“喺咪放埋假去完旅行先返香港？”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyg97nQRaU
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Julie喺佢face book宣布咗，佢哋將會去旅行，同George傾開，我順便問佢。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdQz33ksYb
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“係呀，不過一切未有定案！”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAITOWswtpf
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仲未有定案，Julie成個月前已經宣布咗。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAjH4oARae
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起初大家都係朋友咁，講嘢會有啲避忌，同Julie有關嘅，我提都唔敢提，傾嘅都係都係一般不著邊際嘅話題，耐不耐先互傳一啲同話題相關嘅風景、實物相片。
不過近來我覺得佢有啲嘢想試探我，輕輕提番起我哋過去開心嘅事，我唔知佢係咪想背住Julie同我保持來往，令我陷入另一個矛盾，如果佢真係想咁樣，我應唔應該接受佢。
不過只怕係我自作多情，以George嘅性格，佢唔會好似我咁貪多冒失，如果唔係，佢都唔使避走去外國。
雖然George唔係四圍拈花惹草嘅人，但係經過近排嘅通話，我相信佢對我嘅感情無減少過。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYKnDyPZ9H
我嘗試誘惑佢，個幾星期前大家傾開影相，佢一向喜歡影相，我有意無意拉扯到人體攝影上面，心魔驅使，我即興除晒衫，主動影咗一張背部裸照俾佢，想睇吓佢對我有無衝動。
“視像傾好唔好？”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY4GCztZQJ
George要求我，佢同van仔一樣，都只係象徵式問吓，未等我回覆好定唔好，已經打實時視頻通話過嚟。
我對上一次見佢，係佢借調去總公司之前，時間上已超過一年。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51wuunRDqt
太耐無見面，雖然隔住個mon，第一眼見到佢，我情緒好激動，控制唔到眼淚，完全出唔到聲。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD9412eHXx
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“C，⋯⋯”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVVbSH2dgS
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佢叫我之後亦都哽咽起嚟。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgblH9mkVr
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接近十分鐘，我哋情緒先平伏落嚟。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9J2I9Dx0E
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“你好嗎？”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaIScMDNrW
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我眼淚仲未流完，又高興到笑起上嚟。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDAZ7FwKVS
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“你憔悴咗！”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5Ie1thO8p
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我唔敢同佢講，我自憐自傷咗一年，但係最近我守唔到寂寞，放縱自己，搵人代替佢用情慾嚟寄託感情，尋找安慰。
加上又經常失眠，有時諗吓自己將來，諗吓佢，思潮起伏，要借助安眠藥先瞓到幾個鐘頭，攪到成個人萎靡不振。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE270ZXBSs
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估唔到佢第一眼見番我，對我評價係我好似個「搲烏婆」咁難睇，我嚇到即刻擰轉身，唔想俾佢再見到我。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt60pE3bujc
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我慌忙失措到唔記得我係揸住手機同佢講嘢，我擰轉身，鏡頭仍然係對住我呢個「搲烏婆」。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHTy9IcvG5
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“咦～我係咪好肉酸呀？”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4qisi8dnp
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我「乸」起面口問佢，唔記得咗我已經係一個「搲烏婆」咁，而加仲要眼耳口鼻「乸」埋一執，咪更加難睇。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3wQvGNXfi
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“傻女，仲係咁貪靚，你憔悴咗唔代表你唔靚！你而加帶住少少愴桑，靚得嚟仲有味道，仲sexy呀，哈哈。”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI3ALvEf0c
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佢雖然咁講，我仍然唔想俾佢睇得我咁清楚，又唔捨得唔同佢視像，唯有自己背住光，等個樣貌無咁清晣。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYggghos89P
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“見到你開朗番，我都替你高興！”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaox6NGx56J
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George可能好事近，見到佢回復番以前嘅陽光氣息。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTj1YNoZAO
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“離開咗年幾，好期待兩個月後嘅來臨！”405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1UQj61889
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George滿臉期盼嘅表情，佢同Julie重會超過兩年，接近得多，連講嘢嘅方式都一樣，有啲隱晦。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGUHKg8U68
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我唔敢插口佢兩個月後同Julie嘅假期。
「中間無返過嚟咩？」
我咁問真係好蠢，如果佢答有，即係話佢返嚟不單止無搵我，甚至連通知一聲都無，咁我點算，我會有咩感受呢？
“無呀，唉⋯⋯好多原因令到我無返過嚟，C，如果我返嚟，我一定會搵你。”
佢咁講我好開心，不過佢就快同Julie訂婚，如果我哋繼續咁聯絡，我怕我忍唔住會再次黐上返佢。
我已經介入咗van仔同Gigi中間，唔通日後又會介入埋George同Julie中間。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5u1z5EgDlI
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對van仔我尚且決斷唔到，抖纏不清，何況係George，我同佢嘅感情，喺van仔身上永遠都唔會有嘅。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8LihC2zOK
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我傷害咗Gigi，而加更加怕會傷害埋Julie，我係咪天生破壞人哋關係呢壞女人？想到呢點，我出咗一身冷汗。
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Van仔吃喝玩樂過活，縱使佢樂觀對待人生，都有高低潮，順逆境。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWcXRQxWC9
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同珠女慶生後，個幾月嚟van仔都過得唔係太如意。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPo50KadcV
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喺私生活，Gigi每晚煮飯、做家務、等佢放工，就好似一條無形嘅繩索將佢緊緊綁住，一向同佢玩開嘅朋友疏遠佢，背後取笑佢。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eRsGleuVq
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佢期望Gigi可以俾多啲空間佢，到佢願望成真，Gigi每星期都返佢阿媽屋企食飯，定期喺埋度過夜。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8G08UiLLjZ
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就輪到van仔班小妹妹唔理佢，甚至連我都同佢少見面。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsK1wOv0tWp
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喺公司，佢亦都俾好幾個同事刻意針對，背後話佢奉承老闆娘，目的係謀奪老闆娘間公司。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVysGYscfBD
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過往每個零月，van仔會約佢食一次飯，而家老闆娘都推辭咗，甚至無向佢提及Gigi。
Van仔奇怪點解連最疼愛嘅契女，佢都唔關心吓、問候吓。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCoSVGqcPL
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呢年多以嚟，我一直處於人生低谷，喺寂寞失落嗰啲時候，van仔唔理一切支撐我，而加大家雖不至於叫「同是天涯淪落人」，但算係一齊咁失意走運，所以只要佢有咩唔開心，我一定會扶持番佢，安慰番佢。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1FEjL1lVp
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每次見到佢，佢除咗向我訴苦，佢都想借大家嘅身體接觸嚟減壓，不過我越嚟越覺得咁做係對唔住Gigi，而且令我同佢泥足深陷，不可收拾。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5NQHG0KjS
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所以我只係接受佢拖吓我手，擁抱吓我，其他再進一步，我都一律拒絕，即使佢失望，我都硬住心腸。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqqmYELbKO
