假如我未曾見過太陽485Please respect copyright.PENANASTlIg1kK4g
Had I not seen the Sun485Please respect copyright.PENANAyv6ekFXLOY
那我便能忍受黑暗
I could have borne the shade485Please respect copyright.PENANAWKHFa24BWH
可如今,陽光一新內心的荒原
But Light a newer Wilderness
照耀得我更於荒蕪485Please respect copyright.PENANAjMjGLqUq8R
My Wilderness has made—485Please respect copyright.PENANALzzy5FcqiO
——艾蜜莉・狄金生(Emily Dickinson)485Please respect copyright.PENANAI22hWjlhqG
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拉開窗簾。485Please respect copyright.PENANA7KodjWJCBb
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人們的遲暮之年在盛夏到來的陽光下更顯得虛浮,所謂退休生活,就在疲憊與衰老接踵而來後便實現。485Please respect copyright.PENANAaDVQO9GjBQ
廚房的流理台被瓶瓶罐罐堆疊地滿坑滿谷,附在櫥櫃上的陳年油垢如瀝青般黏在上面,生活就像是那樣——宛如一千個同樣的清晨,施瓦茨夫婦收拾床鋪後,妻子便煮起咖啡,隨意地為麵包塗上奶油、肉醬,敲開雞蛋、放入培根於平底鍋內油滋滋地翻炒。485Please respect copyright.PENANAiNwm8NS4A3
丈夫蹣跚地走到餐桌,頹然地坐著。先望住窗外的風景,再往桌上一看,報紙早已被妻子預先放在旁邊,過去幾周前會想翻開讀看看,如今卻只想無關緊要地發呆。485Please respect copyright.PENANAS5FDXOHUWi
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「吃飯了。」妻子端著一盤培根炒蛋、麵包夾肉醬,走到呆滯的丈夫旁。485Please respect copyright.PENANAIGn5LKiITw
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突然不知從哪出現訕笑聲,老夫妻皆望向前方的落地窗蹙眉了一下,旋即又做回自己該做的事。485Please respect copyright.PENANAFVisAstVbi
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「你還記得隔壁貝克牧師一家嗎?」妻子說:「他庭院種的櫛瓜長度刷新鎮上的新紀錄,真令人羡慕啊。」485Please respect copyright.PENANAGzOIFZJZen
「長歸長,但總是要切開來吃的。」丈夫想用刀切下培根,不過顫抖的手無法正常動作,最後乾脆用叉子固定住,直接送入口中、改用牙齒嚙咬。485Please respect copyright.PENANA1hD6bwDrka
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此時,又好像什麼都不能說了。485Please respect copyright.PENANA2ylIFaIxFR
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雖是清晨,不過還殘存些許夜中清逸,露水因薰蒸而產下一層薄霧,一些鳥鳴啁啾在外環繞,甚是某種宜人的幻覺。485Please respect copyright.PENANAYCqBfdCTeM
夫妻倆都不想打開面前的落地窗。485Please respect copyright.PENANAQ54Uax9gG7
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妻子喝罄咖啡,欲洗下肉醬麵包纏於口腔內的油膩,瞥見牆上裱框的日曆風景照——上有美好的沙灘、遊人如織——又開口問道:「還記得……」485Please respect copyright.PENANAcCbJ2i1F7c
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此時又出現些許咳嗽聲,老夫婦暫時停止緬懷過往,又往落地窗方向一看,半晌之後,又回去想關於自己的事。485Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0fVusx6vb
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「……還記得過去你當水手,而我在海濱飯店當侍應的日子?」她撥弄著充滿皺摺的雙手,就好像沒其他事好做一樣。485Please respect copyright.PENANAlrJL5i1DBo
「還記得。那還用你說。」丈夫的頭稍稍往後仰,遙想當年的英勇事蹟:「我曾是孤獨的水手,享受著滔天風浪,一度厭惡回到粗鄙的陸地上。485Please respect copyright.PENANA6s8sgLMaJy
可是有你,我的情人,教會了我仍可以在人們叢生的地面上逞兇鬥狠、為所欲為。我們紛亂、狂野、不羈,衣衫底下是一男一女愛著彼此、一瞬間擁有過世界!這人間要是沒有我們,肯定是無聊的。」485Please respect copyright.PENANA4gb6WKtyvj
就在丈夫聊著起波濤般的往事,流理台處的水龍頭漏水,如數念珠般似的滴下水滴、打在了鐵鍋上,鏗鏘聲打斷了論述。485Please respect copyright.PENANA7EfY8lEyos
「噢,又是什麼使我們落得如此下場!」妻子歇斯底里地說,眼下皆是如此充滿恥辱。485Please respect copyright.PENANA9NEcJa7OMP
「談起過去,總是令我們感傷又痛苦。」丈夫嚼起麵包,僅有鹹味罷了:「我們自作自受地苟同了很多事。」485Please respect copyright.PENANAj0WgyCcldh
「一點也不可憐。」485Please respect copyright.PENANAkDZySZTVpS
「就像我們過去不齒的那些人一樣,身上開始有了大蒜的味道。」485Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZoUeE8mDa
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又是一陣沉默。485Please respect copyright.PENANAZV1cjZ56iN
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夏日的天空終將被朝陽點亮,光華照得萬物無所遁形,哪怕在室內亦開始有灼熱感,涼意漸失,身體的毛孔開始作用,凝結出汗液,緩慢的代謝之下,不久這副皮囊就會開始發臭。485Please respect copyright.PENANA7XB6Ov476P
夫妻倆正視飯廳前的落地窗之外那閑靜清明的綠色庭園,他們欲說些什麼,卻好像隱含巨大的痛苦,斑白的髮鬢在日光下更顯空白、慘淡。夏天氣溫驟升,面對這激烈卻又如此傷害人的大自然規律之前,兩人便不安地想擺脫、藏身在後方的陰影下,雙腳卻無法明確的聽從使喚,只好任憑身體曝曬。485Please respect copyright.PENANAQnqz10sheo
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難道,這一切都不值得踏實地去等死嗎?485Please respect copyright.PENANAXmkF5GucS8
「我的好太太啊,」丈夫淡然道:「我想去拉屎,麻煩你扶我去廁所。」485Please respect copyright.PENANAYO4vvgiqiH
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此後窗簾拉下,散場燈光亮起、掌聲稀稀落落,你現在能做的就是回家睡覺。485Please respect copyright.PENANACfV83J1Mpz