He sat down on my bed all crisscrossed and stared me down weirdly.
"What's up, Mase?" My door was closed I was safe, I could trust him, I knew that.
"Hey? Is everything ok?" Landon looked at me reading my face and my worry, he was my best friend of course he could.
"Umm...I...saw this letter in my living room yesterday after we called." I got up and grabbed the envelope out of my drawer. I handed it to him sitting on my bed closely next to him as he read, as if I hadn't re-read it a thousand times now.
"Oh my gosh, Mase" His face, the way he looked at me. I...
"I know." I cried. I let myself fall into his lap. He put his hand on my head caringly and said
"Maybe we need to talk about something else? Like, take a break."
"No, we need to talk about this Now."I got up from his lap and looked him dead in the eye. My head was spiraling but I needed to talk to someone.
"I don't know, Okay. I don't know, for once in my life I'm admitting that I have no idea what in the world I want." That was the truth it felt painful and good at the same time to finally say it out loud.
"Really tho? Listen Mase do you or do you not want to find your dad. I mean all of this is" I cut him off before he could finish.
"It's what it's suspicious, Sure as Heck it is. But I don't know what to tell you, Landon. OH let's go find my dad, dig up what really happened to him, and maybe, just maybe risk dying for all of this!" I said throwing my hands in the air angrily and sarcastically. I was hurting, and mad, it was all a joke.
"Mase," His voice was sweet and worried. His eyes were even more concered. "Do you, or do you not want to know the turth about your dad?" His voice was serious and steady, his eyes focused on mine worried but serious. His hand on my arms holding me still, like he needed the answer more then I did.
"I...I," The words didn't want to come out of my mouth. My mom's words echoed in the back of my head. I was always a nervous talker. But than Landon's words echoed over my mom louder and more Powerful.
Don't let others control what you really want to do.
"I want to know the truth about my dad."
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