2009、2010這兩年,簡直是烏煙瘴氣、一潭死水、悶氣衝天、愁雲慘霧......請盡用所有負面形容詞(當然不要和10年後比較)。117Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5kKoetGIE
117Please respect copyright.PENANAV6ICiSQqsr
大環境上,在金融海嘯、雷曼爆煲衝擊下,香港經濟一片蕭條,我的股票暴跌八九成。十多年後的今天,仍距家鄉甚遠(所以不單是桃花運女人緣,連財運,我也是零)。117Please respect copyright.PENANA7jbKaMUTto
117Please respect copyright.PENANAuJN05DuFpN
奴供處網站,又充斥著滿是「西工N寶」、月薪五六千的N項全能超人文員......117Please respect copyright.PENANAcFRxn8jLRz
117Please respect copyright.PENANAAPXGHnQe06
連續兩年,星期六紅日,也達5天之多,甚至連風假也沒半天。李氏力場強橫得驚人,風大大不是刻意和香港保持距離,就是晚來朝去,學生哥受惠(但我的學生年代,打風卻全在暑假),可憐社畜卻要先被吵足一整晚,翌早穿過一片狼籍的街道上班。117Please respect copyright.PENANAHqM7XZbwAj
117Please respect copyright.PENANAE2nBXPfOW6
還有因深圳河以北的食品安全問題,香港將掀開新一輪淪陷......117Please respect copyright.PENANAnIRU9LjLkt
117Please respect copyright.PENANAOKGCStjF4N
還還有興建高鐵的爭議,當時反對的論點,已全部成真......117Please respect copyright.PENANAkGqgZbmGct
117Please respect copyright.PENANA453ecYo2HB
********************************************117Please respect copyright.PENANAVgCZ62G57F
117Please respect copyright.PENANAAqtc11WnWb
而我,也是差不多的頹廢,恐懼天娜離棄我的惶恐不安牽腸掛肚,仍然持續不休,毫無安全感。117Please respect copyright.PENANA9QD8DPtDNy
117Please respect copyright.PENANA30LGUMpOLK
很矛盾的想法,既想結織新朋友,以作「沖淡」(但其實根本苦無途徑),但又害怕一旦有了新朋友且發展順利,會成為下一個天娜,又多一個(或以上)使我惶恐不安牽腸掛肚的對象。117Please respect copyright.PENANAPL3tUdhBC6
117Please respect copyright.PENANAY3l51mutP0
這時,家母首度(也是最後一次)開腔,說朋友有女孩介紹,著我去相睇。我已預計到結果,一是沒下文;一是發展順利,然後成為下一個天娜;一是再進一步,成為情侶,之後被嫌收入低,關係決裂,肯定只是時間問題.......所以我推卻了(但此時,她仍然不忿舍妹和「窮到燶」「住公屋」的世文拍拖,有趣嗎?)。117Please respect copyright.PENANAnvNOg81uzP
117Please respect copyright.PENANATHJ06IDXCM
當然,冥冥之中的天命,對我從未玩夠。117Please respect copyright.PENANAmEW2ft4YQk
117Please respect copyright.PENANA6Lb16NAxu3
********************************************117Please respect copyright.PENANAkwFYGcdsCf
117Please respect copyright.PENANAALtxE0BZkM
2009年,有兩次,在重重miss call、又一輪惶恐不安牽腸掛肚下,終相約到天娜出來吃個飯。她原先答應,後來,她為了遷就他人的亂入,而把我「棄置」。117Please respect copyright.PENANAfUPxgr41Rc
117Please respect copyright.PENANAbv6neuE4Vh
一次,是先和我約定日間,我出門前一刻,才收到她來電,說另一人約她同日晚上,她不想一天出動兩次,問我可否改晚上10時後3人行(她那時正修讀課程,當天晚上10時才下課)。117Please respect copyright.PENANA05J1TcgFzB
117Please respect copyright.PENANA5za52BJ8Ji
我翌早4時起床到機場,恕難如此晚(其實那次,我就是想臨飛前約她一見,使我有「Safe!安全了,天娜沒Ghost我」的感覺,才安心展開旅程)。117Please respect copyright.PENANAMAZjaWRINf
117Please respect copyright.PENANAZpNlAeC1Ju
於是,她不要求那傢伙改日間,而放棄更早已約定的我。117Please respect copyright.PENANAhdFLEOmcpp
117Please respect copyright.PENANAYe7Nv1SwBa
結果,那次旅行,我的心情,可想而知。117Please respect copyright.PENANAvlIbaVlJN2
117Please respect copyright.PENANAB2TldYYjhh
番外篇,以下和天娜無關117Please respect copyright.PENANAwAhGn1Zbdt
117Please respect copyright.PENANAloBpGzP7Hs
↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓117Please respect copyright.PENANAHFDoGfK3Hw
117Please respect copyright.PENANAtpb6tDtAwZ
那次是跟團旅行。幸好團內氣氛良好高漲,也和一個與母同行、樣貌不錯的年青女團友有兩句,算是一個短暫喘息空間,能暫時忘記天娜的事。117Please respect copyright.PENANA8PRPE9QQVv
117Please respect copyright.PENANAdTY7Mdprds
但當然,除了互Add Facebook,數天後,一切也隨著鐵鳥著陸赤鱲角結束。117Please respect copyright.PENANAnDKmHbnInc
117Please respect copyright.PENANAosj8i31yyb
很奇怪地,此女的Facebook,從不見拍拖戀愛放閃痕跡,遑論結婚。117Please respect copyright.PENANAMCB0OVLkqU
117Please respect copyright.PENANA7n8FvXrX0K
很久以後,好像是2018年?她忽然Post大肚照。117Please respect copyright.PENANAHAr4ynR2NO
117Please respect copyright.PENANARXlRO6z560
產下BB後,她透露BB姓名(在Facebook),和她不同姓,故估計她不是被中出即飛始亂終棄(否則極可能隨母姓),但Facebook始終從不見她結婚、BB父親的痕跡。117Please respect copyright.PENANAUt7vZ0BfdM
117Please respect copyright.PENANAsjYoM5d6Pw
可能她把我放作「點頭之交」。117Please respect copyright.PENANA1NLOt2U74h
117Please respect copyright.PENANA2sJiAa8LHt
番外篇完。117Please respect copyright.PENANASvj6nrWWAa
117Please respect copyright.PENANAx8L5uYw8Nu
↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑117Please respect copyright.PENANA7Clc1GvFTP
117Please respect copyright.PENANA17JM92GGH9
********************************************117Please respect copyright.PENANAL7QSLnUNLn
117Please respect copyright.PENANASD26nnmRPW
更過份的另一次,也是類似的情況。117Please respect copyright.PENANArz5AdnPsnG
117Please respect copyright.PENANAsaa2EIs9IK
原先和我約定,後來有人亂入,天娜問我可否3人行,我可以。117Please respect copyright.PENANAF8ZNFqIdks
117Please respect copyright.PENANAtuL379jDQW
但之後,她說那傢伙拒絕3人行,要和天娜單對單。天娜的選擇,不是和那傢伙另約,而是放棄更早已約定的我 x 2。117Please respect copyright.PENANANZ6kS0SV8W
117Please respect copyright.PENANArhq6JM1EJG
更過份的,是最後,那傢伙放飛機,天娜竟然翻兜我:「我嗰個 Friend唔嚟,你可以嚟喇」。117Please respect copyright.PENANAcoUuG2Mow5
117Please respect copyright.PENANAZOwoz2o2EQ
天娜你到底當我是甚麼?後備嗎?Plan B嗎?117Please respect copyright.PENANAmxl7UF8WPP
117Please respect copyright.PENANAaejqxxzyHM
********************************************117Please respect copyright.PENANAmLIjGcZkoI
117Please respect copyright.PENANA9T3iEYrzST
回想結識天娜初期,我也有原先答應參加飯局K局,但臨時說不去。而且那些都是一大班,缺我一個,也不影響「成團」。117Please respect copyright.PENANAtnuNOcOyJc
117Please respect copyright.PENANAIMosjZRSul
她卻表現得十分不滿:「吓?我訂咗位,預埋你喇!你應承咗我出嚟架......」117Please respect copyright.PENANAr8iqC7KhVE
117Please respect copyright.PENANAFHQvMURTFX
她是何等嚴人寬己,五百步笑十步,只許自己放火,不准別人點燈。117Please respect copyright.PENANAhMSQrfi8pg
117Please respect copyright.PENANAjPurfbcYeA
但她就總是朋友、桃花滿瀉。117Please respect copyright.PENANAsz2iGRY9o8
117Please respect copyright.PENANAIKbbBc5ylF
而我,只能眼淚在心裡流,和指天怒罵。