I feel like loneliness will never let me go.351Please respect copyright.PENANA6BFtn4nTNj
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?351Please respect copyright.PENANAoejqrwF63m
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,351Please respect copyright.PENANABrKlwm0pHC
people I can turn to—any time—351Please respect copyright.PENANAbdRZpINRdJ
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,351Please respect copyright.PENANAbLSfsvzqQF
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,351Please respect copyright.PENANAMWC5SUTOxN
someone who chooses them,351Please respect copyright.PENANAA4Rlkw3KeA
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.351Please respect copyright.PENANAVgDB1Y3nKv
I don’t have siblings,351Please respect copyright.PENANAapQhBaTHWt
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.351Please respect copyright.PENANAJw7uG2lfVP
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,351Please respect copyright.PENANA6NT4EdbWNT
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.351Please respect copyright.PENANAlh1sEKh3z9
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,351Please respect copyright.PENANAxV2nbccyV6
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,351Please respect copyright.PENANAEjMajueprd
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—351Please respect copyright.PENANA358G6Ng2Ke
but maybe it’s worse.351Please respect copyright.PENANAxp3cx7PLbd
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,351Please respect copyright.PENANALWo5ZWLqo9
I can’t.351Please respect copyright.PENANADFdbtURSYA
Because if I go,351Please respect copyright.PENANAzyNSbZ9umD
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.351Please respect copyright.PENANA7vX4iAMT5A
I would support him, and he would support me.351Please respect copyright.PENANATLSBnQ8n6a
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.351Please respect copyright.PENANAFswFyU2STH
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—351Please respect copyright.PENANAjwDa7bNOke
when it was my turn to enter adult life—351Please respect copyright.PENANAFf6aE5WmBn
I was alone.