White sheets stained red in a hotel bed247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvRcSfrDfc
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRgEMJCwoH
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Birno9bQB
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDIr9eqFe1
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aWnWlCeNh
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJvSr1Wtx8
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLnz0odXqH
Vivid visions invading my rest 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3XjTwlGvv
I can't sleep because all I see is death247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsDogUO0PM
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoj5kbfrIpk
Thinking about death at such an early age247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxcbnN3zql
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHYAXAjmx7
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KeQZbXntx
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fCIDDKrdq
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiMLx6k32z
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGTvrxS4UN
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXDTirS6XD
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZuHrjHI3T
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs1oPohGru
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55gOvqKl4N
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fBqbm5p57
Nobody actually cares until you're dead247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MmytNhm4r
Until you're another headline in the news247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPQwnBrOEC
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzokIuBJycg
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxfMuUCVvC
"I miss you today" 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieSE33MNXz
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmG3Xoc5zc
But they care now, 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZowGv3FIrF
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEax4CGFVh
Mixed signals is all they send247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWnJiWz7qJ
One day I matter to them 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDKOexMsp7
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZaxPrKFGU
A few months ago, I felt like flying 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyZrZTx7G6
A few months ago, I truly felt alive247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIKcn72Lkj
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ddQ4pd5Fp
It's hard to explain with words,247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTXW2Dq8PM
How the silence kills 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowCjOk5Ynw
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iZ8wj7Zvk
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGLbaiANgs
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprGjWXjsx7
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA2sR8vi9N
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOY09xo8Qe
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpBpxWH7i2
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxEmSQUEdE
The little voice in my head, it screams it247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnH3POcXco
"This was their choice"247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44S8lN1SUH
And to be lonely all the time is mine247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEirZSkcEyo
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGaO3fFW1Q
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXzgoKsQNy
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DmL2NxxA9
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWPbEytrPE
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugbtbbMGpF
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhQwZn0S4c
I wish somebody would call247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxHJPAfWos
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4stHG7UiIN
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIR7E7QHvqf
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSmHwP8yJ1
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLsj77En8X
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqqqpcqRlx
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpOZR8wqr7
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
