As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKokVB69iG
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPL62NfCn7M
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDnCZRUjrC
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9phvW7fzlT
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wi0A5PCUa
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9irXWFxbN
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFKdAEB6HZ
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDLgIBX1yi
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRJSdgWP19
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgZaBVRmb4
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgIzrJBrdZ
'Uselessness'952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA4cIiqaQY
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmrSl137kS
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83zo8wkJWC
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumt6PxUEwO
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxSKYGQ5vo
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQdTtdIqyX
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe19iG8qqfH
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8DyqZCF3h
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIv1rCpAKv3
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3XpSFkES2
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaOL2jWTfl
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QH2vdSrHX
And with that, I ran. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMituaoGzcZ
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUKZjtBbIU
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWS40FiUXv
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjuequBpA5
See you next time!952Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDbdRnSUkD
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