White sheets stained red in a hotel bed227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MSRTiGDb5
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIgjfpkT6N
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWFKEVuFW0
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEg7IsjPWH
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKaQUrroHu
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmO4aWOtE4t
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAj8Yc6vLrg
Vivid visions invading my rest 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTLHB4nTVb
I can't sleep because all I see is death227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK9JhTeHYa
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ScoPKi9uz
Thinking about death at such an early age227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2d8hajqfR
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R6sngJ8re
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTCBrdaeGX
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTzvwtjPvK
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAKWix7v7g
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAy68aZ2Dd
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQTEQBSm90
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE6bDEiBEI
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJ6cVzZkAq
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03dgRzQRqG
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsZ1qugjNO
Nobody actually cares until you're dead227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VLGWZibaL
Until you're another headline in the news227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF83p6VcLsc
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnIXbhDx9K
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeLRh9FLGy
"I miss you today" 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLGgyPgjNO
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFF2sljtVRt
But they care now, 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi3AK6L8AL
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu0OEsU9Xn
Mixed signals is all they send227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndRimNVbYL
One day I matter to them 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNgue8PJVT
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9H8Lq0r5ex
A few months ago, I felt like flying 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5FeYWGvzk
A few months ago, I truly felt alive227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvxVTvmQnm
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xzLRJrnT0
It's hard to explain with words,227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90fhnT1Y14
How the silence kills 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOoH3Li643
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRohAY6rz0
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIzBlSgqja
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrMOjIBjh2
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYpzhqxx3l
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLJDMkxk6F
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxpde7RF5Y
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiB1LaanQf
The little voice in my head, it screams it227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTjYVwF4vn
"This was their choice"227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj9dhV0khN
And to be lonely all the time is mine227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiCg5P8KcY
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYNIXtD0nw
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27JsyLlKdA
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlfWy6B3BV
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TcG0ie6qB
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupN7GZ9Vjz
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr4pRkXSQy
I wish somebody would call227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZVzTros0N
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5Sb2kMRHC
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTJyobFXWj
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7JFYC8bi3
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrzieEppVa
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lHmU8BhsF
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 227Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbJFIKeR3m
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
