天亮，上班。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9a7OS4bZs
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuu1HvX44n
擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BN2tBX5nL
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo8ooDyDdM
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkMNbmJL6l
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rGXiMbK4P
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aadI1h18n
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看不見，罷。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOZcrs03cE
天黑，下班。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwvyUeqvlv
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQr2vxLYAyT
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2xeH0fsVi
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmahTbOrDQZ
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1EVzaQF9I
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcn7C8Stmh
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYaXHdYwJu
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaEYO7Pa98
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJwZD5XIfN
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dHZZJA1GJ
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArmGGKMxoF
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvtsvKrd1U
公司，午飯時間。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdI9134lUY
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPjeTbDTRc
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxpAWox4UJ
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJswcGIVBQP
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro9CAzDqHM
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6yDReaik5
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFO6NHZfOJ
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieVjrSy00C
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還是……298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtonKQqjCnf
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpzqPB9xYX
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY4Eu5ZplK
公司，工作。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOEkKsixhA
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc16QQpFtcc
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF8BujHHGF
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTSAKthTQS
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXLilc4NCU
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjssmh15op7
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNWp6oFBBj
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkI1aoVIvy
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRuMUCjHKD
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwW8KR7COF
快意，笑了。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8DzSLUhVJ
酒吧，喝酒。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj1DUmAOF1
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKElhFsglK
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk15cMFgA4
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHD5GUFFRb
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggwwoMXw2F
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLwn4Zc7o0
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuifbnc7zHN
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQsmufGZZY
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbNkFvUWwo
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXl2mRr1JU
醉倒。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutzZ8PpV5s
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsBpPCsc92
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnLyvu0cEW
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05VxYJ0w0t
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73k3mzw6eL
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39B6vqh9zl
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIypm0m6GT
假期，醫院。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwQpX3PShT
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pnp8wnTlJ
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZDKkkZhlY
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wGjPimnXs
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXgks15QTK
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPZ14xgFEy
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KH0yT4xfY
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsCjKtnVHi
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlEZbBsxKT
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74MAvBy3aB
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEH5pWsWDr
死寂。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZGKOXtdpA
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ013vzlY2Er
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDVNSpyBm5
回家，晚飯。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAeRBf8h90
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25w4qYFmgI
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGimJFLCQG
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4dVlNoORu
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZqtbnYXHv
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzA1nATpjq
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx16LuHh50
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PhClsn3Vu
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP0vreLvdj
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lqEbUCabZ
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUxSOU2tBg
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcC4amICwx6
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZVQq9QLgS
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHu9SSKpcjl
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjTF4iNsB6
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdORabeyi9
男友家，床上。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL4WG3YDxl
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HA5frD4y4
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2K3zG1d7bc
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHtMlgwvTW
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70LuzG371e
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlZLmYWdFO
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhybHOcFevn
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKBvZkTytC
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2zHWpfxng
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9L0eZ8m3NX
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LD1YOVeVI
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9c2k1bpc3
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57ejhL6wok
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfAojsfIWz
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSLywf4qXX
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvD0B455N3h
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGppTGFXcg4
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFzdp3avma
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9M4VF4fvN
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBCp122bn2
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMtfKpQVsW
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXMAzPzYI1
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdmhDLQYd3
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzlS1JmcfW
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmZaS0qq3o
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARLC2NtY90
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXIS5TkiPC
「在你體內。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlGo74LIDE
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「甚麼？」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORwxiCKJBR
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「蟻。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPnww4BEcx
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9evuNvk4bU
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYbFOdohi5
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMCVsW78bH
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y9dCOz3zD
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRvlCR0b2I
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRZ4v5SbVQ
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gWKdAKIxb
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1fRLQEbvn
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzbB7pIxiU
「誰？」另一聲音反問。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAchKUribBb
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6gSgVv0gJ
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2P71VZVh4
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靜。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOmv3Rs2Bq
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCpxmu7CLF
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtFYiP1J2h
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sJq895VIN
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OCKBxfRPQ
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1KqtIAP6H
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXkW0gH4uc
我：「我有精神病？」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNoJUY5B2C
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BZSDWI14u
醫：「是情緒病。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPh9t7MNab
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndxZYrq892
我：「怎麼辦？」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFs5qW0FK92
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCwlw4A6Ms
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlbG7iobNj
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS41D5HouUY
我：「謝謝醫生。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPB5zT8wdJY
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mNtxR4Ad4
醫：「不用謝。」298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJx9rKd3zjD
298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE6xPkZOrG
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtQLGGzdos
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaTHrUCZBW
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4j3kxxsae
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOlH0GlV0q
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aWBl3nyIU
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeHWPMCsRU
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……298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBE9Mavgyf
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcv9IkT4Ai
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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