White sheets stained red in a hotel bed249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzpiRJt8PO
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmpxwaqrmq
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgb3WPmonp
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqccDdbTKgv
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BzYIRSCgr
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziWDdz6Oek
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGmSW9COI6
Vivid visions invading my rest 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1SfQcaOnr
I can't sleep because all I see is death249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFn3Ybx76C9
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRr9ixdgfVR
Thinking about death at such an early age249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6aGGa3u5U
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohYa2eXVc7
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GObryxZbm
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZGTdsypiu
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZg04VzEZW
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxYqo9Jzuk
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywQRKLlbIf
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOERBMWDP2U
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3VOf9sQUT
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTToHFYe8St
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gKyp51sSY
Nobody actually cares until you're dead249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdYg6ivoXb
Until you're another headline in the news249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCuchCHYIn
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzAKGEZKdo
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblOdRfjcns
"I miss you today" 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbkUCG0hXa
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcHGM3m6uR
But they care now, 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrywvalVmdF
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNSh1Ml7oe
Mixed signals is all they send249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU3Uwd6TGO
One day I matter to them 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYi74OfD00
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoNXZfxyFJ
A few months ago, I felt like flying 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY0JKwFr6X
A few months ago, I truly felt alive249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMC9imZjYL
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmvGwUJQSE
It's hard to explain with words,249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxUNzrqY6H
How the silence kills 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mbzL0uMOS
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUPTUzDbcQ
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wT89KcE5n
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywkAWh6Pt7
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVG6FStoil
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqLUz8xRxr
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9IPYGRtLf
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNbJMvtWg7
The little voice in my head, it screams it249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtzT93C56H
"This was their choice"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuar9xwFbfY
And to be lonely all the time is mine249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrOgi3r0JJ
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIq2e2Pv0C3
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcP58Ymmpyr
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0Ubduaxle
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6QPkMvK3K
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA6ov2j3cw
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViE6y5eiBt
I wish somebody would call249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOV5xbJjU7i
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5SmYvNZBa
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQnzZddCPd
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA9kE2oc6X
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27s1PqRYzP
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dHRNrqh8K
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqQ6sxpNNu
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
