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天亮，上班。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wErp6rUvB
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzi1fmiUGQB
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4V5VfMGF0
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJGJq4PhtC
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo60PgUoSoR
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看不見，罷。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecFAOCThMn
天黑，下班。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa061RvHZxS
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DXKvVyh6M
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmUVTiotcq
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwYbOCk6PR
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDgQ8NlSXv
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OSKlGzE4c
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHHTlyyGYo
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja5Hme4cBh
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdtnI4oaQt
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaRsyZtmlG
公司，午飯時間。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTIkYOYcnr
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XPInTXxgO
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWIatDZlJi
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIetf4nVU8
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKSXjNLBpH
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwv3uXkQgl
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovcyx30t0B
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmtSTWc4ch
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwh7tsbvV0
還是……267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlU6jjh90zY
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZsUfj2mvm
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4Ays8rdPG
公司，工作。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRZ13NbF35
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3O3vz3f0F
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZu2J1LOUn
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKgqgT9tA9
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRy4g4U1WY
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPBJutEqNv
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuUtxpe6ic
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qTQLMSPFu
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0axyMwe1X
快意，笑了。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8ToRPgFOi
酒吧，喝酒。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvBVWgAPWl
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjgKD6Ptqn
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7NtSHvb4Z
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0E0uyZ6mW
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOkTueD3to
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3g8RouxIY
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalLKg2CmQs
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4o2mgtvy7
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbd83j7cUU
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pNALWdqiW
醉倒。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZV613YrdW
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1QxzmpKtK
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwmFCLqBkd
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMq7inbcEk
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tygBcrPHK
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyUmGOjRzK
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTY67MwKKz9
假期，醫院。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yuKaGnjDa
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7str3K17j
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU9NqZlNhw
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcZbD3DPqp
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMV0wmV6oL
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENGiE9ATVF
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67BZr9hB3Z
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRSNFeVcII
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Z29gHGWg8
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznBUjaqwDJ
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqI3qhI1JC
死寂。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNngoGblRK
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuafMyTlTcX
回家，晚飯。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ9LmuNIuD
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvfhsFDBh6
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofpAOAe6PG
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48nV3eQdQ2
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu9crY8Fme
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRacFfF2sIr
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡripsAnJuqf
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35AAr7KEzs
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYSWV7KHSY
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7gwhaih8m
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbLtQCswQW
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMuLGrJEEQ
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRL836LVtY
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgKBowmmOM
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG94vEornb8
男友家，床上。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocRZuS6kKi
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLLVKCrtX9
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZbbwL69PM
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTd2se5ERQ1
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1HyRmcSt4
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYgvzlalAF
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXbikMRs0e
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cH7KySvKU
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cpzV3NVMq
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMI1i45Zgl
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoZ6vkTlnr
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih1Jlg90Af
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeX7XQvVTg
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X7ymjsU9J
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iNyDyWtML
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso42V6KDT7
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW2DNMFfwP
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDcA4KoEzB
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5YTxoeziO
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hJpVIC8Bs
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruh57sUxj2
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgoxVeI4KS
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAmSGAhJcj
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzteLhNxkc
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzVfViPids
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAqVH3qann
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpye8XkzPH6
「在你體內。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7vj1z2Fwa
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「甚麼？」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEaTIkssGC
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「蟻。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWUgjkA7DN
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjAlt8FkD8
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2vyKSzugN
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOYii1hRu1
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaFZC9D8ZG
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTDzmdHdS4
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrkwjVY3oK
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnkUHbEpp5
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4pT3XsmD7
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVzoAthSiv
「誰？」另一聲音反問。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIivhJTSzn
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7jPqnsMrI
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNZQ74EO6q
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靜。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTtFqygwEJ
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9taiI16wHU
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk12sIg8XNV
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANJwY40p6F
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z9qYZdhE1
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3X59ZQF3j
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCFO828oR1
我：「我有精神病？」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWPqSDv8Do
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QOsPpUpXn
醫：「是情緒病。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtNzcG8kbh
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xNnUkDlzL
我：「怎麼辦？」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ536DAh5FOQ
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASpn4GggV6
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7zB1LFEua
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG5kvrb4hk
我：「謝謝醫生。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOk4tJsHJ9
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醫：「不用謝。」267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALuYOaxLOh
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuOkEUN7ds
267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡea7ckuiLhC
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTL0KamvdN
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZArM5dnQ9P
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAAOHo8Szr
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hAGdPDQaU
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEKjoVs723
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……267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEnbS1jVVJ
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddzEV37TRS
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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