After the visit to the cemetery, I decided I wanted to go home and talk to my mom about the letter I found. I hadn't talked to anyone about it and I wanted to discuss it with her before my session with Dr. Alder tomorrow. I wonder if she would tell me to find him, or stay here and just wonder what could have been.506Please respect copyright.PENANAeAem3pbb5B
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I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. In all honesty, I hadn't thought about the letter for awhile. It's not that I didn't want to, it's just that to me, there were more pressing matters at hand. Like the nightmares. Something told me they were just going to keep getting worse. And what if I had a dream about killing Jared, and then he's found dead?506Please respect copyright.PENANAdrhXWHY03j
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Even though I'm not actually the one doing these things, it's terrifying to know that someone is. I feel like whoever it is, is trying to get to me, because they're murdering the people around me. First John, then Cassie. Who was next? That was the hardest thing to thing about. About who out of the people around me would be savagely killed, either shot, stabbed, or whatever else the killer chose to do to them.506Please respect copyright.PENANADRDyIx22GW
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These were the things I thought about as Jude drove me to my house. We didn't talk about Abbie, though I was curious, and we didn't talk about the kiss that never should have happened. We didn't talk about anything he turned down my road. Then he turned to me, his eyes serious.506Please respect copyright.PENANA1rDBuJrDoQ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAdmCpu0iIjc
"Kendall." His voice was urgent now. "I have to tell you something."506Please respect copyright.PENANAjyLHOQzFVl
506Please respect copyright.PENANA3fzC9YU4Ec
I looked at him. "If it's about the kiss, don't worry about it. I know it was wrong, that I shouldn't have done it. I have a boyfriend."506Please respect copyright.PENANASR8iEMjcjr
506Please respect copyright.PENANAOHu1Tc0IQ5
Jude scoffed. "Right. A boyfriend who just pushes you away and leaves you standing alone in an empty school parking lot. Tell me, have you heard from him since then?"506Please respect copyright.PENANA0XMPn8dwLZ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAJuqnGzNKF4
"Well no."506Please respect copyright.PENANA6o8lSIg8g4
506Please respect copyright.PENANASY5qhlGvUW
"Exactly. But that isn't what I wanted to talk about."506Please respect copyright.PENANA2rfuzTlMFU
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"Can it wait?" I asked as we pulled closer to my house. I opened the door and looked back at him.506Please respect copyright.PENANAJelm0qkpEH
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"No," he said, shaking his head. He reached over and cupped my cheek. "It wasn't supposed to be like this," he murmured, more to himself than me. "It was just fucking business, I was not supposed to get attached."506Please respect copyright.PENANAdK2Z4IcOLU
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I blinked, removed his hand, and said, "What's going on?"506Please respect copyright.PENANAvRvct09Bpi
506Please respect copyright.PENANAMVffm2e4pR
"Do you think it was by luck that I began talking to you? I wish it was. I wish I wasn't in this shitty situation, but I am, and I'm about to make it worse."506Please respect copyright.PENANAv7dyxjTVZg
506Please respect copyright.PENANAN2DvjxnyU0
"What are you talking about?"506Please respect copyright.PENANAXUZU5M9I3f
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The fact that he couldn't even look at me hurt. Slowly, I grasped his hand and held it tightly.506Please respect copyright.PENANA8tVJmaFemu
506Please respect copyright.PENANAq43SUFdmC8
"You can tell me anything, you know. I'm not going to judge you."506Please respect copyright.PENANApQlimyfjMF
506Please respect copyright.PENANA4kQ7ofTMpr
He looked at me and smiled. The smile was all wrong. It wasn't warm or caring, but like he knew whatever he had to tell me I wasn't going to like. That maybe I would hate it. Maybe I would hate him. I didn't think that last part was possible.506Please respect copyright.PENANAwBJck8lzfL
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"I was paid a lot of money to befriend you, Kendall. I was supposed to get information about you for someone. I don't even really know who the guy is, but anyway, I don't want to do it anymore. I care about you and I'm not willing to ruin what I have with you for a few bucks."506Please respect copyright.PENANA8hkciUydj8
506Please respect copyright.PENANA5Eu0ElHhYs
I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was so mad that I started to tremble. Every part of me wanted to hit him. When I spoke, my voice was chipped, bitter.506Please respect copyright.PENANAqBr9cfjNWZ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAfF3M8fRunP
"How much money?"506Please respect copyright.PENANAHtiW7KAqyW
506Please respect copyright.PENANAz747UigMgr
"Excuse me?" Jude said. He stammered a little when he said it. He wasn't expecting that question.506Please respect copyright.PENANA351YSqrwxZ
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"How much money were you offered to put up a false friendship? How much was my agony worth to you?" I glared at him. "How fucking much?" I slammed my foot into the dashboard of his car, breaking the glove compartment open. Papers fluttered out and I heard him make a noise, then I looked down.506Please respect copyright.PENANAHsRilZhFhJ
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My face, all different angles and views, stared up at me.506Please respect copyright.PENANAIt9GWLxr2M
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I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. In all honesty, I hadn't thought about the letter for awhile. It's not that I didn't want to, it's just that to me, there were more pressing matters at hand. Like the nightmares. Something told me they were just going to keep getting worse. And what if I had a dream about killing Jared, and then he's found dead?506Please respect copyright.PENANAdrhXWHY03j
506Please respect copyright.PENANAduL2GJHpzL
Even though I'm not actually the one doing these things, it's terrifying to know that someone is. I feel like whoever it is, is trying to get to me, because they're murdering the people around me. First John, then Cassie. Who was next? That was the hardest thing to thing about. About who out of the people around me would be savagely killed, either shot, stabbed, or whatever else the killer chose to do to them.506Please respect copyright.PENANADRDyIx22GW
506Please respect copyright.PENANAhZnLwxSKKy
These were the things I thought about as Jude drove me to my house. We didn't talk about Abbie, though I was curious, and we didn't talk about the kiss that never should have happened. We didn't talk about anything he turned down my road. Then he turned to me, his eyes serious.506Please respect copyright.PENANA1rDBuJrDoQ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAdmCpu0iIjc
"Kendall." His voice was urgent now. "I have to tell you something."506Please respect copyright.PENANAjyLHOQzFVl
506Please respect copyright.PENANA3fzC9YU4Ec
I looked at him. "If it's about the kiss, don't worry about it. I know it was wrong, that I shouldn't have done it. I have a boyfriend."506Please respect copyright.PENANASR8iEMjcjr
506Please respect copyright.PENANAOHu1Tc0IQ5
Jude scoffed. "Right. A boyfriend who just pushes you away and leaves you standing alone in an empty school parking lot. Tell me, have you heard from him since then?"506Please respect copyright.PENANA0XMPn8dwLZ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAJuqnGzNKF4
"Well no."506Please respect copyright.PENANA6o8lSIg8g4
506Please respect copyright.PENANASY5qhlGvUW
"Exactly. But that isn't what I wanted to talk about."506Please respect copyright.PENANA2rfuzTlMFU
506Please respect copyright.PENANAdMNoTsmwsT
"Can it wait?" I asked as we pulled closer to my house. I opened the door and looked back at him.506Please respect copyright.PENANAJelm0qkpEH
506Please respect copyright.PENANAJAtYJtY2pI
"No," he said, shaking his head. He reached over and cupped my cheek. "It wasn't supposed to be like this," he murmured, more to himself than me. "It was just fucking business, I was not supposed to get attached."506Please respect copyright.PENANAdK2Z4IcOLU
506Please respect copyright.PENANA2wplWfTHTw
I blinked, removed his hand, and said, "What's going on?"506Please respect copyright.PENANAvRvct09Bpi
506Please respect copyright.PENANAMVffm2e4pR
"Do you think it was by luck that I began talking to you? I wish it was. I wish I wasn't in this shitty situation, but I am, and I'm about to make it worse."506Please respect copyright.PENANAv7dyxjTVZg
506Please respect copyright.PENANAN2DvjxnyU0
"What are you talking about?"506Please respect copyright.PENANAXUZU5M9I3f
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The fact that he couldn't even look at me hurt. Slowly, I grasped his hand and held it tightly.506Please respect copyright.PENANA8tVJmaFemu
506Please respect copyright.PENANAq43SUFdmC8
"You can tell me anything, you know. I'm not going to judge you."506Please respect copyright.PENANApQlimyfjMF
506Please respect copyright.PENANA4kQ7ofTMpr
He looked at me and smiled. The smile was all wrong. It wasn't warm or caring, but like he knew whatever he had to tell me I wasn't going to like. That maybe I would hate it. Maybe I would hate him. I didn't think that last part was possible.506Please respect copyright.PENANAwBJck8lzfL
506Please respect copyright.PENANAUskLMoz4op
"I was paid a lot of money to befriend you, Kendall. I was supposed to get information about you for someone. I don't even really know who the guy is, but anyway, I don't want to do it anymore. I care about you and I'm not willing to ruin what I have with you for a few bucks."506Please respect copyright.PENANA8hkciUydj8
506Please respect copyright.PENANA5Eu0ElHhYs
I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was so mad that I started to tremble. Every part of me wanted to hit him. When I spoke, my voice was chipped, bitter.506Please respect copyright.PENANAqBr9cfjNWZ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAfF3M8fRunP
"How much money?"506Please respect copyright.PENANAHtiW7KAqyW
506Please respect copyright.PENANAz747UigMgr
"Excuse me?" Jude said. He stammered a little when he said it. He wasn't expecting that question.506Please respect copyright.PENANA351YSqrwxZ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAQwOsn0gl38
"How much money were you offered to put up a false friendship? How much was my agony worth to you?" I glared at him. "How fucking much?" I slammed my foot into the dashboard of his car, breaking the glove compartment open. Papers fluttered out and I heard him make a noise, then I looked down.506Please respect copyright.PENANAHsRilZhFhJ
506Please respect copyright.PENANAMcMCmV6Cah
My face, all different angles and views, stared up at me.506Please respect copyright.PENANAIt9GWLxr2M