I feel like loneliness will never let me go.65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlx6HnsRrK
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9QXMZEJLX
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl43Woc0I47
people I can turn to—any time—65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAEZTa9MG5
whether I’m happy or sad.
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someone who likes me the way I like him.
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someone who chooses them,65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyO4gt4f1oX
but not me—as always.
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so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQsRNgMWX7
I didn’t want to be alone.
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but I wasn’t their bestie.
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but loneliness still lingers.
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and he still preferred his friends.
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Maybe I mean nothing to him.
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I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWNQmwvENJ
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But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuFwrJiJt2
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAH9WSbFEW
when it was my turn to enter adult life—65Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAhMnI9sH7
I was alone.
