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"Yeah, hyung put it in there" I said referring to the water Alex is holding, I put the remaining coke in the cooler and tried carrying it but the cooler is heavier than I thought it would be
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There were staff around but I don't think my social battery is full enough to talk to them, I don't want to mistakenly say the wrong thing, I didn't even try to carry it after trying it once, someone would do that
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Alex chuckles and I eye him "I thought you were so strong, you don't need me to help you" I didn't need him to help me because it was way lighter before we added the bottled water "I still didn't ask you for help, but since you are talking already, carry it" he chuckles lightly before lifting it in one go
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I need to work out more
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Never mind that wasn't me talking
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I helped him open the door thinking about tripping him for teasing me but I pardoned him because I am a forgiving queen
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Bless my heart
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"Oh we forgot hyung's Gatorade" I groaned before going back to get it
How would he like Gatorade that much and hate other drinks like his life depends on it
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the fan sign has been quite interesting, I am not supposed to be here right now but our show would have no content if I stay at the house and the show has quite the audience
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something I never expected
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Although the show is mainly based on whatever the fans want, this is what the boys want
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They told me to come out of my shell and stop being afraid of people
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it is fun watching them smile and laugh, it is something I never thought I would be seeing in person, I've never been to their fan meet mainly because I don't have the money to travel to them
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I was supposed to help them, that is what I am here for but they are not allowing me to do anything, either one of them collects it from me or the staff does it
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I smile at sae won who is asking if I am comfortable still teasing me in the process since it would be unlike him if he doesn't tease the crap out of me
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He said I looked uncomfortable which I am, it is not really all sunshine to be under the scrutinizing gaze of their fan
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I am squirming in this little corner hoping three hour goes by fast and they finish the fan sign
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Alex stands up and leaves with the empty carton of gum I had brought with the cooler earlier, I stand up immediately, I am dying here and I followed him because I am here to help them but I am just sitting and doing nothing surprisingly or unsurprisingly something was thrown from the crowd and it's almost hit me I quickly dodged protecting my face from whatever the object was but it never came I only felt a presence beside me it was Hyun Joon who got stoned instead
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I want to help him get what he has on his cloth off but we are in public and I can't just touch them
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I mean I don't want to die today I turn to call one of the male staff but he was already rushing towards us
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The girl who stoned me already looked as apologetic as she could probably because she hit the wrong target and was escorted out by a staff member
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A girl gave Alex the exact teddy bear I have at home, the one with the camera, I picked the teddy bear and throw it in with the pile in the room they put all the gift
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I should remember to tell Rina unni about the toy in case it is like mine, that has a camera attached to it
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I doubt this girl will try to spy on them because of her demeanor and how she carries herself "you guys look good together, the chemistry is undeniable" she whispers to Alex, and saying we look dumbfounded is an understatement, I expect Alex to look annoyed
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They are saying it online and here they are saying it right to his face again
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She waves at me and all I can do is smile at her sheepishly
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"당신은 나에게 슈퍼 히어로와 같습니다 {You are like a superhero to me}" a girl said while handing roo won a wrapped box which I am very sure contains an iPhone you should see the number of phones the fans has given them as a gift
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moon's room is decorated with excessive teddy bears same with Alex's room and I'm sure the others are going to be like that too
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They all cherish the gifts the fans send or give to them and they keep them around them like a treasure
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some girls were complimenting me while others just give me the death glare
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I just have to smile sweetly all the time
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Just for three hours, I keep reminding myself
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"당신은 너무 잘 생긴 오빠 {You are so handsome oppa}" one of the girls told him and his ear started turning red getting shy all of a sudden
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I am going to tease him about that, he knows he's handsome, he talks about it nonstop back at the house
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Sae won hyung is looking around probably searching for me, he did a thumbs up and a thumbs down when he spotted me in the crowd and I gave a thumbs up smiling at him
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One girl just looked at me as if she would bury me six feet under if I mistakenly touched her Oppa
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I feel so exhausted and I didn't work as much as they did, the smiling made my teeth ache, I put some ice pack on my cheek
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I thought my smile would be fake all through but it wasn't
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I was excited, I get why they are always smiling while complaining of being tired they get all the love and everything so it makes whatever pain they go through worth it
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Mr bang has no chill, he could have given us a little time to rest, he called Alex and me immediately after the fan sign he told us to check the comment online it was mainly about me and Alex Hyung
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Posts telling me to stay away from their oppa, I don't know how to stay away from him more than I am already doing
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They've never paired us in games and we hardly talk to each other during the show how on Earth am I supposed to keep my distance again
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Well, what can I do apart from looking sheepishly at Mr bang hoping he would stop glaring at me "비밀연애 중이냐 {are you in a secret relationship}" I turned to look at Alex who has the same expression as mine, exhaustion written all over him "아니, 우리가 있기를 원하니? {No, do you want us to be}" I think I need to pick my jaw off the floor cause what?
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"무엇? {What?}" Mr bang turned to me but I am honestly as confused as he is, he shook his head looking as if he couldn't tolerate one more minute with the both of us
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they are the ones making my heart beat at every random moment and they're the ones sleeping right now, I can't sleep all I can think of is how Hyun Joon got hit instead of me and how my insides turned upside down
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I have tried brushing it off but I just start thinking of one of them randomly, I feel like this is just a phase or at least I'm going to tell myself that, maybe I've been too engrossed in what I like and I haven't tried to find love out of it, I think I should download a dating app, something to get my mind off the fact that I like two of the members
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I'm still trying to fall asleep thinking of going downstairs to get some water because I feel thirsty and there's no water here like it is in my room at home
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there is no way I would get down on my bed without hitting at least five different bottles at home
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my mini-reminiscing was cut short when I heard a knock on the door
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I quickly stand up to go and unlock it I know it is Alex and I am more than happy that he is here, I think I haven't been able to sleep because I was waiting for him to knock like always, it is becoming a routine
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He closed the door silently, he did his little hand wave and he went to sit at the edge of the bed, his usual spot
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"What movie should we watch today" we watch at least two movies in a day but I've run out of movie suggestions and I don't want to watch a movie I haven't watched before because of steamy scenes "we should watch a Korean drama if we don't finish it tonight we'll finish it tomorrow" I shrug, "you said you missed watching them" you know what is hot about guys
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if they remember the little things you talked to them about
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"do you have anything in mind?" there are movies I've been recommended to watch but I can't remember any of them "somebody is a crime drama and beyond evil is also a crime drama" I don't want to watch any romance drama with him, I don't want things to be awkward
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I haven't seen the somebody trailer so I'm not sure if it'll be interesting but I've seen the beyond evil trailer and I liked the main lead but Alex chose somebody
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I was running away from a romance movie and the first scene that comes on is a sex scene, I know not all Korean dramas were innocent but I didn't expect this, I can feel my cheek burning up, I started looking everywhere but the tv screen I suddenly found the ceiling attractive and interesting, Alex looks unfazed, I started thinking about the fact that he might think I put the drama on purpose I suddenly felt the need to explain my self
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"I didn't see the trailer, lets's watch another one, it was suggested in a group chat" I began rambling and Alex just chuckles beside me "relax, it is just a drama, I know you didn't choose that on purpose, you've been avoiding all romance movie like a plague"
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so he noticed
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about two hours into the drama Alex excused himself he said he wanted to ease himself only to open the door and find moon standing there "hyung?" bury me now
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How am I supposed to explain this, and how am I supposed to explain the moans coming from the tv
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I chuckled awkwardly and did the little wave thing Alex does "noona I feel betrayed" the drama in his voice and the hurt look on his face completed the acting, I must give him a thumbs up he learned from the best
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"if I knew you weren't asleep, I would have called you" I would have, three heads are better than two "or are you two secretly dating like the fans said" I want to punch him but he looks too cute with his puffy face and hair band
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"We were just watching TV, I think your noona would tell you if we started dating" if we started dating? is he playing right now or the lack of sleep is making me hear things "we both couldn't sleep, so we..." Alex pushed him out of his way "do you need to explain to him?" wow look at Alex making this seem like something it isn't, he is earning himself questions for tomorrow
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"아니, 설명 {no, explain}"
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"We couldn't fall asleep so we decided to watch a movie" Alex explains as if he was forced to "넌 나에게 전화했어야 했어 {you should have called me}" Alex looks like he could punch moon in the face any moment from now
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Moon invited himself in and I smiled at his action, I went back to take my position and also changed the drama to Mr beans
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Alex rolled his eyes at him before excusing himself to go pee
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"Oh I love Mr beans noona" I grew up watching Mr beans and George of the jungle, I can even say some things along with them
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"That's my seat" Alex my petty king "there are a lot of spaces where you can seat" you know what makes all this even more fun, the fact that they are trying their best to be quiet
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"you should sign there" I have always wanted to model I just didn't know it would happen talkless of modeling for a Korean brand trying to extend their products to black people
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I was so surprised when Mr bang asked if I was interested in modeling, it is something I would never have expected, especially since it is Mr bang who called for me
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He told me I have gotten up to three modeling offers and he just chose the best one for me, I would never have believed he had my best interest in mind, he asked me if I was interested in acting in a drama, I don't know the first thing about acting, my acting skills come from years of lying to my mother
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with everything done he didn't forget to tell me about the petition that was signed asking the agency to add more girls to the house so that I won't be the only one with the boys they don't trust me at all
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Mr bang explained to me that he won't accept every invitation for me to become a model because I have to be a little bit picky
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It's like I didn't even go through the struggling stage of everything, I just shot to stardom and people just loved me, I never had any expectations of fans watching the show but it happened
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I knew Alist is popular but I didn't expect people to be interested in a variety show that was announced impromptu
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Rina unni made sure to warn me about whatever I would accept with the agency too, she told me they want the best for me, but they can be controlling if I accept everything without some sort of complaint
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"you are naive and would be easy to cheat, so don't get cheated" she couldn't say all those in Korea so she did it with a translator app I feel grateful that she is advising me, that means she likes me even though she didn't explain that I was going to model when she was giving the advice
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I took a tour around the agency when Rina unni went to take care of some of the business she came for, she is always busy
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The agency is like a fortress and every door leads to another classy looking room, trainees are training in different rooms "안녕하세요 크리스탈언니 {hi Crystal unni}" I haven't been disappointed with the amount of beauty that exists inside this company
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She looks very young and if she is calling me unni that means I'm older than her "나는 팬이다 {I am a fan}" I still get surprised when girls come up to me and tell me they are fans of mine, it still feels new and unreal and it is abnormal for me to still freeze when they do
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"나도 너의 팬이야 {I'm a fan too}" she is one of the trainees for the new group that is about to debut, I've always thought she looked sweet and she did not disappoint me "I'm rooting for you" I said smiling at her "저도요 {me too}" I think she was about to say something but she was called back into the room and I took the opportunity to run away
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Don't get me wrong I love her, I've just exhausted my social battery
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I've been told several times that Koreans aren't welcoming to strangers especially black strangers although I haven't been on the street, the people I've met have been the sweetest apart from the fan sign and that is still understandable
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"치킨이 먼저인거 같아요 {The chicken came first}" they argue about the most random thing
"확실히 계란이 먼저다 {Eggs definitely comes first}" I should sneak in because I don't want to be caught up in this argument especially since it is sae won and Soo yang, who would I have expected the most unusual duo if you ask me
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"Noona" Lord, wasn't I sneaky enough? "who do you think came first, the chicken or the egg" Hyun Joon pulled him away from me
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"그녀는 피곤하겠지, 귀찮게 하지마 {She must be tired don't bother her"
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I tried to tell them I wasn't tired but they all didn't buy it, I think it is best if I sleep early today, I haven't had a proper sleep for three days now
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I only had two hours of sleep yesterday
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I laid on the bed, watching from the middle, moon had fallen asleep before us and we had both made fun of him he rested his head on the bed, I must have fallen asleep too because Alex and I were facing each other
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He is on the sofa with his head on the bed while I had fallen asleep on the bed and facing him, our face was so close that I jerked backed and almost hit Soo yang in the process, I admired him for a while before waking them both to go to their rooms
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My body feels so relaxed as I take the much-needed shower, I rub the soap through my hair massaging my scalp in the process, my mum always does this for me or sometimes Paris, I suffer from persistent migraine and the massage helps a lot
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After washing the soap out of my hair I just stayed in the bathtub splashing water now and then
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My mum would be at the diner by now, working her ass off and not being appreciated by disgustingly rude customer
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Sometimes I wished some people were not born because of how rude and inconsiderate they are
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I didn't realize I already started crying until I felt a tear on my hand, I cleaned my face and stand up to wash the soap lather away
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Moon's bed is so comfy that half of the time I've fallen asleep on it was unplanned and the other half was just to take a quick rest only to wake up the next day
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I turned a little, I feel like my body is a little bit at ease right now, and I feel rested I turned on my laptop to video chat my mum and Paris who promised to be together with my mum and Tommy, Alaska is about seventeen hours ahead of Korea but we try to make it work
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"We've been expecting your call since forever" I smiled at my brother who looks like he is going to cry at any moment, I also notice the subtle hint of closeness between the both of them, I winked at Paris who only chuckled in return while my brother put his hand around her back
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Wow wow
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"there is nobody to leave a trail of cake around the house, I seriously miss yelling at you" it happened once and my mum won't even let go of it "mum, it happened once, I cleaned up after myself from that day" even if I was some untidy and dirty person, I won't be able to keep on being dirty not with the amount of yelling my mum did "at least you did it, now I have something to talk about, I was sick of you being too perfect all the time" I heard ringing in the background and my mum quickly went to attend to it "give us some girl time will you lover boy" he glares at me before proceeding to stand up anyways
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"You didn't tell me you guys were already together" and I could have sworn Paris is blushing, is she shy? "Oh my god, tell me, something girl, I'm dying for details" I perked up "do you really wanna hear the details," she asked wiggling her eyebrow "no I don't wanna, I don't wanna" I yelled quickly, I don't want to learn about their sexual escapade because that face means she is about to give me details
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"It just happened, he kissed...." I started using my hand to cover my ear and making random noises "what are my girls talking about" that is my brother in one of my wigs and bright red lipstick on "Tommy what?" Paris is dying of laughter and I was too "you said only the girls, look at me I'm a girl" why is he so hilarious "we were just talking about this handsome hunk with a freakishly huge di.." My brother and I yelled her name at the same time "Paris has no filter" my brother nodded exaggerating the head nod "you are telling me that?" I am smiling from head to head
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The little relief I felt was over and the body ache was beginning to kick in again "what about Alex" I looked at my brother as if giving her a hint to stop talking while he was there "he knows already, I told him" she said nonchalantly, this is the problem with being friends with girls that tell their boyfriend everything "and he stalked him" what? "Don't put it like that, I only watched a few of his videos online, and now they keep showing up everywhere" Paris look at him lovingly, I can't take all these googly eyes "he watches every episode of the show too" that's my brother, the one that pretends like he can't care less and there he is watching every episode
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"I know he loves me" my brother made a gagging noise before throwing the wig away "mum is gonna be pissed brother" he shrugs "how do people survive this, my friend cosplays and he uses a wig all the time, god I feel like I am in hot water" I roll my eyes at him, nobody told him to wear it
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