好幾年時間入面，我都好糾結一個問題。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjpnzIlFze
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUSPDSyYBD
係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走，定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑？989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I5ARyIJae
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CQIuogofD
分手未夠兩個星期，就有條新仔，仲要一早就無取消張機票，兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行？989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmH6ZeN5xg8
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗？989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Vg7yq3nKv
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXXai9on9U
可能因為唔想被人罰錢，所以留住張機票先，但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知，直至話取消咗等我死一條心。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1gZWbfLPE
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMfngjWGBZ
點知分手之後好快搵到另一個，咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYWtGD55i7
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNYwBrMVJT
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行，所以無取消張機票呢？989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxYEsbvFTG
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkAJpXqRVH
好多我無辦法確定嘅答案，令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQstIMWZgOV
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vuNRtY7DO
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢，就係喺機票依個問題上，芯玥呃咗我。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtnFl6CxtS
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個，日喊夜喊，搞到喉嚨勁痛。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg6LC2MGbB
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生，淨係求其買啲喉糖食，舒服少少又喊過。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyCOcPKD8t
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhg9HG0Mah
當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞，話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲，其實就係我嚟。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZZftmIftC
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrg6Bdwft37
喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗，都無乜為意，聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好，點知就無再好過。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqrMi0aQK7
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtiAF1nb38
嗰次分手，驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟，阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS5W6oPXd9
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QlnYazRJq
我去食煙，聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbc46zddg1
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5TSYal5d5
我去飲酒，酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊，點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgi1QXbtJO
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hMFXZ3l9P
我去隊草，但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心，喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強，見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔，一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14R97Y3g4L
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PMLyCxMOr
後來每個朋友都話，嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwCgw56QGr
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yEkOHFRZx
但唯獨自殺我無做到，可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚，諗返起都覺得醜，不過每個人都安慰我。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWjrMoBkxc
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfy0KNck7iA
雖然安慰係無補於事，但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCt2In1OW5R
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽，分手嗰陣都講晒，之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV0WCJSewb
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCdF1QVk6Q
蠔哥話：「留有用之軀，無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先？唔會吖嘛，咁你死嚟做乜先？」989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9D8S05rcQ
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或者係逃避痛苦。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKLkrn1ntR
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雞腎話：「痛苦總有一日會過，到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到，原來個世界仲係咁靚。」989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLSqhNuOa5
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyy5LhJ8mu
蘿蔔話：「計我話，快啲搵個第二個啦。」989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aSk9Xu971
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CltbzUh1s
結果我頹廢咗好耐，每日都想死但又要控制自己，先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWCPaICGlZ
989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtXmqVwINC
所以你問我有無自殺？我係每日都想死持續咗一年半，但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。989Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7RFYjZI3b
