦。2143Please respect copyright.PENANA37GZHibkJF
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他一直希望我轉變成眾人口中的『典範母親』,但卻絲毫沒有察覺到,要不是過去我拼命『做自己』來凸顯自身的能力,他和他的家族大概連正眼看我一下都不會,更不用說考慮和我結婚。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAVTTZsEXJjG
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更重要的是,我感覺得出丈夫想要個兒子多過於女兒。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAzKcCsGJ4A4
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他大概是希望我再生一個、兩個、甚至三個,有何不可?我還年輕,今年才剛滿十七歲。如果幾個月後再懷一個嬰兒,他或她會在收成季節前後出生,那會是我給孩子哺乳期間糧食最富足的時刻。2143Please respect copyright.PENANA2aAGwTjh1z
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我閉上雙眼躺回床上,腦內的思緒卻越加奔騰。我默默接受自己身為女人的事實,並只能在婚後過著相夫教子的生活,盡可能生更多的孩子;對農家的女人而言,這是為了增加勞動人口。對貴族女性來講,這是為了增加血親繼承者存活的機率。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAGRtzHSfVUk
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無論是貴族或平民,結果似乎沒有什麼不同。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAwls233MQBQ
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緊接著,這份消沉忽然轉為恐懼。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAXcr9tXUAw4
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我害怕長時間的分娩,害怕在產後沒多久,產婦就發燒接著死亡。這經常發生。如果真的發生,沒有哺乳的新生兒就會死亡,除非身旁剛好有乳母。但那樣我的女兒又怎麼辦?可憐的孩子,小小年紀就喪母。雖然我的丈夫是個伯爵,但一個伯爵能真的做什麼養大個女兒?當然只能藉由其他女人之手......2143Please respect copyright.PENANAlLIpWfUQrz
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不,我不能讓那種事情發生!2143Please respect copyright.PENANAd6YaItwwtr
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即使在心中這麼告訴自己,我也知道下次丈夫需要我的時候,我沒有拒絕的權利。這是身為妻子......身為女人的職責。我從未想過自己該毫不懷疑地接受命運,但也從未想過自己對任何可能遭逢的事擁有自主權或選擇。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAwrhvSw6QL3
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也許正如侍女所說的,我應當拋下無謂的煩惱,好好享受奢華的生活、溫暖的被窩、精緻的餐點和飲品、甚至還有專門照顧我和小寶寶的奶媽......這不是每個人夢寐以求的事物嗎?2143Please respect copyright.PENANAmSgU0cKLqW
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我帶著這份不知是無奈或感慨的情緒沉沉地睡去。2143Please respect copyright.PENANAbFctE0wMhC
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