Matthew's POV
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One must assume that there's a parallel universe where eating caviar and sipping a Chardonnay is a pastime that I enjoy. That there's a version of myself that enjoys Em's company. That loves listening to her friends going on about stocks and shares in my ear. That enjoys the moment when she looks over at me and smiles before talking again to some woman who I don't know. Where I don't come across as unrefined when I have to reply that I have no idea what the new west-end musicals are like because I haven't visited any one of them.
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"Invested in anything Matty?" John, I think his name is, begins as I clutch onto my camera and look about for a shot of something interesting to capture. Perhaps I enjoy being the camera man more than I had imagined, rather than a wedding guest I'm more like the hired help. Voluntarily and not even paid but professional all the same.
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"I haven't man" I say moving the lens around as he swigs his own shandy and sighs looking around for somebody more interesting to converse with. I notice his slightly chagrined expression as he watches his wife dance rather clumsily on the dance floor as I sigh and snap a shot of the tiered wedding cake. Six tiers of sponge, decorated to a high standard with a figurine of a man and his wife on the top. Mentally ticking off in my head the shots that people like, the exchange of rings and the vows I think to myself as I check them off mentally. The cutting of the cake and the first dance are still important ones to capture and as I stand back and lean against the wall, two pillars beside me I wait taking in the hall surrounding me. Grandeur at its finest; stone walls and windows that showcase the pruned and kept gardens. Chandeliers and cotton table cloths. A tower of champagne glasses holding the finest.
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"Matthew you're not working" Em chastises me as I begin to fantasise pulling out my cigarettes and slipping off down the hall. The escapist, the one who prefers to be outside of the social gathering.
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"I just would prefer the shots I take for them to be perfect" I say in the nicest tone a guy can muster having sat through a long wedding ceremony and only had half a sip of Chardonnay.
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"You're very talented" she says and I smile nodding, let me escape Em I think to myself as she stares over at the bride and the groom. He's a business man, come from a family of money and wealth. The way he stands with a grin, hands in his pockets as his bride clutches at his arm aggravates me as I sigh petulantly and look through my pockets.
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"Except smoking is a bad habit" she scorns and I nod smiling to myself not bothered by her annoyance as I stand and brush my hair back before taking myself out for a smoke. Before I've even inhaled I can practically feel the nicotine calming me down. The rain pattering down as I stand under a shelter on the gravel, one breath and I'm closing my eyes imagining the woman that invades all of my dreams. Silky long hair that reaches her waist and skin much the same as my own. The wind batters a blast of rain in my direction and I sigh imagining the sun of Italy and how we used to lay on her veranda baking in its rays. The smoke burns out far too quickly and I consider lighting up another before I decide against an absolute lecture from Em.
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The dulcet tones of Joe Cocker swarm from the main grande hall as I ascend the winding staircase back inside the castle, slipping a mint in my mouth I prep my camera ready for a few shots just knowing that this track will be the one they have chosen for their first dance.
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I'm not wrong as I slip in through the gilded, heavy doors watching the newlyweds hold onto one another in the centre of the floor. Six or seven shots I manage perfectly before placing my camera down and allowing it to fall around my neck. My mind wanders and as I look past Em sobbing watching her friends dance, I have a moment of wishing she were here, the woman I refuse to name. The oak trees I tell myself, the British countryside, the grey sky I think fervently as I aim to remove Taylor from my mind. Trying and failing as I give into illusions of her holding me in an embrace and swaying her hips like she used too.
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"Honestly" Em announces breaking my concentration and setting a piece of cake in front of me. I look up at her utterly bewildered watching her face turn from sour to concerned.
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"I missed the shot of them cutting the cake" I laugh slightly pushing my hair back and reinstating my cool composure. Shaking off Taylor from my mind and looking ahead at the already cut up six tier cake. Em eyes me with speculation and I begin to wonder how long she will put up with a man that is half way in the room and half way out of the door, running for the hills. Half way to commitment, not fully involved in our relationship.
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"Instead" she says slowly as I watch her with eyes intent on getting us out of here, away from an event that could only be made better by having the love of my life in my arms.
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"Instead...." I break her chain of thought as she eyes me.
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"I am going to take you away from all of your fancy friends and have you to myself" I begin whispering in her ear as she gasps, her eyes darting to her side as I place one hand on her hip bone.
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"Then when you're all alone I'm going to hold onto these hips" I whisper as her breathing hitches and I smile mischievously my fingers trailing over the cream fabric.
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"Matthew!" she gasps, that is better I think to myself as she appraises me for the first time tonight with lustful eyes.
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"I am going to worship your body” I whisper my head in her neck as I kiss her softly.
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“One more drink” she suggests as I look up at her with hazy green eyes. Shaking my head as she smirks stroking my face with her fingertips. Em’s blonde hair has curled and flicked at the ends and she sweeps it over her shoulders before I help her to stand and take her on my arm intent on leaving. Her heels clink on the floor giving us away entirely as I make my escape.
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“Em” the girl from earlier calls out, and I stare at the floor.
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“Bianca” Em says hugging her briefly. Bianca eyes me appreciatively and I scoff as she knocks back a vodka sour.
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“Matthew isn’t it?” she holds her hand out and I shake it gingerly.
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“Nice to meet you” she smiles eyeing Em before looking at my chest, a few buttons undone on my shirt.
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“Bianca and I go way back” Em says smiling ruefully at her brunette friend who assesses me again with her eyes, she’s really giving away her liking for me. It’s something that unfortunately happens when people are drunk, she has no worries or cares in the world. She has seen something she would like and she’s making it known. Em excuses herself to get her coat and I look over Bianca’s shoulder, playing the whole thing cool.
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“How long have you been with her” she whispers as I look down at her just briefly before gazing over her shoulder again.
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“Two almost three years” I say simply resting back on the pillar behind me.
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“Engaged?” She asks and I shake my head, I couldn’t imagine anything worse. Bianca sweeps her shoulder length hair back and steps closer to me, I lean back appraising this new development and eyeing her steadily. It takes me two seconds to dismiss her in my mind however I keep my contempt in check and wait for her moves.
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“Well here I am Matthew, any other wishes?” She smiles suggestively as I lean into her not breaking any eye contact.
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“You’re a shitty friend” I whisper in her ear as my other hand traces up her side. Resting on her ribs as she slips a small piece of crumpled up paper in my blazer pocket unashamedly and I eye her seriously before leaving.
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The halls are filled with drunk people as I slip down the staircase awaiting the rain that will hammer down on me and hopefully wash me clean of all of the thoughts in my mind. From using the phone number she has given me to boarding a flight out of this mayhem and heading straight for Italy. Ross had mentioned, how he would be away from London for a few weeks. He had explained that he would be in Italy for the entirety and I held my tongue from barraging him with questions. No longer my concern I had told myself.
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“What took you so long” Em frets when I reach the car. The rain soaking me through, as I pace over to the passenger side of the Porsche and she stares at me utterly confused expecting me to climb in the drivers side.
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“Did you miss me” I whisper as the rain falls over her chest and my lips explore.
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“Yes” she gasps and I look quickly from side to side seeing nothing but hedges and mist. A small statue in the centre of the greenery. Hiking one of her legs up as the rain thunders down and she watches me utterly captivated. Her mascara running down her face, her lips parted slightly. Bending before her as I pull her underwear down, by some work of a miracle she allows me. My mouth kissing over her thighs as I look up at her.
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“Did you want to wait till we get home Emily?” I whisper as she moans.
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“Matthew” she sighs.
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“You didn’t answer the question” I press her watching her come undone already by my mouth.
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“God” she gasps and I smile standing up and turning her around.
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“I could” I whisper as the rain bounces off of the bonnet and her back. Pushing her further over the side of the car.
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“But what if one of your fancy friends walks out” I smirk tracing one fingertip over her hips as I move her wet dress down to cover her up.
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“It’s not very becoming to fuck your girl over the Porsche is it darling?” I laugh.
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“Take me home Matthew” she demands and I smirk.
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“What’s that magic word” I laugh as she stands up turning on me with a small smile.
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“I’m not begging you” she laughs self assured as I gaze down at the silk underwear in my palms and she snickers.
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“Oh looks like I have the keys too” I say placing her underwear in my pocket.
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“Matthew behave” Emily warns me and I smile mischievously.
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“Just once” I say before unlocking the car, the rain making my shirt stick to my chest.
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“Please Matthew, take me home” she huffs giving into me. Bearing down into her eyes I unlock the shiny black Porsche, guiding her over to the passenger door and opening it for her. I’m a gentleman, honestly.
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“There, thank you darling” I say in my best British accent as she hides her smile watching me jog around to the drivers side, pulling my blazer off and settling into driving Emily Robinson home.
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