「我的人生已經不需要你了。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYqWUND7Qd
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4XyTz63kc
那句話砸下來的瞬間，她整個人像是被凍住了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLg4Vksg5o0
肩膀無聲顫了一下，手指不由自主地收緊。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdFld7zCXZ
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oYusHT7nW
她以為自己只是旁觀。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQ5kSfPQqv
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ryP0drIeR
不是主角，不是對象，只是走在他們旁邊的人。可以陪著，也可以被忽略。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jI5pclNP2
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAALp1EYl6
可不知道為什麼，當他說「我的人生不需要你了」時，那種被劃開的感覺，也清楚地穿過了她的胸口。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce0tldCsQe
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNwsn0eQan
那句話，像冰一樣貼在胸口——讓她瞬間無法呼吸。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfNElV2xJm
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmSXuhIXTo
太冷了，風雪打在臉上，她卻感覺不到溫度。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOerYXg4Ds
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSozhU3QjRR
她不知道為什麼會這麼痛。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI6lEC5h8Y
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaECOXR7XsO
明明不是她的名字，明明他沒有看她一眼。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡissdpN4tKy
可那句話落下的時候，她心裡有什麼一直藏著、沒敢觸碰的、沒想拆穿的東西，在這個寒冷的夜晚，被整塊連根拔起。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5uATOOzGv
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSy3ypVcLRm
一股空洞從心口炸開。身體還站著，靈魂卻開始往下陷。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cLQPx4qBl
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj2LiW5qs4
她甚至來不及想「為什麼」，情緒就先崩潰了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK55uDYejmv
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCICmtLZljB
原來，有些話不是說給誰聽的——可偏偏誰聽見，誰就會受傷。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHDrfd3043
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2guvs6L1CO
她站著，像某種情感斷層的現場。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZ7V7tpq17
腦海一片空白，卻又被什麼東西撞開，瘋狂閃回過去的畫面——61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmN4DdCNSY
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfNSVmT7ur
一瞬間，記憶全洩了出來。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32HypEjTPY
那些她以為已經風乾的碎片，此刻卻鋒利得像刀子，割得她眼睛發酸、喉頭緊縮。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ316hZl8QkO
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOLfHLrJvC
她記得，小時候的小凜其實一開始並沒有特別喜歡足球。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NliTt7SXS
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvs7mFYfedA
他那時總是抱著恐龍和奧特曼，滿臉困惑地看著站在門口繫鞋帶的哥哥，一副搞不懂「足球哪裡好玩」的樣子。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7nlCvDhBC
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7SmlUTC3X
而冴，去練球前，總會回頭問待在家裡自己玩的弟弟：「要不要跟我一起去？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbTZhFBZnG
那語氣不像是在邀請，更像是習慣性地等弟弟跟上。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88RdrKAanj
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuv8wiS3ZFS
直到有一天，小凜在學校球場外，看見冴踢進一球——61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuO9sDVrmDU
乾淨俐落，從起跑線拉出的弧線，擦進球門右上角那一瞬間，網子鼓得像是驕傲地呼吸了一下。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHnsmnWoc7
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOh3fz8C1u
「哥哥好帥。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dh60I4Lgy
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbpt0vAphi
那是小凜當時唯一的評語。他眼睛發亮，第一次主動放下玩具，盯著球門，又轉頭看向場上的冴。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjck01i7Gj
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTsEKfITaD
從那以後，他每次都帶著玩具，跟在冴身後去練習場。玩沒幾分鐘，目光就會悄悄飄向哥哥。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qlV3mhteB
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCMgUOi0rf
直到某次，他再也忍不住，衝進場裡去接哥哥的球——61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHT6QlBmFJ
而冴，在小凜胡亂闖入球場、在眾人一片罵聲之中——看見了弟弟的天賦。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8BsLIbCXP
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1D6KhCqyfJ
從那天起，小凜開始每天背著球袋，跟哥哥一起出門，一起練到天黑。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBscpqsUL3W
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQVdAQjv7t
冴從來不對弟弟兇。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAvLyvgAH9
他嘴巴再毒，對其他人再冷淡，對小凜卻總是耐心得像另一個人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzNFYQmgKB
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjnufbTPHH
他會蹲下來幫小凜調整步伐，教他鎖膝射門的角度；比賽後會幫他貼肌貼、揉腳踝。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7UdJn91kT
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGe4prOZBg
有人罵小凜踢不好，他第一個站出來擋下，冷冷地說：「他是我弟，輸也得我來罵。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pGsB0uKeF
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRKftCK1oF
那時候，她總覺得他們不像哥哥和弟弟，是像兩顆並行的星，一起轉動著某種還未來臨的命運。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoi1Rhsht8
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzZkMal942
小凜那時常常說——61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvcHh5nOgw
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mXvXCI48Q
「我也想像哥哥一樣帥。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg5OKcgfxX
「我也想被哥哥說一句——踢得不錯。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRYueTO4mM
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBnrtQ3bzH
她知道，那些話不是為了博取認可。而是因為——冴就是小凜想成為的大人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKLCnVEkla
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOnJFvHyAo
她記得那樣的冴：61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYsFMGgSGw
拿到RE·AL邀請函時不是先開心，而是先問：「他弟弟呢？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXlHuQbadG
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGymntQrPHv
她也記得——他總把為數不多的零用錢全拿去買冰棒給小凜吃，像把全世界的好都攢著、把全部的好都留給那個人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76b742T1iD
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnKO3tf7Fv
「你只是運氣好，投胎成了我弟。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qLs39plZb
「我的人生不需要你了。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4LbUW3jMB
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTgBUbNnGa
可現在，這樣的哥哥，說出那些話時，眼神裡一點情緒都沒有。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvOnZ5vOWY
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGXtFOFfcc
太不像了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGuDqXnAgG
那不是她認識的冴。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTVKBfPVhX
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeD6KPKaWB
她再怎麼回憶，那份溫柔與保護都還在，只是現在卻變成了利刃，狠狠割開了彼此的距離。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESX867M2jJ
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWmE4fwGHX
她從來沒看過他那麼冷的樣子。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiaRYD5T9m
像被什麼東西逼得太緊太深，才會用這樣的話把一切推遠，推到誰都不敢靠近。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQL1OSnXm3y
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQTo4jVEwe
她完全認不出這樣的他。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdamZnoGK7
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeAFwDaODl
震驚、困惑、無能為力。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOXGXyVGAc
不只是弟弟被拒絕了——她也一樣。在這場雪裡，被他一刀劃開，拒絕了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCj1vTWDy4r
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqPBUbXw64
只是，她晚了一步才懂。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPC0WRLnh2O
只是——他沒說出口而已。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9K3YXFWzY
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZb0diHBBN4
現在，他一個人，越走越遠。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmsYBmFWnH
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZMJMCd9e4
她明知道只要抬腳就能追上，可就是動不了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeKmrRzM2c
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo5WZUmyZa
她站在雪中，一步也沒動，只剩下雪落在她帽子上、肩膀上、心上——像一層層壓下來的沉默，把她釘死在原地。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PRPCOOacs
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBk4gzcpsh
一片雪掉進她眼裡，她顫抖地眨了眨。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlJc77qnos
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWmZJ10S3S
他走遠了。背影沒停下，連一眼都沒有回頭。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp91eZYnTA
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLm4qG4j2M
「⋯⋯冴。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAQB7H494k
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJa5yUJ1GpY
她低聲喚了一下，聲音小得幾乎被風雪吞沒。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhJAeQrooj
星野莉奈沒有哭。她只是站在那裡。某種早該凍結的情感終於碎成冰塊，散落在漫天大雪裡。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBofh3GLLL
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMljOG9Iih2
她看向前方——那個蹲坐在地上的背影。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtel6syMlrI
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x7k7WORqq
小凜。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1A3tb6XfV
他沒有起身，也沒有轉頭，只是一直垂著頭，整個人都被剛才那番話壓垮了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnkbuZGZ2v
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBMOJVOMWh
這場雪夜裡，崩塌的不只是兄弟之間的夢想，還有很多東西——那些話，不只刺進小凜心裡，也像利刃一樣，插進她從沒說出口的期望裡。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdceOTm0bot
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfR8fvWUndQ
原來不是只有她覺得痛。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdparQEFWy8
原來，小凜也一直在撐——只是從沒說出口。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfo95UHMCTs
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEAZx1CB5K
哪怕再痛也不吭聲；61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEuxqolQOm
哪怕隊友不理解，他還是用哥哥的方式踢球；61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMsg6MZq8R
哪怕整支隊伍都在變，他還是想成為那個不讓哥哥失望的人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdEx8JDfMF
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DUE8fsjwj
他只是，用了和她不一樣的方式，在撐著。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVXoLmakf7
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoFF6rbTFm
她看著他瑟縮著的背影，忽然發現，小凜——只是一直拚命裝得像哥哥一樣強。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXbcoB3BNo
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhKpEmqrVC
可現在，那個他努力模仿、無條件信任的「哥哥」，卻對他說出了最殘酷的話。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NMVjPiYUg
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WztQXJVzB
星野莉奈吸了口氣，慢慢邁開腳步，踏進雪地。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2sVleMzrz
她沒有先追那個離開的人——她走向糸師凜，像是先確保有人不會就這樣倒在雪裡。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL1Fy5rnKg
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OJLA6rEl3
她蹲下身，什麼都沒說。只是輕輕撿起他丟在場邊的外套，披在他的肩頭，把帽子拉起來幫他蓋住頭。然後用手掌輕輕拍拍他的背。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGMYIRXgMy
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJ9UqeC9O6
像是在說：我知道你很難過，我也一樣。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoiH6mJaaq
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gm6qgYyOm
雪還在下。她沒有催他，也沒有說那些會讓人更難受的安慰話。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PQdS4cNeQ
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcHFJvN1yU
她只是陪著他，靜靜地，讓這場雪先落完。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwLFjILBnd
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4S05N1nViS
——然後，她會去找他。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKvom90dNV
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KHQkGLnMd
那個說出「我的人生不需要你了」的人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQR7A6Delz
那個，現在比誰都更像是失去了什麼的人。
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQXyQ1Q4up
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