
Pov Ranti
Awalnya aku menegangkan bahu. Jantungku berdebar tak karuan.73Please respect copyright.PENANA3uJ2BV5vpD
Jemarinya yang menyentuh pahaku terasa terlalu berani. Tapi aku tidak73Please respect copyright.PENANAW9u9FSxKw1
menghentikannya. Tidak juga ketika tangannya naik perlahan ke pinggang.
Aku sempat melirik suamiku. Dia masih duduk diam di sudut73Please respect copyright.PENANAlOCktg1ykv
ruangan. Matanya menatap lurus ke arah kami. Tak bicara. Tak bergerak.
Dan di situlah semuanya berubah.
Canggungku perlahan larut. Ada sensasi lain yang merambat73Please respect copyright.PENANATXxjuGtGuw
dari balik kulitku—perasaan sedang dipertontonkan. Seolah aku sedang bermain73Please respect copyright.PENANAh7BSHt4s3T
dalam film dewasa, dan satu-satunya penonton adalah lelaki yang telah73Please respect copyright.PENANAqFuUYemOl4
menemaniku bertahun-tahun.
Aneh… Tapi menggairahkan.
Tangannya kini memelukku dari samping. Bibirnya menyusuri73Please respect copyright.PENANApM4KEyTCNy
leherku, membuatku menengadahkan kepala, memberinya ruang. Jantungku masih berdebar,73Please respect copyright.PENANAQHYahbzsp6
rasa malu dan karena hasrat. Dan ketika73Please respect copyright.PENANAROxNct2dG8
mataku kembali menangkap pandangan suamiku yang masih menatap diam… aku menggeliat.
Aku ingin dia melihat semuanya. Aku ingin dia tahu betapa73Please respect copyright.PENANAvijZ5XRiEt
panas tubuhku dibuat oleh lelaki lain.
Aku mendesah pelan saat tangan Rafi menekan pinggangku dan73Please respect copyright.PENANABy4UGus32E
menarik tubuhku lebih dekat. Aku tidak lagi menolak. Bahkan tubuhku bergerak73Please respect copyright.PENANAUzDSE83EmB
sendiri, mendekatkan dadaku ke dadanya. Nafasnya terasa hangat di wajahku, lalu73Please respect copyright.PENANAWui9G6k0fE
tanpa aba-aba, bibirnya menangkap bibirku.
Basah, lembut, dan panas.
Lidahnya masuk, menjelajah, menuntut. Aku membalas. Rakus.73Please respect copyright.PENANAGrCg1zJUzu
Bibirku menghisap balik. Kami bertukar air liur seperti sepasang kekasih yang73Please respect copyright.PENANAGBWf8IZhn0
tak bertemu bertahun-tahun.
Tangannya meraba punggungku, lalu turun ke bokongku,73Please respect copyright.PENANANmYmVbCdXP
meremasnya pelan. Aku menggeliat. Suara kecil keluar dari tenggorokanku.
Saat itu, aku kembali melirik ke arah suamiku.
Dia masih di sana. Menatap kami. Wajahnya tegang, namun tak73Please respect copyright.PENANA0rIVAlelsR
bergerak. Matanya seperti terbakar, tapi tak satu kata pun keluar dari73Please respect copyright.PENANA88hPpgIoz1
mulutnya.
Dan entah kenapa, pemandangan itu membuatku semakin liar.
Tanganku membuka kancing baju sendiri, memperlihatkan bra73Please respect copyright.PENANAM6EFAlDs0H
tipisku. Rafi menunduk, menyambar payudaraku dengan mulutnya. Dia mengisap,73Please respect copyright.PENANAvfncHvlL6O
menggigit kecil putingku yang sudah keras. Aku mengerang keras, tidak lagi73Please respect copyright.PENANAlF23SBepXJ
peduli siapa yang mendengar.
Aku menoleh ke arah suamiku.
"Sayang…" bisikku samar, sengaja. "Lihat73Please respect copyright.PENANA7nYt7Jxssy
aku…"
Tanganku menuntun tangan Rafi ke celanaku. Dia mengerti.73Please respect copyright.PENANAOOHdEmBu3g
Satu sentuhan di balik kain dalamku membuatku gemetar.
Lidahnya kembali naik ke leherku sementara jemarinya masuk73Please respect copyright.PENANAQFpgThENZs
ke dalam celanaku dan langsung menemukan kelembapan yang sudah tak bisa kusembunyikan.73Please respect copyright.PENANAtLVauSqbQx
Jari itu mulai menggerayangi, membelai, menyapu pelan kelopakku.
Aku tak tahan
Kepalaku bersandar ke dadanya. Nafasku berat. Lalu dia73Please respect copyright.PENANAEwbeKhJNtd
menggesek klitorisku dengan gerakan lembut namun mantap.
Tubuhku bergetar.
Aku mencapai orgasme hanya dengan jarinya. Tapi... rasanya73Please respect copyright.PENANA95QdC8QELd
berbeda. Karena aku tahu... ada mata suamiku yang menyaksikan semuanya.
Sensasi itu... sensasi dilihat, diizinkan, bahkan mungkin73Please respect copyright.PENANAqUQTA9VV68
dinikmati olehnya... membuat klimaksku lebih dalam. Bukan sekadar fisik. Tapi73Please respect copyright.PENANACZHTaTxko5
juga batin. Seperti ada sesuatu dalam diriku yang pecah, meledak, dan menyebar73Please respect copyright.PENANApoDyjydRG5
hangat ke seluruh tubuh.
Dan saat aku menyadari cairanku membasahi tangannya... aku73Please respect copyright.PENANANR5iM9KwML
tahu: ini candu. Tabu. Tapi nikmatnya tak bisa lagi kusembunyikan.
Aku baru menyadarinya ketika kulihat wajah suamiku menegang.73Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2ikGK7SLr
Tubuhnya menggigil halus. Matanya membelalak tapi tak bersuara. Kedua tangannya73Please respect copyright.PENANAseE9EkHa3l
mengepal, lalu—seolah kalah oleh gelombang yang tak tertahan—ia mendesah73Please respect copyright.PENANA4u7hJ4GEtq
panjang dan perlahan menunduk, seperti seorang prajurit yang pasrah dalam73Please respect copyright.PENANAGL8OLULlnV
kekalahan... atau kemenangan?
Aku melihat basah di celana longgarnya. Aku tahu persis apa73Please respect copyright.PENANA2zsDnbY7gc
yang terjadi.
Dia... keluar. Tapi kok bisa ?
Bukan karena menyentuhku. Bukan karena kusentuh. Tapi hanya73Please respect copyright.PENANAeOfFvGwWCA
dengan menyaksikan. Dengan menyimak seluruh tubuhku yang disentuh, disayang,73Please respect copyright.PENANA5CmcRmuXQj
dijilat oleh pria lain. Hanya itu—dan dia pecah.
Aku terdiam sejenak. Jantungku berdetak keras.
Lalu sesuatu menyeruak dari dalam dadaku: perasaan yang73Please respect copyright.PENANAFDQ7I6OydB
belum pernah kurasa sebelumnya.
Aku... merasa di atas. Lebih dari sekadar cantik. Aku adalah73Please respect copyright.PENANAvYkyu28YUd
sumber candunya. Aku adalah racun sekaligus penyembuhnya.
Dia, suamiku yang biasanya menuntun dan memimpin, kini73Please respect copyright.PENANAZfArVdX1FN
justru menyerah pada sensasi yang kubentuk. Dengan tubuhku. Dengan73Please respect copyright.PENANA13Agy3KZCP
keberanianku.
Dan saat aku memeluk Rafi lebih erat—bukan karena cinta,73Please respect copyright.PENANA21Nin7nUqI
tapi karena gairah—aku menatap suamiku penuh kelembutan.
Terima kasih, batinku. Terima kasih karena telah mencintaiku73Please respect copyright.PENANACcChIedz0C
seperti itu. Menerimaku, bahkan saat aku bukan hanya milikmu dalam detik-detik73Please respect copyright.PENANAy2OYro6cKU
ini. Kau biarkan aku terbuka, dan dari sana... aku justru merasa dimiliki lebih73Please respect copyright.PENANAEhXSjuW1iz
dalam.
Aku menutup mata. Dalam hatiku, aku tahu satu hal:
Ini bukan sekadar perselingkuhan atau eksperimen.
Ini… kekuatan. Candu. Dan mungkin, awal dari sesuatu yang73Please respect copyright.PENANADz24y0gdOl
tak bisa lagi kami hentikan.
POV suami
Air di kamar mandi terus menetes dari keran. Suara kecilnya73Please respect copyright.PENANA98UTK0SKxC
memantul di antara dinding, memecah keheningan yang menggantung.
Aku duduk di tepi ranjang, masih belum mampu berkata73Please respect copyright.PENANAHODXsppbcI
apa-apa. Tanganku gemetar. Bukan karena takut… tapi karena bingung pada diriku73Please respect copyright.PENANARhsFv8v7tC
sendiri.
Aku biarkan pria lain menyentuh istriku. Aku lihat tubuh73Please respect copyright.PENANAXckwk5D6vK
Surti meregang, bibirnya menganga dan matanya terpejam dalam nikmat. Dan saat73Please respect copyright.PENANAtBf7fxdZEN
dia mencapai puncaknya—tanpa menyentuhku sedikit pun—aku justru ikut menegang73Please respect copyright.PENANA9ib0gY5m9P
dan meledak... dalam diam.
Kenapa aku tidak menghentikannya?
Atau... kenapa aku begitu menikmatinya?
Rasa bersalah mencengkeram dadaku. Apakah ini bentuk73Please respect copyright.PENANAu2UdpTrgrB
cinta... atau bentuk pengkhianatan terhadap cinta?
Pintu kamar mandi terbuka perlahan. Uap tipis menyelinap73Please respect copyright.PENANA6OVgK2z9lh
keluar. Surti berdiri di sana, hanya memakai handuk, rambutnya basah menjuntai73Please respect copyright.PENANAbB6tgBRKiV
di leher. Matanya mencari-cari, lalu menatapku. Ada kecanggungan. Tapi juga ada73Please respect copyright.PENANANYrvrSsf4r
sorot hangat di dalamnya.
"Aku nggak tahu harus bilang apa," bisiknya.73Please respect copyright.PENANAzL673UKfmr
"Tapi aku nggak nyangka... kamu bisa..."
Aku bangkit perlahan. Tanpa berkata-kata, aku melangkah ke73Please respect copyright.PENANAIjFWH2dGDu
arahnya, lalu memeluknya dari belakang. Tubuhnya hangat, beraroma sabun, dan73Please respect copyright.PENANAxjRhQIJxwp
dadaku terasa sesak karena pelukan itu bukan sekadar menenangkan—tapi pengakuan73Please respect copyright.PENANAly8EMVifLo
akan rasa bersalah dan kelegaan yang tumpang tindih.
"Aku cuma ingin kamu bahagia," kataku pelan.
Dia diam sebentar, lalu meletakkan tangannya di atas73Please respect copyright.PENANAFg4op3HCTF
tanganku. "Aku juga. Tapi waktu lihat kamu seperti itu... aku merasa...73Please respect copyright.PENANA6jc1qq8dUM
penting. Di matamu. Bahkan saat tubuhku di tangan orang lain."
Pelukanku mengerat. Tanganku menyusuri perutnya perlahan.73Please respect copyright.PENANAxoRAHL2zo3
Nafasnya mulai berubah.
"Kalau kamu masih menginginkanku setelah semua73Please respect copyright.PENANA1E4xhBhAtZ
ini..." katanya pelan, "aku akan menyerahkan semuanya. Bahkan73Please respect copyright.PENANArfLPx2Q4uz
tubuhku. Sepenuhnya. Tapi... kamu yang harus arahkan aku sekarang."
Aku mencium pundaknya. Tak ada hasrat terburu-buru. Hanya73Please respect copyright.PENANAkMTjjNZzdA
sebuah keputusan—bahwa mulai saat ini, Surti bukan hanya istriku.
Dia adalah canduku.
Ini kisah 3 bulan yg lalu dan sejak saat itu ntah kenapa73Please respect copyright.PENANAyf1VN2GfVZ
pandanganku terhadap Ranti berubah, aku tahu dia hanya bersosial tapi hatku73Please respect copyright.PENANA3DOpEcBWvy
panas terbakar cemburu, Meskipun Ranti tak pernah meminta dengan laki2 lain73Please respect copyright.PENANAxoCJUIIzNu
lagi atau merendahkanku stiap berhubungan badan tapi hatiku tak perna tenang,73Please respect copyright.PENANAA8wcEd15FR
jangan2 Ranti selingkuh
Jangan2 Rantj main diam2 di belakangku
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Jhoni73Please respect copyright.PENANAJFPKcgYyWr
duduk di tepi ranjang, memandangi istrinya yang sibuk melepas hijab dan73Please respect copyright.PENANAtHc5kuDvwP
mengganti pakaian. Hatinya sesak sejak tadi—sejak melihat Ranti tertawa terlalu73Please respect copyright.PENANAvV3B5pBpe1
lepas bersama pria tetangga mereka, Dani. Terlalu dekat, terlalu akrab
"Aku cuma tanya, Ran..." Jhoni memulai pelan tapi73Please respect copyright.PENANAzdhuE0dOIG
tajam. "Itu kenapa tadi kamu bisa serileks itu sih ngobrol sama Dani?73Please respect copyright.PENANAUsOpbBADIx
Ketawa-tawa, sampe nepuk-nepuk pundaknya segala."
Ranti berhenti mengganti baju. Tatapannya ke arah suaminya73Please respect copyright.PENANAPy4s5urJZ1
datar, lelah. "Kamu serius nanya gitu?"
"Aku lihat sendiri, Ran," Jhoni berdiri, berjalan73Please respect copyright.PENANAHJZ9QKWHwa
mendekat. "Kamu gak lihat ekspresi dia? Matanya kayak orang ngiler. Dan73Please respect copyright.PENANA4s1HIes1Ia
kamu malah... kayak nikmatin."
"Jadi aku gak boleh senyum? Gak boleh ngobrol sama73Please respect copyright.PENANAqlollBD19S
orang?" Nada suara Ranti naik setingkat. "Gila ya kamu, Jon. Semua73Please respect copyright.PENANAg0MyaaBwxw
aku salah di matamu."
"Karena kamu kelihatan beda, Ran," bisik Jhoni,73Please respect copyright.PENANAaErNttVvyH
kali ini lebih lirih, tapi lebih menyakitkan. "Beda... kayak kamu73Please respect copyright.PENANATmv6iv7LjE
suka."
"Dan kalau aku suka?!" Ranti membalikkan badan,73Please respect copyright.PENANAw3uvxpmYcp
kini sepenuhnya menghadap suaminya. Nafasnya naik turun, dadanya bergemuruh.73Please respect copyright.PENANANDwxYOfLYX
"Kalau aku beneran pengen dia? Pengen ciuman sama dia? Bahkan... pengen73Please respect copyright.PENANA1Of86w8JwY
hisap punyanya sampe muncrat di mukaku—kamu mau apa?!"
Jhoni terdiam. Dunia seperti berhenti berputar. Matanya tak73Please respect copyright.PENANAwecm8ysMQ8
sanggup menatap istrinya, tapi tubuhnya justru merespons: mengeras, tegang.73Please respect copyright.PENANAcJT6yq2lge
Batin dan hasratnya saling menghantam.
"Aku gak ngerti kamu sekarang..." gumam Jhoni73Please respect copyright.PENANAzS9EHAZ1WQ
nyaris seperti anak kecil. "Ini yang kamu mau? Ngetes aku? Nunjukin kalau73Please respect copyright.PENANAcu4UblCS8V
kamu bisa jadi liar juga?"
Ranti mendekat, wajahnya tepat di depan wajah Jhoni.73Please respect copyright.PENANAE90SCs09UD
"Aku cuma capek dituduh, Jon. Kalau kamu ngerasa aku binal... sekalian aja73Please respect copyright.PENANAV7A50Q6E6W
aku jadi binal beneran."
Jhoni duduk diam di meja makan, mengaduk kopi yang sudah73Please respect copyright.PENANAqDiGyvCdJZ
dingin. Matanya tajam memperhatikan Ranti yang sedang membereskan piring,73Please respect copyright.PENANAv9ux2kYTi6
padahal tidak ada yang benar-benar perlu dibereskan. Hanya kesibukan palsu,73Please respect copyright.PENANATZVhPPSKEd
cara Ranti menghindari tatapan yang sudah penuh tuduhan itu.
“Aku cuma tanya biasa, jangan langsung berubah gitu,” suara73Please respect copyright.PENANAvepbnwtxN2
Jhoni akhirnya pecah, tenang tapi tajam. “Kenapa kamu tadi deket banget sama si73Please respect copyright.PENANAvIylZQBbnO
Bayu? Ketawa-tawa segala. Emang lucu ya dia?”
Ranti mendesah pelan, meletakkan piring dengan suara yang73Please respect copyright.PENANApB9fR2aF2P
agak keras dari biasanya.
“Kamu serius nanya kayak gitu?” katanya tanpa menoleh. “Aku73Please respect copyright.PENANAlIBOG16Ri9
cuma basa-basi. Gitu aja bikin kamu cemburu?”
“Basa-basi sampai tangannya nempel ke lenganmu? Sampai kamu73Please respect copyright.PENANAU1rPXnEW9g
senyum semanis itu?” Jhoni berdiri, suaranya sedikit meninggi. “Aku gak bego,73Please respect copyright.PENANAdV2W5Qwcnj
Rant. Aku liat semua gerak-gerik kamu.”
Ranti akhirnya menoleh. Matanya bukan marah—tapi kecewa.
“Kalau kamu mikir aku semurah itu, kenapa nggak sekalian73Please respect copyright.PENANANWgLMu3076
kamu suruh aku buktikan aja sekalian?” katanya datar, penuh tantangan. “Mungkin73Please respect copyright.PENANAuHmzRJ4Bja
kamu malah suka liat aku digituin orang lain. Mungkin itu fantasi kamu73Please respect copyright.PENANAetnRPAnOT9
sebenernya.”
Jhoni terdiam. Dada sesak, bukan karena marah, tapi karena73Please respect copyright.PENANARhFxb2EgaA
rasa bersalah yang aneh. Setiap kali ia bayangkan kemungkinan itu... ada rasa73Please respect copyright.PENANA0vdp2ZllgS
panas menjalar di tubuhnya. Rasa yang tak pernah ia minta, tapi muncul dari73Please respect copyright.PENANAhfxLWMe6fi
imajinasi yang ia bangun sendiri.
Ranti mendekat, pelan. Menatap suaminya dalam.
“Kalau aku buka bajuku depan dia, kamu bakal marah? Atau73Please respect copyright.PENANAz0SaYlCwW9
malah berdiri sambil nonton kayak malam itu waktu Ramon nyentuh aku?” bisiknya.73Please respect copyright.PENANAB9spMYfuoI
“Kalau aku gigit bibirnya, kamu bakal pukul dia... atau malah keluar duluan?”
Jhoni menelan ludah. Tenggorokannya kering.
Dan di situlah permainan batin itu dimulai—saat rasa cemburu73Please respect copyright.PENANAdo6A7n7CbL
berubah menjadi lubang dalam yang justru menghisapnya ke dalam kenikmatan yang73Please respect copyright.PENANAhymj4b44X2
tabu.
Pagi itu, aroma kopi menyebar lembut dari dapur. Ranti73Please respect copyright.PENANApWnqHmEjn1
berdiri di dekat kompor, masih mengenakan daster tipis dengan rambut yang73Please respect copyright.PENANADyCkuJkznj
diikat asal. Ia tampak lebih ceria dari biasanya, senyumnya seperti mengembang73Please respect copyright.PENANAgJI6aERwKW
lebih lama dari sekadar basa-basi pagi.
Hingga di suatu hari
"Mas, nanti siang aku ada reuni SMA, ya. Di café deket73Please respect copyright.PENANALI2Efs8Uwq
kampus dulu itu lho."
Jhoni yang duduk di meja makan, mengaduk kopi perlahan,73Please respect copyright.PENANAYIlDOPyArl
menoleh dengan tatapan datar. "Reuni? Tumben banget kamu semangat73Please respect copyright.PENANAfmxdw1nk8N
banget."
Ranti terkekeh kecil. "Yaa... ketemu temen-temen lama.73Please respect copyright.PENANATINM10nUGg
Nostalgia. Dulu kan aku gak pernah ikut acara beginian waktu masih ngajar di73Please respect copyright.PENANAVZ17gltlP2
pondok."
Jhoni mengangguk, tapi tidak bicara. Di balik tatapannya,73Please respect copyright.PENANAFPxwhQaM57
hatinya menghangat oleh rasa yang familiar: cemburu. Ia membayangkan73Please respect copyright.PENANARczIp1kgVd
wajah-wajah pria yang dulu pernah dekat dengan istrinya. Mantan-mantan yang73Please respect copyright.PENANAwz3rBnAofp
mungkin masih menyimpan rasa. Pria-pria yang tahu seperti apa suara tawa Ranti73Please respect copyright.PENANA03VWkH5995
saat masih remaja, tahu caranya membuat Ranti tersipu, tahu bagaimana caranya73Please respect copyright.PENANAWBYkgxS2Em
menyentuh tanpa menyentuh.
Ia mencoba bersikap santai. Tapi lidahnya gatal menembak,73Please respect copyright.PENANApHdK8sKqse
"Pasti ada si Bima, ya?"
Ranti yang sedang menuang air ke termos terdiam sejenak.73Please respect copyright.PENANANOVrxZNEo5
"Mungkin. Aku juga gak tahu siapa aja yang dateng."
"Bima itu mantan kamu, kan?"
"Tapi itu dulu, Mas," jawab Ranti sambil73Please respect copyright.PENANA0R456nyMKr
tersenyum, tetap tenang. "Sekarang aku istrimu."
Jawaban itu seharusnya cukup. Tapi kenapa rasanya justru73Please respect copyright.PENANA0RwK8VNIPW
seperti menampar?
Jhoni menyesap kopinya. Pahit. Sama seperti rasa yang kini73Please respect copyright.PENANAAZFoVvMLV9
bergolak dalam dadanya.
Pagi itu, aroma kopi menyebar lembut dari dapur. Ranti73Please respect copyright.PENANANFCcm4YVwO
berdiri di dekat kompor, masih mengenakan daster tipis dengan rambut yang73Please respect copyright.PENANARqRIDPkoWc
diikat asal. Ia tampak lebih ceria dari biasanya, senyumnya seperti mengembang73Please respect copyright.PENANAzOjRArQ5wS
lebih lama dari sekadar basa-basi pagi.
Jhoni menyesap kopinya. Pahit. Sama seperti rasa yang kini73Please respect copyright.PENANAUNjDEHzUMb
bergolak dalam dadanya.
Ranti melangkah ke kamar, berganti pakaian. Ia memilih kaus73Please respect copyright.PENANAUDbZBXIMM7
simpel dan celana bahan, tapi Jhoni tetap memperhatikan setiap detil dengan73Please respect copyright.PENANAM9QtJXAM7Z
tatapan curiga. Matanya mengikuti lekuk tubuh istrinya seolah mencari-cari73Please respect copyright.PENANAUunQmFeu3m
tanda pengkhianatan yang belum tentu ada.
"Rapi amat, kayak mau ngedate aja," gumam Jhoni73Please respect copyright.PENANAGfYRaHJeyl
tanpa menatap.
Ranti menoleh, alisnya terangkat. "Ini cuma baju biasa,73Please respect copyright.PENANAQNqmrXXkex
Mas."
Jhoni berdiri dari kursi. "Kamu senyum-senyum sendiri73Please respect copyright.PENANAXBKQyOx5Gr
dari tadi. Gaya bicaramu juga beda. Jangan-jangan kamu emang pengen ketemu73Please respect copyright.PENANAGZEbE0xLWD
Bima, ya? Masih ada rasa, ya?"
Ranti menatap suaminya, napasnya mulai berat. "Mas73Please respect copyright.PENANARL6e9e9lDP
ngomong apa sih?"
"Aku lihat cara kamu nyiapin diri dari tadi. Kamu73Please respect copyright.PENANAj9UJCsb870
itu... kayak cewek yang mau balikan sama mantannya."
"Mas, jangan keterlaluan. Aku cuma mau reuni. Itu73Please respect copyright.PENANAiTCEmmcQGW
temen-temen SMA-ku. Masa iya aku harus kelihatan berantakan biar Mas gak73Please respect copyright.PENANADkg6aZvecb
curiga?"
"Tapi kamu bisa aja bohong kan? Siapa yang tahu kamu73Please respect copyright.PENANAXxORUBzy4T
ngapain nanti di sana? Pegang-pegangan tangan? Pelukan? Atau lebih dari73Please respect copyright.PENANAWnQ5PgM5dP
itu?"
Bug! Gelas kopi Jhoni terbanting ke meja. Ranti menahan73Please respect copyright.PENANAhSr4PGLpXL
napas.
Ranti mendekat, matanya tak berkedip menantang. "Mas,73Please respect copyright.PENANAA2vfqrZubd
kalau Mas segitu gak percayanya sama aku..." suara Ranti bergetar, penuh73Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0iMwhZJp7
campuran marah dan sedih, "...gimana kalau sekalian aja aku bawa Bima ke73Please respect copyright.PENANA1NixMnK5x8
rumah?"
Jhoni diam.
"Aku ajak dia ke sini. Kita duduk bareng. Biar Mas73Please respect copyright.PENANAhzJW1O6L8b
lihat sendiri. Kalau perlu, aku akan cium dia di depan Mas. Biar Mas puas, biar73Please respect copyright.PENANApYVRhEAU0g
Mas tahu sejauh apa aku bisa."
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Jhoni menyeringai miris. "Coba aja kalau memang kamu73Please respect copyright.PENANArFiKhT7vCq
berani. Aku tunggu."