I need something.. I think.. I don't know.. I don't know

Murky morbid machinations of my mind

When did I become ever so cold ?

I no longer feel things I know I should..

Taedium vitae

Astral projections

Way over Yonder

To and fro

When a sea of concrete is all you see

But I know we'll meet again.. Some sunny day

I guess I never got the opportunity to ask, did I ?

Is it now or never ?

Acceptance

Futile end

Existential dread at it's worst

As the waves move me towards the ocean floor

When the blue of the sky can't even compare

When you can't even see through the thick and inescapable fog

Hic et nunc..

(Latin)

The memoir of how things would have been different if I had chosen another path..

Was it something I did.. Or said.. ? Didn't mean to.. I think.. I hope.. I guess.. Idk

Would anyone notice, If tonight I disappeared ?

Was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting ?

It was complicated.. But then well.. That

Trying so hard to hold on to life when you don't even know the point anymore..

Being killed by your own heart beat.. Just one of those days...

I don't know why I feel things so deeply, that when I'm emotionally or mentally hurt, I literally feel the pain hurt so bad physically.. Of course science already figured it out and named it Psychogenic Pain.. Bottom line.. It's messed up..

Staring.. Waiting.. Watching.. For what ??

Shear dumbness oozing all over the floor..

Sad Yes. Something I could do about it ? Nothing

When stupidity runs too deep

I did ask someone to buy it for me, but then refused saying never in a million years because drinking didn't suit me,.. So I asked the cook I knew at school to buy it instead..

The H1N1 vaccine probably might have contributed too to whatever was going on..

The first time I almost drowned.. I made all the water in the river disappear by mistake.. I didn't know I could do that..

I usually ran mostly the 500m races.. but rarely the marathons

I have no idea what brought about such distraught..

Jack of all trades is a master of none... I was there and non existent at the same time..

Most kids would cry during such occasions, but I guess I eventually grew out of crying on those kind of days with age..

Shadow walking

Till this very day, I don't even know how to answer properly..

I'm too deep living in my mind

Melancholy.. What an unruly thing..

What keeps me afloat..

Drank a drink called Explorer.. And it knocked me right out for the night.. It was probably my second time drinking it or whatever..

Tolerance to bumps and bruises,.. not even the case..

Flame or fire, I don't even know what that was..

Just one of those days