White sheets stained red in a hotel bed308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfT9JSdukj4
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCwmxmhjvo
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiDwkcTuet
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTHSEXO94v
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuFwapURQB
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtBGUK27pE
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRdR6uXewT
Vivid visions invading my rest 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhiX10llcL
I can't sleep because all I see is death308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPomSvJqtfy
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFbNygBTD0
Thinking about death at such an early age308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwBsvrlyk4
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBbQwqqukB
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9qv3ngtoZ
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nTyZcKqJ4
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWadNDcNDXp
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcqeek11kW
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB6FS0TPx0
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBEyVWpToJ
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzM1Kh5fJh
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEDmxgthHD
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1HkFKTWqa
Nobody actually cares until you're dead308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WbeJZL7Gf
Until you're another headline in the news308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKt9rGoeLe
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxswtyzZUpk
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fEGe8MlU3
"I miss you today" 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBduF6ftRa9
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuaQcmWj66
But they care now, 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCiuBryjHv
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gD16sQbxT
Mixed signals is all they send308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna0vGh0zEM
One day I matter to them 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQnox0a2zE
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsLZ7BrAhe
A few months ago, I felt like flying 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXRL9M6J37
A few months ago, I truly felt alive308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoYck2UGVy
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kktAOvIyY
It's hard to explain with words,308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlF9IpTMVG
How the silence kills 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM9moFIqFn
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoAuOEfuxp
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLl4rChAsG5
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LXs4szf6X
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9Xm3z3tZt
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVK61oX5el
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9SnzL7NX1
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6htw9Q8TsV
The little voice in my head, it screams it308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5CFoMZYoD
"This was their choice"308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0nUcOb5Nk
And to be lonely all the time is mine308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTznIYwJ3VE
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdioHj36Do
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRVhuUW586
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBgIwALEGQ
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0AyPQ9NgH
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90N2xklalg
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53ybLE5Rx0
I wish somebody would call308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyo9VwFyscf
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75HZ3p5jeq
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6y81nhkWU0
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOy6wIIkcQU
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQd8S0GoOPM
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEpsieSun1
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mhapZfEqM
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
