好幾年時間入面，我都好糾結一個問題。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOaooFwAeW
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOXfhYIKoq
係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走，定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑？947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZ0ELeNkHp
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzl5UXUCLb
分手未夠兩個星期，就有條新仔，仲要一早就無取消張機票，兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行？947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDdXLrPBle
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPKFpgIREx
點解一開始要呃我取消咗？947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM626Fl0PO
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEbeG0v0FU
可能因為唔想被人罰錢，所以留住張機票先，但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知，直至話取消咗等我死一條心。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCsTZS7PKO
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlngJuCjntA
點知分手之後好快搵到另一個，咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPnZlKhD6m
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufwWDn6LSP
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行，所以無取消張機票呢？947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0msh68GnN
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5kZ5sx7IL
好多我無辦法確定嘅答案，令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0L4uJK32z
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Czu2yvl22
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢，就係喺機票依個問題上，芯玥呃咗我。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD6Gfi5Zfz
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個，日喊夜喊，搞到喉嚨勁痛。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAGIzGJs6N
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生，淨係求其買啲喉糖食，舒服少少又喊過。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzh64ujWALZ
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypJs3QnMwf
當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞，話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲，其實就係我嚟。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEugsBbNWSZ
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0NDcEthXm
喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗，都無乜為意，聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好，點知就無再好過。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSzrWiM1tW
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw3u5BQg7V
嗰次分手，驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟，阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNEDjCZ4n6
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeR8gLVRnS
我去食煙，聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dI8lNxWsP
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw4GtLtFkB
我去飲酒，酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊，點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjF15KdZ959
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6ckNfjrXD
我去隊草，但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心，喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強，見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔，一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bBtlcoWTH
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AsrjaHq0H
後來每個朋友都話，嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36QNmuwSTm
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQmZHK7V9O
但唯獨自殺我無做到，可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚，諗返起都覺得醜，不過每個人都安慰我。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNVjf3C0ff
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7qIjNyEdz
雖然安慰係無補於事，但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn10TUpowSk
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽，分手嗰陣都講晒，之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Hz0x0TJ1J
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbc9IBgUYZS
蠔哥話：「留有用之軀，無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先？唔會吖嘛，咁你死嚟做乜先？」947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJo0IMDFdh
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或者係逃避痛苦。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1tvq8YWBc
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrMQZxVzor
雞腎話：「痛苦總有一日會過，到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到，原來個世界仲係咁靚。」947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41wgwlhLIm
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蘿蔔話：「計我話，快啲搵個第二個啦。」947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLgjaxUVHQ
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmaFFCf5rB
結果我頹廢咗好耐，每日都想死但又要控制自己，先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5qSw9UOIo
947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKZSHgbdMb
所以你問我有無自殺？我係每日都想死持續咗一年半，但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。947Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCGHBFijbe
