「我的人生已經不需要你了。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GebkEsdBc
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那句話砸下來的瞬間，她整個人像是被凍住了。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXArMMdVLR
肩膀無聲顫了一下，手指不由自主地收緊。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxaSbJzW0j
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她以為自己只是旁觀。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmblVbWX3Z
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不是主角，不是對象，只是走在他們旁邊的人。可以陪著，也可以被忽略。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX3OuhbKmc
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可不知道為什麼，當他說「我的人生不需要你了」時，那種被劃開的感覺，也清楚地穿過了她的胸口。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhpz1v0keU
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那句話，像冰一樣貼在胸口——讓她瞬間無法呼吸。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBev9jyuqXX
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太冷了，風雪打在臉上，她卻感覺不到溫度。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSIplsUvXW
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她不知道為什麼會這麼痛。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoi5lvk9Wr
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明明不是她的名字，明明他沒有看她一眼。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC1tkQmK4s
可那句話落下的時候，她心裡有什麼一直藏著、沒敢觸碰的、沒想拆穿的東西，在這個寒冷的夜晚，被整塊連根拔起。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbXoePm4YX
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一股空洞從心口炸開。身體還站著，靈魂卻開始往下陷。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZTYYWl9sh
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她甚至來不及想「為什麼」，情緒就先崩潰了。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlXSLTTjDw
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原來，有些話不是說給誰聽的——可偏偏誰聽見，誰就會受傷。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzmteqKwGb
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她站著，像某種情感斷層的現場。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mbzid7gWD
腦海一片空白，卻又被什麼東西撞開，瘋狂閃回過去的畫面——41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqVVWu70yJ
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一瞬間，記憶全洩了出來。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5QTxvelGX
那些她以為已經風乾的碎片，此刻卻鋒利得像刀子，割得她眼睛發酸、喉頭緊縮。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAjRGzza3v
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcILa1XmWQk
她記得，小時候的小凜其實一開始並沒有特別喜歡足球。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjz3cbXqKhN
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZ2Sz6IB39
他那時總是抱著恐龍和奧特曼，滿臉困惑地看著站在門口繫鞋帶的哥哥，一副搞不懂「足球哪裡好玩」的樣子。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ekSepYViH
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLTxh1a6mW
而冴，去練球前，總會回頭問待在家裡自己玩的弟弟：「要不要跟我一起去？」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRUNxjd4Zt
那語氣不像是在邀請，更像是習慣性地等弟弟跟上。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2nqJTS1er
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYGuUGvfsI
直到有一天，小凜在學校球場外，看見冴踢進一球——41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn06NGqa8Hk
乾淨俐落，從起跑線拉出的弧線，擦進球門右上角那一瞬間，網子鼓得像是驕傲地呼吸了一下。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bz8Qt9oMg
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYOU7iUN1G
「哥哥好帥。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbrOhp4vA4
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那是小凜當時唯一的評語。他眼睛發亮，第一次主動放下玩具，盯著球門，又轉頭看向場上的冴。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprfSyqMRbr
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeijECxHt8x
從那以後，他每次都帶著玩具，跟在冴身後去練習場。玩沒幾分鐘，目光就會悄悄飄向哥哥。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0bbc31lBD
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxcGqV6vam
直到某次，他再也忍不住，衝進場裡去接哥哥的球——41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbUGslgaKc
而冴，在小凜胡亂闖入球場、在眾人一片罵聲之中——看見了弟弟的天賦。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cqUVkno79
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi5mVTaocJ
從那天起，小凜開始每天背著球袋，跟哥哥一起出門，一起練到天黑。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmRUPletML
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHKvpzujbq
冴從來不對弟弟兇。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPDjxajieW
他嘴巴再毒，對其他人再冷淡，對小凜卻總是耐心得像另一個人。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jvDlbUGBK
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他會蹲下來幫小凜調整步伐，教他鎖膝射門的角度；比賽後會幫他貼肌貼、揉腳踝。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J5A4N4z10
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有人罵小凜踢不好，他第一個站出來擋下，冷冷地說：「他是我弟，輸也得我來罵。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnumw7DoRUk
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZJUjjh5Ob
那時候，她總覺得他們不像哥哥和弟弟，是像兩顆並行的星，一起轉動著某種還未來臨的命運。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlQ8iAx9h9
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小凜那時常常說——41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewjDGojjtp
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「我也想像哥哥一樣帥。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUXU0lrhwD
「我也想被哥哥說一句——踢得不錯。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RzkLy6FZn
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她知道，那些話不是為了博取認可。而是因為——冴就是小凜想成為的大人。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnnKPII46e
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她記得那樣的冴：41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47TEi3wzbF
拿到RE·AL邀請函時不是先開心，而是先問：「他弟弟呢？」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtfiqahnuW
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她也記得——他總把為數不多的零用錢全拿去買冰棒給小凜吃，像把全世界的好都攢著、把全部的好都留給那個人。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNw4gwbPJs
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「你只是運氣好，投胎成了我弟。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNqvmA0Kck
「我的人生不需要你了。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhioF2qboJI
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbRRtFGUpw
可現在，這樣的哥哥，說出那些話時，眼神裡一點情緒都沒有。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlOjiA6AFl
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太不像了。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW82S2H4fd
那不是她認識的冴。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerXahGGD1e
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她再怎麼回憶，那份溫柔與保護都還在，只是現在卻變成了利刃，狠狠割開了彼此的距離。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErHYUgt8PY
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她從來沒看過他那麼冷的樣子。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVyweb7iYe
像被什麼東西逼得太緊太深，才會用這樣的話把一切推遠，推到誰都不敢靠近。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmoYFzodoQ
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxbO6vwXTb
她完全認不出這樣的他。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUlfCcm8nC
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震驚、困惑、無能為力。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfbec8L640
不只是弟弟被拒絕了——她也一樣。在這場雪裡，被他一刀劃開，拒絕了。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfNbwF3Cae
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只是，她晚了一步才懂。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosLXtcNXGc
只是——他沒說出口而已。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUI7dR4dFr
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLzsIQIjCw
現在，他一個人，越走越遠。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7pFtrbfZ1
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她明知道只要抬腳就能追上，可就是動不了。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzItSFV91YD
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她站在雪中，一步也沒動，只剩下雪落在她帽子上、肩膀上、心上——像一層層壓下來的沉默，把她釘死在原地。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOy9r75A8qR
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi8owfYihO
一片雪掉進她眼裡，她顫抖地眨了眨。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2lJ7x1e8m
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他走遠了。背影沒停下，連一眼都沒有回頭。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx86oLhwLCG
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「⋯⋯冴。」41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDl4hSDWy5
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她低聲喚了一下，聲音小得幾乎被風雪吞沒。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uJ1zsXQjj
星野莉奈沒有哭。她只是站在那裡。某種早該凍結的情感終於碎成冰塊，散落在漫天大雪裡。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeG3M5n7M3
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她看向前方——那個蹲坐在地上的背影。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Rux6qVph9
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小凜。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBh04n9TRZP
他沒有起身，也沒有轉頭，只是一直垂著頭，整個人都被剛才那番話壓垮了。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdXgdyOsRh
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這場雪夜裡，崩塌的不只是兄弟之間的夢想，還有很多東西——那些話，不只刺進小凜心裡，也像利刃一樣，插進她從沒說出口的期望裡。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcL2b2Ef9gY
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjSRjQmvDp
原來不是只有她覺得痛。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2A8ErxwXq
原來，小凜也一直在撐——只是從沒說出口。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto4BhMrwbY
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哪怕再痛也不吭聲；41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNx300LH56
哪怕隊友不理解，他還是用哥哥的方式踢球；41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauv1Kxdhdv
哪怕整支隊伍都在變，他還是想成為那個不讓哥哥失望的人。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWOmi6JEn5
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他只是，用了和她不一樣的方式，在撐著。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jUElVJ0EG
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMEiB4eVrL
她看著他瑟縮著的背影，忽然發現，小凜——只是一直拚命裝得像哥哥一樣強。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lbtHXGRIZ
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvZHq6eVXf
可現在，那個他努力模仿、無條件信任的「哥哥」，卻對他說出了最殘酷的話。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKZkyN8cfg
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVDEkxWxtX
星野莉奈吸了口氣，慢慢邁開腳步，踏進雪地。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V5qDyQbe0
她沒有先追那個離開的人——她走向糸師凜，像是先確保有人不會就這樣倒在雪裡。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4DhRwwcxl
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她蹲下身，什麼都沒說。只是輕輕撿起他丟在場邊的外套，披在他的肩頭，把帽子拉起來幫他蓋住頭。然後用手掌輕輕拍拍他的背。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YzpgnYftY
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDuX9qoJNJ
像是在說：我知道你很難過，我也一樣。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CKWfbUD2T
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcibvm9UhC
雪還在下。她沒有催他，也沒有說那些會讓人更難受的安慰話。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y2XcYCcpO
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwglBbY8hC
她只是陪著他，靜靜地，讓這場雪先落完。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQzoQOaWdI
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xQYs5pLyG
——然後，她會去找他。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUbncZcrfM
41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawLbW8dC0D
那個說出「我的人生不需要你了」的人。41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNTxFYnGAr
那個，現在比誰都更像是失去了什麼的人。
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