【咒術迴戰】Pássaro - 【06】

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　　媽媽換工作後，待在家的時間比以往更長許多，因此我現在也能在早上起床時，聞見食物的味道了。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh3C5wr61w
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　　站在鏡子前慢條斯理地梳理頭髮，微焦的麵包香氣從門隙潛入，不斷刺激嗅覺神經，大腦向我發出飢餓的訊號。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNprBmPDiNh
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　　一下樓就看見媽媽招呼我。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEsqRANOMV
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　　「早安。今天要去考試對吧？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXzjxW1pX5
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　　今天是入學測驗的日子。我咬著吐司含糊不清地應和她，在庭院的爸爸走進室內，順著他的方向看去，只見草地上的水珠映射光線，在視野裡佈下一片鎏金。看來是剛澆完花。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFgNQ8I1Ug
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　　今天天氣很好。我喝了口牛奶，感覺是個好兆頭。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktzAdvzlkq
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　　──確實是個好兆頭。一打開門，熟悉的身影就站在我面前。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyxNfhb8Gf
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　　媽媽率先招呼：「傑？在學校過得怎麼樣？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHA1v9wBFlf
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　　「還不錯，謝謝阿姨。」夏油傑露出標準優等生的笑容回答媽媽。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJPIAyn2Zh
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　　「昨天回來的嗎？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzEYk6x1Jm
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　　「對，想說她今天要考試，打算送她去試場。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpjXqYUNpS
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　　爸爸看了眼時間，放下車鑰匙。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3seHQnbheS
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　　時間還夠，你們就一起走路去吧？順便散散步。他說。

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　　於是夏油傑又提著我的書包陪我走去考試。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9OXuHDNkC
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　　「沒想到你記得我要考試。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcws9jRF2m
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　　很正常吧？夏油傑一臉理所當然。你這兩個月的話題從沒離開過數學，他說。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKNkWSk0mX
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　　好吧，被他這麼一說，似乎要不知道這件事也很難。我回想起最近跟傑通話時的內容，幾乎都是纏著他教我寫題，連五條都被他拉來一起幫忙。日常電話硬生生被即將到來的高校試驗變成補習大會。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOCuwbIkKT
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　　「我好緊張。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbA65Ezzz7
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　　背對試場的大門，我這麼說。夏油傑俯身與我平視，他吻吻我的眉心，聲音泛著溫柔的暖意。別擔心。你這麼努力，一定沒問題的。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHcR6e67KK
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　　「我相信你，所以你也要相信你自己啊。」夏油傑說。

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　　入學測驗結束之後，迎來的便是畢業季。餘寒褪去，落雪漸融，我在禮堂裡聽著師長們的鼓勵，覺得有些昏昏欲睡。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qMjNgkoOI
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　　爸爸媽媽沒來得及參加完全程，半途便因為工作而匆匆離開。結束之後我順著人流的方向往出口走去，見到夏油傑正在樹下等我。他身姿挺拔，綁著我熟悉的丸子頭，身穿高專校服，寬大的燈籠褲讓他看起來像極了不良少年──不過被手中柔軟的紫色花束一襯，似乎也很難「不良」了。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff1zbVDd5I
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　　夏油傑將花束遞給我。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDrR86jnSU
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　　「畢業快樂。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl7VYttECQ
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　　我彎起眼睛向他道謝，仔細一看才發現不是普通的花。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNIQ3DmFji
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　　「是永生花。」他向我解釋。我深知夏油傑這人心細，做什麼事都要經過一番深慮才行，因此在選花這方面肯定也費了不少工夫。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslU7XlyxLG
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　　「紫色永生花的花語是什麼？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9ZvZmkPZD
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　　「你猜？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6vha4mRK5
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　　大概是詭異的自尊心作祟，夏油傑喜歡看我抓耳撓腮，滿臉苦惱的樣子──因為這樣我才會向他求助，他本人對此十分受用。他喜歡我依賴他。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKdjfWS9kS
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　　但這次我並不打算如他所願。我「唔」了聲，很有骨氣地拒絕。才不要，我說。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QTLkAsMJP
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　　為什麼不要？面對我的反常，夏油傑也不懊惱，他神色不變地反問我。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cyRULKaMu
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　　我指指自己的扣子，「你還要不要了？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3LBr8EdZx
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　　想要就老實點跟我說。我眨眨眼睛暗示他。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡra1WJUhCza
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　　「扣子不都是男生給女生嗎？」夏油傑有些好笑地反問，語帶寵溺。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ovmz7ei5H
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　　他喜歡我這個樣子。我一臉理所當然，「但你的扣子都在我這啊。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnCU4BiuZz
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　　夏油傑的紐扣從沒給過別人。小學時他說害怕有狂熱粉絲搶他鈕扣，索性自己先摘下來給我；中學時逐漸曖昧，他去高專前自動上繳，我們的關係在那一刻起昇華，反覆為夏油傑失序的心跳終於回歸平穩，忐忑不安的戀心有所依歸，為他輾轉難眠的日夜不再，我得以在朦朧月色裡安然入睡。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKBMtQNxa3
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　　放在書桌抽屜裡的鈕扣是證據。愛開始明晰，於是一切有跡可循──他早在很久以前就喜歡我。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUC03V6VG5x
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　　他陪我走過漫漫時光，和我一起上下學，送我走進試場，看我考上理想的學校，再贈我一束永恆。自幼童至少年，從白晝到黑夜，日復一日，如此輪迴。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5GvlA4hV7
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　　當愛意融入骨血，他便成為生命裡不可或缺的一塊。愛人的雙眼是最好的見證，他眼看我長大成人*。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bVNhJC0Kc
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　　儘管這不合傳統，但那又如何。我還是想把扣子給他，我想邀請他繼續參與我的未來，我想要他。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalojzRp292
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　　夏油傑不會知道我複雜的心思，但他必然明瞭此刻我只希望他對我示軟。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiJFRz3w7n
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　　好吧。他舉高雙手，做出投降的姿態，「紫色永生花代表對感情的永久承諾。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwHi77bvLw
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　　我忍不住笑起來，把第二顆鈕扣當場摘下，放在他攤開的掌心上。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4SKBv8sFM
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　　現在它是你的了。語氣難掩驕矜。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS4eXiuYN9
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　　「拔下扣子不會走光嗎？」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPpat4TKnY
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　　「所以我才穿外套啊。」240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qrIxfMoAj
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　　拉上拉鍊，我笑嘻嘻地說。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZvFr7BE6d
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　　──我也是你的了。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojJRhtXuX0
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　　*此處「成年」指女子法定婚齡，非民法上成年。另，日本已於2018宣布修法，將成年與婚齡統一調整為18歲，然考量本文故事時空與背景，因此仍採用舊法制度。240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHhyj4yWov
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