White sheets stained red in a hotel bed204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy42ydsPxas
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlkQp5JD90
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMDdWcqWUJ
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wzF11hPK2
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOTUjmlgip
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGP4VfNwSv9
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblGn4d2U3Z
Vivid visions invading my rest 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjMZJYQgkL
I can't sleep because all I see is death204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUldUJsX83
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEUm4JWG64
Thinking about death at such an early age204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzovYrP5d7S
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvsFCJsuYi
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTJ0cTYIuB
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ymgApxA63
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfQNScILLj
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqwwqVxnEr
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHixenEEKtw
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfXaVawOgS
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAzEeDR6th
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHI4eK1Z3V
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6X0nkOyFOS
Nobody actually cares until you're dead204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGkq789c99
Until you're another headline in the news204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nRhyCTVM1
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ43B3HBmt
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyixpuF9lC1
"I miss you today" 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwRxyARVnX
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5y8kyYt4y
But they care now, 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QMXQnNSNr
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2xf6AjABx
Mixed signals is all they send204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTShVLeqftz
One day I matter to them 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFN1UDDrFx
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7lkzDJ1jK
A few months ago, I felt like flying 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSTR0WuDAk
A few months ago, I truly felt alive204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXBa4RiIJp
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGw4AERbMV
It's hard to explain with words,204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3VnzKWvMX
How the silence kills 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBdGpVvFXR
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEMzugpsxD
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhNzCRGNMl
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOGfIEbhZL
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBaKiE3qOn
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPCvhmVxiz
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXdtP0aEKr
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV0CoVWKaU
The little voice in my head, it screams it204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11GcU1Hnjt
"This was their choice"204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1RmUeZ49h
And to be lonely all the time is mine204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1VNbUXeRN
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFJH0vjSCi
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJSPISHTNZ
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMbKfSCccO
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRFAkGT3gM
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctFxs86i7x
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vbkK0rOgq
I wish somebody would call204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf0mRguyM8
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgkU5YNljA
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrX8KhW5ALE
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aqCXR2DnO
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyteTrWtvhI
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAPqqX5yd0
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 204Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9fjeAuxIp
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
