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為甚麼最後會變成這樣……?226Please respect copyright.PENANAWXflx2oabi
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難道人都會活成自己最討厭的樣子嗎?226Please respect copyright.PENANAoolSoORcO8
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那為了這孩子……226Please respect copyright.PENANAV2oICPspNC
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那為了不再傷害他的話……226Please respect copyright.PENANAyStn6O2e42
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只有我去死好了……226Please respect copyright.PENANAhhZExOe1H3
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「停手吧…你想成為這孩子一生的陰霾嗎?」一個身穿黑斗篷的少年憑空出現,牢牢的捉緊了我持有菜刀的手,不願放開。226Please respect copyright.PENANASY2hrGZMOw
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「你先去夢鄉等一下吧……」他另一隻手啪啪手指,兒子便昏睡過去了。226Please respect copyright.PENANAJaXedijv82
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「别攔我啊!不是的話我又會不自覺傷害到他了,放開我吧!」我不斷拉扯著他的手卻觸碰不了他,只能讓他單方面捉住我。226Please respect copyright.PENANAqiuw0z3Lzf
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然後那少年直接用另外一隻手一巴掌摑在我臉上,吼著:226Please respect copyright.PENANAfXWDkft8RQ
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「這樣死去的話對你的孩子傷害不是更大嗎!在他面前用菜刀自刎?那個陰影可是要跟他一輩子的!你又想做成下一個惡性循環嗎!」226Please respect copyright.PENANA18hsrXmwYZ
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我被他的一摑和責罵也冷靜了下來,心情卻十分的矛盾。而突然腦內的混亂像走馬燈般快速在閃過,又閃回,重覆了數次,使我的意識變得瞬間模糊不清,將快要暈倒。
「喂~我沒有太多空餘時間的,醒來。」他啪了啪手指,我便從片段被拉回現實,眼前的影像回到家中,而那個黑衣少年還站在我面前。226Please respect copyright.PENANAgzCOmnxeLY
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「你到底是誰?為甚麼會在這裡?」我向他問道,而他冷淡的回應我:226Please respect copyright.PENANAwd8k1UFvRo
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「我只是一個死神,不為其他,只來為了防止你的自殺。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAHNnQDdaEPg
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「為甚麼……你不是死神嗎?」226Please respect copyright.PENANAiX1s8t074s
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「你還沒有資格死去,畢竟你還有許多問題要解決。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAy5rTdPaTWb
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「連死亡也不被允許!這個世界到底有多討厭我!」我不斷的拍打地板發洩著。226Please respect copyright.PENANAb8EFYU6GVY
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「冷靜點,我就是來為你解決問題的,那…代價到你真正要死時才付,如何?」226Please respect copyright.PENANA6ar0z2rbW1
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「先問一下,代價是甚麼?」226Please respect copyright.PENANAhcH7g4JJYD
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「靈魂的一半而已,放心,死前那一刻的話對你的存在沒有影響的,也不會影響到來世。」226Please respect copyright.PENANANl6TyK1IWm
「那你可以如何保證我的問題能夠解決,你知道我甚麽?」226Please respect copyright.PENANAZvw07UCcij
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「我們曾見過兩次,只是你看不見我而已。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAxXOGjF3NoT
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「欸?」226Please respect copyright.PENANAQwcDxRtgFK
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「第一次是你母親死時,第二次是老公死亡時,而這兩次都影響了你不少,對吧?」226Please respect copyright.PENANA1RmARhMP6h
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母親的身影我絕不會忘記,因為我在這個世界上是最憎恨她。226Please respect copyright.PENANAgbI6y2xyXg
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她就是一個情緒不穩的瘋子,又會酗酒,一但喝醉或狂燥起來便會不斷虐待我。226Please respect copyright.PENANAVzBmBKRoO8
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這樣的母親幸好她死得早,不然我受的虐待的我便可能更慘。226Please respect copyright.PENANAmIMd1A1D9s
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而我因為是單親家庭,無可去從的我被社署送去了孤兒院。但在孤兒院的生活總比被虐的生活好,而這裡的好人也很多,我也在這裡生活得十分舒適,令我身邊的社工都認為我已走出陰影,雖然我自己那時也這樣認為。226Please respect copyright.PENANAJuJxQ84Rsg
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但只是我自己不察覺而已,她的魔掌伸向的是更未來的我。226Please respect copyright.PENANAMK1tfb96Fr
在我長大成人之後,我離開了照顧自己很久的孤兒院,過了一個人的獨立生活,一開始很孤獨,因為在身邊沒有他人。幸好的我在不久找到男友,也在之後結婚了。226Please respect copyright.PENANAeNF3RWv50L
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在我認為我們孩子都生了,生活總算美滿的那一刻,我老公他卻在工作時昏迷了,老實說他的工作並不是甚麼光明正大的工作我是知道的,但我們也有辦法,為了養妻活兒,他也步入了歧途,越來越深……226Please respect copyright.PENANAykiJUieCF2
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他已改變了,對我失去了以前的那種樸實的笑容,表情和待人態度開始變得無情,有時致電過人基本上都聽到他的罵聲。這樣的,我們之間日常的見面也少了不少,他見兒子當然的機會也沒有。錢的確是得到了,但我感到更重要的東西失去了,因為他再不是我認識的他。226Please respect copyright.PENANAtYs9MNXgLm
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不要是他昏迷的話,我能見他一面的機會也甚至幾乎沒有。但過了不久後見的是他的最後一面了,他腦死亡了。我愛過的人已死去,或者可能一早已死掉了。226Please respect copyright.PENANApLK0hiVlKj
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住院費已把儲蓄花了七七八八,面對目前的家中經濟問題,我只好拜託孤兒院的朋友,結果聽到是要借錢便拒絕了,說他們家也沒有多餘錢可借給我。那我只好外出工作維持生計,再打理家頭細務,而陰霾這刻在我裡面不知不覺的開始擴散了。226Please respect copyright.PENANAmcAAZLaYpM
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工作的壓力十分大,加上自己又不是聰明,做的都是較低下的工作,氣自然受不小,而錢卻收不多。幸好的事這個單位是阿北,我丈夫一早買下的。除去了租金,賺來的金錢也只勉強夠兩母子生活而已。226Please respect copyright.PENANAImqbmKSQV7
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而在長期的壓力下,我終於忍不住向三歲的兒子發脾氣了,他不聽話時我已不像以前的有耐性會慢慢氹他,開始用惡來兇他聽話。起初十分有效,但後來又開始失效,結果便使負面情緒升級。226Please respect copyright.PENANATZc4zrankK
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就連兇也沒有用的話只好讓他用身體的記住。226Please respect copyright.PENANAIlblaWduLm
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我為了讓他聽話便真的動起了手來打他。掌摑他、兇他、使用暴力和責備開始變成日常生活不可欠缺的家常便飯。226Please respect copyright.PENANA4Xlt3xoe0L
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但在一次打了兒子後,不為意的看見兒子變得仇恨和討厭自己的眼神,我才從他瞳孔裡察覺自己的身影早已變成了自己曾最討厭的母親,陰霾早已把我吞噬,被過去的陰影纏擾,而最終變成了新的陰霾。226Please respect copyright.PENANAzZkZwjNUPw
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不幸的連鎖必須在這裏打破,不然這孩子也會變成下一個母親,或下一個我。226Please respect copyright.PENANANAQ95LMFh4
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所以我拿起了菜刀,並把刀鋒指向了自己的喉嚨……226Please respect copyright.PENANA1O4bOFLatp
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「我不想這個孩子變成下一個受害者……拜託你,幫助他……」我哭著求向了眼前的少年。226Please respect copyright.PENANAOLEnH4uYsP
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「幫助他?那是當然。但何解不先救自己呢……」226Please respect copyright.PENANAmOpGgDRcCA
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「對死神來說,幫助等同殺死,只是我殺的是過去的你而已。而拋去已死去的自己,你才能重新出發……」226Please respect copyright.PENANAIr8y5NdFMX
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「而能真正打破這個惡運連鎖的不是他人,只有你。」226Please respect copyright.PENANANeYUVawzGT
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「但……那個孩子已十分厭惡我,已不可能……」226Please respect copyright.PENANA9YSq5VpOYZ
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「你一開始就用這種心態照顧他嗎?你是父母!可是孩子的榜樣,先棄餒的話我也幫不了你啊。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAW76U6GEhqU
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「是你想以自殺打破連鎖才把我召來,所以你已經成功了踏第一步,有想改變的心態。雖然不是正途……」226Please respect copyright.PENANA9s48hH4qbr
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「但接著便在於你了,給你兩個選擇……」226Please respect copyright.PENANAwn1AWCs0kB
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「方案一,我可以除去你和兒子的記憶,可以讓你們如正常人生活下去;方案二,除去兒子的記憶而已,靠你自己渡過陰霾。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAVQaIJs5s5W
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「方案一……」我低頭回答了。226Please respect copyright.PENANA8Pe5ccJu0X
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「那方案二吧!」他卻這樣回應了。226Please respect copyright.PENANAPRN93Bkqmr
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「不是讓我選擇的嗎?」我驚訝的問向他。226Please respect copyright.PENANA7kewr3BRCr
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「笨蛋~我只是說在於你而已~沒說讓你選啊。」他奸詐的笑了一下並繼續說道:226Please respect copyright.PENANArKRXW7f4Pi
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「人生就是這樣的,每人會有志向和目標,但太多因素不是自己可以決定。你會遇到不幸的確不會是你的錯,但如何從中取態就看你自己。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAv5nmQVaZbG
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「逃避不是錯,是為了贊取總有一天能面對的勇氣的話……」226Please respect copyright.PENANAN5jFGwYaGo
「再見了,下次來的時候我就是來追債了。」226Please respect copyright.PENANA0b5MsuniOA
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「等等……」當我伸出手時,那個少年已消失不見了……226Please respect copyright.PENANAATrhLwjZyc
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能幫我的人已不在了……226Please respect copyright.PENANAzwok3Xklll
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不…我已被足夠以上的幫助了。226Please respect copyright.PENANArECi6HiSxV
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那沒有辦法……只好靠自己重新努力一下。226Please respect copyright.PENANABgFgasNEsw
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不能再犯同樣的錯誤了。226Please respect copyright.PENANA9RfUUoEIab
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因為我可是要保護他的人和他的榜樣啊。226Please respect copyright.PENANALihixUrxDc
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「呼…呼呼……」死神正在一個昏暗的後巷喘著氣。226Please respect copyright.PENANAdKi4W2lANc
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「還是老樣子呢,小儚。」突然有一把聲音跟死神搭起了話。226Please respect copyright.PENANAyiyPZ98aWW
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「小環……你來這裡幹甚麼?你和小翼不是有事要忙的嗎……」226Please respect copyright.PENANAVxa48eaLbH
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小環衪身穿白衣,,設計跟小儚身上的幾乎一樣,只差在顏色和沒有帽子,而衪頭上有一個光環。外貌是個高冷的女生,有一頭帶少許金色曲曲的短髮。226Please respect copyright.PENANAWc8DWrrXvt
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「當然是擔心你了,還有甚麼……」小環伸手扶向正在喘氣的小儚。226Please respect copyright.PENANAfxZAopdoh5
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「抱歉,我要先走了。下次再聊吧……」小儚突然跳起飛到遠處,留下小環一個。226Please respect copyright.PENANAF7ZhYwxVmS
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「喂!小儚!」小環還在原地大吼著,然後小聲喋喋的說道:226Please respect copyright.PENANAQdx1Nj46VE
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「那孩子的靈魂能承受到嗎……死神的工作。」226Please respect copyright.PENANAK2OrqWQgb3
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天使:小環226Please respect copyright.PENANAxwS6csuIW1
目的:(?)226Please respect copyright.PENANA4ybt9xfTrX