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She doesn't believe me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQio7KP2Ts
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Of course she doesn't. Why would she? She sees me as a womanizing man-whore, which isn't completely untrue. But she doesn't know the truth.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdupbCioPZ2
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No one does. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcL4riP6Vn
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I plan to keep it that way. It's not like the truth would make anything better. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGLVLoVt2p
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Well, not until now. Not until her.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdFzkOpRtw
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But this is a fake relationship, so there's no need to come clean.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrfw1hdoVu
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She's not with me because she wants to be, she's with me because I'm an end to a means. Shit, that isn't right. I'm a means to an end. There we go.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡth69piuvzX
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Thank god I didn't say that out loud. She would have had my balls for that slip up.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhV2KfCuYmn
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I will have to make her see that I am not the guy she thinks I am. I can show her, just to prove a point, of course. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxL8Itfyhpf
She obviously doesn't want to be with me for real. She's made it very clear that this is fake. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5V5cDfcky7
"Okay, we got off track a bit. Let's see, one was me not dating. Two was us not liking each other. And three was what again?" We blew through the first two pretty easily, I'm fairly confident the last one won't be that hard either.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi5wmSka2m
"We have barely even looked at each other in the past month, so why would we suddenly start dating now?" Since I met her, I could barely stop myself from staring at her. Guess she wasn't looking at me, though. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwDWB1w12C
"Okay, well... for starters, that's completely untrue." At least on my part. "Besides, plenty of people start dating while barely knowing each other." 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlf6z2JFIy
"What's untrue, exactly?" All of your little reasons.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kZeGCsM6X
"I definitely looked at you." Every second I was near you.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsRbaDCpJi
"Okay, I didn't mean literally. I just mean, we haven't talked. We could barely stand to be in the same room together. So what changed?" She sounds annoyed. Shit. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD41UW5WKu4
"Well... You know... maybe the reason we couldn't stand to be in the same room together is because of our strong desire to be together, but we thought we couldn't be, so we avoided each other." Oh shoot. I didn't mean to be quite that honest.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiX53fGu6Mk
"Okay, maybe for me, but no one is going to believe that for you." If only she knew...730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0XhcN7EAd
"Sure they will. The guys teased me constantly for staring at you, so they will totally believe I was just pining after you." I immediately regret the words as soon as I say them. She's not going to believe me anyway and I sound like a total pussy.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm2gPZ2lJ3
I wait for her retort, but I hear nothing but a sharp intake of breath. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUD2AazjiT
I feel her nose brush against mine. She must have leaned forward accidentally... 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGLP6gUe06
But then her lips meet mine. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xdvpcumfx
The kiss is soft and delicate, just like her. It's sweet and completely her. It causes something to stir within my chest. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcdPVtVsa0
It makes me want more. And not just sex. I want more of everything. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBG4bDKyF6
Oh, so much more.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMJdXwHuPi
Too bad this isn't real. She doesn't really want to be with me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBCQMT9FGr
Fuck, I can't want more. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOy8AVDih3r
She breaks off the kiss. "Oh god, that was dumb. I'm so sorry."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn17VlPkMq
Why is she apologizing? 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtM29P9ZpkD
"That was a good practice kiss." I try to reassure her, even though it's we killing me that this isn't real. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrrFEJnCsv
She releases a breath. She must be embarrassed. Shit, she's probably over thinking again. I need to stop her before she dumps my fake ass. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KWCYI5n5O
As much as I hate pretending, not being around her would be so much worse. This past month has been hell. I tried to keep up appearances, flirting around, but my heart wasn't in it. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pAVP13BRC
A part of me kinda hoped it would make her jealous. Yeah, like that would ever happen. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORhmhXEIpi
Just look at her. What does she have to be jealous of? She's fucking perfect.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmjxc58YH9
Okay, time to distract her. "You know, we are going to have to be convincing, so we need to get used to doing coupley things."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfYCTpAXrb
"True..." She doesn't sound very convinced.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkkTrEnaFq
"Okay, I think I know what will help." I try to sound less exhausted than I am. She needs reassurance more than I need sleep. "Let's play a game. We need to get to know each other."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6mQUAEdkU
"It's easy, just tell me something about you and I will tell you something about me." I know it's lame, but I couldn't come up with anything better. My brain is turning to mush from the alcohol and lack of sleep. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbgcmFLsiM
"I think you misused the word 'game'." She giggles. Thank god, crisis averted.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsAXAV3PGo
"Maybe." I laugh with her. "Just tell me something about you."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBzm3KTbiH
"No way, your game. You go first." She slaps my arm with the hand I'm not holding. I don't even know why I grabbed it in the first place, it just felt natural, and now I don't want to let go. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1V9DZHOQA
"Okay, give me a second to think." I hope something comes to me because my mind is completely blank.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOCyjdGh1I
"While you think, can I have my hand back?" She tugs her hand, but mine doesn't budge. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUAx9ZgJWy
"No way, this hand is mine now." I squeeze it tighter. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWRwasmG7i
"I am actually going to need it though." I bring our clutched hands to my face to place a kiss on hers.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwCfk9wKvu
"Nope. It's mine. You can't have it." She pulls a little harder, but I'm much stronger than she is. She's not getting it back unless I let it go.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Zmq5ipCgo
"Ow. You're hurting me." I immediately release her hand, just before she begins to laugh.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSqSkKnSRS
"You little liar!" I hop up on my knees, to pin her down with one arm as my other hand tickles her side.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtpNzhqIZa
She's squealing and begging me to stop. "Who knew you were so ticklish!" I move up to her armpit, continuing my assault.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h1rzlIKAw
"Stop! Stop! Okay, okay! Let's play your stupid game." Her breathing is heavy as she punches my chest with her little fists. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBxI0RlVvQ
"Okay, Beautiful. Let's play, but..." I grab her hand again, locking our fingers together. "...this is still mine. I let it go under false pretenses."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXcNWad4qG
She groans, but doesn't say anything. Oh right, I'm supposed to go first. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwssuRnABj
Dammit. I really didn't think this through.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2bi3EdPdJ
"Uhmm... I think we should change the game slightly. Ask me any question and I will answer honestly. Then you have to answer it too. We can take turns coming up with questions." Oh god, what a huge mistake. What if she asks something I can't answer.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wvSUQV8Ug
Shit. Shit. Shit.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7mKvKsSZB
"Okay... Let's start out easy. Tell me about your parents." This could be very bad. Why didn't I think of this?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJUNA3U7x6
"They are pretty typical, you know, just parents." I didn't think she would start off here. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDH8qDvAMZ
"That's it? Seriously?" She sounds disappointed, but I can't get into the truth.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuy0sFepWv
"There's really not much to say. My dad runs Alexander-Murphy Enterprises, so he works all the time. My mom is great, but she wants me to get married and it's all she talks about when I see her." There, maybe that will be enough to switch topics. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9i2eFBupf
"No way! Your dad runs AME? So, you're what like, super rich?" I was used to people referring to it by its acronym, but I didn't expect Kat to be that familiar with the company.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb3c0HrmY7
"I guess. He owns it, well him and Uncle Declan." I've already said way too much, but for some reason I want to be honest with her.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ifGqOf9Ml
"Wait... So is Joseph your brother? And Cole?" Shit. I was hoping she didn't know about my family.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0E267ohzxz
"No." I blow out a breath. I really didn't want to get into this tonight. "I am Joseph Alexander."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDJf13wJUb
"But you go by Ben?" I can't tell if she's more in shock or curious.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6MsV89Y4C
"Nate and I both decided to use our middle names so we wouldn't be as recognizable." I've always hated my first name anyway. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThApw0OmeR
"Wait... So... Nate is Declan Murphy Jr.?" Shit, Nate is going to kill me. "You two are New York's most eligible bachelor's? Well, according to People magazine anyway."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq13u37aox8
"Yeah, but please don't say anything to anyone. The reporters will swarm this place if they find out." I can't believe I told her all this. This could really mess everything up. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡticeEXHy4k
"Ben, I would never. I just can't believe you're little Joey. Wow. You really grew up. You were just a little scrawny kid, what happened?" I feel a small victory since I worked so hard for this body, but the memory of the lying, backstabbing bitch is enough to put a pretty big damper on it.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1KLLFqVsJ
"Samantha." I mutter, half to myself. Shit. It slipped out before I could think. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoC2KGAoGBQ
"Who's Samantha?" She sounds so curious, but I definitely didn't want to get into this tonight.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEVJXYSkUa
"No way. You've already asked your question. And you got a ton of information. It's my turn. Tell me about your parents." I just want to talk about something other than me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfJxblVyRX
"Well, they are pretty typical, you know, just parents." She throws my words back in my face.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4WXQSiWEJ
"Ha ha ha." She's so fucking adorable.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZO2ZwLK80
"Okay, well my dad is a little different and my mom, well, she died last year. Brain tumor. My dad prayed and prayed, but it just wasn't enough." Woah. I can honestly say, I did not expect that. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMzTdzjDx6
"I'm so sorry, Kat. That has to be hard. As annoying as my mom can be, I can't imagine losing her." I hear her sniff and I know she is crying. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡje0rkGolD0
"You know, this game kinda sucks." I try to lighten the mood.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDOTZ7ryLJ
She let's out a little laugh. "Yeah, but it kinda worked. We know more about each other, right?" 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Pf2dQBIZU
"Yeah, I guess. Let's get some sleep. I'm afraid to know what time it is."730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzZe5eVMhb
"Okay, I'll go. Thanks for doing this." She pushes up off the bed. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV3tko1reQ
"No, stay. Please." I hang onto her hand for dear life. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl15wpdGz0Q
"I really shouldn't." She can't leave. I need her.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TzRzfQj6G
"You're upset and I would feel better if I could just hold you for a bit. Please." I don't want her to be alone right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want to be alone either. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgJelUA2D9
"If you insist." I really do. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NjtiNx9ZS
She lays her head on my chest as I wrap her up in a hug. 730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA08LBRa6iy
Everything is right in the world.
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