Just a sad story about a girl trying to survive the thing called ''life''

FIEFDOM FALL is a concept album I wrote that explores my constant battle with my identity as a queer person, the relationship I have with my parents and the role religion plays in both of the above.

FIEFDOM FALL is very personal to my own experience as a cisgender gay man who grew up in a strict and conservative environment, navigating my queerness in secrecy. However, I do not intend for you as a reader to feel like you're looking into my life from the outside. Thus, I created a main protagonist that represents my struggles in a somewhat universal way throughout the album.

FIEFDOM FALL doesn't solely focus on my constant battles, there are also a few side quests sprinkled into the narrative - most notably, heartbreak. During the writing process of FIEFDOM FALL I had several relationships, until I thought I found the one. Unfortunately, close to the completion of the project, we had a fallout and he became immortalized through the project.

In conclusion, FIEFDOM FALL is one of my most vulnerable bodies of work and I feel very passionate about sharing it with you. I hope you find meaning in the dissection of yours truly via the Chinese imagery I've used throughout the project. I thank you for your engagement.

- Rebel Eccen 🏮

𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒 ... 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑖𝑡 𝑠𝑢𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡  ... 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑐𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡

𝑊𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠? 𝑂𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑠𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡?

𝑇𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒. 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑦... 𝑀𝑦 𝐸𝑛𝑔𝑙𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑆𝑜 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑖 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒

اعلم ان وجهة طائرتك لم تكن الي... لكن لا اعلم كيف و متى هبطت على قلبي  ... لاكتشف اخيرا اني امتلك واحدا

هل ستكون الضوء في عتمتي؟.... ام ان عتمتي ستتبتلع ضوءك؟

I know that your plane was not heading to me ... but I do not know when and how it suddenly fell to my heart  ... And made me discover that I have a heart

Will it be the light in my darkness? Or will my darkness swallow your light

**Where bright is dark… and silence speaks louder than fate.**

**Three castles. One heir. A shadowed past. A throne waiting to burn.**

**She didn’t ask for a crown. But destiny doesn’t ask—it commands.**

**By Ash – *a scar of the fire…***

The Second Coalition War (80-98 EH) was fought 265 years after the conclusion of the First Coalition War.

Due to the the unification of Upper Empyrea into the Umbracresti-Estrinite-Glacian-Narcissian Archregion (UEGNA) under Archcountess-Khatun Vega Calliope Ego by marriage, inheritance and alliances, the other regions dissolved UEGNA seats on CEDA and formed the Cerulean-Vorantine-Aqulio-Pheasantine Union (CVAPU) in response.

After Vega abdicated in 78 EH, her twenty year son is crowned Archcount-Khagan Urlic IV & I Ego-Estrin-Romanakov of Umbracrest, Estrin, Glacier and Narciss. Urlic is more aggressive than his mother and the other regions declare war on the Archregion....

The Grand Army requires some understanding for this book to make any sense to you (the Grand Fleet is simply 308 Airships / Aeronautical Craft divided into 7 Fleets of 44.)

■ Combatant Command = 10 Million troops under the Marshal of the Grand Army.□ Army Group = 2.5 Million troops under a Grand-General.● Field Army = 625,000 troops under a Lieutenant General.○ Corps = 156,250 troops under a Grand Warlord.▪︎ Division = 31,250 troops under a Warlord.• Brigade = 6,250 troops under a War Brigadier.° Company = 1,250 troops under a Captain.Platoon = 125 troops under an Ego Lieutenant.Troop = 25 troops under a Lord Sergeant-Major or Colour Sergeant.Squad = 5 Troops under a Lance Corporal.

■ Combatant Command (Marshal Blücher):□ Western Army Group (Grand- General Augereau):● 1st Western Field Army (Lt. Gen Ridge):○ I Corps ○ II Corps○ III Corps○ IV Corps● 2nd Western Field Army (Lt. Gen Kirova):○ V Corps○ VI Corps○ VII Corps○ VIII Corps● 3rd Western Field Army (Lt. Gen Hossian):○ IX Corps○ X Corps○ XI Corps○ XII Corps● 4th Western Field Army (Lt. Gen Zhao):○ XIII Corps○ XIV Corps○ XV Corps○ XVI Corps□ Northwestern Army Group (Grand-General Massaena):● 1st Northwestern Field Army (Lt. Gen Tatè):○ I Corps○ II Corps○ III Corps○ IV Corps● 2nd Northwestern Field Army (Lt. Gen Montgo):○ V Corps○ VI Corps○ VII Corps○ VIII Corps● 3rd Northwestern Field Army (Lt. Gen Duvè):○ IX Corps○ X Corps○ XI Corps○ XII Corps● 4th Northwestern Field Army (Lt. Gen Redd):○ XIII Corps○ XIV Corps○ XV Corps○ XVI Corps□ Northern Army Group (Grand-General Carrier):● 1st Northern Field Army (Lt. Gen Tanknori):○ I Corps○ II Corps○ III Corps○ IV Corps● 2nd Northern Field Army (Lt. Gen Ghost):○ V Corps○ VI Corps○ VII Corps○ VIII Corps● 3rd Northern Field Army (Lt. Gen Fenic):○ IX Corps○ X Corps○ XI Corps○ XII Corps● 4th Northern Field Army (Lt. Gen Devo):○ XlII Corps○ XIV Corps○ XV Corps○ XVI Corps□ Northeastern Army Group (Grand-General Grosso):● 1st Northeastern Field Army (Lt. Gen Navarro):○ I Corps○ II Corps○ III Corps○ IV Corps● 2nd Northeastern Field Army (Lt. Gen Harrison):○ V Corps○ VI Corps○ VII Corps○ VIII Corps● 3rd Northeastern Field Army (Lt. Gen Hawk):○ IX Corps○ X Corps○ XI Corps○ XII Corps● 4th Northeastern Field Army (Lt. Gen Petrov):○ XIII Corps○ XIV Corps○ XV Corps○ XVI Corps

With that out of the way, you can expect: politics, battles, strategy, death, marriage, destruction and many other things.

A little bit of Geography now:

UEGNA Regions:

The West - Umbracresti Commisarate

The Northwest (Archipelago) - Estrin Dominion

The North - Glacier Electorate

The Northeast - Earldom of Narciss (Capital region)

CVAPU:

The East - Second Pheasantine Republic

The Southeast - Meritocracy of Aquiloria

The South - Technocracy of Vorantis

The Southwest - Theocratic Confederacy of Cerulea

The first two chapters are set slightly before the Second Coalition War started.

Enjoy!

- Doc

When I look into the mirror

It is me, I guess

A girl looking back

Who is drowning in the mess

​​​​​​​

When I look into the mirror

I smile big

Because if I don’t

I can never win this

sad love/relationship poem...

A week later, one of her professors died. A heart attack, they said. Quick. Peaceful.

That was when she saw him again.

Same coat. Same silence. Same eyes like frozen glass.

And something in her whispered: He was there before it happened.

She should have walked away then. She should've listened to the smarter, safer part of her.

But it had been a long time since she had felt anything that wasn't grey.

And he was the only thing she'd seen in months that didn't feel real.

(This book is also available on Ao3, under the name @e4tyoual1ve, and on Wattpad under the user @e4ty0ual1ve)

How far would you go for the person who feels like home?

Samantha Pearson never expected to fall for someone like Nate Dawson-smart, gorgeous, and way out of her league. Too bad he's taken.

As the new girl in town and a freshman in law school, Sam is just trying to survive the chaos of legal studies. But then there's Nate, her brilliant, charming, "totally off-limits" study-buddy. He's dating Ashley Reynolds, the queen bee of their law school, and Sam knows better than to catch feelings.

But sometimes, the heart doesn't listen. What starts as an innocent friendship soon turns into deep conversations, stolen glances, and moments that felt like "more".

As they chase their dreams of becoming lawyers, real life comes crashing in... can they fight for each other when everything, including their own choices, seems to pull them apart?

Or is some love just not meant to stand the test of time?

[A glimpse from the  book👇👇👇]

"Stop avoiding the topic. He's not just some regular fuckboy, you know?

SYNOPSIS

In the forgotten town, the crumbling Willowridge Orphanage looms, shrouded in a suffocating silence that conceals dark secrets. Among its lost children is Elias, a boy straddling the line between reality and fantasy, drawn to whispers that beckon him from the shadows. As he endures the harshness of Miss Grayson, the tyrannical caretaker, his curiosity leads him to the forbidden garden—a wild, overgrown realm harboring an ancient malevolence eager to ensnare him.

As Elias delves deeper, he becomes entangled in a web of manipulation spun by a restless spirit, promising freedom and revenge. The once-innocent whispers transform into a nightmarish reality, blurring the lines between innocence and corruption. "Whispers in the Ashes" is a chilling tale of longing and the perilous cost of listening to the wrong voices, where silence reveals more than it conceals.