Maybe it was jealousy.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDPjr2RLgH
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpbblPJMyW
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXIrmSkO8G
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3JhN1MEA3
It wasn’t that.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKo8FqQUq0D
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOO6CK3MtW
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF471dRbLo7
Terrified, actually.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7wlyPUYTi
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2IFJxi0Cn
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjoumms1Vw
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRixEHhwao
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOktoipqgB
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMIP03TrSX
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJprfV3iM0y
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETpgPEljRQ
Because love is blind,112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYhFLK1aMx
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiLpSw3hqp
Not love.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkx05nQbNt
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBKGhkX66j
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlS2j9ctLBk
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvnMfQSNny
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNKBzrPrGC
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DQstbDFht
not gripped tight.
You see,112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7l3xj4PWGG
I wasn’t jealous.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lt4fdFs7J
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1jeKJ2STS
The us we created in tiny moments —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIN0EOtCTi
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKHOsFmN0P
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0fPE9zt5r
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM4pVgNdBP
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1eGAqU3Wm
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSklBc0QI5
Me. And you.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLlw9dSJmq
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjZirWQvgj
Letting go, not because someone better came along…112Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5aJqAyTxi
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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