TRIGGER WARNING! Pregnancy, miscarriage and termination mentioned ahead! Reader discretion is advised
Raine POV
For a man I've known for all of 30 seconds I can't help but feel like he's the one person in the world I can trust. He holds me as I let all the tears I've held inside to years, well that was until the doctor came in and Rudely interrupted.
"Excuse me alpha, I have the results from some tests I ran on Miss Raine. You really need to hear this"
Wait what's wrong, why does the doctor look worried?
"Yes Doctor, what's wrong with Raine?" Damon's voice is laced with concern
"Well it seems as though her wolf is dying, she's also pregnant. Her wolf could be dying due to the pregnancy of an unwanted cub, the cub may not survive however due to Raines extensive wounds. I would need to discuss options with Raine, the only way I could have a chance to save her wolf would be to terminate the pregnancy of the cub how" I couldn't hear anymore I screamed, my heart felt like it was breaking, I needed my wolf, I don't want Michaels baby. I can't have the reminder of his tournament and this poor child would grow up to be hated. I can't have that!
As I scream I start noticing sharp pains across my back, hips and legs.
"Doctor! What's happening to me?" I scream
"Raine I'm sorry, it seems like your wolf is killing the cub, I can stop it but your wolf will die" the doctor explained rather calmly
"How old is the cub?" I ask not sure if I want the answer
"Raine, you don't have to know this" Damon interjects
"Miss Raine, your cub is only 3 weeks old knowing that werewolf's only carry for 5 months. The cub will be tiny but in the shape of a wolf, if you give birth now you won't see much, I'm sorry." The Doctor kept his eye contact with me as he explained.
"If I lose my wolf would I have the cub?"
"There is a 80% chance the cub may die at birth if your wolf dies, if your wolf dies you may also die, I'm sorry miss Raine" the doctors face is full of sorrow as he tells me
"Doctor, please save myself and my wolf, but I have one request" I can't look at anyone as I make up my mind.
"Yes miss Raine, anything"
"Keep my cub warm until I can say goodbye. I would like to bury them. After everything it's still my cub" I can't hold back the tears, Damon comes by my side at an instant to hold me
"It's okay baby, it will all be okay" Damon soothes as he holds me tight
"Alpha I need to prep Miss Raine, you will need to stand outside while I prep her." Damon's face drops
"Doctor" he growls "I will not leave Raine in here by herself!"
"Damon, it's okay I'll be okay"
I held onto his arm to let him know that I would be okay.
"Alpha it's only until she is prepped then you can come back in" the doctor adds
"Okay, fine but I will be right outside this door!"
"Yes alpha" the doctor's voice is strong but I can tell he is scared of Damon.
Damon leaves the room and the doctor preps me for my worst nightmare, the pains get worse just as I'm given medication to induce labour.
"Doctor please get Damon, please!l I scream as another wave of pain hits me
"Of course miss Raine" just as the doctor leaves me to get Damon the door bursts open and I see Damon's face full of worry.
"Raine I'm here, it's okay." He coos in my ear. "Doctor, how long must she have this pain?" Damon asks snapping his head to the doctor
"Let me check her now alpha" the doctor lifts up the sheets and checks my dilation. "Miss Raine you are ready, normally we have more time to prepare. The next wave of pain you feel I need you to push, do nothing but focus on the pushing"
"Okay" is the only word I can say
Damon's face has turned very pale, like he's about to faint. Just as I smile at his face a wave of pain hits me like a truck, I try to push but it takes it out of me instantly.
"Raine push! You need to push!" The Doctor shouts
I scream as I push as hard and long as I can, my energy depleting quicker than anytime before.
"That's it Raine! You've done it! Well done!" The Doctor shouts.
There's no crying or any other sound for that matter, I look at Damon who is stroking my head and looking at me with sorrow in his eyes.
"Raine, it's time." The Doctor comes over to me holding a tiny baby in blankets. The poor baby is almost see through, my baby.
I take my baby from the doctor and just look at them, unsure of gender. I just cuddle my tiny baby to my chest, silence just fills the room. I don't even notice that it's only me and Damon in the room, his hand is still resting on my head. Tears are running down my face, every so often Damon would wipe my face with a tissue but won't speak, part of him must know I need time. I have no idea how much time passes but I soon realise that my baby's last moments are near.
"Damon, I need the doctor please" As I finish my sentence Damon is rushing out the room shouting for the doctor. The doctors comes back in and listens to my baby's chest.
"I'm sorry Raine, there isn't much more time"
I just nod at the doctor and hold my baby tighter. Moon, that's my baby's name.
"Goodbye Moon" I whisper as I place a tiny kiss of their head. As I finish my words I felt their last breath hit my face. With that I broke my screams could be heard and felt throughout the pack. Damon holds me.
"Doctor please take Moon, get them ready for the funeral" Damon announces as he cradles me.
"It's okay Raine, Moon will never be forgotten" he whispers to me as I continue to scream and cry.
What have I done?
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