There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxAvyB2IT0
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MNekHU8UT
Not love. Not promises.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fuZkqa5PK
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEN6ej6UVj5
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoQMKBYBhf
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi0SjqZ8FF
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTG7mfD9ug
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKSy4QPHGp
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjzgKUysVv
The confession.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKNDhlmjlb
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAp0QqJYYjS
Over WhatsApp.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjxIzW8ODh
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78NMkKp0yS
Of course I did.
It would be a no—36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpwcIaUPVH
In the present,36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iTf5rkG94
In the past,36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI501fWcro
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRY95NfgwA
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTspohWwh30
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ymynCVxzD
I replied 49/51.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjT7A8Hqgy
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Uy7N005oP
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4zFX2C2Jy
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjAUgmLaTS
cause It and I knew from a long time.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN19fti5EyU
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The externals started.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeq8AW6j46
The rush came back flying.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhMKdSK52p
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While I was in a war with thoughts.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cpMPyQnU0
And as the days went on.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CcgdZUB73
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One random night, while I waited in silence,36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SoOTREV02
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDo96kHk5k
I was waiting for Seren to name her.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiZ0aCdaea
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGFNf7VSWc
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKUrxt6RPZ
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWj0KKSasz
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBxFTLMszu
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYB1wv4FRx
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJwEsbUnAm
No one could.
And I was left—36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vpVpmwBVu
Bloody.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkE0jrEiq0
Bitten.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6qOfeeXBM
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhcqtQVVKT
Some you could see.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFRKXWIxSm
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfc3Wrh5TL
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzYRlfsBbm
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
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The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLBcBiAYRP
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgbPomjsNF
The mind says go.
One believes.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI76Q9OHkO
One doubts.
One clings.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuG6W4saBK
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuprtJyVwEb
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvQF0ybFjy
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgscVpOGN7T
Attended the exam.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAQ6J0B49v
Laughed with friends.36Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovaclhlnpp
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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