There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lUs6ZuE87
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwTAANhtxO
Not love. Not promises.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKm94YI7aoP
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XkTzRyYPN
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABjKdDhUsC
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSmrf6ml1j
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST2ylPgw8c
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYw1OscNgp
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoV5uceHrZ
The confession.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHWA0fHDbE
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbKk4PDHAq
Over WhatsApp.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhBEPTKqHq
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGCLRfusdT
Of course I did.
It would be a no—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5hK2TWFV6
In the present,16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfoYuwapky
In the past,16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDs5RpSyec
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZhFOAl0cY
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEDvO0OoK0
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5L68hz4sM
I replied 49/51.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeTvXwUFev
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DlXLjFMbW
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBtOLecUQb
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh04T01zQik
cause It and I knew from a long time.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSWRQ9cFLf
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The externals started.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsMWXam8FO
The rush came back flying.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0vSh02GmL
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While I was in a war with thoughts.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNW1cnss9FP
And as the days went on.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09cnUkNc3m
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One random night, while I waited in silence,16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEO1cWgQZnf
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKvrH9JHDa
I was waiting for Seren to name her.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVMdTZ7hDs
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGOC0TeAaC
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvUOW267mm
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOB8QnDYZq
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUXh6Q1auB
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59AFNkqeCw
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcBQdQtksh
No one could.
And I was left—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD07ZU7sjER
Bloody.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKLMg6gMBG
Bitten.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRx4sdR7uq
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMJOFabNkO
Some you could see.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR6QjWPDL4
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbO6MikMYF
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW1dtipAiQ
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbICbOuVNhb
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv06WA9nQEW
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g04N0TM2a
The mind says go.
One believes.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVtPtVklbm
One doubts.
One clings.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPo8f1Bqfa5
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqnFSfxBlW
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sQH0etmhh
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1qXN7QlBQ
Attended the exam.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh53rhCITV
Laughed with friends.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvkU3GH810
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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