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No Plagiarism!IE3wMHingJDm7GJHEkdDposted on PENANA 漁港的風還是一樣充滿腥味。8964 copyright protection445PENANAbtmMzvIS41 維尼
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從位於市區的學校,到阿嬤所在的水湳洞漁港,車程約兩小時。平日放學後不可能往返,柳思堇與柳思宇討論後,便決定輪流在週末探訪。8964 copyright protection445PENANAOcXnnRqTi9 維尼
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中午抵達後,柳思堇扛著好幾個沉甸甸的袋子,在逼近35度的高溫下行走。除了用柳思宇零用錢買來的藥品外,她也在當地市場買了些水果,想著能給老人家補充維生素。8964 copyright protection445PENANACwNpUJmLBG 維尼
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⋯⋯真該補充的能量的人,是我才對啊。8964 copyright protection445PENANAg8qM1vn25u 維尼
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望著略有斜度的狹窄坡道,柳思堇心生退意,恨不得衝回去超商吹冷氣,等到避開正午時段再出發。但早與阿嬤約定好時間,依照以往的經驗,對方肯定一早就開始準備飯菜了。8964 copyright protection445PENANAm8fehfZ12z 維尼
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讓誰失望都可以,唯獨拉拔自己成長的阿嬤不行。8964 copyright protection445PENANAj7USSNYskJ 維尼
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記憶是很殘酷的,儘管她不想忘記與父母相處的日子,卻還是在七年內流失了大半。與阿嬤一起北上討生活的記憶,確實清晰許多。8964 copyright protection445PENANAYbnU5qjCL9 維尼
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柳思堇還記得阿嬤為了姐弟倆,不分晝夜撥打陌生親戚電話的背影。低聲下氣地,彷彿拋開所有尊嚴,只為了能讓兩個受創的孩子得到歸宿。8964 copyright protection445PENANA8kEsVWIE8c 維尼
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經過一番波折,最終確認收留。在離別前,阿嬤將最簡便的行囊交給二阿姨後,俯身輕拍了柳思堇的頭頂,並露出了欣慰的笑容。8964 copyright protection445PENANA0HunwqjmrJ 維尼
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「阿堇呀,跟叔叔阿姨一起生活,就能吃好穿好,幸福快樂了哦——」8964 copyright protection445PENANACi1a9M7pW8 維尼
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——如果,我說沒有呢?8964 copyright protection445PENANAoDxDooMDaE 維尼
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但,那是阿嬤付出一切後換來的希望,她一定得做到。8964 copyright protection445PENANAMVuNBhPoF3 維尼
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爬上好幾個斜坡後,柳思堇終於在約定時間前,抵達阿嬤獨居的獨棟矮房。8964 copyright protection445PENANA134ieaS7Tk 維尼
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大門永遠都不會鎖,只要輕輕一推就能打開了。於是,柳思堇熟練地用腳踢開後,一邊扯著喉嚨高喊走入,「阿嬤!阿堇來了啦——」8964 copyright protection445PENANAiVp8h34wQq 維尼
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沒多久後,便看見一個傴僂著腰,慈眉善目的老人廚房內出現,「哦!阿堇,今天比較早來啊,阿嬤才剛煮好,還沒盛——」8964 copyright protection445PENANA9OFmOfgZPx 維尼
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「沒關係啦,慢慢來!」柳思堇用屁股把門關好後,將手中的行囊卸在客廳桌上,並開始一一講解,「阿嬤,這袋是我用柳思宇的零用——嗯,我跟思宇一起買的藥啦!阿嬤好像頭痛吼?可以吃這些藥,然後啊,這袋是我剛買的水果,等等我們一起吃!」8964 copyright protection445PENANAzOXMzEEKIV 維尼
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——幹,差點說溜嘴了。8964 copyright protection445PENANAruJhv8vKKR 維尼
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要是被阿嬤知道自己沒錢,肯定會被塞紅包的。柳思堇臉皮雖厚,但還沒淪落到要跟清寒老人要錢的程度。8964 copyright protection445PENANAWtRE1oeXPj 維尼
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患有重聽的阿嬤見狀,露出不好意思的笑容,「哎呦不用啦,阿嬤頭已經不痛了,還讓妳們花這麼多錢,真歹勢——」8964 copyright protection445PENANA58rUSKl2Hd 維尼
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「沒差啦,反正不是我的——不,我是說,阿嬤不客氣呦。」8964 copyright protection445PENANAXcGT7JDOyD 維尼
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柳思堇摀住差點梅開二度的嘴,手不小心朝桌面一揮,就這麼把原有的物品掃下桌。8964 copyright protection445PENANAuLeam9cVeR 維尼
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她連忙撿起,發現那是阿嬤一直帶著的護身符。斑駁的菱形木片中央有一朵花,認不清品種,其花瓣層層堆疊,精緻到不像手工製品。449Please respect copyright.PENANAeTA0JWsLbK
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一邊熟練地洗著水槽堆積的碗盤,眼看廚房烹煮的料理大多完成,柳思堇便跟準備重返崗位的阿嬤道,「阿嬤,這些我準備就好了,妳在客廳等就好了!」8964 copyright protection445PENANAOnvAseY209 維尼
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「好,這些東西裝一裝就可以吃了。」阿嬤說完後,便立刻轉身往客廳移動,同時瞇眼笑著,「阿堇好勤勞哦,真是乖孫呀——」8964 copyright protection445PENANAckylegRjhW 維尼
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儘管類似的讚許,已經聽過成千上萬次,柳思堇還是會感到心梗。8964 copyright protection445PENANAq8BWQexIj2 維尼
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她不能違反當初與柳思宇做的決定——只要在阿嬤面前,就要拿出最好的一面。這條規則,對裡外統一的柳思宇來說不是難事,但對活得一塌糊塗的柳思堇而言,猶如換了人格演出。8964 copyright protection445PENANATeo19cSWcq 維尼
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——要是知道自己在學校沒朋友,阿嬤肯定會傷心的吧?8964 copyright protection445PENANAvhKtOtxESo 維尼
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畢竟,家人身亡一定是相當大的打擊,年事已高,肯定無法承受更多了。所以,柳思堇決定至少在阿嬤有生之年,都得裝成一個滿分的現充,不讓她掛心。8964 copyright protection445PENANACHaVMByh1v 維尼
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哪怕是要欺騙自己,也無所謂。反正,柳思堇早就學會說謊,那些善意的謊言,能張口就來。8964 copyright protection445PENANAPeWNLtKuAp 維尼
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「阿堇啊,妳真乖哦,還帶功課來這邊寫。」8964 copyright protection445PENANA3CsVOHzPpm 維尼
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準備好飯菜,兩人一起在客廳吃飯時,阿嬤看見從柳思堇後書包中露出的日記本,立刻欣慰地說。8964 copyright protection445PENANAwjRw0nbfBX 維尼
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柳思堇立刻放下碗筷,將書包的拉鍊關起,嘴裡的食物尚未咀嚼完畢,立刻解釋,「對,我有在認真讀書啦,最近要考試了!」8964 copyright protection445PENANAzU9SicSBeO 維尼
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——幸好阿嬤不識字。8964 copyright protection445PENANApOp88alKU0 維尼
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要是能辨讀封面的字,就能知道那是什麼。雖然作為取悅人的立場,讓阿嬤知道有朋友寫交換日記,是件利大於弊的好事,但與巫祈海有關的話題,柳思堇覺得越保守越好。8964 copyright protection445PENANAsVuwKqcGZr 維尼
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畢竟,只要碰上巫祈海相關,自己就會瞬間像打結的毛線一樣,亂了陣腳。8964 copyright protection445PENANAWveEolKuYt 維尼
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搭火車前往瑞芳的途中,因為無聊,柳思堇便把栽培日記打開,隨便寫了第一篇紀錄。內容相當直白,兩句描述育苗盆準備好就結束,毫無任何心得感言。8964 copyright protection445PENANAgyw4vLF454 維尼
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⋯⋯所以說,到底有什麼意義呢?8964 copyright protection445PENANA4Y2mYNqckr 維尼
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即使還是無法理解,但潛移默化地,柳思堇突然開始好奇對方會寫些什麼了。8964 copyright protection445PENANAXGmdSLYUjT 維尼
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「阿堇啊——」阿嬤一邊替柳思堇夾菜,一邊疼惜地開口,「其實,妳跟阿宇不用勉強這樣每週來,把時間留給自己更好啦,跟朋友出去玩吧?」8964 copyright protection445PENANA9oHn9SdAmg 維尼
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「我沒有朋⋯⋯哦,沒事啦,跟朋友其他時間也可以玩啊。」因還沉浸在思考中,柳思堇再度露餡,趕緊改口,「而且沒有勉強啊,我很喜歡阿嬤,也喜歡瑞芳,才會想來這裡,真的——台北煩死人了啦——娃娃機的爪子都超緊的——」8964 copyright protection445PENANATxyIzPnl7d 維尼
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騙人的,我才沒錢去玩抓娃娃。8964 copyright protection445PENANA4SlBPByeOj 維尼
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「那就好啦。」對於這莫名的都市厭惡發言,阿嬤仍然開懷笑著,眼中突然閃過一絲哀傷,「哎,妳跟妳媽真的很像呢,總是很替人著想。」8964 copyright protection445PENANAwJGNumWc1R 維尼
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——不妙。8964 copyright protection445PENANAtohPpCOzUc 維尼
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柳思堇趕緊吐出魚刺,以免因即將聽到的話噎到。8964 copyright protection445PENANAhMOvgxP53l 維尼
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「對了,今年的祭拜,妳跟阿宇也會一起去吼?」8964 copyright protection445PENANApTdhqHOce2 維尼
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——果然,不好的預感都是真的。8964 copyright protection445PENANAzQhaA7QtmG 維尼
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又一陣翻滾的絞痛從胸口擴散,就算掛在牆上的風扇使勁往頭頂吹,溫度依舊未減,額間不斷冒汗。8964 copyright protection445PENANAFGSad0Fzbx 維尼
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因為阿嬤行動不便,無法回花蓮祭拜,所以一直以來,姐弟倆都對外宣稱一起回去,實質上自從國中後,柳思堇就再也沒回去了。8964 copyright protection445PENANA0gbHPl1sgD 維尼
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依照以往,柳思堇都能形如流水回答。或許是該死的花吐症影響,她思考變得緩慢,逐漸失去了說謊的靈敏度。8964 copyright protection445PENANAt8Sp6yJbfi 維尼
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她趕緊調整好狀態,向阿嬤微微一笑,「是啊,我會去哦。」8964 copyright protection445PENANAOs3k8FTKOU 維尼
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——原來謊言是無形的慢性病,掩蓋了整整三年,最終還是出現病徵了。8964 copyright protection445PENANALIH1Rxu5Do 維尼
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通常吃完飯後,柳思堇會獨自在阿嬤家周遭閒晃,餵餵跟附近的野貓,這次也不例外。穿越崎嶇不平地址窄路後,便能看見由大海作為背景的空地,在她記憶裡,這裡曾是一片小花圃,如今全枯光了。8964 copyright protection445PENANAEX5YjnP9Wc 維尼
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「喵嗚——」8964 copyright protection445PENANAk8v52kqt2c 維尼
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柳思堇隨意吱了幾聲,立刻出現幾隻不同花色的貓,前來討飯吃。她將順路買來的罐頭打開,放在地上後,立刻被貓群包圍。8964 copyright protection445PENANA5Vf8OxVGVE 維尼
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一邊輕柔撫著柔順的貓背,柳思堇坐在地上,隨意用手機播著BGM,遙望遠處幾乎與藍天融為一體的港口,不曉得是第幾次萌生,乾脆畢業後來這裡當海女的念頭。8964 copyright protection445PENANArLZ0URJFyu 維尼
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——真漂亮啊。8964 copyright protection445PENANABvrxhnrWG4 維尼
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每當望向一望無際的大海,嗅著帶著鹹味的海風時,柳思堇總能感覺內心有什麼被撫平了。可能是因為眼前的光景太祥和,海浪一波波襲來,有種能捲走所有陰霾的錯覺。8964 copyright protection445PENANACpZl5L91mD 維尼
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大海⋯⋯海⋯⋯8964 copyright protection445PENANATx3BfiptRL 維尼
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這麼說來,學姐確實有個很漂亮的名字呢。8964 copyright protection445PENANAbXYmRbJYyi 維尼
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她的雙眼,也如同大海般,有股能容納百川的深沉。遼闊悠遠,歲月靜好。8964 copyright protection445PENANAoOxWMIwgWk 維尼
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——巫祈海會喜歡這樣的地方嗎?8964 copyright protection445PENANAOZsxgoEqBN 維尼
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腦中油然而生的想法,突兀地讓她不明所以。沉澱三秒後,她又覺得這沒什麼大不了,不過是好奇心使然的疑問罷了。8964 copyright protection445PENANA45jopxBug8 維尼
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沒錯,誰不喜歡大海啊,名字裡還有個海字耶!就默認她喜歡好了——8964 copyright protection445PENANA6GjrhJ7I3Y 維尼
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兜圈的想法無法結束,疑惑不斷放大,最終柳思堇拿出一直收在身邊的名片,將上頭寫著的帳號輸入通訊軟體,隨便命名後,立刻拍了張海港的照片,發送出去。8964 copyright protection445PENANAxoEz4z8Aqx 維尼
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柳思堇再次搞不懂了。8964 copyright protection445PENANAjO8o427IyF 維尼
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況且,巫祈海明明說的是「如果反悔」才要聯繫她,並沒有說可以聊天。甚至客觀來看,大小姐不可能跟自己這種草民交流吧?要是被看見的話,可能會被嘲笑吧——8964 copyright protection445PENANAkMO7whSTK8 維尼
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當她自覺羞赧,想把訊息收回時,立刻聽見了回訊的通知聲。8964 copyright protection445PENANA0SJv9EkcA8 維尼
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柳思堇低頭望著螢幕,深綠色的瞳孔像貓眼一樣睜大。8964 copyright protection445PENANANF0AWroFII 維尼
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這是睽違了數年以來,她再次收到朋友的訊息。8964 copyright protection445PENANAaHWydHZRYY 維尼
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頓時身體產生了複雜的反應,心率上升,血液像回流般滾燙,同時伴隨陣陣抽痛,與——8964 copyright protection445PENANAZ5kkQSXuof 維尼
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「靠!幹嘛回覆啊,這就不像大小姐——唔噁——」8964 copyright protection445PENANArkrtgGmmny 維尼
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感覺有什麼即將由嘴溢出,柳思堇趕緊離開野貓周遭,趴到遠處的草叢嘔吐。因為周遭沒有任何花朵,無法聽見熟悉的花精靈吐槽,卻誤打誤撞地,能聽清自己的心跳聲。8964 copyright protection445PENANAR04qtDulTO 維尼
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身邊的野花枯萎了,而她荒蕪的心田,卻感覺有什麼萌芽了。8964 copyright protection445PENANADiijp9ssxn 維尼
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