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She doesn't believe me.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pieTmtlzx
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Of course she doesn't. Why would she? She sees me as a womanizing man-whore, which isn't completely untrue. But she doesn't know the truth.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1O4qPKwAjY
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No one does. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58I1uZSMYe
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I plan to keep it that way. It's not like the truth would make anything better. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVkmGs6zzJ
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Well, not until now. Not until her.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcAa3NbDD2
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But this is a fake relationship, so there's no need to come clean.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimNMgtalOw
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She's not with me because she wants to be, she's with me because I'm an end to a means. Shit, that isn't right. I'm a means to an end. There we go.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBl867ts1s
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Thank god I didn't say that out loud. She would have had my balls for that slip up.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fb03fLd65
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I will have to make her see that I am not the guy she thinks I am. I can show her, just to prove a point, of course. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JZ5LUVhVr
She obviously doesn't want to be with me for real. She's made it very clear that this is fake. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrdsrsxxuO
"Okay, we got off track a bit. Let's see, one was me not dating. Two was us not liking each other. And three was what again?" We blew through the first two pretty easily, I'm fairly confident the last one won't be that hard either.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jQ95cruVp
"We have barely even looked at each other in the past month, so why would we suddenly start dating now?" Since I met her, I could barely stop myself from staring at her. Guess she wasn't looking at me, though. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH907KZ3rA
"Okay, well... for starters, that's completely untrue." At least on my part. "Besides, plenty of people start dating while barely knowing each other." 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexbeU1M9WF
"What's untrue, exactly?" All of your little reasons.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtetIV7FthC
"I definitely looked at you." Every second I was near you.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicZncakGBI
"Okay, I didn't mean literally. I just mean, we haven't talked. We could barely stand to be in the same room together. So what changed?" She sounds annoyed. Shit. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLqKxHkMH6
"Well... You know... maybe the reason we couldn't stand to be in the same room together is because of our strong desire to be together, but we thought we couldn't be, so we avoided each other." Oh shoot. I didn't mean to be quite that honest.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YFtiKutCF
"Okay, maybe for me, but no one is going to believe that for you." If only she knew...811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TfwWS1zpO
"Sure they will. The guys teased me constantly for staring at you, so they will totally believe I was just pining after you." I immediately regret the words as soon as I say them. She's not going to believe me anyway and I sound like a total pussy.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0N2WqES91
I wait for her retort, but I hear nothing but a sharp intake of breath. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1ftcnS4KK
I feel her nose brush against mine. She must have leaned forward accidentally... 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms5ck9SiIM
But then her lips meet mine. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTTaabWaUb
The kiss is soft and delicate, just like her. It's sweet and completely her. It causes something to stir within my chest. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVcECosN1W
It makes me want more. And not just sex. I want more of everything. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72dsQcdwEE
Oh, so much more.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sw0eZ5wxj
Too bad this isn't real. She doesn't really want to be with me.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQcuaMKldJ
Fuck, I can't want more. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8EmAQM79n
She breaks off the kiss. "Oh god, that was dumb. I'm so sorry."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyifMe6kuuM
Why is she apologizing? 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeihLXVT70I
"That was a good practice kiss." I try to reassure her, even though it's we killing me that this isn't real. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRznTDK64Y
She releases a breath. She must be embarrassed. Shit, she's probably over thinking again. I need to stop her before she dumps my fake ass. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQDOtOxHCo
As much as I hate pretending, not being around her would be so much worse. This past month has been hell. I tried to keep up appearances, flirting around, but my heart wasn't in it. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5go55Hb7hn
A part of me kinda hoped it would make her jealous. Yeah, like that would ever happen. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtsDtKVGsV
Just look at her. What does she have to be jealous of? She's fucking perfect.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVtaW57bfj
Okay, time to distract her. "You know, we are going to have to be convincing, so we need to get used to doing coupley things."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMmbNEfkLa
"True..." She doesn't sound very convinced.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHsEBHCDqq
"Okay, I think I know what will help." I try to sound less exhausted than I am. She needs reassurance more than I need sleep. "Let's play a game. We need to get to know each other."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTbS0BbX5i
"It's easy, just tell me something about you and I will tell you something about me." I know it's lame, but I couldn't come up with anything better. My brain is turning to mush from the alcohol and lack of sleep. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY4cVdUtns
"I think you misused the word 'game'." She giggles. Thank god, crisis averted.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5DR2Wo4ww
"Maybe." I laugh with her. "Just tell me something about you."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSufvM7qbT
"No way, your game. You go first." She slaps my arm with the hand I'm not holding. I don't even know why I grabbed it in the first place, it just felt natural, and now I don't want to let go. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ928yjGUPP1
"Okay, give me a second to think." I hope something comes to me because my mind is completely blank.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKlKXEKFuK
"While you think, can I have my hand back?" She tugs her hand, but mine doesn't budge. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4esEytEhK
"No way, this hand is mine now." I squeeze it tighter. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGQ1gjnswI
"I am actually going to need it though." I bring our clutched hands to my face to place a kiss on hers.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCCFubmvYn
"Nope. It's mine. You can't have it." She pulls a little harder, but I'm much stronger than she is. She's not getting it back unless I let it go.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNaLjMrbU3
"Ow. You're hurting me." I immediately release her hand, just before she begins to laugh.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8Amh3WXeG
"You little liar!" I hop up on my knees, to pin her down with one arm as my other hand tickles her side.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXlEkG1DAo
She's squealing and begging me to stop. "Who knew you were so ticklish!" I move up to her armpit, continuing my assault.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNv2aVuqofs
"Stop! Stop! Okay, okay! Let's play your stupid game." Her breathing is heavy as she punches my chest with her little fists. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfwzOzKG9A
"Okay, Beautiful. Let's play, but..." I grab her hand again, locking our fingers together. "...this is still mine. I let it go under false pretenses."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYJVAFQ8p6
She groans, but doesn't say anything. Oh right, I'm supposed to go first. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Pwlhr1dp9
Dammit. I really didn't think this through.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqhTqCre5T
"Uhmm... I think we should change the game slightly. Ask me any question and I will answer honestly. Then you have to answer it too. We can take turns coming up with questions." Oh god, what a huge mistake. What if she asks something I can't answer.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSccFOC6Og
Shit. Shit. Shit.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDvhV6iF5v
"Okay... Let's start out easy. Tell me about your parents." This could be very bad. Why didn't I think of this?811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsv5YeTNw1
"They are pretty typical, you know, just parents." I didn't think she would start off here. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqB4RheA7IE
"That's it? Seriously?" She sounds disappointed, but I can't get into the truth.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWirEPELKs
"There's really not much to say. My dad runs Alexander-Murphy Enterprises, so he works all the time. My mom is great, but she wants me to get married and it's all she talks about when I see her." There, maybe that will be enough to switch topics. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BFVWvsZyH
"No way! Your dad runs AME? So, you're what like, super rich?" I was used to people referring to it by its acronym, but I didn't expect Kat to be that familiar with the company.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hyo61j0oy
"I guess. He owns it, well him and Uncle Declan." I've already said way too much, but for some reason I want to be honest with her.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSUbR6lW0Q
"Wait... So is Joseph your brother? And Cole?" Shit. I was hoping she didn't know about my family.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZRTHzYnNX
"No." I blow out a breath. I really didn't want to get into this tonight. "I am Joseph Alexander."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FyJRxXPor
"But you go by Ben?" I can't tell if she's more in shock or curious.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImAadWjFja
"Nate and I both decided to use our middle names so we wouldn't be as recognizable." I've always hated my first name anyway. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCozg2hhMi
"Wait... So... Nate is Declan Murphy Jr.?" Shit, Nate is going to kill me. "You two are New York's most eligible bachelor's? Well, according to People magazine anyway."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzm0ooEImB
"Yeah, but please don't say anything to anyone. The reporters will swarm this place if they find out." I can't believe I told her all this. This could really mess everything up. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXlweP7Zra
"Ben, I would never. I just can't believe you're little Joey. Wow. You really grew up. You were just a little scrawny kid, what happened?" I feel a small victory since I worked so hard for this body, but the memory of the lying, backstabbing bitch is enough to put a pretty big damper on it.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCVpwTVtXy
"Samantha." I mutter, half to myself. Shit. It slipped out before I could think. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHdPb6OaNN
"Who's Samantha?" She sounds so curious, but I definitely didn't want to get into this tonight.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4H1xLeTtD
"No way. You've already asked your question. And you got a ton of information. It's my turn. Tell me about your parents." I just want to talk about something other than me.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M0p10zmii
"Well, they are pretty typical, you know, just parents." She throws my words back in my face.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXKBuSyR4U
"Ha ha ha." She's so fucking adorable.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLuSNHLtuy
"Okay, well my dad is a little different and my mom, well, she died last year. Brain tumor. My dad prayed and prayed, but it just wasn't enough." Woah. I can honestly say, I did not expect that. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNzAvAkMBF
"I'm so sorry, Kat. That has to be hard. As annoying as my mom can be, I can't imagine losing her." I hear her sniff and I know she is crying. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrbctYpn0n
"You know, this game kinda sucks." I try to lighten the mood.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmX4zuo1uPS
She let's out a little laugh. "Yeah, but it kinda worked. We know more about each other, right?" 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbgtu7pkuR
"Yeah, I guess. Let's get some sleep. I'm afraid to know what time it is."811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIl5oY1inC
"Okay, I'll go. Thanks for doing this." She pushes up off the bed. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnybCFs3gJF
"No, stay. Please." I hang onto her hand for dear life. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2mDfu0P1E
"I really shouldn't." She can't leave. I need her.811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSAs3tUzmI
"You're upset and I would feel better if I could just hold you for a bit. Please." I don't want her to be alone right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want to be alone either. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15OTr8fsmH
"If you insist." I really do. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqopO6sPywq
She lays her head on my chest as I wrap her up in a hug. 811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W7UAJ8yjL
Everything is right in the world.
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