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天亮，上班。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtqk2rynro
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLDm60gC9R
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WGm5Y3HCx
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10rR05KxSb
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC2eWm9PmD
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看不見，罷。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV5pNfSmBT
天黑，下班。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh2aCt1I99
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaH5H7HN8Z
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ua9zM4jt7
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRO6nk9JQue
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GglJ3xCH9
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKyNMzufOU
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjPRa01wtM
公司，午飯時間。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR75nf2ZCwF
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEmRqqC8Jy
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看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipywkgYf1Y
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXCHaw5mjb
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXVzd5gtZD
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還是……212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7prg4QgrtK
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0H1LxXDgJ
公司，工作。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHp7u0PU2Kw
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNwduTHBFz
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHEJyeaWxU
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfsvuZxXUx
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剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ER3Icb8tE
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快意，笑了。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8tLqcMFAQ
酒吧，喝酒。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqjpWezYuk
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvhxxezYwt
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnZJRNalC7
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuif4LbmBm3
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsBAGBAimq
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醉倒。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwEskUcroW
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbyIsdlHMQ
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbzZsDbXHi
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今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2565E0JJCO
假期，醫院。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pVrv7e0HT
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWU6lQa3DKH
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRyuYgljaj
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「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuUKa9aqqB
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSXzKh7wSO
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「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbaaJbyFCU
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死寂。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewcLbgIXSR
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BlFf8Dsr7
回家，晚飯。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51eklMUUVs
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIIYx1KtS1
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「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMEVqBAnZP
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妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiEwcJnDZT
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我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK09kB188Ml
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5SR6WWyiR
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9DDwOnxDn
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCi6tf3iO4
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeucmWEkXuo
男友家，床上。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT9NpYI0ON
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0dHGjYFF5
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPErP45gEkf
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhE80Bsoww
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHYOToHodZ
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kndtdcquC
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQ6lsrnOk7
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lM9nUctOM
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSbFfX3IYF
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KbTdYz997
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyc6UDxOG8
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip2DNfkFzL
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyME8Bwo7G
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSI8VLBOj3
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ApHpJjRMz
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「在你體內。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6I79L0dFE
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「甚麼？」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrq3mUo9d9v
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「蟻。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeG43cSwz4e
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsBxsQJukv
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它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVNjBYQIRj
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2zaxUCcLm
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4WEvTZlSl
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「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvvphtWgCL
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD12IqBCks
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5NtZWASkP
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靜。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsz57lyzpo
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UDwc8lYLx
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVq8svEKtq
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZTigP7URT
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我：「我有精神病？」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSQkc8YDLM
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醫：「是情緒病。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvAmqYpFBp
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我：「怎麼辦？」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKZpXagUJJ
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjDcmeJpqA
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我：「謝謝醫生。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaM20d7GDv
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醫：「不用謝。」212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZioN8MkZnu
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4q8EQ9yic
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuT9uLthhVh
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacMcasRpmw
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZrSbjIPKB
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bKPWEcT9p
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxDlporLyo
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……212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23XrLP6MOf
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV6wepdGf0
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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