I feel like loneliness will never let me go.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4IpxdJr9j
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjrmJeB2Dn
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzm04SO00YF
people I can turn to—any time—69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcvUdck5zR
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqPRBaEVeR
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dDu64BLtV
someone who chooses them,69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiKWT9Kj4D
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOtsOaEqSN
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so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW3VVq4PIB
I didn’t want to be alone.
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but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9zRIPjbOb
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but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIoEMoRfSm
and he still preferred his friends.
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but maybe it’s worse.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW9fBfKaJl
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
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I can’t.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JsMYKQb5l
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I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMbumhXgeR
I would support him, and he would support me.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOxzU5nQoW
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHNey44ghe
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd07HkzzIP
when it was my turn to enter adult life—69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSeqsiHXJo
I was alone.
