「我的人生已經不需要你了。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xfEZbyB43
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4IWIQAckj
那句話砸下來的瞬間，她整個人像是被凍住了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUyqollCTU
肩膀無聲顫了一下，手指不由自主地收緊。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZzWmRFTpo
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrBzxaS9Kf
她以為自己只是旁觀。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIca8aNFlyN
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfTsUByZg6
不是主角，不是對象，只是走在他們旁邊的人。可以陪著，也可以被忽略。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD9GwTJqus
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBNVlaak6Y
可不知道為什麼，當他說「我的人生不需要你了」時，那種被劃開的感覺，也清楚地穿過了她的胸口。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpWmY61Exw
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTwrDmJxen
那句話，像冰一樣貼在胸口——讓她瞬間無法呼吸。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLDUmyPkiY
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mjb5FwSWP
太冷了，風雪打在臉上，她卻感覺不到溫度。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQOJhcEWN0
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqPp3JKOGZ
她不知道為什麼會這麼痛。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIHFvdw9cT
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFPixImayI
明明不是她的名字，明明他沒有看她一眼。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoE9EbTJYTX
可那句話落下的時候，她心裡有什麼一直藏著、沒敢觸碰的、沒想拆穿的東西，在這個寒冷的夜晚，被整塊連根拔起。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcmpaNl8gz
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGaMn7BUsn
一股空洞從心口炸開。身體還站著，靈魂卻開始往下陷。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOQWcJvbyH
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeTFClrPAw
她甚至來不及想「為什麼」，情緒就先崩潰了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1bl1XbOfd
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwfrWxt2sS
原來，有些話不是說給誰聽的——可偏偏誰聽見，誰就會受傷。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62ayLUX0iC
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCqnKTNbTj
她站著，像某種情感斷層的現場。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QHmN4Vrif
腦海一片空白，卻又被什麼東西撞開，瘋狂閃回過去的畫面——9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE26FoMUjRC
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0fXqRZind
一瞬間，記憶全洩了出來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFPM90EAcP
那些她以為已經風乾的碎片，此刻卻鋒利得像刀子，割得她眼睛發酸、喉頭緊縮。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlAl8wWJQD
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVj6gL3PrA1
她記得，小時候的小凜其實一開始並沒有特別喜歡足球。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdBB3OhFld
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIjBJjnIdc
他那時總是抱著恐龍和奧特曼，滿臉困惑地看著站在門口繫鞋帶的哥哥，一副搞不懂「足球哪裡好玩」的樣子。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BpScpR2gf
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9u8VEKWDfU
而冴，去練球前，總會回頭問待在家裡自己玩的弟弟：「要不要跟我一起去？」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhegwFdbP9
那語氣不像是在邀請，更像是習慣性地等弟弟跟上。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pQQykIx7b
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuIr6tct4G
直到有一天，小凜在學校球場外，看見冴踢進一球——9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gMbJVWFHT
乾淨俐落，從起跑線拉出的弧線，擦進球門右上角那一瞬間，網子鼓得像是驕傲地呼吸了一下。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0Jvdzk8WP
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZn25UTGnY
「哥哥好帥。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV81jUkhFP
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVdoGsSeEh
那是小凜當時唯一的評語。他眼睛發亮，第一次主動放下玩具，盯著球門，又轉頭看向場上的冴。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQe294igW1
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYT4lrXMxsO
從那以後，他每次都帶著玩具，跟在冴身後去練習場。玩沒幾分鐘，目光就會悄悄飄向哥哥。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgH5BsW44y
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoqCzMvG2d
直到某次，他再也忍不住，衝進場裡去接哥哥的球——9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPnvT0MHUr
而冴，在小凜胡亂闖入球場、在眾人一片罵聲之中——看見了弟弟的天賦。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlqdr1zunn
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRia1u3yaWC
從那天起，小凜開始每天背著球袋，跟哥哥一起出門，一起練到天黑。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNjrXpw3pu
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5A7pMHTfS
冴從來不對弟弟兇。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2VjeMO8at
他嘴巴再毒，對其他人再冷淡，對小凜卻總是耐心得像另一個人。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJloX8VKR9
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gjv4nYOOT
他會蹲下來幫小凜調整步伐，教他鎖膝射門的角度；比賽後會幫他貼肌貼、揉腳踝。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSrd2YMGAq
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJFFIYcRox
有人罵小凜踢不好，他第一個站出來擋下，冷冷地說：「他是我弟，輸也得我來罵。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O7IxwAiqI
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EpDoVdQGn
那時候，她總覺得他們不像哥哥和弟弟，是像兩顆並行的星，一起轉動著某種還未來臨的命運。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYpLUal5NN
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuwv9Q15Oz
小凜那時常常說——9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Zfoqy93Bo
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnItBUdKyF
「我也想像哥哥一樣帥。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjFAa13hMW
「我也想被哥哥說一句——踢得不錯。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmSqsjyH2S
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIWoG7YM3B
她知道，那些話不是為了博取認可。而是因為——冴就是小凜想成為的大人。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0inthjD69
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ItFt8RKya
她記得那樣的冴：9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYOC5dOahS
拿到RE·AL邀請函時不是先開心，而是先問：「他弟弟呢？」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRdUZfEQed
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEblRHSvPC
她也記得——他總把為數不多的零用錢全拿去買冰棒給小凜吃，像把全世界的好都攢著、把全部的好都留給那個人。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEjKKxflbF
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUpeYJbxUq
「你只是運氣好，投胎成了我弟。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2hJS534t5
「我的人生不需要你了。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1oy6pH4zf
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKzvcPzmZ8
可現在，這樣的哥哥，說出那些話時，眼神裡一點情緒都沒有。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEf8YOUwrh
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwALJP5cIb
太不像了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirinGaonlK
那不是她認識的冴。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORGvf2tAXi
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C4rZXSeNQ
她再怎麼回憶，那份溫柔與保護都還在，只是現在卻變成了利刃，狠狠割開了彼此的距離。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU6n2bH3sI
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYbSnXWbws
她從來沒看過他那麼冷的樣子。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wcBK7wcOr
像被什麼東西逼得太緊太深，才會用這樣的話把一切推遠，推到誰都不敢靠近。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVCU6H6Jxf
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjN8tRmnbV
她完全認不出這樣的他。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuD7KvQyNO
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR15vlWG7a1
震驚、困惑、無能為力。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCSN7ZiKbg
不只是弟弟被拒絕了——她也一樣。在這場雪裡，被他一刀劃開，拒絕了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwJmICUsEG
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPpxqGgwsp
只是，她晚了一步才懂。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUZTYkyIwG
只是——他沒說出口而已。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJDWPiMjCX
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYp6gmvNqE
現在，他一個人，越走越遠。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SBrcVivYr
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj2sW9NRjG
她明知道只要抬腳就能追上，可就是動不了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZTO8Nltyg
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGEDgwiznd
她站在雪中，一步也沒動，只剩下雪落在她帽子上、肩膀上、心上——像一層層壓下來的沉默，把她釘死在原地。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWalQHkxyn
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMCtjPHOJe
一片雪掉進她眼裡，她顫抖地眨了眨。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvSXWNEhXb
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dBNYnQVHT
他走遠了。背影沒停下，連一眼都沒有回頭。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqBbtcI6ir
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXTILrtJFs
「⋯⋯冴。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXub7Fn03G1
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIGVU26jm4
她低聲喚了一下，聲音小得幾乎被風雪吞沒。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosDZwIfYxs
星野莉奈沒有哭。她只是站在那裡。某種早該凍結的情感終於碎成冰塊，散落在漫天大雪裡。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmulRM3ta00
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjz76Duby1
她看向前方——那個蹲坐在地上的背影。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxL0CZc971X
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrIQFbLIRN
小凜。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHMxsmOJEd
他沒有起身，也沒有轉頭，只是一直垂著頭，整個人都被剛才那番話壓垮了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTZYEdCs80
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50ifjlifdE
這場雪夜裡，崩塌的不只是兄弟之間的夢想，還有很多東西——那些話，不只刺進小凜心裡，也像利刃一樣，插進她從沒說出口的期望裡。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO5FpJU9kF
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBl6L2mILD
原來不是只有她覺得痛。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLIcFUEKyO
原來，小凜也一直在撐——只是從沒說出口。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPXdFPRsVu
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A98L9wIlp
哪怕再痛也不吭聲；9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IkhekCa96
哪怕隊友不理解，他還是用哥哥的方式踢球；9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLMOKhpBgh
哪怕整支隊伍都在變，他還是想成為那個不讓哥哥失望的人。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGZ00dBKxT
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC5ODZNrHc
他只是，用了和她不一樣的方式，在撐著。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIh8hZErpLv
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVzir5ZGVa
她看著他瑟縮著的背影，忽然發現，小凜——只是一直拚命裝得像哥哥一樣強。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRejOSc87r
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEetFt2vyB
可現在，那個他努力模仿、無條件信任的「哥哥」，卻對他說出了最殘酷的話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxxh38egIR
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXd7P0Z0TNT
星野莉奈吸了口氣，慢慢邁開腳步，踏進雪地。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk9MtHASQh
她沒有先追那個離開的人——她走向糸師凜，像是先確保有人不會就這樣倒在雪裡。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbLpaqOSRe
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡze2RRpB0xi
她蹲下身，什麼都沒說。只是輕輕撿起他丟在場邊的外套，披在他的肩頭，把帽子拉起來幫他蓋住頭。然後用手掌輕輕拍拍他的背。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5WEcbWtue
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTwDZA1pxh
像是在說：我知道你很難過，我也一樣。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbh2Zev2ZKN
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6hBHidRL8
雪還在下。她沒有催他，也沒有說那些會讓人更難受的安慰話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡld83g3vBWt
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡif4BiCnsaI
她只是陪著他，靜靜地，讓這場雪先落完。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYUdqSF8je
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkMY4LDVE4
——然後，她會去找他。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFVSaiXAsn
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvQeZ7SLyt
那個說出「我的人生不需要你了」的人。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TgbzuhbgA
ㄚㄚ 那個，現在比誰都更像是失去了什麼的人。
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