White sheets stained red in a hotel bed285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVl689uRHK9
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48sUgFty36
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDgojPHYyv
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtv4oDbdLtM
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBABWtHfPrd
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2DYd0bFpS
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraXFNeAEGJ
Vivid visions invading my rest 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1Ye3a4azG
I can't sleep because all I see is death285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SyOO6EypW
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcKMRmM9Eq
Thinking about death at such an early age285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC9ihoBJyw
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXhsETc6eR
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IQOuWV71a
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTvRgXbop6
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsfOb92etp
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEx5xE0zxN
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0gap3zEsM
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuRbfv9H0q
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZ4WfoEwO4
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6tXoJf6UD
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIZcBvEnSx
Nobody actually cares until you're dead285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsqxsLGKxU
Until you're another headline in the news285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdZvsbKfTE
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWlFXX9l6u
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgyEpc5rLc
"I miss you today" 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNrZz9m8yK
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIfagVC1D9
But they care now, 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflxbIyAw2L
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFioTPk8qn
Mixed signals is all they send285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2cYBruHVK
One day I matter to them 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIHe6r5qF0
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BbJoinEsu
A few months ago, I felt like flying 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nfPpoDukx
A few months ago, I truly felt alive285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsjQJto4VI
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUtgnAwzn7
It's hard to explain with words,285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPWqhhZph6
How the silence kills 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0axEmU2CgL
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAJuyzwC5S
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VlfnpyZIY
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FmoVSPUBL
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIQXzx8Qwi
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuAySpRGuQ
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTyDmBGWX8
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qMPA05pKh
The little voice in my head, it screams it285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVuyXz6wab
"This was their choice"285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbeBtTgbPs
And to be lonely all the time is mine285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik2rQzC53X
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnlKGohH9R
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HlhI4Vd1g
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3DZWwFryD
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEUnaXMboW
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6doxsulG4
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XKhkv5892
I wish somebody would call285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvABHichlt
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu4T9Hxb31
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEqcLltb4q
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXhAxQgCgM
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Sb1c8USSv
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8PO2q16s5
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 285Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1Ok86ExjN
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
