There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnR7YNx0LK
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVtpZFhWuL
Not love. Not promises.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK9iMIKpAc
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AEY5yewze
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5TbGW3zyF
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7BPz9CsQQ
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiadqbqV27
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z2784jfJb
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKUfBa6fri
The confession.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfTeGNjijc
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukmDN6RLZ2
Over WhatsApp.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ407ZPCUsRS
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfqUrDaoJJ
Of course I did.
It would be a no—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUYt2CjJjW
In the present,77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWEJ9tRE7s
In the past,77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMepE4sOSS
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiPAdl4834
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6xGnCwE5m
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVXoSUEemY
I replied 49/51.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvOS54lw6r
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9V4yYE3D61
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxZBPjfdG7
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdEHAFs5YM
cause It and I knew from a long time.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoVLHSCCPS
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The externals started.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuGBXNAw1b
The rush came back flying.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYL1qHBikg
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While I was in a war with thoughts.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPbTHVrAri
And as the days went on.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1I6quHrqt6
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One random night, while I waited in silence,77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJiJKUSAmH
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfcvd6gCm8
I was waiting for Seren to name her.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx8F1SPUxY
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXkfkk32mt
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s2AVfM9uN
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMX23cdqXX
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOSXczQeSV
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xOT0BWfug
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cljI3biOP
No one could.
And I was left—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKYF4f80Gj
Bloody.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Cc57PR61F
Bitten.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwLOdmv5Oh
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfRteG0wb0
Some you could see.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnzwjCvcZ1
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLD8sxwfwn1
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXibYlV0UI3
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIs4FeOply
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJTmXg0a2Z
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLpsj3YIU0
The mind says go.
One believes.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfVPLc76DT
One doubts.
One clings.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzCuzoEofn
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NvGH4vFK2
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpARHdn6OC
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZjmMexmE3
Attended the exam.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdFbjI6pGN
Laughed with friends.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvY2p7MOEz4
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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