White sheets stained red in a hotel bed248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvXRlguNrZ
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEt6posKXEy
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYL6MUQxnR
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24GqASQ1YF
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaKDjUMnOY
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzKLUQLsAk
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUwgR1MhAg
Vivid visions invading my rest 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypOfwbKeYZ
I can't sleep because all I see is death248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnIKujNQG8
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TUtxoZIoI
Thinking about death at such an early age248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObgu5Gh47N
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavBQjydiCz
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7N2JN1uEAo
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNMtyi8daZ
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTpcHfQnZq
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen4m1OElyD
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXoexOEit0
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GbNlPdEhZ
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wSYr5hyeU
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5AMxiihE5
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9iJ9SRgcP
Nobody actually cares until you're dead248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0arbO4jno
Until you're another headline in the news248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbzK1rR9qz
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2Nt5YXdTe
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJHkLBUoyo
"I miss you today" 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjr8TVAcS4
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwP50PUaXj2
But they care now, 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgf05QdNhuc
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtBgitkf86
Mixed signals is all they send248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qZwavAJjr
One day I matter to them 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqnM9s1h7A
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjS2HKtkyDl
A few months ago, I felt like flying 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxHJEO4RQt
A few months ago, I truly felt alive248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMleNzFikz
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3GNHQt3sx
It's hard to explain with words,248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdq6z16pMy
How the silence kills 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraslBnS4C3
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwPDxoyFlP
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxSCYbsqTu
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKR0ChmY85
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6oAIT3Rqj
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL48Wpg2hV
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9YjaIMsq3
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy96VC8H3hL
The little voice in my head, it screams it248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡry6U6zMrJi
"This was their choice"248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbOtuWdU8J
And to be lonely all the time is mine248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YEsPrAyd5
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9VfAl4gnb
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs14AcY5l5e
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOd7bVBN3s
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmbhdMAOua
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVWTRMZhGH
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCPoZNoAOo
I wish somebody would call248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mlI0EMZkB
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5CW6iyHW3
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpdh7bV2lU
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltWWXbBacP
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpBa7Zc5qG
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYsA0rhHC9
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJuDSxG2tj
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
