I feel like loneliness will never let me go.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtteJxCdsV1
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Q0bZeNJQs
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5NLDKNcHY
people I can turn to—any time—281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboklrnoKft
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0KfWg6pBW
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8qbitez3K
someone who chooses them,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7qGNgecxW
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgbsho17rU
I don’t have siblings,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPM8RPJobn
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwD31JcsRX
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvn5ALhmSMm
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPGEsRLqzE
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU19PWJcCWS
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFshYGIaMi
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Uj9dAm0i
but maybe it’s worse.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVE75CkvKl
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedyn2r1uVo
I can’t.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH3SYHZ4a2
Because if I go,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyksn9OT4h
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGMCa5LLJy
I would support him, and he would support me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfci3xvS2Gc
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6VBUf83Kb
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jgPhZERM5
when it was my turn to enter adult life—281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJvqhJS5OF
I was alone.
