As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BwHi1xX6L
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1QXu6GUZK
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9FW11zq50
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7b4pKGAaL
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQEThaNqJp
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V7AQGwYVZ
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrs31hiWdmL
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZMksUKtly
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2mMQANyVD
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJpOjnTmqa
Knives1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLLYDKT3CO
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLByMrg9QNz
'Uselessness'1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLy5uXPWSG
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVIGcJnVO7
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTNBeNTYhL
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbdUlNWsIs
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGuVnNKNpE
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8hQqgKFOg
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRj1PxZ5pHY
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdjb6p9TK5
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPz9cji31P
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqCyabq9K0
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANoKy49ycU
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRAO6VgXMu
And with that, I ran. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFN1PR9W2O
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zGC6bmEzb
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwwgIi5imw
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu0Ve9S8xf
See you next time!1026Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4258vJgun
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