I wish I could understand why I feel this way202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRR7i8uJ2Gd
Why flying doesn't feel the same 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DQhr65pTU
And the lows don't seem to fade202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwygTOUY7f
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWelgLSgVld
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgUTTLscOS
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL77Iu3h4U
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmS83g9viA
I'll convert this pain into something that works 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNIY4TNZOc
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjWMyPkjlI
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexLpxrU34U
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoZwbRn4mc
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzL5BrSDDtI
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0j9Ygu97A
The breathing turns to drowning 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAjTU8mlkH
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQROdPR9KJw
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2HmUYbFT6
But no one welcomes me with open arms202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSi4JfEzF4
Their love is fictitious 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpsRNrvTlK
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YmNqP4eww
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoD5Rlt9wx
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK52BXrLWgm
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjFhDb0k6A
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFvYu39fW4
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuixDCGWr7C
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLpv38RYEX
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOS6WybBRQ
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1fnOUdX6A
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwJOpxxw92
They get their way, nothing remains the same202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8H16rEDxuX
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozjP0VAp01
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYecCm7CHe
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneJ1sL5T5H
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8HhgAPDRL
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrbBgRYEXm
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jMygzwbdH
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHbPyM9ScK
But full of myself and always on time 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBocNQUAqlC
I admit that the crime is mine 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs6YjyTiqk
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZv6vSn3TG
The devil will lose his incentive 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75Tv3crUSr
The weak little girl, poisoned 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7Dny0Xo3C
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcbUucjFo3
Brick by brick 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKoEeTNf91
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNYunrNhPU
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvVIxAut1m
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzw40vXoijL
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCszjXWJzI2
It's still right there 202Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60w9v0Rv8D
The devil on my shoulder
