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眨眼間,糸師冴已帶起一陣小小的勁風,左右嗑球從糸師凜身旁切過。17Please respect copyright.PENANA2gybPkhNwu
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——好快。運球比在日本時俐落太多了。17Please respect copyright.PENANA9naf46E6Sp
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哥哥跟在日本時相比,已經是完全不同境界了⋯⋯17Please respect copyright.PENANAwIusQonKu4
但現在不是吃驚的時候。17Please respect copyright.PENANAHAv7PKumFn
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糸師凜一瞬間屏住呼吸,雙腳幾乎是本能地啟動,急切地追了上去。他不容許自己再落後。17Please respect copyright.PENANAHsnrwvWJii
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——我要擋下來。17Please respect copyright.PENANAGsfmgPERnd
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他擋在哥哥面前,感覺自己的心跳和寒氣混在一起,像是連體溫都被壓低了幾度。17Please respect copyright.PENANAJBMk6jyVx5
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糸師冴的球輕輕一撥,朝左側切出。17Please respect copyright.PENANA6yJNzjlgUD
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很好。他預判到了!17Please respect copyright.PENANAk8nFoyTYRI
他知道哥哥會從左側過來!那個節奏、那個角度、那個閃避方式——小時候在家門口練球,他就已經記熟了!17Please respect copyright.PENANAwTGGS4fk4n
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哥哥從左側切入,腳步外閃內閃,他太熟悉了——從小就記得的節奏。17Please respect copyright.PENANAgl1pP8RiOv
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他預判對了——17Please respect copyright.PENANAhJ0KQwbFG6
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但下一秒,他才知道——他錯了,錯得太乾淨了。他連「破綻」的定義都搞錯了。17Please respect copyright.PENANA7wJCGyszzc
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糸師冴的身體微微晃了一下,讓人以為他會外切;下一秒,卻瞬間內閃轉身。17Please respect copyright.PENANAgq198aTUbl
糸師凜的重心剛好壓在外側,等他想要調整時——已經來不及了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAHMoKpKhSIf
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哥哥那假動作,根本不是用來「騙」的。它只是用來「誘發錯覺」的——就像彈琴的人不需要真的踩下踏板,光是那一瞬的手指佈局,就足以讓你產生旋律已經轉調的錯覺。17Please respect copyright.PENANAVoc2Sgxrem
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他根本沒看到哥哥什麼時候轉向的。17Please respect copyright.PENANAPIfgcabURX
只有球影一閃,耳邊風聲擦過,被人抽走了他自以為把握住的未來。17Please respect copyright.PENANAYJVC6MllfM
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他的腳還沒踏實,球已經不在眼前。17Please respect copyright.PENANAiqQ0u32nsU
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下一秒,他看到哥哥的身影拉遠,像是整片雪地都順著他的步伐。17Please respect copyright.PENANAhzvJ4Wym7z
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——不只是技巧的問題。17Please respect copyright.PENANAVvHjfeZcBQ
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他感覺自己像是站在一條錯的樂譜上,看著一首根本沒學過的交響樂在眼前展開,而他甚至連第一個音符的讀法都還搞不清楚。17Please respect copyright.PENANA8prG0JzrJJ
哥哥每一個動作都太流暢,像是經過無數次打磨過的語言,快得像從未停頓的句子。糸師冴沒有一絲遲疑,每個轉身、每次變向,都是提前思考好幾步的連鎖反應。17Please respect copyright.PENANAaebF8EPQKe
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他的本能,在哥哥面前,什麼都不是。17Please respect copyright.PENANAWH5K3Ejnbq
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他這才明白,他與哥哥之間的差距,不只是球速、不只是技巧——17Please respect copyright.PENANAarUhY2qwoU
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——哥哥的運球是「從世界那邊帶回來的東西」。17Please respect copyright.PENANAkqjIukRfrZ
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於是他慢了。他的所有一切,他的視野根本跟不上。17Please respect copyright.PENANAZkmgOEagDM
他看似預判成功,但他不明白的是——那只是哥哥「讓」他預判的方向。17Please respect copyright.PENANAfCEw80enyw
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他什麼都沒擋下。17Please respect copyright.PENANAL9HJ59z8bh
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哥哥的球風早已融入世界級比賽的壓迫節奏;而他,無論多努力,都還沒真正踏出過那一步。17Please respect copyright.PENANAXFvTNoacyz
他還沒有見過那種比賽的「速度」,本身是怎麼毀滅一切判斷的。他從沒參與過那樣的比賽,也沒遇過這樣的對手,所以他的反應永遠只會在「以為自己正確」的那一秒內崩潰。17Please respect copyright.PENANAP0RfqAQ1Ec
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糸師冴的鞋底掃過混著雪的草地,乾淨俐落地收住了球,糸師凜連反應都來不及——17Please respect copyright.PENANAe0yvNhDPEb
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他只聽見鞋釘劃過濕草的聲音,還沒抬起腳,那顆球就已經不見了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAGFLTpD1Bwl
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他甚至沒能碰到一根鞋帶。17Please respect copyright.PENANAYJK4UP4vLz
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——這不是他記憶中的哥哥了。17Please respect copyright.PENANA4gK3Alh8I3
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眼前這個人,帶球的時候根本沒在看對手,彷彿視線整場都貼著球道,而所有人只是他節奏中的障礙物——不會讓他改變路線,也不會成為理由。17Please respect copyright.PENANAlZ1cUDKwM3
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糸師凜這四年學會的所有技巧,在這場雪裡,都成了毫無重量的紙片。17Please respect copyright.PENANAFPbyb6Y1Ot
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根本來不及碰到球,糸師冴已用腳背將球收停,轉身的動作快得像一道殘影。17Please respect copyright.PENANAjfu5BPXezM
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——這就是現在的哥哥?真正見識過世界的水準⋯⋯17Please respect copyright.PENANAKvOk0nsqIx
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哥哥早就超越他很多很多了。他完全沒有反應的空間。幾乎是照著本能,糸師凜再次從後面追著糸師冴跑。17Please respect copyright.PENANAtcgo8OBQ5u
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「——哥哥!」17Please respect copyright.PENANA2yQudUOlSu
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距離禁區只差幾尺,糸師冴卻停了下來。17Please respect copyright.PENANAwuoZZtczOl
糸師凜追上來,勉強撐住快要跪下的雙腿,慌亂地擋在哥哥面前。與其說是在防守,不如說只是弟弟想找哥哥講話。17Please respect copyright.PENANAgUzX42CjuR
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「為什麼、為什麼呀——哥哥!」17Please respect copyright.PENANAo9XwM3DaLg
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糸師冴再次啟動。糸師凜下意識撐開身體,試圖封鎖路線。糸師冴蹲低身形,右腳輕勾——17Please respect copyright.PENANAjhrAo7ufAx
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「凜,我不在的這四年期間。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAFdygjccvjQ
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穿襠過人,球從糸師凜的雙腳之間輕盈掠過。17Please respect copyright.PENANASjBrq3he41
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聲音輕飄飄地落下時,哥哥早已越過他,直逼禁區。17Please respect copyright.PENANAbULYJjk8q4
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「——你都在日本做了什麼?」17Please respect copyright.PENANALNIPaeHqRr
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啪——球網震動。17Please respect copyright.PENANAR83VBzouWz
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贏了。哥哥贏了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAJUK4uWVvyT
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「結束了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAu1ErjbYjzF
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糸師冴對糸師凜說。回頭時眼神清冷,語氣裡沒有一絲情緒,彷彿這一切只是例行公事。17Please respect copyright.PENANABZOqqlSJZr
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糸師凜蹲坐在地上,胸口劇烈起伏。他望著哥哥幾乎沒有停下的背影,過去四年的畫面像是決堤般湧入腦海。17Please respect copyright.PENANAGyiu52RAwq
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——冬天早晨,自己一個人在操場上練體能,指尖凍到失去知覺還不肯停下來。17Please respect copyright.PENANAScAgr0wXLt
——他不參與任何社交。在所有人都離開後,堅持自己練習到夜半。17Please respect copyright.PENANAVZ5moa5Non
——那些日子裡,他一邊補上哥哥留下的空缺,一邊學著咬牙讓自己成為「球隊的支柱」。17Please respect copyright.PENANAAw9j95AmvP
——記者說他是「糸師冴的影子」,也說「即使是影子,也得發光才行」。17Please respect copyright.PENANAaqfEWh4IVw
——他把那些話都吞下去,一個字都沒反駁。他只告訴自己:17Please respect copyright.PENANAiXqh3vmaPs
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「再撐一下,哥哥會看到的——他會知道,我真的追上去了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAzhgpi21AlF
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他不只一次地幻想過:某場比賽結束後,轉身看見熟悉的少年站在場邊,說一句「踢得不錯嘛,凜」。17Please respect copyright.PENANAx5MkR7MnlV
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他以為只要自己夠努力,哥哥會以他為傲。會驕傲地說「不愧是我弟」。他們會並肩站上世界的賽場,一起迎向同一束聚光燈。17Please respect copyright.PENANAzAOuwDeU03
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可剛剛發生的那一切,把這些年他撐起來的信念,一腳踩碎。17Please respect copyright.PENANAgk3bRvTAqN
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糸師凜勉強地笑了一下,語氣裡卻沒有半點勝負的戲謔。17Please respect copyright.PENANAHdcjJb9xbT
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「哥哥,等一下⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.PENANAawkQe574aS
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聲音輕得幾乎被風雪吞沒。17Please respect copyright.PENANATCpFNpaOs5
輸給哥哥,他沒話說。17Please respect copyright.PENANATuYI1VWBrB
因為他們本來就說好,是哥哥要成為世界第一。他只想——哪怕站在他身邊就好。17Please respect copyright.PENANAZwOJsDAKVR
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「哥哥不在的時候,我非常努力。為了成為日本第一,跟哥哥一樣被挖角。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAGCRaWVQgus
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他抬起頭,看向那個他從小就仰望的身影,眼神不再只是崇拜。17Please respect copyright.PENANAwjFCWPY13g
還多了點什麼。可能是痛,也可能是害怕。17Please respect copyright.PENANA54XDlwxMEg
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「我努力讓自己替代哥哥,為了球隊而戰⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.PENANAvWKErnrgCU
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他咬著牙,不讓眼淚落下。但鼻音已經壓不住了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAnRdnSWkYTx
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「我只是想——當你再回來的時候,我就能跟你說⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.PENANAK2tRJi4IyL
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比起落敗的失落,糸師凜的眼神更像是乞求。17Please respect copyright.PENANAtaxBkghn9h
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「按照約定,我都做到了。我成為日本第一了——」17Please respect copyright.PENANAfzIaugr32T
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他慢慢垂下頭,做最後的掙扎。17Please respect copyright.PENANA7PoNUAMYmB
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這四年他很努力。一邊學著被肯定,一邊學著承擔從未有人教他怎麼承擔的東西。他拼命練習、拼命表現,背後卻永遠空著一個缺口。17Please respect copyright.PENANA8DrwPldBqb
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——所以他拼命變成哥哥的身影。17Please respect copyright.PENANALHT7E2kmMH
忍受沒有哥哥的球場,忍受那些了無生趣的比賽;他撐過一個人上場、撐過所有人的比較和嘲諷。17Please respect copyright.PENANAstiDEbOR1c
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只為了——和哥哥一起走到世界的球場上。17Please respect copyright.PENANAykAOaHmuDR
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「我真的很努力啊,哥哥。」17Please respect copyright.PENANASftXuUQRx7
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說出這句話時,聲音終於破碎了。17Please respect copyright.PENANA8Nz7mZA8u4
他像是被時間抽空了一樣,整個人癱坐在雪地裡。17Please respect copyright.PENANA8RKCn8HOn2
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「我一直、一直都想——跟你一起踢球。如果不能一起的話,我就⋯⋯我就不知道,還有什麼理由繼續踢下去了⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.PENANA2TxhdjRcJT
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頹然地坐在地上,他雙手無力垂放在身前,全身疲軟得像被一場太長的夢掏空了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAub8Mp8k5g1
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雪一直落,落得更大了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAoPBVLBtQ9G
落在他肩膀上、落在他指尖上。17Please respect copyright.PENANAJSv3ACGLLJ
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「——那就放棄啊。」17Please respect copyright.PENANApr9xzdNuxM
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這句話落下時,比雪還冷。17Please respect copyright.PENANAtCxC4SbMlF
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糸師凜猛地抬頭,眼睛瞪大,像是根本不敢相信自己聽見了什麼。17Please respect copyright.PENANAbsWCGzE5Yk
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糸師冴站在雪中,沒有動。他的表情平淡得像霜結在眼角,眼神沒有任何光點。17Please respect copyright.PENANAnaRPjDy9ur
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「真無聊。你以為會被安慰嗎——白痴嗎你?」17Please respect copyright.PENANA1XSpIgLoIP
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起風了。風雪斜斜刮過兩人之間,擋不住哥哥寒風刺骨的表情。17Please respect copyright.PENANAj2nd1emOLk
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「什麼日本第一,什麼替代哥哥⋯⋯聽到我想吐。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAjQDu1tdrqC
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語尾輕輕一斷,像是強忍太久的噁心情緒終於洩出來。17Please respect copyright.PENANA5Bg1H3haaa
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「你只是運氣好,投胎成了我弟——」17Please respect copyright.PENANAV3KIq4cPTQ
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他像吐出壓抑太久的怨氣,語氣低而冷。17Please respect copyright.PENANAfCdLMmNzPm
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「對我來說,你已經是個既礙眼又麻煩的弟弟了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAPKMk22O7FG
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風雪更大了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAMznLGQVMeQ
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「別再把我當你踢球的理由了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAcnObBvD0cV
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他經過糸師凜,腳步穩得像是已經計算好每一寸雪地的摩擦力。17Please respect copyright.PENANAYpwkLWS0da
而他經過的那一刻,沒看弟弟一眼。17Please respect copyright.PENANADZp6nC7Bcn
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「踢不好球的你,沒有任何價值。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAHwNWnFHJTT
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糸師凜的心跳漏了一拍。17Please respect copyright.PENANAFzMOdDgL8I
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「滾吧,凜。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAgnN4qW95SS
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那句話砸下去,像是一記釘子,釘在他支撐了四年的夢正中央。17Please respect copyright.PENANAdkhqj2t6nR
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糸師冴走向場邊,停在那只擱置在雪裡的行李箱前。他拉起手把,力道像是在拖動什麼沉重的東西。17Please respect copyright.PENANA3bB4zGrOS9
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他站直時,回頭看了一眼。17Please respect copyright.PENANAMJsEGSINSS
那一眼裡沒有恨,沒有怒,甚至沒有勝利者的快感——17Please respect copyright.PENANAwE1KtZuFKf
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只有理智。17Please respect copyright.PENANAeiz1VQobbd
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是壓抑過後、乾乾淨淨的理智,把所有遲疑都封死在眼底。17Please respect copyright.PENANAtW6TmCzGbF
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「我的人生已經不需要你了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAd5twLdAlFJ
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那聲音一落下,雪驟然下大。17Please respect copyright.PENANAfgIg41nal9
風打在糸師凜的臉上,他卻沒轉身避開。17Please respect copyright.PENANAk8ljYJGVuw
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他努力了四年的夢,在那句話裡崩塌了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAogFQMchEu2
他努力了四年的自己,被哥哥一句話,放棄了。17Please respect copyright.PENANA8KRGRGGHz2
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雪落進眼睛裡,他沒有擦掉。17Please respect copyright.PENANAWaCyF8i0qR
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因為,那個會替他擦掉眼淚的哥哥——已經不在了。