I wish I could understand why I feel this way196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK4BvdDt3P
Why flying doesn't feel the same 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMXaF73uoK
And the lows don't seem to fade196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaAnsDpUya
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzy8aNSQ6B
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7AHVjDe2l
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2tTJVqcQw
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexZ8EwUm65
I'll convert this pain into something that works 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHXXdQNNoB
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fsBODVmLj
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7XFNGagSf
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41WxEnSCye
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumAW3FAw18
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJe73adRrz
The breathing turns to drowning 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ldv4AP8Wv
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSynzOTv8XT
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh8lUoWou8
But no one welcomes me with open arms196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHAqf7MdTb
Their love is fictitious 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutKKJPAnt7
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMv8B2EYzsu
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7onpgbRCl
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwPL9fVBxG
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfxjmjNXYi
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW1ljjyJI4
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OMosap824
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYq5SmKN3Dp
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsu1sBC13lM
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzSGyVlLbp
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPg8xvaPBkV
They get their way, nothing remains the same196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Hyj9LUdfk
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjiMzBh45h
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16t60GnFRM
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEw3eFYZc6L
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24jtUOG3SL
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNeinMhgqW
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWw4xdsZe5
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVo7UIyYI3
But full of myself and always on time 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1nHZoENZr
I admit that the crime is mine 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbM9a2DtxVM
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfu9FlCa5OA
The devil will lose his incentive 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01Di70Zxtg
The weak little girl, poisoned 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vPjv7VLTa
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVL4hoc9UE
Brick by brick 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptcLVCMuwH
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO8mgdRXSC
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGqK5iu57j
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGPFf19AwW
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFaJSDinRd
It's still right there 196Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdCubnHaZf
The devil on my shoulder
