「我的人生已經不需要你了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA3GebkEsdBc
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那句話砸下來的瞬間,她整個人像是被凍住了。41Please respect copyright.PENANACXArMMdVLR
肩膀無聲顫了一下,手指不由自主地收緊。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmxaSbJzW0j
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她以為自己只是旁觀。41Please respect copyright.PENANAxmblVbWX3Z
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不是主角,不是對象,只是走在他們旁邊的人。可以陪著,也可以被忽略。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHX3OuhbKmc
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可不知道為什麼,當他說「我的人生不需要你了」時,那種被劃開的感覺,也清楚地穿過了她的胸口。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKhpz1v0keU
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那句話,像冰一樣貼在胸口——讓她瞬間無法呼吸。41Please respect copyright.PENANABev9jyuqXX
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太冷了,風雪打在臉上,她卻感覺不到溫度。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQSIplsUvXW
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她不知道為什麼會這麼痛。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsoi5lvk9Wr
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明明不是她的名字,明明他沒有看她一眼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYC1tkQmK4s
可那句話落下的時候,她心裡有什麼一直藏著、沒敢觸碰的、沒想拆穿的東西,在這個寒冷的夜晚,被整塊連根拔起。41Please respect copyright.PENANATbXoePm4YX
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一股空洞從心口炸開。身體還站著,靈魂卻開始往下陷。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZTYYWl9sh
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她甚至來不及想「為什麼」,情緒就先崩潰了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAdlXSLTTjDw
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原來,有些話不是說給誰聽的——可偏偏誰聽見,誰就會受傷。41Please respect copyright.PENANAxzmteqKwGb
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她站著,像某種情感斷層的現場。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2mbzid7gWD
腦海一片空白,卻又被什麼東西撞開,瘋狂閃回過去的畫面——41Please respect copyright.PENANAjqVVWu70yJ
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一瞬間,記憶全洩了出來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAy5QTxvelGX
那些她以為已經風乾的碎片,此刻卻鋒利得像刀子,割得她眼睛發酸、喉頭緊縮。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXAjRGzza3v
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她記得,小時候的小凜其實一開始並沒有特別喜歡足球。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjz3cbXqKhN
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他那時總是抱著恐龍和奧特曼,滿臉困惑地看著站在門口繫鞋帶的哥哥,一副搞不懂「足球哪裡好玩」的樣子。41Please respect copyright.PENANA8ekSepYViH
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而冴,去練球前,總會回頭問待在家裡自己玩的弟弟:「要不要跟我一起去?」41Please respect copyright.PENANArRUNxjd4Zt
那語氣不像是在邀請,更像是習慣性地等弟弟跟上。41Please respect copyright.PENANAO2nqJTS1er
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直到有一天,小凜在學校球場外,看見冴踢進一球——41Please respect copyright.PENANAn06NGqa8Hk
乾淨俐落,從起跑線拉出的弧線,擦進球門右上角那一瞬間,網子鼓得像是驕傲地呼吸了一下。41Please respect copyright.PENANA8bz8Qt9oMg
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「哥哥好帥。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAYbrOhp4vA4
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那是小凜當時唯一的評語。他眼睛發亮,第一次主動放下玩具,盯著球門,又轉頭看向場上的冴。41Please respect copyright.PENANAprfSyqMRbr
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從那以後,他每次都帶著玩具,跟在冴身後去練習場。玩沒幾分鐘,目光就會悄悄飄向哥哥。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0bbc31lBD
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直到某次,他再也忍不住,衝進場裡去接哥哥的球——41Please respect copyright.PENANAEbUGslgaKc
而冴,在小凜胡亂闖入球場、在眾人一片罵聲之中——看見了弟弟的天賦。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9cqUVkno79
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從那天起,小凜開始每天背著球袋,跟哥哥一起出門,一起練到天黑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcmRUPletML
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冴從來不對弟弟兇。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlPDjxajieW
他嘴巴再毒,對其他人再冷淡,對小凜卻總是耐心得像另一個人。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7jvDlbUGBK
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他會蹲下來幫小凜調整步伐,教他鎖膝射門的角度;比賽後會幫他貼肌貼、揉腳踝。41Please respect copyright.PENANA8J5A4N4z10
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有人罵小凜踢不好,他第一個站出來擋下,冷冷地說:「他是我弟,輸也得我來罵。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAnumw7DoRUk
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那時候,她總覺得他們不像哥哥和弟弟,是像兩顆並行的星,一起轉動著某種還未來臨的命運。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvlQ8iAx9h9
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小凜那時常常說——41Please respect copyright.PENANAewjDGojjtp
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「我也想像哥哥一樣帥。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAzUXU0lrhwD
「我也想被哥哥說一句——踢得不錯。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA8RzkLy6FZn
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她知道,那些話不是為了博取認可。而是因為——冴就是小凜想成為的大人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQnnKPII46e
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她記得那樣的冴:41Please respect copyright.PENANA47TEi3wzbF
拿到RE·AL邀請函時不是先開心,而是先問:「他弟弟呢?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAhtfiqahnuW
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她也記得——他總把為數不多的零用錢全拿去買冰棒給小凜吃,像把全世界的好都攢著、把全部的好都留給那個人。41Please respect copyright.PENANARNw4gwbPJs
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「你只是運氣好,投胎成了我弟。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAVNqvmA0Kck
「我的人生不需要你了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAhioF2qboJI
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可現在,這樣的哥哥,說出那些話時,眼神裡一點情緒都沒有。41Please respect copyright.PENANALlOjiA6AFl
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太不像了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZW82S2H4fd
那不是她認識的冴。41Please respect copyright.PENANAerXahGGD1e
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她再怎麼回憶,那份溫柔與保護都還在,只是現在卻變成了利刃,狠狠割開了彼此的距離。41Please respect copyright.PENANAErHYUgt8PY
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她從來沒看過他那麼冷的樣子。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuVyweb7iYe
像被什麼東西逼得太緊太深,才會用這樣的話把一切推遠,推到誰都不敢靠近。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUmoYFzodoQ
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她完全認不出這樣的他。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKUlfCcm8nC
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震驚、困惑、無能為力。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcfbec8L640
不只是弟弟被拒絕了——她也一樣。在這場雪裡,被他一刀劃開,拒絕了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJfNbwF3Cae
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只是,她晚了一步才懂。41Please respect copyright.PENANAosLXtcNXGc
只是——他沒說出口而已。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVUI7dR4dFr
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現在,他一個人,越走越遠。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7pFtrbfZ1
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她明知道只要抬腳就能追上,可就是動不了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzItSFV91YD
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她站在雪中,一步也沒動,只剩下雪落在她帽子上、肩膀上、心上——像一層層壓下來的沉默,把她釘死在原地。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOy9r75A8qR
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一片雪掉進她眼裡,她顫抖地眨了眨。41Please respect copyright.PENANAq2lJ7x1e8m
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他走遠了。背影沒停下,連一眼都沒有回頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAx86oLhwLCG
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「⋯⋯冴。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAvDl4hSDWy5
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她低聲喚了一下,聲音小得幾乎被風雪吞沒。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4uJ1zsXQjj
星野莉奈沒有哭。她只是站在那裡。某種早該凍結的情感終於碎成冰塊,散落在漫天大雪裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAeeG3M5n7M3
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她看向前方——那個蹲坐在地上的背影。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5Rux6qVph9
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小凜。41Please respect copyright.PENANABh04n9TRZP
他沒有起身,也沒有轉頭,只是一直垂著頭,整個人都被剛才那番話壓垮了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvdXgdyOsRh
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這場雪夜裡,崩塌的不只是兄弟之間的夢想,還有很多東西——那些話,不只刺進小凜心裡,也像利刃一樣,插進她從沒說出口的期望裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcL2b2Ef9gY
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原來不是只有她覺得痛。41Please respect copyright.PENANAI2A8ErxwXq
原來,小凜也一直在撐——只是從沒說出口。41Please respect copyright.PENANAto4BhMrwbY
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哪怕再痛也不吭聲;41Please respect copyright.PENANAnNx300LH56
哪怕隊友不理解,他還是用哥哥的方式踢球;41Please respect copyright.PENANAauv1Kxdhdv
哪怕整支隊伍都在變,他還是想成為那個不讓哥哥失望的人。41Please respect copyright.PENANARWOmi6JEn5
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他只是,用了和她不一樣的方式,在撐著。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7jUElVJ0EG
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她看著他瑟縮著的背影,忽然發現,小凜——只是一直拚命裝得像哥哥一樣強。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5lbtHXGRIZ
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可現在,那個他努力模仿、無條件信任的「哥哥」,卻對他說出了最殘酷的話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmKZkyN8cfg
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星野莉奈吸了口氣,慢慢邁開腳步,踏進雪地。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4V5qDyQbe0
她沒有先追那個離開的人——她走向糸師凜,像是先確保有人不會就這樣倒在雪裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAV4DhRwwcxl
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她蹲下身,什麼都沒說。只是輕輕撿起他丟在場邊的外套,披在他的肩頭,把帽子拉起來幫他蓋住頭。然後用手掌輕輕拍拍他的背。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5YzpgnYftY
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像是在說:我知道你很難過,我也一樣。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2CKWfbUD2T
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雪還在下。她沒有催他,也沒有說那些會讓人更難受的安慰話。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4Y2XcYCcpO
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她只是陪著他,靜靜地,讓這場雪先落完。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaQzoQOaWdI
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——然後,她會去找他。41Please respect copyright.PENANAdUbncZcrfM
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那個說出「我的人生不需要你了」的人。41Please respect copyright.PENANACNTxFYnGAr
那個,現在比誰都更像是失去了什麼的人。
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