
秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道,有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙,聽來已然粉身碎骨,看來完好無缺。215Please respect copyright.PENANAC0PbifrApR
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「完好?」現在的她問。215Please respect copyright.PENANAQ38PHf55bb
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「無缺?」曾經的他問。215Please respect copyright.PENANAdJllOa95bf
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很多人說他生活美滿。家境富裕,頭腦聰明,五官英氣,身材高大。聞言他總是假笑,笑對方客氣得過份。奈何對方從未察覺他的笑容雖假,情感卻是真實而強烈的:他的確認為對方很過份。他想要的從不是這種生活,可惜每次對此表示厭棄時,總有人批評他不知足。215Please respect copyright.PENANADMENHN1ijF
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輕嘆一聲,繼續前行。踏踏踏,沙沙沙,聲聲撕心裂肺。像父母的哭罵,令人痛,也令人愧疚不安。無論他們如何呼天搶地,他終究永遠不會回來。215Please respect copyright.PENANAC1WuqPqGqB
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遷入新居,展開新生。吃力,困難。已然表達得很清楚,對方還是假裝不知該使用哪個稱謂。有人說不介意,有人說很平常,話題和目光卻只停留在胯下之物。215Please respect copyright.PENANAKfXsYLjrLR
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無處訴說的孤獨日夜縈繞不散。曾發誓永不後悔,曾以為自己是多麼堅毅勇敢,曾相信世界其實不是那麼單一而絕情……215Please respect copyright.PENANAbxmQlKlUue
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步出公園,拐了幾個街口,來到醫院門前。215Please respect copyright.PENANAIB2leS4JHu
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「醫生,早晨。」215Please respect copyright.PENANADFZTvXyyuy
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「早晨。近來身體好嗎?」215Please respect copyright.PENANAb3reFtVzNB
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「好……不過……」215Please respect copyright.PENANAoldW1KKLnx
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「不過甚麼?」215Please respect copyright.PENANANGTr097yh5
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「我想再做手術。」215Please respect copyright.PENANAyHiQ2Ik4cb
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「為甚麼?」215Please respect copyright.PENANAD7JU5TIFkC
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「不適應現在的生活。」215Please respect copyright.PENANAHsqXz2YcdI
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「不適應身體的變化或是有其他困難?」215Please respect copyright.PENANAV4TGE9ssqV
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「是生活上的困難……其實我很滿意現在的身體,我覺得這才是真正的自己!過往的我根本不是我!可惜旁人都不是這麼認為……」215Please respect copyright.PENANA5enM9oqTdV
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「所以你想要回以前的性別?」215Please respect copyright.PENANAO28Sh9SaBr
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「不——我是不想要任何性別。」215Please respect copyright.PENANAs83qbjAZFn
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「噢……抱歉我還未能捕捉到你的思路。」215Please respect copyright.PENANAcjkH1AXtem
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「這些日子,我遇到的問題大都源於旁人無法定徹底認同我是男或女。如果我沒有特定性別,可以在『男』、『女』、『跨性別』、『無性別』幾個類別之間遊走,可能會更自由!」215Please respect copyright.PENANA7G5lzDDnAP
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「依我看來,你再次做手術之後,將要面對的問題會更多更嚴重。」215Please respect copyright.PENANA5zna4SL3cZ
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「我理解你的意思,但我還是想要放手一搏——我堅信每次改變都會帶來新的可能、新的希望。」215Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4wjVKIbty
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「既然你堅持,我會按程序寫信轉介你去心理輔導部門作專業評估。」215Please respect copyright.PENANASh7zODvXx0
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「謝謝你。」215Please respect copyright.PENANADzWjoJbGwp
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跟醫生多聊一會後,她步出醫院,再次走經公園。215Please respect copyright.PENANA5vKCPYpxG2
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秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道,有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙,聽來已然粉身碎骨,看來完好無缺。215Please respect copyright.PENANA39PGJiNaww
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「以前未完好。」現在的她說。215Please respect copyright.PENANAXIZunTx6dk
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「將來會無缺。」曾經的他說。215Please respect copyright.PENANAfYkpRZBFv2
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她笑了,笑自己傻,笑自己依然沉浸在幻想世界當中,相信自己的人生將來一定會變得完好無缺。215Please respect copyright.PENANApdMM0NrJHf
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明知無人能斷言明天一定會更好。215Please respect copyright.PENANAuuxkpwc89g
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奈何人總需要一個努力的原因、一個繼續活下去的原因。215Please respect copyright.PENANAiYHnyCpRKb
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那個原因名為「希望」。215Please respect copyright.PENANAe8vd1AYFl4
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「我定要繼續努力。」現在的她說。215Please respect copyright.PENANALReAjhisfJ
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「好好活下去吧。」曾經的他說。215Please respect copyright.PENANA65x3gz7xWx
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秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。215Please respect copyright.PENANAU88I25YXGq
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她慢步於公園大道,放眼欣賞沿路風景,不再留意地上的枯葉。
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