There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2S7EwhrbM
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSY5RkIrY1
Not love. Not promises.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeWY84qDAn
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7U8gnYJ4fX
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JkwKpPBZr
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrQEVqzd2d
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTsIG1uV4Z
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdMZMdXnm1
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyv0l85LwyZ
The confession.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWixE5TLKB
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UjPCtNXP9
Over WhatsApp.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFXi67VeUL
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXly0BfFKq1
Of course I did.
It would be a no—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaevLEFnIm
In the present,21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEMARubl7Q
In the past,21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQIGbelauo
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZn4PidPxE
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LlIaVgmst
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMG1IgSQzi
I replied 49/51.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bbiOTx69k
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡar4Ap9auKo
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQk8ugAkKzS
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIOdLfe54x
cause It and I knew from a long time.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYw2btaZc4
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The externals started.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZLt5GgBLo
The rush came back flying.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GTVThMy6L
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While I was in a war with thoughts.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m8S4tcfP9
And as the days went on.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqNZYSAQJV
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One random night, while I waited in silence,21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7sZtCgrzb
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNbjvrw7dD
I was waiting for Seren to name her.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUtgrkfHy1
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYdV2zwIGp
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2aAu5bqxS
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HDwlu2YiC
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GMF7mzjoY
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH25CDS4HE
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgwwXRhcHF
No one could.
And I was left—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHy7ixYGCJ
Bloody.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7wq7nzmCf
Bitten.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1agtR9i5Wo
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnXGxYZEhP
Some you could see.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2O7XYNE3Qx
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObqRzhbpr8
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb1aGG4fNp
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUZxfOBFXs
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CIaOxNWoG
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOanRKKtnT
The mind says go.
One believes.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNh0cm8oPw
One doubts.
One clings.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hEoZwrWPj
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GErLMmiYo
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSVnui2RBb
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54CutHBMAf
Attended the exam.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSpboGtPlV
Laughed with friends.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYhkhJd89V
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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