I woke the next morning on the living room couch, my head nestled into the crook of Christian’s neck. He smelled of sweat and boy, and as I exhaled, I shook my head. I couldn’t do this now, think about him this way. It wasn’t right.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmTDStLQZx
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Slowly, he shifted and drew his arms around my body, pulling me closer so that my nose touched the pulse of his neck. I tried to untangle his arms when he cracked one, groggy, hazel eye open. He smiled lazily and blinked.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2hUQJOaw3
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“You’re leaving?” he asked, frowning.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEMwtqMseF
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“It’s morning,” I said. “Plus it’s my house and my mom should be getting up soon.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWDk5OR09N
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“Kendall.” Christian’s voice was calm. “What’s wrong with your mom?”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mcDGoVN9I
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I glanced behind my shoulder at him; he was sitting up and looking at me with his hair hanging in his eyes. I shook my head and wrapped my fingers in my hair, determined not to pull it out under the circumstances.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96GJxc2bSc
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“Nothing’s wrong with her,” I said. “Why would you think that?”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqzQMGFi43
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He stared at me, his lip twitching slightly. “Please. I’m not stupid. You could have called if you needed a place to stay.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjGzZMdsXu
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“This is my home,” I replied, my fingers itching to touch him. “I have to stay here, to help my mom. You’d do the same for yours.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1Pw0FzZ0o
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He nodded. “I would.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PIgyy3xLz
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What he was going to say was, I would if I had one485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FPp64wYIg
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Christian’s mom died in a car accident a few years ago, leaving him and his father to fend for themselves. All of this had been revealed the first night I met Christian, at a party over the summer. I had been sitting by myself and he had taken it upon himself to come over and talk to me.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA3czHM4Zx
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We had been inseparable since that night, when he asked for my number, and we’d constantly texted after that. I never told him about my dad, or my mom and her drinking problem, and it was supposed to stay that way, at least for awhile.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfGwOWXCE1
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“I have to go to a new doctor,” I said into the silence. I wondered if he even cared about that, or if he thought I was crazy for even going. “My mom said she made an appointment today.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrskGyE9ik4
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“I didn’t know you were seeing a therapist,” he said softly. The couch shifted as he moved off of it and crouched in front of me, reaching to take my hands. “I’ll go with you, if you want. I know it’s scary when you’re doing something new.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqWO2FW8CU
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I smiled slightly and leaned my head against his shoulder. “Thank you,” I whispered. I lifted my head to look into his face, my voice tightening from what I was about to say. “There are things about me that you don’t know, that no one knows, and if you come with me, you’re going to hear all of it.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVm8aIcpgQA
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“I don’t care,” he said, shaking his head. “I want to help.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8k2QBghLe
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I sighed, wondering how he would see me after this day, if he would even want to see me again. I tried not to think about that as we walked out onto the porch, his hand on the small of my back.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUPnO8lgrv
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“It will be okay,” he said. “I promise.”485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RJD0GHBLm
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When I turned to tell him I knew it would, that I’d be okay because I had a good friend with me, he bent his head and kissed me. 485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhbVDDwmi1
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