White sheets stained red in a hotel bed284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtyB9NBPie
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLK6UIL3xDG
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIZH6Q6T08
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GG7n2jwzN
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBqfi268ES
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡES07HuBU45
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nf8MGkIEU
Vivid visions invading my rest 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5V5KMKeNVz
I can't sleep because all I see is death284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKHR5yVPIm
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGAd4CzUSL
Thinking about death at such an early age284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewc1sXI1u7
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprahiSP4uB
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH11AB42EJ3
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDTGJxzgnc
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSDbxjqWGi
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu3frcTYK0
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtkmxr6dIm
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1u9aTXbP8
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNLNHR5015
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBKuTCZbby
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc30RMEwDd8
Nobody actually cares until you're dead284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFuUR8ugDw
Until you're another headline in the news284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52USIMooNg
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9iXSYrhXw
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Sm1Zn62zs
"I miss you today" 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V5tBoBV5u
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOIB9mjP94
But they care now, 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DwdGvOJPZ
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi2BDIfVKm
Mixed signals is all they send284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7l2V8yxtRq
One day I matter to them 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YiM3hSvGb
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxa6kNxMCRP
A few months ago, I felt like flying 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcsfQ7jB0E
A few months ago, I truly felt alive284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnTXvX558u
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWVcaYbyTY
It's hard to explain with words,284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlV79YcVu3
How the silence kills 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqbYvXqUNY
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacHAzMIxMv
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiDgG8FwIG
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWJSKPn4vs
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4v3pc0SQdW
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRFcDmf1aA
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtDyIU1Mer
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2Quglf1qa
The little voice in my head, it screams it284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15Gtc8ioNS
"This was their choice"284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMU2hYpg2K
And to be lonely all the time is mine284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBi7v1v87k
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx4V6fzPlI
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgBhuPea2s
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5drPeJMLh
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53CubmLP8E
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oM61zyP3L
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfW60ojrDO
I wish somebody would call284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWXpjGrdDw
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWebaLYbpbc
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ6MiYmOPA
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexrs1EXy2w
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDujnKOFT2
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2rjJkaeoo
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmc9vM6yk0
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
