White sheets stained red in a hotel bed307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWEJ2gQKG5
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFtEVvlCIn
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pdFGrqbYz
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32Ixrm2Oll
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQMFJHhV4T
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCC95rrxExg
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTiWrUtJNP
Vivid visions invading my rest 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwa3mi9UMa
I can't sleep because all I see is death307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuGNkgOaBS
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYETCsQfyu
Thinking about death at such an early age307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2YSuyFLzn
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuM81B1820S
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvP1T05lJ3u
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFRdhh6qP1
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAklGkToH2
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ca1U8Tysa
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDT6VBs64T
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxZOCeMaRa
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2iqBMaMxW
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6FsTUpx30
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1eOFTQTRw
Nobody actually cares until you're dead307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF48EwrTlAw
Until you're another headline in the news307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFReuAzZU1
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXj1bY53Yd
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iyfI043kh
"I miss you today" 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyF9YfHIRf
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTBrGufnD5
But they care now, 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkg94LBX2I7
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyU2H4Uv8SA
Mixed signals is all they send307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoGScT3ElX
One day I matter to them 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuaImg1FhN
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvtT6RdVCw
A few months ago, I felt like flying 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTh8dtV4N3
A few months ago, I truly felt alive307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNazRW0sHSg
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeENoLQxhrB
It's hard to explain with words,307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEliBIpmzF
How the silence kills 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0i2gPuSQxv
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnREO9ARgb
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0etCknplB2
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzKKllfFOJ
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnExZ1WD5M
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpimRclloaf
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNR4zjvE7u
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzqBoXQi5X
The little voice in my head, it screams it307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuMx95l3I5
"This was their choice"307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2owQguSfHz
And to be lonely all the time is mine307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALnwmplPGV
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2UgRLdFHe
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXq4vh6VCs
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRXx9F9YLx
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4s6gqlMtP
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPeDwHPkgE
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhSVxK7imd
I wish somebody would call307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0zOkLTyPB
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGScnomP9i
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DezEoWMA4
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLwEgLk8zt
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb0It7rfwT
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt53KTML3UM
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 307Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpp23nQVAF9
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
