好幾年時間入面，我都好糾結一個問題。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAiIKhxb4M
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係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走，定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑？991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLJjlnRaAf
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分手未夠兩個星期，就有條新仔，仲要一早就無取消張機票，兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行？991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjNEYOKiC6
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗？991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPnRzQEXQQ
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可能因為唔想被人罰錢，所以留住張機票先，但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知，直至話取消咗等我死一條心。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR19uzjrHB
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點知分手之後好快搵到另一個，咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IHWObJGvq
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HqwoOBJWd
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行，所以無取消張機票呢？991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8XCHeOGcq
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好多我無辦法確定嘅答案，令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYzgX2w8cw
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshjxWJUljK
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢，就係喺機票依個問題上，芯玥呃咗我。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uXVJP5oJF
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個，日喊夜喊，搞到喉嚨勁痛。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzK1YNYc9V
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生，淨係求其買啲喉糖食，舒服少少又喊過。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZx3XZjp6j
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXw9cJ3Ld7
當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞，話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲，其實就係我嚟。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhG4ugo0J8a
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喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗，都無乜為意，聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好，點知就無再好過。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFJE4u9wU4
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAYImCqMqo
嗰次分手，驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟，阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9isrpNbVON
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我去食煙，聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CTbDKLS4O
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tg3N6YPah
我去飲酒，酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊，點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrgikJnPGp
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOQNdsdvQg
我去隊草，但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心，喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強，見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔，一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77WBxaVBLL
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後來每個朋友都話，嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlqE6O2imU
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzXxIkVDcS
但唯獨自殺我無做到，可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚，諗返起都覺得醜，不過每個人都安慰我。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdiSiJI5tn
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雖然安慰係無補於事，但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRqMbsJ1r4
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽，分手嗰陣都講晒，之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m5xPKV5Ci
991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDUTrhv4eD
蠔哥話：「留有用之軀，無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先？唔會吖嘛，咁你死嚟做乜先？」991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuj55Jb4JS
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或者係逃避痛苦。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvdU9TJTOb
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雞腎話：「痛苦總有一日會過，到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到，原來個世界仲係咁靚。」991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54C2Pk3S58
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蘿蔔話：「計我話，快啲搵個第二個啦。」991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pURF9439D
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結果我頹廢咗好耐，每日都想死但又要控制自己，先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHppWEhfxCc
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所以你問我有無自殺？我係每日都想死持續咗一年半，但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。991Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgq2mqAsxl
