(第一人稱,松本晴香視角)75Please respect copyright.PENANAT3POpmabB9
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2021年5月17日。75Please respect copyright.PENANA9FzFXeL3Kc
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這一天,終於來了。75Please respect copyright.PENANANl4UHkj5BI
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我從高聳的飛機上踏向地面,並跟著告示牌從陌生的機場內走出來。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAtY9p4xGsly
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在走出機場的瞬間,刺眼的光芒一瞬間照進我眼內,讓我直覺地閉上了眼睛。75Please respect copyright.PENANAc8A0I0Yyr3
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等我嘗試張開眼睛,一個充滿著巨大高樓的城市出現在我面前。75Please respect copyright.PENANAS8K0HxDcLk
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這裡就是我夢寐以求的偶像之都,月花市!75Please respect copyright.PENANAmBZaqVIyLk
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雖然很想興奮的衝去事務所面試……,不過畢竟是來到新的地方,必須先冷靜才行。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkDbHekHoH6
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雖然來之前做了很多功課,不過還是得先適應、了解一下這邊的環境才行。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJb8bGCmeL3
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畢竟不會有人蠢到一來到這邊就馬上在路邊跳舞吧? 75Please respect copyright.PENANARkw2YKwiXc
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我一邊想著這件事,一邊跟著人行道走向城市裡面。75Please respect copyright.PENANAKm0oI4W4T2
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官方介紹影片中似乎有推薦一家飯店,一開始就先住那邊吧!75Please respect copyright.PENANA6SosASgaKY
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我從口袋裡拿出了手機,並打開地圖搜尋著。75Please respect copyright.PENANA16WPtcokVV
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從位置來看……,似乎就在附近而已,就直接走過去吧!75Please respect copyright.PENANAgzwljVn8kn
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在確定目標後,我將手機握在右手上,並往旅店的方向前進。75Please respect copyright.PENANAl7VUGPwfuS
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在途中,我稍微觀察了一下這邊的景色。75Please respect copyright.PENANAL4YJ908d3W
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許多人帶著「最愛OO」的頭巾、雙手拿著應援棒。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAVdn5Oz2IlE
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不愧是偶像之都,感覺隨處都是偶像粉呢!75Please respect copyright.PENANAjJ64XlU7TO
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可以的話,我也想和他們一樣掛著頭巾,親眼看看「天使」的直播呢!75Please respect copyright.PENANAqq7QDKoN01
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不過……,這個願望無法達成了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5CJE8TObYt
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天使華音凜在2016年突然宣布引退,之後就沒什麼消息了。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAN8ZGHn4N1Z
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雖然很可惜,不過畢竟月花市不是只有天使這位偶像而已。75Please respect copyright.PENANADOoXOINFtz
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今年出現了非常多新秀,前NO.1偶像「明月」望月光甚至被成為偶像不到3年的新偶像「星空」星川真夜取代了,可以說今年正好是月花市改朝換代的一年。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAwB1XczkeoU
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其他偶像也為了能提高排名,大概也非常努力的在唱歌吧? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAttrmxfrFs8
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那麼……,隨便在一個會場逛一下大概也能看到一名偶像的LIVE吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANAlZTxfI2caY
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雖然不能看到天使的LIVE有點可惜……,不過稍微親眼看一下其他偶像的LIVE也不錯吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANAGE7QuhLXO9
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都來到月花市了,就不要隔著螢幕欣賞,而是親眼去見證吧!75Please respect copyright.PENANAWFvkiYgucM
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正好前往飯店的路上有一個會場,就順路去那邊看看吧!75Please respect copyright.PENANAUhXsETLqvs
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我一邊想著,一邊往前走。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzkymeAfkiL
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不過在我走到一半時,一個美妙的歌聲突然出現,並進入我的耳中。75Please respect copyright.PENANACuEd4L0OMb
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「~。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA5aUiKJVoQB
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聽到歌聲後,我環顧四周,非常的疑惑。75Please respect copyright.PENANA1gCNmHizxV
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誰在附近唱歌嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANArSnGOM5Huw
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最後我在後方一個路口的轉角處,看到一名金色短髮的女子站在那裡。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5EQIIYr9wJ
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女子拿著麥克風,獨自一人在路上唱歌和跳舞。75Please respect copyright.PENANAxeyUpVIz19
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周圍的民眾人來人往,並沒有一個人因為那名少女的歌聲而停下腳步。75Please respect copyright.PENANALQ8KARqRxb
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為什麼?我感覺她的表演還不錯啊!75Please respect copyright.PENANAMK2SUTq1zo
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至少我沒有自信歌能唱的比她好,也沒有自信舞能跳的比她流暢。75Please respect copyright.PENANApPlkLujnwS
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但是……,為什麼沒有人停下腳步呢?75Please respect copyright.PENANA5pKj9wYl7Q
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我停止動作,並盯著那名少女。75Please respect copyright.PENANARZHwSEgeF6
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我看著那名少女表演完,並停止動作,對著人來人往的大街上鞠躬。75Please respect copyright.PENANAgGGo78K456
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少女抬頭後,意外與我對上眼,並微笑地向我招手。75Please respect copyright.PENANAPaf3rtsPxS
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她在跟我打招呼嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANARoz8vdo5js
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我疑惑的走到那個少女旁,想要了解她的身份與來歷。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGbXO9Dawyc
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「我的表演成功嗎?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAK8O73XcuZq
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那名少女開口,並一直掛著那甜美的笑容。75Please respect copyright.PENANAoLT1A9EZSd
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「表演?在這個大街上嗎?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANA4ykZo2qROV
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「你看不出來嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAiNEG0UkuGq
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剛剛我不是在唱歌跳舞嗎?這毫無疑問是表演喔!」75Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ7jpHr4s4
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「……,是這樣沒錯……。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAGK7I99RJ05
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「……,難道說……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAeRxzkMnYeU
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你不是本地人?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAJuwnYfWV6h
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突然間,少女開始將問題轉向我。75Please respect copyright.PENANABal7TyrnT7
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從剛剛到現在她都一直帶著那個微笑,甚至讓我覺得她是不是只是有一個表情。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4LLwm9DqR7
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不過她怎麼會這樣問?難道這件事在月花市裡是正常的嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAeMR8R6NTJy
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「對,我是今天才來到這裡的。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAlyrHvx17z2
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「你來這裡幹嘛?觀光嗎?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAqfQQQgmlLt
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「不,我打算在這裡住一段時間,我想成為偶像。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAEZcM5qiHWo
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「成為偶像?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAU8XeP2Ibgn
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少女繼續掛著笑容,並疑惑的盯著我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAOcxnX4yqhn
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突然被這樣盯……,總覺得有點奇怪欸。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbvRgTUVJkD
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「怎麼了?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAiqMIOjCQeP
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「……,我想認識你!75Please respect copyright.PENANAyv6qTtxdfw
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我叫吉田陽菜,你呢?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAY01zOOPWgR
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「咦?那麼突然!?75Please respect copyright.PENANAsaQQggq3yE
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那個……,我是松本晴香。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9CEIHZvWO
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「松本晴香嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANA2jDpkcyUWu
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我問你,你是真的想成為偶像嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAqtiOdawjuk
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「當然,我剛剛就這樣說了吧?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA1IF9BZtpnF
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「嗯……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAm6uSecjATI
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我話可能說的有點重,但我姑且還是得提醒一下。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXAjGVEdFBv
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你成為不了職業偶像的。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAr3JAP5CIHE
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「咦?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANATmuFA6wtbt
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我愣住了,我能感覺她是保持著「友善」的態度對我說這句話的。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAj4qq4bt1Dr
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但即使如此,我還是對她的意見非常不滿。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3hGTANLwKE
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「為什麼?75Please respect copyright.PENANAyPrZG4w4F0
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你憑什麼用這句話否定我的未來?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAXoHD61erUi
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「我知道你現在可能很難信服……。75Please respect copyright.PENANA7Zr6kuZtzv
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不過有一天,妳會了解的。75Please respect copyright.PENANArT8mPqVT0l
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我給你我的電話號碼吧!要是遇到困難時我會幫助你的。現在你可以不打給我,但遇到困難時,我是會真心幫助你的!」75Please respect copyright.PENANAODhbdZo8zA
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吉田一邊說著,一邊從口袋拿出一個小紙條,並強行塞到我的口袋裡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsRP7zkKhRD
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在給我紙條後,她便轉身離開了現場。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAWneFEOzI61
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我則站在原地,完全不知道現在該做出怎麼反應。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAy37P65M8Ho
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這也太誇張了吧?來這裡的第一天就被否定了夢想……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjxEX6nTpmy
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不過我都來到月花市了,怎麼可能就這樣放棄?75Please respect copyright.PENANADYZhIiUsA1
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等著吧,我一定會成為一個厲害的職業偶像給你看!75Please respect copyright.PENANAmsKFEfbWeP
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我在內心這樣想著,隨後便轉身離開。75Please respect copyright.PENANAhMpcS32H16
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我按照原本預定的行程,在飯店路上的某個會場,並在寬快速的買了門票後,坐到觀眾席上準備觀賞LIVE。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAowgJw76C7G
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我看了下四周。這個會場大概和我學校的活動中心差不多大,同時也有有許多觀眾和我一樣坐在觀眾席,等待著即將到來的表演。75Please respect copyright.PENANA7b79k4RrFD
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表演者是NO.78的職業偶像「金花」鈴木美惠子。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAoddRHGHlYn
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親眼見證職業偶像的表演究竟是怎麼樣子?我感到很好奇。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAxUH6Uxopuh
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本來應該是很開心的事才對……,但是……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAlaeiHNwXcE
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……,為什麼?75Please respect copyright.PENANA44zNjlCK6M
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為什麼我的內心那麼不安呢? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAVljxVgId0u
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不久後,隨著舞台上的LED燈暗下來,在主持人說了一些廢話後,LIVE正式開始。一名金色長髮的女子走到舞台上,一旁的燈光全部打在女子身上,女子也完全不廢話的開始了表演。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAErk2hFeCX4
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「~。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAZNeqzNoHRS
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「……!」75Please respect copyright.PENANAosCHQ6M9e4
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在她開口的瞬間,我愣住了。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAWEGFk9FdKY
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這也……,這也……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAus8BKrstwT
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這也太誇張了吧!75Please respect copyright.PENANAq2Z5Aeqlc2
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唱歌很好聽……,舞蹈也很好……,這真的只是NO.78嗎? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAQEFkSEoaPo
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就在這個瞬間,我深刻意識到了幾件事。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWPc3vIO0d1
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為什麼那名叫做吉田陽菜的少女即使歌聲很好聽,卻沒有任何人停下腳步的原因。75Please respect copyright.PENANADE3B6oObbc
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鈴木美惠子從上到下都散發一種特殊的氣場,讓人不自覺的想盯著她看,不自覺的想揮舞手中的應援棒。75Please respect copyright.PENANAcA2FYYvpfH
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如果是天使的現場舞蹈,那一定更震撼,更難以置信……。75Please respect copyright.PENANA9QZyE9p3JV
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……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAlXwbAoeRxM
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我……,能做到像她一樣嗎?我能成功到達天使的那個水平嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAc6X0sp1LcV
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「你成為不了職業偶像的。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAaKv6HjptSm
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我的腦海不自覺的想起這句話。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAMHRHSlSbIm
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一想到這點,我就握緊了雙手。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAmW3CUwJOA0
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「……,可惡。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAb8TED9IAfM
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在LIVE結束後,我很快走到了飯店,並在經過幾個手續後,很快進到房間裡,並住了下來。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAhE7yYbEoT2
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我毫不猶豫的平躺在床上,腦袋一直不停的轉著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJrvGkM6LmP
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光是第一天的所見所聞,就超乎我的想像……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAPUeYPBMLP1
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算了,只是第一天而已,而且我之後也會進步的吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANA4SY24twCrm
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我說服著自己,並從口袋裡拿出手機。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAv9O7sp64DJ
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之後的時間,就陸續往各家事務所面試看看吧! 75Please respect copyright.PENANARkklRclEfu
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在來這裡前,我就選擇了19家不錯的事務所。 75Please respect copyright.PENANArVE1SbCXTt
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先從好的事務所開始面試吧!失敗了就往下一家決定。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAf0YN2yGAOZ
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選擇的公司足足有19家,不可能一家都沒進吧? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAzcGlfugquJ
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是啊!不管怎麼樣至少會進一家吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANAElyXb9QeIq
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加入事務所後,成為職業偶像後……,我就會成為大家都知曉的大人物! 75Please respect copyright.PENANAmiqSUZoUZe
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一定可以很順利的!一定……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAHfpCzoyhoM
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……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGPdbJ7z5IS
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一定……,嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANArgJlan2TUX
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我沒有選擇思考太多,而是在幾天後來到了一家事務所,並開始了自己的第一次面試。75Please respect copyright.PENANA0KerzYkxH1
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第一次面試,考官只是看了我一眼就請我離開。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAPVo3sF7Y2K
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「你沒有成為偶像的天賦」,他是這樣說的。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAUaH1TQ9XaD
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這句話對他來說也許只是平淡的一句話,但卻深深打擊了我的內心。75Please respect copyright.PENANAxAFoUBm6CS
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我回到家,並嘆了一口氣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAMzMOFTQtgf
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雖然第一步就那麼不順利,不過沒關係!75Please respect copyright.PENANA2Zs4dsJPIT
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反正只是第一次而已,之後會更好的吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANARfaDwlGvvP
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這樣想著的我,並在幾天後再次進行幾次面試。75Please respect copyright.PENANAndTR9oXV4i
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第七次面試,考官跟我說「你好像有一個口頭禪是【這也太誇張了吧?】,所以我覺得你離開月花市去當綜藝演員搞不好比較好喔!」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAIYkXtmNDQe
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這句話一直在我腦內徘徊,甚至到家裡也一直想著這件事。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8Gip4Vlvj8
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綜藝演員……,雖然也是可以成為大人物,但總覺得不是我想成為的樣子呢……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGdYTQemciR
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但是……。75Please respect copyright.PENANApn3e6jeEaD
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已經第七次了,面試還是沒有上。75Please respect copyright.PENANAhMLrYCGO1O
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我是不是……,應該轉換一下跑道啊?75Please respect copyright.PENANAAxbjA5FBTO
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第十二次面試,考官和我聊的很開心,彷彿讓我看見了一線曙光。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkhOyElJBTx
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但是,最後還是沒有把我選上。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAXlu6lqQbyW
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在得知消息後,我躲在我自己的房間裡,出乎意料的哭了一段時間。75Please respect copyright.PENANAFGflXxMPOl
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為什麼?明明這次我很有把握的……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAAPO6w0lOGb
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已經第十二次了……,為什麼我還是沒辦法成功?75Please respect copyright.PENANAJ78yZIAS2o
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我難道沒有才能嗎?我難道……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAOf20ox1MTD
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根本不適合當偶像?75Please respect copyright.PENANAzHziI8oYiG
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……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjy5xZbI3Zh
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雖然感覺有點痛苦,但還是應該繼續嘗試。75Please respect copyright.PENANAoh01h15G7G
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還有七次機會,不是嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAKPwv95lZlo
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於是,我振作起來,並持續的去面試。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6cbFroUxdf
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十三次、十四次、十五次、十六次、十七次、十八次。75Please respect copyright.PENANAOuQA2BLrMC
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最後都毫無懸念的被淘汰,我終究沒能成為偶像。75Please respect copyright.PENANA9TZLayRxjl
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剩下最後一次機會了,我必須把握才行……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVsk7iNWeBE
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我不能放棄、還有最後一次機會,不要放棄。75Please respect copyright.PENANAFVYBvFrGCu
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振作起來,振作起來,振作起來,振作起來。75Please respect copyright.PENANANo3nZsuxN6
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第十九次面試,我換了一個方向。75Please respect copyright.PENANAn9DNZ4YAkM
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台詞、動作、神情,我從前面十八次的經驗中得出一個最佳的樣貌。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAVxYTfQ514j
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更何況這家事務所也不是什麼有名的事務所之類的,這一次總應該成功了吧? 75Please respect copyright.PENANA4g5euzaEjd
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……,但是,最後還是失敗了。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAZBchnvEJS8
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理由是:「你的眼神太假了。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANATRftGo0OvU
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我聽到這句話時,我反駁道:「我知道我在偽裝,但這是因為我只能透過這個方式」。75Please respect copyright.PENANAalsbiI7DsO
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然而考官告訴我:「你沒有成為偶像的才能,這個缺點是無論怎麼偽裝,都沒辦法隱瞞的。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAR8SIh6jzWd
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最後,第十九次面試還是沒能上。75Please respect copyright.PENANAj5mt9gCtV3
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在得知這一切後,我感覺我的內心有什麼失去了一般。75Please respect copyright.PENANAj01xif4jo5
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全部的機會,就到此結束了……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGL1ADI11ba
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等到我意識到這點,已經到了2023年了,我如今也已經20歲。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAVyhFU0uFiA
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偶像排行榜的前十名已經連續兩年沒有變化了,象徵新的偶像時代正逐漸進行著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsLPs7A8ITh
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相對的,此時的我住在一個髒亂的房間裡,泡麵餐盒快疊出一個高塔,外套和衣服散落一地……。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8ph9WVvc5U
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即使如此,我房間還是有一個空位,那邊靠牆的地方有一個大鏡子,我偶爾會在那麼練習跳舞。75Please respect copyright.PENANALLXKGBYxBG
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但是都落選了,事到如今跳舞還有什麼意義?75Please respect copyright.PENANAqDI4VFKCFx
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我真是狼狽啊……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAENqpp5qtL4
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在這裡生活其實也沒什麼困難,為了賺錢一直有接各種打工,也成功租到一個住宅裡面,三餐吃泡麵也沒有問題……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAk2aEFw3PIH
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但畢竟一直在打工,漸漸的也沒什麼時間整理房間了,一段時間後就變成了現在這個樣子。75Please respect copyright.PENANA0KmigiQlgn
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還記得之前,我會一個禮拜會和母親打通電話,兩人聊著在月花市的趣事。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAQJT2nvzZbI
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但是漸漸的,我不再打電話給她,也已經很久沒聽到媽媽的聲音了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAUIxqPaEZ2z
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我該怎麼向母親說明我現在的慘狀? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAEfyDpMvT9h
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我躺在床上,無聊的看著天花板。 75Please respect copyright.PENANA02CVhH2sS4
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已經沒有跳舞的心了,反正不管多努力都還是會失敗。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbcL3yNHdmq
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也許,自己終究也只是一個不會被歷史記住的失敗者而已。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAIDJNbeKTyq
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不過仔細想想,至少我住在月花市對吧? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAwzP3LdoDAI
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畢竟生活都可以繼續過下去,不要奢求太多比較好吧?成為大人物的夢想不過是孩子的戲言罷了,其實在賽跑輸掉那一天我就知道了。75Please respect copyright.PENANANaZUcYOucm
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我,不是成為大人物的料。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAZrwB3tHiTI
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這幾年,我不過只是一直在掙扎,一直在探索不存在的希望罷了。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAEBeAVCd1qZ
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差不多該向現實妥協了。 75Please respect copyright.PENANA1TDQWDE00o
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想著想著,感覺有點累了,打算就這樣睡著。75Please respect copyright.PENANA2gdb0DZjVC
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如果這一切都是夢,那該有多好? 75Please respect copyright.PENANAdvlYYiDUKU
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「現在你可以不打給我,但遇到困難時,我是會真心幫助你的!」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAbixlSOBFIB
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在意識模糊時,我彷彿再度聽到這句話。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAi9rlTOobPc
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啊……對了,在兩年前,我來這裡的第一天有遇到一個叫吉田陽菜的人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJBSXhEUsmB
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我慢慢從床上爬了起來,並從雜亂的房間中尋找東西。 75Please respect copyright.PENANApkDKxlNWuJ
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最後,我成功找到一個小紙條。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAfirw7MFvjW
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兩年了,紙居然幾乎毫髮無損。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAKPbRvSAr1u
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這是最後的希望了,必須嘗試看看。 75Please respect copyright.PENANA6AYWZ0zMfu
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我再度拿起手機,默默撥打了上面所記載的電話號碼。 75Please respect copyright.PENANA0dbTZzzwgJ
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隔天,我來到了一家便利商店,並在坐在一個椅子上等待著她的到來。75Please respect copyright.PENANAcZi61UtHn6
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很快,在自動門的音效傳出後,我注意到了她的到來。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAalTNdNUTuD
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「好久不見,松本晴香。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANASXd3rzAxjk
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吉田看到我後,馬上走到我面前,並坐在我的對面。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAuwd8DtHLxP
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僅是一面之緣,但雙方都記得彼此。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAzVlgYI7kvl
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她依然是掛著笑容,似乎沒什麼壓力一般。75Please respect copyright.PENANAILTjqCzfoL
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「感覺你沒什麼變呢。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANALVbivzuka3
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聽到我的話,吉田也點了點頭。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4pl2dtOQ59
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「你倒是感覺變很多。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAbSPR3u07Y2
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沉重的眼神、沒整理的頭髮、隨便亂配的衣服。75Please respect copyright.PENANAymkX0yYOYf
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這些年,你過的不是很好吧?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANA2qp4IMR3zN
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「畢竟經歷這兩年,要不變都難吧?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAJMOHSftsh7
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「我想也是。 75Please respect copyright.PENANADmNXHaQdWT
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讓我猜一下,你沒有成為職業偶像,最後才變成現在這樣子對吧?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAFmjWbebJkk
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「嗯……。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAxQUlJq4MPZ
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我已經不知道現在我該怎麼辦才好了。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAyeFqJEx2zB
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「我有一個想法,你想聽聽看嗎?」 75Please respect copyright.PENANAjEKFv9226B
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「嗯,我就是為此叫你來的。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANALMZcNO7jPm
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「你有沒有考慮要當業餘偶像的打算?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAa6i1JLFKga
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「……,業餘?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAdY9m6BZMTU
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對啊,仔細想想,吉田就是一位業餘偶像吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANAODO25hyecm
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所謂業餘偶像,顧名思義就是沒有任何事務所,以自己的名義表演的偶像。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXtLlL2W3os
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雖然能繼續作為偶像表演不錯,但是……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAvy2ZHDGlSF
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「我現在沒有時間想這些了。 75Please respect copyright.PENANAsySwBkt5cc
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要是放棄其中一個工作,我可能連正常生活都沒辦法。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAFWeW4qLzbD
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「正常來說是這樣沒錯……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbsQM2ND5z6
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但假如說,你要當的是有收入的業餘偶像呢?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAvPCqAg6CJq
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「有收入?75Please respect copyright.PENANASJ5ieRORbP
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這是詐騙集團嗎?聽起來很可疑欸。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANACIFOc0BfUC
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「當然不是喔!」75Please respect copyright.PENANASooDpuNDII
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吉田一邊說著,一邊從口袋拿出一個名片。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3mEa9dh2aP
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「Amateur Light」上面這樣寫著,這是一個偶像團體的名字嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANANmGybhip7D
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「Amateur Light是由業餘偶像組成的團體,成立的人正是身為團長的我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkyeuHGJHAO
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每個沒有加入事務所的業餘偶像都可以加入我們,並透過完成一些小公司指派的委託並賺取薪資。75Please respect copyright.PENANAUhg0QfYbPT
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雖然我們沒有偶像事務所那種強大的號召力和人脈,不過也是個不錯的方法吧?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAsZAOkAjHHj
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「Amateur Light……。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA8ArHNcWlaH
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如果她說的沒錯。成為業餘偶像能有收入,又可以唱歌、跳舞,那應該不算太差吧? 75Please respect copyright.PENANABlhQA4Rwcz
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雖然成為業餘偶像絕對不能像職業偶像那樣在大會場跳舞……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAgOxIJDsyXc
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……,算了吧?事到如今我還要求那麼多幹嘛?75Please respect copyright.PENANApptmDctoDK
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「不是沒有考慮的價值。」 75Please respect copyright.PENANA1XTX8mL4uI
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聽到我的回應,吉田也點了點頭。75Please respect copyright.PENANALCHhyzBN2N
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「確定嗎?要不要再給你幾天思考……。」75Please respect copyright.PENANApeLegURVG5
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「不用了。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAov7Z1pnhmI
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「連懷疑一下都不用嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAAnCyRkhL5E
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「你能從我這裡得到什麼?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAiKv0QhAFb6
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聽到我的回應,吉田則嘆了一口氣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsYRUGS8YZP
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「好吧,既然這就是你的選擇……。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmZPAbSw5PT
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歡迎加入Amateur Light!」75Please respect copyright.PENANAPsiS3depBp
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聽到吉田的回應,我也點了點頭。75Please respect copyright.PENANAriya8I7dkN
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我知道,接下來我的路途將完全與眾不同。