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鄧伊嵐親吻床伴的臉頰。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDAk0ov8Wy
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「以後唔見啦。」她淡定地說。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQGsJVZFF7
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她不習慣長時期接觸一個不感興趣的男生，因為如此下去，必然會越來越依賴；原先只將身交付予對方，心更不能就此任意出走。這樣對大家都不好。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdM6khV7U5
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何況，這種關係，多是沒有真心。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtURp7aMRm1
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有真心的話，除了兩情雙悅，否則只得一方沉淪，沒有人能進行救援，吐泡、窒息、發脹、腐爛，是必然的結局。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1Kbsej0FV
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有性無愛，是伊嵐自我慰藉的方法。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V9L87HdEt
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她無法有愛無性——因為她愛的人不與她做愛，甚至對她無愛。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW17LczaAt
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伊嵐與阿行認識十二年，他們是小學同學。當時，他喜歡的女孩子是她的鄰座。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwcctKOarJ
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但她沒有助攻，只和他說：「佢鍾意班長！唔鍾意你，死心啦。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalZY7psjq4
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而伊嵐，已經喜歡阿行十二年了。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9ergUtTjX
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楊念行摸摸宿舍附近的小貓，然後拍了拍手，行去上課。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4T1Bmg9uf
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這個學期，他大部分課堂都回復面授形式；他便悠閒地在日光下，慢慢走上山。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjc5EjDOR24
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張漫青快步走。她提前到了學校，便不想乘校巴，行上山更加能感受冬日的陽光；太陽並不猛烈，反而有些綿密的溫柔，這於她是好天氣。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQkaT8krNt
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然後，阿行看見了青青，或者說，他見到一個和她很相似的側臉、三七臉、背景。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4YnYSyxey
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但他不打算行前一點拍她的肩。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GbWD2yKgW
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她前晚的拒絕稍稍令他認為，也許她並不願與他再接觸；然後就是，他的自尊心也輕微受創。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVUE3r2S63
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無論當晚聊得多麼好，下次見面都不知應否打招呼。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRAoySydEn
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二人的路程一模一樣。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXNUXXw8Db
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她哼着鄧麗欣的《日久生情》：605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67wbQpeuUx
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大概一起了相擁過未算好605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVO4VKET2e
只因是發覺被愛的恐怖605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4EvGUPOJL
能生出愛情605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzmTRnqszV
問我應不應去禱告605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5duy1nRh8
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搭𨋢、上天橋、行樓梯、踏大路、搭𨋢……605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7faTU57mJb
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青青終於看到阿行：「Hi？」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uvkCH7aWF
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他沒有說，自己一早已經看見她：「真係再見添。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lGoO9HWot
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「咁啱嘅，」她有些愕然地笑一笑：「我嚟上堂呀。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnexGUW2Wj
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「我都係。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2TKfiNUBe
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他們靜默，再沒有話聊，卻一直行到同一個課室；然後停一停，他首先打開門，和她一同內進，成為鄰座。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMefoFEDWb
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「唔係咁啱吖嘛？同一班？」她驚訝。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTWU3XMTDB
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她覺得有點邪，多疑的她不相信如此，這事說給誰聽，都像是誇張失實的節目橋段。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKkGO4jKD8
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會不會真的太巧合了？605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnrEekjBBv
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於他更甚，線上線下，已經遇見了她三次；「三」是「幾」的程度，算不算多？605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0w9Bqg1bK
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下一秒，他笑自己——係咪太想要女朋友？見多幾次就幻想咁多。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Eco771d47
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這個課堂並非呆板的講書、聽書、功課、報告，更着重個人思考和成長。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1iERYzof3
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老師說：「呢度嘅大家都係嚟自唔同科系同年級——我諗冇人原本就識？所以，都可以避免同識嘅人分享啲尷尬嘢……而家請大家同隔籬位傾十分鐘偈，然後，畫出對方喺你心中嘅形象。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w1XrNs95Y
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阿行和青青手上都各有一張紙、幾枝筆。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkmZIbjSjj
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他們傾偈。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAIk8x67tD
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「有冇覺得可以見返我？」他以調情的口吻說，但很像在扮演另一個人。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZFtFE6l3l
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「咩料呀你？你嗰日都唔係咁㗎喎。」她也故作深沉。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV50VMTysVN
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她有覺得能夠再遇他，香港不大，就讀同一間學校更易見面，只是想不到會這麼快、這麼近。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZu21jMrsj
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「如果我話，嗰日之日我有啲唔開心，你會唔會覺得我小氣？」他刻意皺了皺眉。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDb1iMa4NW
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「你好坦誠。」她轉一轉眼珠：「但係都小氣。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclmp8qoNqt
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「點解reg呢個course？」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19HBylutFa
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「唔想讀啲咁嚴肅嘅嘢，我係學術垃圾，做親academic paper都靚唔到grade。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhRzDOIsEb
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「哦，有人想逃避。」他揶揄她，又說：「我都係因為想讀啲冇咁chur嘅科。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5nDuKuvGe
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今天，他們是鄰座，和前晚的對面位不同，現在更近一些。他盯着她的臉，試圖記得她的臉部細節，等一會兒更加容易畫出來——即使他只會畫火柴人。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbf04Rfe4u
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「使唔使傾啲認真話題？」她聽見了別人說對於共產主義的看法，並且越講越激昂。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6lKI3DPNH
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「你問。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNG4jBrdQIN
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「啊——」她突然想到：「你有冇住hall？」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfbeAsjFKF
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她還是不想問太內在的東西，人與人之間，有時親近即遠離。她希望能與他至少在這學期內和平共處，真心地。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCQtQWQ6xm
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「好認真喎。」阿行挑眉，答：「有。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tFZMaCzQP
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「係點㗎？」她沒有住過宿舍，十分好奇，雖然聽過雅君的故事，然而每個人的觀感應是不同的。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvscSQtclC
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「好嘈，半夜三更打麻將、播重音樂。全層都係男人……沖涼時間個個都唔着衫走嚟走去。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJg3ejE6xL
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「咁你有冇覺得佢哋好fit？」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnX89dGdHn7
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「咩問題嚟……」他答：「冇。你話有女仔行嚟行去就話啫，男仔有咩好睇。咁你係咪冇住？點解？」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz5i91BdJP
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「係啊，因為唔想同陌生人日見夜見，同埋我都唔算住得遠嘅，宿費又貴。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEDEg0zbS8
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青青說出很現實的答案，完全活在資本社會的她，無法參與社會學的高尚討論。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuPpixG9dK
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如果問「小孩子是什麼」，而回答是「云云人海中的某個毫無意義的奴隸」，恐怕大家都會不快。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqt1J5z34OX
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阿行點點頭，看一看青青的眉，發現她修了眉，立即整齊了許多。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAbMOqY6No
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他畫了她：眉眼清晰，身材肥胖。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbHfspG8n3
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她馬上不滿：「喂，雖然我唔瘦，但都唔係呢個程度。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVYfpi6wSC
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阿行解釋：「Tinder肥仔聰。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ELwKyGACc
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青青稍稍舒心。她對自己的外型沒有自信，如果有人面對面說她胖，玻璃心將會盡碎。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjPLBtMl75
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父親時常說她遺傳了他的毛孔，十分粗大，卻沒有他皮膚白；又時常叫她不要攤坐，不然會越來越肥，現在似乎已和他的手臂一樣粗壯。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ud3tatium
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他總是如此直接地批評女兒，認為她堅強又大方。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4e7HxQu9H
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父親沒有惡意，但她聽得很認真。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqshAxcKE2g
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從她九歲，講到十九歲，她真覺得自己的身型很糟糕。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb3G6aZKFU
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青青畫了阿行：眼睛總是瞇起來的火柴人。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBcVKpZ7Qf
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阿行的眼尾微微下彎，像無辜的小狗；眼裏充滿水花，似有萬種風情訴說。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM8SbCR6C4
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之後，老師就開始介紹這個課程，他們沒有再說話。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvM70Rr7mqY
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落堂，青青起身離去，說：「拜拜，我去下一堂。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I80MNa178
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這是藉口，她只想快快到飯堂吃飯，自己一人；唯有如此，她才能自然地滿足食慾，不用任何表情、聲調。只是上了一堂，她就已經有點累。這一年裏她似將身體捱壞，時常覺得睏倦，沒有一點青春少艾應有的活力。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniHULzmUSe
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「喂，contact呀！」阿行叫住青青。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUR8ZuOODG
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「你會搵我傾偈？」青青昂首，抓了抓額頭。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr69cdZ8r65
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「會啊。」他點頭。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyX45XZCx1
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「不了，無啦啦傾咩偈，我哋會見㗎嘛；當面先傾，好似舒服啲。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSkKgJx7Eg
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「咁如果唔會呢？」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNhaOkaU5j
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「咁攞嚟做咩？」她理直氣壯。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00CNlQOWWO
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「你反口！」他感覺又被她擺了一道，卻沒有生氣。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmD6RO1bV8
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她不理，側一側頭，揮手：「下堂見啦，同學仔。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyq6r3DHSad
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青青對阿行有些好感，但是，她不想無故與他聯絡，就算他有話題。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3qBYXjvQA
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因為二人並不相熟，無事無幹，又豈會私下聊天；如果會，意圖又很明顯——是否她太多心？應該是。她從來都是一個多疑的人，而且心胸狹窄。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblCo3bQpZ8
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她突然發現，自己口中常說的戀愛渴望，其實並不大。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXynja0N4VB
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她只想開開心心、嘻嘻哈哈，但不想承擔責任。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmrQz5xI4I
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愛人與被愛，都是很害怕的事——605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9owH2dC71
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其實她不應如此說。她的戀愛經驗多數是來自聽別人的故事，但唯有足夠曲折的經歷才令聽者印象深刻605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARQbcejDgO
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何況，她感覺到，他對她也有好感。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoxEjc1xkp
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阿行心癢。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3J3sLS2x8
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雖然他在上一段感情中並不愉快，但回歸自身人際網絡圈，他總能哄得身邊人高高興興，大家都親近他。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8L8G2T55MD
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青青的反應，令他始料不及。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGBLB8uTLi
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最重要的是，很快，他便在飯堂看到她，她根本沒有趕去上課，而是在悠閒地玩電話。她的臉部沒有泛起任何漣漪，眼睛不再靈動，只是放空地睜着。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeJGP2QpBM
她欺騙了他，為什麼？是他做了不好的事嗎？605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH81pk08x2N
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他發現了她身上有很違和的東西——外型菂菂式式，但神態多是冷漠，唯有面對人時，才有人氣。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m8Zx8z7J3
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他在離她遠遠的位置，也吃着飯，然後離去。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WlkQcRqwH
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下午，阿行離開學校前，都會去摸一下附近的小貓。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqMsmq140e
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他正在去往圍住草地的路徑，便看見青青；她正蹲下來，靜靜地看着正在睡覺的貓。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuVT4dp6GG
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「呿！」他用力拍她的肩。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbbV2ZcD7U
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「好彩冇嘈醒貓貓。」她嚇得被彈起，瞪一瞪他：「幼稚鬼。」605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzK9hcbNc7B
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他告訴她，牠的名字是Gri。605Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZoXgCZbLh
