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她說出那句話的時候,我的心臟明明早就有預感,還是像被拉了一下。8964 copyright protection83PENANAzVnRbJ59mi 維尼
「……我不是妳的那個家瑜。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAipygfyTgbA 維尼
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她說得很誠實,也說得很小聲。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFf4tyqXWOM 維尼
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我不知道她經歷了什麼,也不知道她是從哪裡來的靈魂,但我知道,她不是在騙我。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlP40jlQVCJ 維尼
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她是真的迷路了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAZC0Nnr1RXF 維尼
不是那種「不認得路」的迷路,而是那種——8964 copyright protection83PENANALuLvvqGr7E 維尼
不知道自己是不是有資格留下來的彷徨。8964 copyright protection83PENANA4HoNVeDmpA 維尼
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我比她早一點進入黑暗,也早一點學會聽出那些「沒說出口的話」。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqFdMLVkB4o 維尼
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她雖然不是我的那個她,8964 copyright protection83PENANAaX2NTBi95h 維尼
但她手指顫抖地幫我整理杯子的方式,8964 copyright protection83PENANARHAlFpUXXz 維尼
還有那一聲沒說完的「湛霖姐…姐…」——8964 copyright protection83PENANA88QddCEL4N 維尼
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我都聽見了。87Please respect copyright.PENANAbG7ZHbBd6b
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她在努力。87Please respect copyright.PENANAFAENRJVXHW
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87Please respect copyright.PENANA71F6of7Un2
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所以,我想為她做一件小事。87Please respect copyright.PENANAEwt1szqCl4
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不是想讓她留下來,也不是為了她能代替誰,8964 copyright protection83PENANA5u2kDoYTFK 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAoGQ5iJhwvM
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而是因為我想讓她知道:8964 copyright protection83PENANAtuLjChR8lj 維尼
「如果這裡妳還站不穩,那我就先把路畫給妳看。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAqNLPCUD4o7 維尼
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我在晚上錄了六張語音卡。8964 copyright protection83PENANAd0MAacjgIS 維尼
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我摸過所有她今天經過時停頓過的位置、她第一次摸錯的開關、她猶豫不決要不要推門的門框。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqHs8ycavHr 維尼
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她看得見,但她不懂這裡。8964 copyright protection83PENANAKTOUtAMSfs 維尼
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就像我當初剛失明時,也看不見,但不想被問:「妳哪裡不熟?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAXSiT7BGEeA 維尼
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所以,我不問她想不想學,我就先替她預備好。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfWz13RAvgj 維尼
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她要的不是一個替代品的位子,而是一個願意接受她靠近的空間。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdFNbA12D0W 維尼
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錄到第四張卡的時候,我停了下來。8964 copyright protection83PENANAjnG1FfroHa 維尼
因為我想到一件事:8964 copyright protection83PENANAmdS535BjwI 維尼
她不是她,我也不再是過去的我。8964 copyright protection83PENANAyVLz5jsDWv 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA29fXTWFGop
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我們誰都不是原本那個「該在這裡的人」。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQqixSSytMZ 維尼
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但此刻,我們都在這裡。8964 copyright protection83PENANAZM3vlHWPly 維尼
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於是我加錄了一段卡。8964 copyright protection83PENANAHbrVKMhFMi 維尼
「這不是導覽,是一封回信。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAe2wT6TbjdF 維尼
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(語音裡的我輕輕呼吸了一下)8964 copyright protection83PENANAUSHc1OvxGn 維尼
「我知道妳不是她,但妳來了、妳在這裡、妳還站在我旁邊。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAePsAsUiXuK 維尼
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「我曾經以為,只有原本的她才能照顧我——但妳讓我明白,有些靠近不是習慣,是選擇。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAKOXgC7DmMC 維尼
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「我不知道妳會不會留下來,也不知道這段路會不會很長。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQMLJ2T8bbc 維尼
但如果妳願意走,我就會一直走在妳旁邊。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAsuOS4Emvmc 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAH2s0tT2sTX
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「所以這些語音卡不是提醒,是邀請。8964 copyright protection83PENANAz3BA2osr9n 維尼
妳不需要走得像她,只要願意靠近我——我就會記得妳的腳步聲。」8964 copyright protection83PENANABSImCk7kZa 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAvDtcyJh7sL
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錄完這段話,我把卡放進盒子裡,貼上標籤。 「給迷路的妳。不是提醒,是邀請。」8964 copyright protection83PENANANhiduQ75BH 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAN5Trn0deW8
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我把盒子放在茶几上,靠近她明天早上會坐的那張椅子。8964 copyright protection83PENANA32sljGD8km 維尼
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她會看到的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdKzFXDthqw 維尼
我知道她會看到。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlQKONIN6Hp 維尼
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然後,她會知道——8964 copyright protection83PENANAYMN7uk3XvQ 維尼
我不是因為她像誰才接納她,8964 copyright protection83PENANAntLvHIFter 維尼
而是因為她選擇不躲,選擇靠近。87Please respect copyright.PENANAkmewogbjGv
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這一份靠近,比任何記憶都真實。8964 copyright protection83PENANAW7ONjGpHHy 維尼
可參閱此篇:87Please respect copyright.PENANAaOupFEG4qz
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