There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOvgE5k05O
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo04Nuz2ug
Not love. Not promises.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I3SoV4Pqc
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycFHZHvijp
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMSKjidffX
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUC6xTtGZbV
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qHjDdIJqh
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sx7K1R9bd
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYsYUJE14l
The confession.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHyzwOdD7q
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKp4SB4BQmb
Over WhatsApp.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJTzvcVWOR
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiZtec1dfK
Of course I did.
It would be a no—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfGkSqh5cC
In the present,78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDuNwezP6b
In the past,78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdWpScfYGL
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAP2T1CE8EE
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmysuAkQMof
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIqTiOwASm
I replied 49/51.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIk0qjVE9UL
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL1TplopbM
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu4FM309DT
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEQuPiAr3G
cause It and I knew from a long time.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NhhClEQWN
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The externals started.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbLViFk4vB
The rush came back flying.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e8r3nSDK8
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While I was in a war with thoughts.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECzCDv3g19
And as the days went on.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1jEqwtL7R
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One random night, while I waited in silence,78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPuQWcIYQY
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmLmLa97h0
I was waiting for Seren to name her.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq2En6qaGK
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0spT4sQ9bI
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ruPfgOwl9
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5Nwuma7lM
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk63fL5bV0l
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzux2MxNup
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5mHhRlJil
No one could.
And I was left—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4G93R3vDF
Bloody.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBJxFkbgiR
Bitten.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2FLzeKOlD
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVy5klE9Ht
Some you could see.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCalZDLC1wl
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhMF8l94BH
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BYcXqt7iw
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ezuq9Bsmc
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlzM0ELVil
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33zwNlFFJe
The mind says go.
One believes.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsJz2lQ3v7
One doubts.
One clings.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbhUbgXkkP
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPFXu0IY8r
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvx4O7Kw0lF
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtsmlmTWO7
Attended the exam.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SOmShUByR
Laughed with friends.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBZB7HV9WX
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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