I’ve seen many people take death as an escape route. I’m sure if they knew what was coming, they would never ever do that. My house loomed in front of me, a well of sadness. My mother’s wails came from inside, piercing me like a knife. I could see my father, standing near the door like a statue, a mere shell of his former self. Tears glittered in his eyes but they refused to come down. It was as if he was swallowing his pain, trying his hardest not to fall apart. I wished I could hug them…Tell them that…Tell them that I loved them and that seeing them so hurt was tearing me apart.712Please respect copyright.PENANAtBJu14zB7W
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My friends stood in a group. Maya looked utterly broken, leaning on the wall for support, not bothering to wipe her tears. She kept saying she should have been with me and it was all her fault. I told her it was not and put an arm around her shoulder before suddenly realizing that she couldn’t hear or feel me. Never again… Never again….Never again….712Please respect copyright.PENANAoA6Za1EDGK
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It was when I looked at the group a little closely that I noticed someone was missing. A person with the most charming smile in the world. He wasn’t a close friend, just a classmate, so I suppose it was not that big a surprise he would miss my funeral. Yet…my heart, already so full of bleeding wounds, ached just a little more when I realized he was not there.712Please respect copyright.PENANAontsJ5MpkS
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Mathew…I shook my head. Did I mean so little to him that… Why did it matter?712Please respect copyright.PENANAmBhKEfASVb
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Mathew was a secret dream I cherished. A ghost wasn’t supposed to dream anymore.712Please respect copyright.PENANA9dFfiEH5kY
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Everything ended for me on that road when a car hit me and sped off.712Please respect copyright.PENANACUAlofJEoC
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There was a loud sound of an approaching car. It stopped just in front of our house. Three people got out. I didn’t know the man and woman but…the third person.712Please respect copyright.PENANArOqA3J8BuF
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“Why do I have to come?” Mathew said. “I barely knew that girl…”712Please respect copyright.PENANAxR5goWtDqC
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“She was your classmate, Mathew.” The woman, who I assumed to be his mother, said sharply.712Please respect copyright.PENANA0W5nT7FdMv
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“So?” Mathew said, not bothering to lower his voice. “She was weird…Almost never talked. Always had her nose buried in her book…I don’t even know very well and you want to me to pretend to be all upset?”712Please respect copyright.PENANAjISoTZl2px
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“Shut up, Mathew!” His father hissed. People were staring at them. I heard someone say softly that he was a brat.712Please respect copyright.PENANAmPyWWphMJq
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As to what I felt…Numb might be the right word. So, this was what he thought of me. A weird girl…If I had been alive, these words would have hurt me beyond measure. Now, they felt comical. I had longed for him to notice me while I was alive. I had remembered every little thing about him. If I had known it would end like this I would never have bothered to even look at him. Anyway…There are plenty of things I would have done differently if I knew my life would be cut off at 17.712Please respect copyright.PENANA0id1n096WU
He stared at my corpse for a few minutes and walked away. I scanned his face for a hint of sadness but saw none. The tiniest pain slashed at my heart. Why? Did I expect him to cry considering what he just said?712Please respect copyright.PENANAExbNICmE07
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When he got into the car just five minutes later, letting out a sigh of relief, the pain made me weep. I tried to think that it didn’t matter but….712Please respect copyright.PENANAEt43jrgZwZ
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Something hadn’t died with Ophelia. The affection I developed for the person who just called me weird. From my now detached perspective, I knew it had been a mistake then. But it was a mistake I loved with all my heart.712Please respect copyright.PENANA3i1xSk6OUl
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To be continued...712Please respect copyright.PENANAEqujHdYVoQ