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「要說的話……很簡單就能說完了。因為那其實只是個,自作主張許下的承諾罷了。8964 copyright protection220PENANA9OBuEvmjTC 維尼
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「是在妳媽媽死後不久,整理她的遺物時,我許下的承諾。8964 copyright protection220PENANAUX9rhmG9DW 維尼
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「而這個承諾,來自許久以前……她不小心提到的事。所以妳大概不知道吧?8964 copyright protection220PENANAlDljO5csfm 維尼
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「除了我以外,子曦應該沒讓其他人知道才對。8964 copyright protection220PENANAxMDEUVyVM2 維尼
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「……那是在結婚前,我們還在交往時。跑去居酒屋小酌發生的事。8964 copyright protection220PENANAEPF9nuZVed 維尼
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「雖說就身體狀況而言,她其實不能喝酒,但妳也知道,老爸我禁不起妳媽撒嬌。況且她非常節制,每次都只喝一兩杯就停了。所以我也只好稍微退讓,每次都讓她去喝──但得要我陪著才行。8964 copyright protection220PENANAlOJB3K68JW 維尼
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「然而──就在那次小酌,子曦卻一反往常,不停地大喝特喝,不管我怎麼勸都勸不了……」8964 copyright protection220PENANAKTeYmEjYsL 維尼
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二十三年前的某天。夜晚,在某間燈光刺眼,空間卻窄的可以的居酒屋內。8964 copyright protection220PENANA6khauMkIBz 維尼
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店內牆上的電視正在播放新聞,我與子曦正一起確認菜單。8964 copyright protection220PENANAUnUNoBvytS 維尼
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「還是別點清酒吧?雖說明天是禮拜六,但妳還是只能喝啤酒。」8964 copyright protection220PENANAeSnkPeeiiM 維尼
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「是是是──我知道啦!每次來就只會一直唸唸唸唸唸,酒興都被你唸沒啦!」8964 copyright protection220PENANAOb1cUVKePu 維尼
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「我這不是碎唸好嗎?是出自於愛的提醒。」8964 copyright protection220PENANAqhbtYJhUBQ 維尼
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「嗚噁!寶貝你好噁!可是我喜歡~捏捏!」8964 copyright protection220PENANALCtFu1Oilh 維尼
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「喔痛!痛痛痛痛痛!子曦你停一下!至少讓我點完酒再捏……」8964 copyright protection220PENANAVMRcIP4ZoK 維尼
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於是子曦停下,等我點完菜後又開始捏起我來。這時新聞正在報導立法院的例行性吵架。8964 copyright protection220PENANAJoo7Nz0M7D 維尼
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基於捏到後來,真的痛到受不了的關係。為了轉移子曦注意,我只好隨便找尋話題。8964 copyright protection220PENANADS7y4q24sF 維尼
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「欸子曦你看!立法院今天又在吵架欸。」8964 copyright protection220PENANAudKpprQdBk 維尼
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「喔──那有什麼稀奇的?你是不是臺灣人啊?」8964 copyright protection220PENANAJlAZHKAEW9 維尼
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「立法院打架跟我是不是臺灣人有什麼關係?」8964 copyright protection220PENANAJnH2NgQVSZ 維尼
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「唉……是臺灣人才不會這麼大驚小怪哦!」8964 copyright protection220PENANASC4Uqv0rDe 維尼
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「呃、喔,說的也是……」8964 copyright protection220PENANAKKlCmaoX5f 維尼
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接著便你一句我一句,像是退休的老夫妻般聊起政治,聊到菜送上了我們還沒停下。8964 copyright protection220PENANArr9zgnrwhu 維尼
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原以為氣氛會這樣一直隨興下去,會持續到我們小酌完離開,回到當時租的套房為止。 8964 copyright protection220PENANAOa2d0IBdc3 維尼
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但隨著政治新聞結束,播報主題換成娛樂新聞時,子曦的表情卻突然變了。8964 copyright protection220PENANAfDvAxa5a7N 維尼
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記得當時新聞的內容──是某個新人成功出道,即將發行專輯的事。8964 copyright protection220PENANACmeCP0l25l 維尼
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就正常狀況來說,新聞台是不會報導這種事的。但不知是有靠山,還是真的備受期待的關係,新聞台竟特別把這件事當作娛樂版的頭條。8964 copyright protection220PENANAmfea1BZnPg 維尼
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「噢……真的成功了呢。」8964 copyright protection220PENANA8MP7pUgZlF 維尼
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子曦這句話說得隱隱約約,那時的我還聽不出來。8964 copyright protection220PENANA1nPHakST3p 維尼
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「嗯?怎麼?你認識這個新人?」8964 copyright protection220PENANAaLOhRNcebU 維尼
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但她搖搖頭。8964 copyright protection220PENANA0mQ0OavQMD 維尼
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「NONO。我怎麼會認識這種明星?」接著便舉杯喝了一口。8964 copyright protection220PENANAjZ8mRTX6r8 維尼
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但因為我還在盯著電視裡的人看,沒注意到她這杯是一口飲盡。8964 copyright protection220PENANAkvmv4I329p 維尼
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「正式開喝之前,我去上個廁所喔!等我一下~」8964 copyright protection220PENANAc6CvdcwMEK 維尼
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「喔好啊──喂不是!子曦你等等!你怎麼馬上就乾掉一杯了?!」8964 copyright protection220PENANARPS02OGadl 維尼
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原本還想罵她,但看到她回來時……那副雖洗過卻仍看得出淚痕的臉,原本的怒氣頓時化為困惑。8964 copyright protection220PENANA3qA7w2L6Qe 維尼
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「老闆!加點兩壺清酒!記得要弄熱一點!」8964 copyright protection220PENANAiALtRM0fZG 維尼
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走回桌時,她直接對老闆大喊。我嚇到趕緊跑向子曦。8964 copyright protection220PENANAbSZLGVY0Yh 維尼
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「老闆你等一下!別聽她的!」我先是阻止老闆。「怎麼了子曦?怎突然又點清──」「寶貝。」8964 copyright protection220PENANAuPNM0dwlJh 維尼
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「……妳到底怎麼了?」8964 copyright protection220PENANAOVgxmRgI5d 維尼
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「能答應我一件事嗎?」8964 copyright protection220PENANAp2eUADEc9w 維尼
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不用想也知道她要我答應什麼?所以我馬上搖頭。8964 copyright protection220PENANAKYCmk7APYU 維尼
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「不可以!先說清楚你是怎麼了再說。」8964 copyright protection220PENANAXB4GDCjOTG 維尼
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「……那抱歉了。我想自己找地方喝酒,你今天就自己喝吧。」8964 copyright protection220PENANAYIGYzDlFP4 維尼
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而她還真的想轉頭就走。8964 copyright protection220PENANA2HP9RjPaCl 維尼
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「不是……子曦妳別這樣!」我急忙抓住她的手。「至少也說清楚怎麼了吧?雖然……」8964 copyright protection220PENANAtuThN8rxtE 維尼
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「雖然怎樣?」8964 copyright protection220PENANA7DwJfV6Uzk 維尼
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「雖然這樣我也不會讓妳喝就是了……妳真的不能喝太多……」「那你離開。」8964 copyright protection220PENANASLoGXw5kmA 維尼
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「這……」8964 copyright protection220PENANAnqXN3MrWGz 維尼
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「你離開或我離開。自己選一個。」8964 copyright protection220PENANA33yfPoyykv 維尼
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「……」8964 copyright protection220PENANAbilKAaWXcw 維尼
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見她態度堅決,我只好默默走回位子,將酒錢放在桌上。來回看了子曦……與早已換成其他新聞的電視一眼後,往門口走去。8964 copyright protection220PENANAYTOaf1vQ8S 維尼
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「抱歉。可是就算是你……我也不想要你知道……」8964 copyright protection220PENANA7ZZARylixB 維尼
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在離開前,我聽見子曦近乎沙啞地輕聲說著。8964 copyright protection220PENANAyAcbAnWhVQ 維尼
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這之後,我在附近公園坐了一小時。等到回去確認時,店裏的子曦已喝得爛醉,大概再晚點就會直接不省人事。8964 copyright protection220PENANAKI4svu74Z6 維尼
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出於擔心,我直接帶她到醫院檢查。幸好檢查結果沒什麼大礙,只是有點胃酸逆流的症狀而已。8964 copyright protection220PENANAIAvcFPfTIL 維尼
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隔天也馬上恢復到和平常一樣。8964 copyright protection220PENANAAgIzNX4Z1o 維尼
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和平常一樣生活,和平常一樣的相處。8964 copyright protection220PENANAlTnXrIXoMM 維尼
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只是在我心裡……對那天的事一直無法釋懷。8964 copyright protection220PENANAFBmljZs3EC 維尼
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對那天在居酒屋的異常,以及後來帶她去醫院時,她喃喃說著的:「為什麼……我做不到跟她一樣……」這些事。8964 copyright protection220PENANAbyjkPjVIgT 維尼
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雖然不敢問起,但我也不願就這樣,把這當成無關緊要的插曲,隨隨便便地忘記。8964 copyright protection220PENANAkjYZlNrHP4 維尼
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「你媽在想什麼這點,其實很明顯吧?但我卻直到她過世後,收拾她的遺物時才發現。8964 copyright protection220PENANAtSMsqZgg8q 維尼
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「那時──在新聞上出現的超級新人,其實是子曦的高中同學。除了畢業紀念冊上能看到她外,子曦還留著一份與那人的交換日記。8964 copyright protection220PENANAvilBNhMpPt 維尼
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「雖然你媽知道的話,肯定會跟我翻臉,但我還是忍不住看了那本日記──然後才知道她和那個人,原來有一樣的夢想。8964 copyright protection220PENANATsk5Pfn2oX 維尼
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「她們都想要成為偶像。8964 copyright protection220PENANA5mx80SmTea 維尼
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「雖然這詞在現在有點……該說是搞笑嗎?但那是在她高中時寫的,那時確實不少人對此懷抱憧憬。8964 copyright protection220PENANAt4LtscATzU 維尼
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「但許多人的憧憬就只是憧憬。子曦跟那個人可是非常認真的。8964 copyright protection220PENANAZ00HnuycDY 維尼
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「為了這個夢想,她們在日記上訂了許多練習項目與規劃──是認真以出道為目標的那種,還每天一起練習,一起檢討彼此的缺失與做得不錯的地方。8964 copyright protection220PENANAAB5ceWFwVv 維尼
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「然而──到最後,其中一人確實因這種努力成功站上舞台。但另外一人卻成了平凡的大學生……以及之後的妻子兼上班族。8964 copyright protection220PENANArOQFtWj3UH 維尼
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「我看不出你媽……子曦是否對此覺得厭惡?是否對只能作為上班族,及步入婚姻這點感到憤恨不停?8964 copyright protection220PENANAhQnFW8mFEz 維尼
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「我很希望不是。8964 copyright protection220PENANAHlslOYU6jV 維尼
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