
秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道,有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙,聽來已然粉身碎骨,看來完好無缺。172Please respect copyright.PENANApnCzWxgm9c
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「完好?」現在的她問。172Please respect copyright.PENANAqiC8o61h7z
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「無缺?」曾經的他問。172Please respect copyright.PENANAjsuCcOPqUI
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很多人說他生活美滿。家境富裕,頭腦聰明,五官英氣,身材高大。聞言他總是假笑,笑對方客氣得過份。奈何對方從未察覺他的笑容雖假,情感卻是真實而強烈的:他的確認為對方很過份。他想要的從不是這種生活,可惜每次對此表示厭棄時,總有人批評他不知足。172Please respect copyright.PENANASmcpYt0pIM
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輕嘆一聲,繼續前行。踏踏踏,沙沙沙,聲聲撕心裂肺。像父母的哭罵,令人痛,也令人愧疚不安。無論他們如何呼天搶地,他終究永遠不會回來。172Please respect copyright.PENANADX0tpSC1q1
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遷入新居,展開新生。吃力,困難。已然表達得很清楚,對方還是假裝不知該使用哪個稱謂。有人說不介意,有人說很平常,話題和目光卻只停留在胯下之物。172Please respect copyright.PENANABff0RmLhqS
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無處訴說的孤獨日夜縈繞不散。曾發誓永不後悔,曾以為自己是多麼堅毅勇敢,曾相信世界其實不是那麼單一而絕情……172Please respect copyright.PENANANC96Mmkzm7
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步出公園,拐了幾個街口,來到醫院門前。172Please respect copyright.PENANAtDsIpqBlkt
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「醫生,早晨。」172Please respect copyright.PENANApW52X9Gf5O
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「早晨。近來身體好嗎?」172Please respect copyright.PENANALOaVxtafih
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「好……不過……」172Please respect copyright.PENANAx3axROyexT
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「不過甚麼?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAcjn0LNY5ml
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「我想再做手術。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAFYmEy39zIS
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「為甚麼?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAmR0PRSa5b1
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「不適應現在的生活。」172Please respect copyright.PENANA5G6XRcWwxf
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「不適應身體的變化或是有其他困難?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7hpHs9ZgD
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「是生活上的困難……其實我很滿意現在的身體,我覺得這才是真正的自己!過往的我根本不是我!可惜旁人都不是這麼認為……」172Please respect copyright.PENANABmkvz4gZqn
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「所以你想要回以前的性別?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAasKT3k6MXu
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「不——我是不想要任何性別。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAeXbCvp81UY
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「噢……抱歉我還未能捕捉到你的思路。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAjVAu02ItEf
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「這些日子,我遇到的問題大都源於旁人無法定徹底認同我是男或女。如果我沒有特定性別,可以在『男』、『女』、『跨性別』、『無性別』幾個類別之間遊走,可能會更自由!」172Please respect copyright.PENANAFWM4JBuQB8
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「依我看來,你再次做手術之後,將要面對的問題會更多更嚴重。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAHb9VB8iIMe
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「我理解你的意思,但我還是想要放手一搏——我堅信每次改變都會帶來新的可能、新的希望。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAPkdtf8sIhL
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「既然你堅持,我會按程序寫信轉介你去心理輔導部門作專業評估。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAyX258NuOR3
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「謝謝你。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAboDmv2EOAn
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跟醫生多聊一會後,她步出醫院,再次走經公園。172Please respect copyright.PENANAKQWg4Y48EU
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秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道,有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙,聽來已然粉身碎骨,看來完好無缺。172Please respect copyright.PENANAj9Ds2RBRJs
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「以前未完好。」現在的她說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAqYBbOUIG3o
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「將來會無缺。」曾經的他說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAKnXbPU0zvW
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她笑了,笑自己傻,笑自己依然沉浸在幻想世界當中,相信自己的人生將來一定會變得完好無缺。172Please respect copyright.PENANA3W3apbLdqD
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明知無人能斷言明天一定會更好。172Please respect copyright.PENANAqTT0AyYajL
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奈何人總需要一個努力的原因、一個繼續活下去的原因。172Please respect copyright.PENANABZMd141WMZ
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那個原因名為「希望」。172Please respect copyright.PENANAUtN3CVm6V0
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「我定要繼續努力。」現在的她說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAhoKj3LcdNa
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「好好活下去吧。」曾經的他說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAvx3cxb9d3N
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秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。172Please respect copyright.PENANAzOJ2wNxaVo
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她慢步於公園大道,放眼欣賞沿路風景,不再留意地上的枯葉。
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