White sheets stained red in a hotel bed306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2naSb3pT0H
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHlzFl4uRz
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR3S7JtYg2
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mVgGXUndV
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RMq7sXhUJ
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KsfKI1fUb
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pagrn7Gm0
Vivid visions invading my rest 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqpl8F274D
I can't sleep because all I see is death306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBIRarDC2J
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CMt5VkiMT
Thinking about death at such an early age306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXCkEHxUkL
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqplKygee5v
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DEhdMNr7J
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxcHEHju65
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcGkalQear
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQHuy2KL0Y
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvhxu8KI67
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMuMGV2e0s
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5SxKyu4kT
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCm0YfegJQ
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5b6LM8Qk0L
Nobody actually cares until you're dead306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVKKHjtQQ3
Until you're another headline in the news306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpAlGLmbQn
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSfjkBUlyo
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YUFQCeKYe
"I miss you today" 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyeRK9dk8p
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsor1L7Vj0
But they care now, 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNxDnCdbtE
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqayKdhg0e1
Mixed signals is all they send306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8cB949wHm
One day I matter to them 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatJOOn4P8c
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyJAQfzcHg
A few months ago, I felt like flying 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtKHGIwOi4
A few months ago, I truly felt alive306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9ujkDleqL
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSG34s2WZJ
It's hard to explain with words,306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKJD8paB4x
How the silence kills 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc7GdDjrpB
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCO04AcUMw
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHIuyjFeCa
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozndwgYVgR
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpLSuJvxVi
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4ijeaNdOt
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsJJDiR5Ky
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9jHqlPD6r
The little voice in my head, it screams it306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6ilYhdiTB
"This was their choice"306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVspT5kR6fk
And to be lonely all the time is mine306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB1Oyvoqbr
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SBPC01XPI
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu5oR45Pdm
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEY7l0sIvh
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fweCNgKFc
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr786lqgbq
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDD6K7Umplq
I wish somebody would call306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3f4zCUjqy
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA7X65lADS
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqXQEM9sR0
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr59MlPELfx
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHr0zx6c7m
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIXmjDhNk9
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnerIps1fa
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
