So, rather recently I've had this thought ambling around in the back of my mind. It's a thought that everyone has. It's a fear everyone has. This thought is something you never hope to be included in. This has just been stuck in my head for a while, I wanted to just get it out there.1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLm843q7BgY
You see, there is a point in which everyone becomes second. There is a point in which someone else matters more. This point is what I like to call the Push Point. It is the point where you being to be pushed away. It is a point were you no longer seem to matter. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5yFLh4Fyc
I feel like I am always at this point. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzprDdHyWFp
I am the person who is second by nature and first, well, hardly ever. In people's minds, I suppose, I am someone who is replaceable. To lose me is to only fill that empty space with another me. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerj0NWOCaH
I wonder, am I so generic that I can so easily be replaced? 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarLBpLeaF9
And God-forbid I speak up about my position or I really will be replaced. It feels like I don't matter enough. Do I have to be some kind of eccentric person to be accepted? Must I make myself more interesting and flattering to the eye? Do I have to change myself just to seem amazing enough to keep around?1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡior33UiUme
Is that what people want nowadays? 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mzHh0H49I
You know, I don't think I've ever really had a best friend. I've never been first, no one has ever chosen me for anything. I'm second-best. I have fair-weather friends who only want me when there is nothing better to do. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeeXRtmANS
My feelings don't matter to them. Only they do. They want help with their lives when I'm stuck with "I'm sorry". In todays society, I feel like we, as people, are being less and less in-tune with other people's feelings. The generations now seem to only care for themselves. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggG0jCLqKc
Maybe I'm being a hypocrite, I am apart of said generation. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixhORyp9Pt
But I want to be cared for and loved so badly I can't stand it. Family is obligated to love me. I want someone who choses to. Maybe I'm being selfish and too egotistical about myself. I should feel lucky to have the family and "friends" that I have now. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPqO6kWZbe
But, I'm not. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOsofMp69K
I guess its a human flaw: we always want more. We are never comfortable with what we already have. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNzy8P1Auw
I complain a lot, it seems. Maybe I just have a lot to complain about or maybe I just need to be grateful for what I have. I know I'm not the only one. 1089Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KNVotEMVi
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