White sheets stained red in a hotel bed205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPDTN88ROl
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8B2jw9Yr4M
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMseM7FAmc
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBRx8TmT8u
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWchGnrwOL
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49L5Uclvdj
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKXxIAtzSC
Vivid visions invading my rest 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtsRuBauIt
I can't sleep because all I see is death205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd07mNxWr0
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ548nkNFjS
Thinking about death at such an early age205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eZWdkjPxY
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxbZi6SDB4
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXQDI7Y33d
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvYx93jijy
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMiHG6CCyF
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eum78hj7c
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OxWezFlt0
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUY6jdo2Ngb
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbsWsc5Q5J
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8FJyW9t3S
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCY1DbKOWp
Nobody actually cares until you're dead205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ILRkevDNq
Until you're another headline in the news205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9shcXdjsqx
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VaWPSevhc
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxNmAKFxYZ
"I miss you today" 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaPKe6CEWM
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKRGdnxvbo
But they care now, 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuQ64nxWbp
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAiMUrMJyU
Mixed signals is all they send205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVDtcl0XSi
One day I matter to them 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8PhbmtuUs
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0nKmFJkIo
A few months ago, I felt like flying 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC2LCMsUjY
A few months ago, I truly felt alive205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuz13oDPGS
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YOD6eMkji
It's hard to explain with words,205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzts6WG0ZJ
How the silence kills 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0IWaPw0H1
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjVmIk539r
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFc9PBlf9zd
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYizwC4IEk
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3H7w7WFBFd
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAix6IJL24I
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAo3mJpIf5
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x8hgYbFxG
The little voice in my head, it screams it205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc89Dk7lQsn
"This was their choice"205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUEkRINUet
And to be lonely all the time is mine205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RN9aQkkrw
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleHAEjoJWZ
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DJP1sBDNt
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14IuYZUGcz
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3ksgtFMYl
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3uN4wrxvI
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDhXIKqRHp
I wish somebody would call205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtugvpRgABk
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpslngqyX9H
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74uqaWZjKP
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOX0WSrUYhj
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxh4F4Eyk5a
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKT1OQjElx
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Qt07mtyoC
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
