「C牌的亞洲代表試鏡。」12Please respect copyright.PENANABBFgHGKnnH
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小川鈴把試鏡通知書列印出來,擺在星野莉奈面前,「這是所有模特兒夢寐以求的機會。」12Please respect copyright.PENANA0ktATosEWd
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「巴黎總部親自點名、名單未公開、全球同步關注。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAEMDyXJpc5u
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——光是這些條件,足以讓任何人心動。12Please respect copyright.PENANA8TA11KKv7j
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小川鈴頓了頓,語氣依然穩定:「妳這幾個月的成績都有被看見。這次被點進名單,不是運氣,是對妳現階段的認可——也是,該來的考題。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAJLYe77Iwnz
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小川鈴看著星野莉奈,沒有過分鼓勵,也沒有任何威脅:12Please respect copyright.PENANAVHu79EkKaO
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「競爭會很激烈。但不去就沒有機會。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAZO6vGNmT6C
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星野莉奈看著那張紙。遲遲沒有伸手接過去。12Please respect copyright.PENANApUccYbbKU3
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她當然知道,這種通知不會無緣無故落在誰桌上。12Please respect copyright.PENANA43t3IkwZbd
一旦去了,她的名字可能就不只是「星野莉奈Rina」,而是——「被C牌點過名的星野莉奈Rina」。12Please respect copyright.PENANAXAH8naG7is
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但她的手還是沒動,那張紙太輕,也太重。12Please respect copyright.PENANAgQUVpnmIJs
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她在回家後,陷在客廳的沙發裡,一動也不動地盯著那封轉寄來的email。12Please respect copyright.PENANAYoIwVu9FKW
信件標題像在提醒她:「這裡是世界的門口,請進來。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAZKZKO05X0p
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機會來了。12Please respect copyright.PENANAsniRGIWhGK
星野莉奈不怕上台、不怕鏡頭,也不怕一句話就讓萬千視線聚焦在自己身上的高風險。12Please respect copyright.PENANAw0BTQoLKBF
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但她的視線,卻一次次地被手機畫面拉走——12Please respect copyright.PENANAXxRL9SkhQT
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對話框的頂端,仍是糸師冴的名字。12Please respect copyright.PENANA8TAz9AFU2x
她沒有傳訊息、也沒問他意見,只是靜靜看著那個名字,像是在凝視一個她不敢離開的座標。12Please respect copyright.PENANA6zum1nIPND
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她試過說服自己:「五天而已,拍完就回來。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAyF9j5v3bIT
也試過安慰自己:「這是躍升一線模特兒的機會,是為了更長遠的未來。」12Please respect copyright.PENANApllL1Gae2K
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她抬起頭,目光落在客廳牆上的那張等身海報。12Please respect copyright.PENANAEMSkNzHi5H
照片中的模特兒笑得優雅而自信,眼神清澈得像能穿透濃霧,彷彿正對她低語:12Please respect copyright.PENANAOcwTuwasyv
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——這是屬於妳的舞台,它在等妳走上前來。12Please respect copyright.PENANAKA48YPYZbj
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像某個信念,正在輕聲召喚——12Please respect copyright.PENANAqcxxe76G6r
但餘音尚未散去,心底已悄悄響起另一個聲音:12Please respect copyright.PENANAtKEeGUJ4J7
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那他呢?12Please respect copyright.PENANA5zIqW4wzNb
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現在的他,正在經歷人生最大的轉型期,不是嗎?12Please respect copyright.PENANAkNIwoKgCyV
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他從沒說出「留下來陪我」,但她知道,那場雪夜、那個公園裡他們無聲重逢的夜晚——所有的沉默與靠近,都是他僅存的脆弱表達。12Please respect copyright.PENANAL9GjzgYG3I
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冴這個人永遠不會求助——他會撐著,什麼都不說。12Please respect copyright.PENANAiSkyzXoH5g
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她從沒問過自己能幫上什麼忙,但她始終記得:無論有沒有人看見的日子,都是她遞過熱奶茶、把練習球傳過去的。12Please respect copyright.PENANASrTjmCahAj
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就算只是站在場邊,她也覺得,那是她的位置。12Please respect copyright.PENANAXNIqewfVF5
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她不是不想走上更大的舞台。12Please respect copyright.PENANAI4fqwk6mq6
她只是害怕,一轉身,就再也找不到他了。12Please respect copyright.PENANA0SFQFWgxUy
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就像下雪的那夜,如果她沒有出現在那裡,如果她沒有選擇追上去⋯⋯她連感知他的機會都沒有。12Please respect copyright.PENANAx04aNqtH9K
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她指尖緊緊按住手機,像這樣就能把即將被拉遠的距離留住。12Please respect copyright.PENANAHbL8HdcSmD
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她不是沒懷疑過,這份「想陪在他身邊」的情感,是不是一種逃避?好讓她有個名正言順的理由,不去面對外面那些莫名其妙的質疑跟嘲諷。12Please respect copyright.PENANATkKHhyCrCq
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她記得自己在他身邊吱吱喳喳的模樣。記得自己不需要去展現「最好」、「最剛好」的樣子。12Please respect copyright.PENANA6LrjLA1cK9
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就算他們相隔了四年的空白,但他只要在,她就不需要去那樣展現。12Please respect copyright.PENANAp7xgVTbwGh
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越是這樣想,她就越確定——12Please respect copyright.PENANAkVsHOVXEZe
只有靠近他,只有在他身邊,她才有一種「不用收起自己」的安全感。12Please respect copyright.PENANAtCBBhmbur6
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那不是戀愛的幻想,也不是任性的依賴——而是她最深處、最真實的判斷。12Please respect copyright.PENANApJW8NRGxt3
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在這個什麼都得拿捏分寸、不能露出破綻的行業裡⋯⋯只有那個人,可以讓她不覺得自己很糟、不怕自己很吵、不用害怕任何失敗——12Please respect copyright.PENANAjvmUq3gi0X
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現在,她想用同樣的方式,站在他身邊。12Please respect copyright.PENANADWrI8FkgJz
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——可巴黎在那一端,機票是明天早上十點的。12Please respect copyright.PENANAKbncIKQOMw
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而她,想去。12Please respect copyright.PENANAZCwbS2EmDG
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不是不想飛,而是不確定,離開的這幾天,會不會錯過某些他需要她的時刻。12Please respect copyright.PENANAJUKFa16g6G
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指尖在手機和email間來回滑動,心裡的鐘聲一下一下逼近。12Please respect copyright.PENANAxaWCNkhooR
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她明知道該出發了,卻怎麼也停不下那個念頭——12Please respect copyright.PENANAjkUxSuLosf
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「他如果在練球時,突然狀態崩了怎麼辦?」12Please respect copyright.PENANAgajVXzR1LE
「如果又出了什麼事,他會不會又一個人撐著?」12Please respect copyright.PENANATVQ5ecjDIr
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星野莉奈閉上眼,告訴自己這樣的情緒太過矯情。12Please respect copyright.PENANAXVF0W4txxJ
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但下一秒,眼淚還是悄悄浮了上來。12Please respect copyright.PENANASetjTSmLED
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——她真的,好想飛去巴黎。12Please respect copyright.PENANAmViQ7eELRL
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她忽然想起,當年,冴拿到RE・AL的邀請函時,會不會,也有過這樣的掙扎?12Please respect copyright.PENANAntyKkmaEju
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他不是沒感情的——她知道。12Please respect copyright.PENANAOgNwbIL85N
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在他們家慶功的那晚,他靜靜把彩帶從臉上撥下來。表情安靜得像水,沒有激動,也沒有喜悅,沒有對她跟小凜的舉動潑任何冷水——那種靜,像一種極溫柔、極深刻的道別。12Please respect copyright.PENANAMi5S0OUIOq
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他沒說什麼英雄夢,只是靠著流理台默默坐下來,提起糸師凜,講的全是捨不得。12Please respect copyright.PENANArSQQuJLp6q
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而離開的前一天,他們三個人在堤防。他語氣堅定,又像輕聲叮嚀小凜——他不在的時候,不可以放棄足球。12Please respect copyright.PENANA4dqgk0vBDC
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她想到幾年前,自己第一次在攝影棚拍廣告時的緊張——當時,糸師冴還在西班牙,她每週會主動傳照片給他,問他:「這樣拍,會不會太像在笑?我還是比較想要拍有氣勢一點的。」12Please respect copyright.PENANADlfONhCNdI
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他總是回得簡單:「很適合妳。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAIs1vxmjuEI
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她當時以為那是敷衍,但後來才明白,那是他一貫的語言——節省語氣,連肯定也是。12Please respect copyright.PENANAYChvFIWY1S
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那其實也是冴在叫她:12Please respect copyright.PENANAhErJ3QbfVf
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「不要放棄。」12Please respect copyright.PENANA76pvuLgMdr
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那時候——他是不是也像她現在一樣,走得很遠,心卻一直回頭看。12Please respect copyright.PENANAwenlT2KIqe
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她用手背擦掉眼淚,吸了吸鼻子。12Please respect copyright.PENANAeRuggMlwLE
猶豫了一下,還是撥了通電話給糸師冴。12Please respect copyright.PENANA0nLRGMGRRp
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『喂?』電話裡傳來他熟悉而略顯低沉的聲音。12Please respect copyright.PENANAiXzS26UWoc
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「冴,今天訓練還順利嗎?」12Please respect copyright.PENANA48QMMLaZHd
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『還行。妳⋯⋯怎麼了嗎?』12Please respect copyright.PENANAACMMELg7AI
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「嗯⋯⋯我跟你說哦,我今天收到一個還不錯的試鏡邀請。」她的語氣聽起來輕鬆又淡定,彷彿只是隨口一提:12Please respect copyright.PENANAcqU8YPOezs
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「說不定,我會去歐洲拍攝。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAAt1sM5MpsV
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電話那頭,糸師冴沉默了一會,不知道他是在斟酌什麼,還是根本什麼都沒想:12Please respect copyright.PENANAuDddhitkC1
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『很好啊,妳早就應該去歐洲試試了。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAQ5oqLUoQgZ
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「是嗎?」她輕笑一聲,「我以為你會說點別的。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAOeKfW8eOm1
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『說什麼?恭喜妳,星野莉奈同學?』12Please respect copyright.PENANA4ehEQUPYoH
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「真沒誠意。」她撇嘴輕哼一聲:「——明天早上的飛機耶,你不說點什麼嗎?」12Please respect copyright.PENANAeCsg4FCpn2
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『⋯⋯趕快掛掉電話去收行李,妳的時間管理很差。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAtdbV3hpI09
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「喂——誰在跟你說這個啊!」12Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2YuAjkbBD
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話才講完,電話那頭傳來一聲輕笑——不是冷笑,而是難得、帶著一點溫度的低笑聲。12Please respect copyright.PENANAjzynGLjFXy
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星野莉奈怔了一下,心跳,不小心漏了一拍。12Please respect copyright.PENANA3e9GwkaNpP
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他大概不知道——那聲笑,比任何祝福都來得溫柔。12Please respect copyright.PENANAIlIySDWbIP
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『⋯⋯我知道妳會去。』12Please respect copyright.PENANASrUmrJ0ELZ
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「你一開始就覺得我會去?」12Please respect copyright.PENANAOrNZy81hzM
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『妳從以前就是這樣啊。問別人前,自己早就有答案了——說不去,其實心裡已經在想要帶什麼了。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAmZd8zniI22
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她沉默了幾秒,然後嘴角慢慢揚起,「你真的很討厭欸。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAvxsJtde4vi
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『是妳太容易被讀懂了。』12Please respect copyright.PENANASPsKcJGtSS
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電話裡一時沒了聲音,但氣氛並不尷尬——那是一種熟悉的靜默,是連沉默都像在說話的節奏。12Please respect copyright.PENANA5LRUUkEisR
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她終於輕輕開口:「冴。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAn5Y40ovSJS
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『嗯?』12Please respect copyright.PENANAXsNGOdEUaa
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「你不會在我離開這幾天⋯⋯又一個人亂想吧?」12Please respect copyright.PENANAdFzmVhPRYa
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他沒有馬上回答,只是過了幾秒,才低聲說:12Please respect copyright.PENANADTZgqRWGsD
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『⋯⋯妳想多了。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAKyTUd95O6n
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「欸!我很認真耶!」12Please respect copyright.PENANAktI9JrC2NZ
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『我才沒空想那麼多。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAgPmlAIgtTr
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星野莉奈深吸一口氣,強忍住想大笑又大罵的衝動——可最後還是忍不住,在電話裡碎念起來:12Please respect copyright.PENANAkFfyfyRvjM
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「我跟你講喔,冴,如果我回來的時候發現你又瘦了、手又凍傷、還一副什麼都沒事的樣子,我真的會生氣。然後我就會當著你隊友的面,直接把你從場邊拖走、狠狠罵一頓,毫不留情的那種。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAAMCS2JMrAF
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電話那頭沉默了一秒,傳來一聲極輕的「嗯」。12Please respect copyright.PENANAV4XNepJIF6
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那一聲應答,不是敷衍,不是無奈,而是一種,她從他口中很少聽見的溫柔——像是用極有限的語言說:「我會照做。」12Please respect copyright.PENANABsud2B78eJ
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她靠在沙發背上,望著天花板。12Please respect copyright.PENANAlD33BJbKAJ
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「你還要答應我一件事。」12Please respect copyright.PENANALmeemARHm3
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『說吧。』12Please respect copyright.PENANA0UocEJxKNP
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「這幾天你一定要吃飯、要睡覺、要訓練、要記得貼暖暖包、不要自己去踢那種很冷的夜場——還有,如果又出現那種⋯⋯腳不聽使喚的狀況,不准自己一個人悶著。」12Please respect copyright.PENANA7l6p6NK6RK
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她語氣本來是故作輕鬆的,可說著說著,最後竟有點哽咽。12Please respect copyright.PENANAup1GATxWx0
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『⋯⋯妳囉唆得跟以前一模一樣。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAfg7dPYWjyi
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「冴,我是認真的。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAxdZIgHyjcA
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『我知道。五天而已,又沒什麼。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAApIhEbFrJw
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星野莉奈大笑出聲,「也是吼——有人一去就是四年,我才五天而已,Piece of cake啦!」12Please respect copyright.PENANACS48LTSPWJ
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『囉哩八唆的⋯⋯妳還收不收行李?』12Please respect copyright.PENANAxL5ql4U3ds
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「收啦收啦。不過你要記得喔——如果你覺得心裡有點酸酸的、有點痛痛的,或是耳邊有聽見我的聲音了,就聯絡我,好嗎?」12Please respect copyright.PENANASshZ3FTyNz
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『⋯⋯我會先去看醫生。』12Please respect copyright.PENANAD37toFRboH
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她笑了,笑得安靜又柔軟。12Please respect copyright.PENANAKHVOQLIXQs
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「——我會記得傳訊息給你,記得拍照片給你看,也會記得回來。」12Please respect copyright.PENANA88DZiTCNbs
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巴黎很遠,機票時間不會等人。12Please respect copyright.PENANA8rxFrnHUAP
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她終於打開email,按下確認。手機放在一邊,開始收拾行李。12Please respect copyright.PENANAobbagk2u5H
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「我回來一定會找你。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAvJoHBbxl1A
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只要他還在,站在鏡頭前的那個「星野莉奈Rina」,就能再走得更遠一點。
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