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She doesn't believe me.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsLdL9y4Nm
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Of course she doesn't. Why would she? She sees me as a womanizing man-whore, which isn't completely untrue. But she doesn't know the truth.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ivfl1Jd1Q
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No one does. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOKSAJWpmN
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I plan to keep it that way. It's not like the truth would make anything better. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslZNNIT1nh
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Well, not until now. Not until her.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDf7lGrCp6g
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But this is a fake relationship, so there's no need to come clean.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmodNlbxzP
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She's not with me because she wants to be, she's with me because I'm an end to a means. Shit, that isn't right. I'm a means to an end. There we go.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGOeLQGtpq
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Thank god I didn't say that out loud. She would have had my balls for that slip up.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBeEXpGYNm
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I will have to make her see that I am not the guy she thinks I am. I can show her, just to prove a point, of course. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTMeXOiQfh
She obviously doesn't want to be with me for real. She's made it very clear that this is fake. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47a5JKyw04
"Okay, we got off track a bit. Let's see, one was me not dating. Two was us not liking each other. And three was what again?" We blew through the first two pretty easily, I'm fairly confident the last one won't be that hard either.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UNaV1QLHi
"We have barely even looked at each other in the past month, so why would we suddenly start dating now?" Since I met her, I could barely stop myself from staring at her. Guess she wasn't looking at me, though. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83MD9z1BhT
"Okay, well... for starters, that's completely untrue." At least on my part. "Besides, plenty of people start dating while barely knowing each other." 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcHawY1Rrn
"What's untrue, exactly?" All of your little reasons.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDZYaqpDrO
"I definitely looked at you." Every second I was near you.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvXJBGxy4Y
"Okay, I didn't mean literally. I just mean, we haven't talked. We could barely stand to be in the same room together. So what changed?" She sounds annoyed. Shit. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAU6jRpQ4D
"Well... You know... maybe the reason we couldn't stand to be in the same room together is because of our strong desire to be together, but we thought we couldn't be, so we avoided each other." Oh shoot. I didn't mean to be quite that honest.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCLQ46MUqZ
"Okay, maybe for me, but no one is going to believe that for you." If only she knew...795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAROqMscy6
"Sure they will. The guys teased me constantly for staring at you, so they will totally believe I was just pining after you." I immediately regret the words as soon as I say them. She's not going to believe me anyway and I sound like a total pussy.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiNmbSoC4F
I wait for her retort, but I hear nothing but a sharp intake of breath. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwrtV9yAK0
I feel her nose brush against mine. She must have leaned forward accidentally... 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqogg1gZ7B
But then her lips meet mine. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JVlcCZmaK
The kiss is soft and delicate, just like her. It's sweet and completely her. It causes something to stir within my chest. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJmilTwxyf
It makes me want more. And not just sex. I want more of everything. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpOq5TiuAq
Oh, so much more.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszFuBeQMWh
Too bad this isn't real. She doesn't really want to be with me.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb5o8jB4rD
Fuck, I can't want more. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGbmD0TRnd
She breaks off the kiss. "Oh god, that was dumb. I'm so sorry."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aPeVKmU0O
Why is she apologizing? 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXjOsZGehs
"That was a good practice kiss." I try to reassure her, even though it's we killing me that this isn't real. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2vi6KzAA0
She releases a breath. She must be embarrassed. Shit, she's probably over thinking again. I need to stop her before she dumps my fake ass. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPocfMyyA9N
As much as I hate pretending, not being around her would be so much worse. This past month has been hell. I tried to keep up appearances, flirting around, but my heart wasn't in it. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJq9GqXeqFf
A part of me kinda hoped it would make her jealous. Yeah, like that would ever happen. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0nkVR00dC
Just look at her. What does she have to be jealous of? She's fucking perfect.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcXv9hyHVW
Okay, time to distract her. "You know, we are going to have to be convincing, so we need to get used to doing coupley things."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUHTnmmiof
"True..." She doesn't sound very convinced.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASLLdXoOAn
"Okay, I think I know what will help." I try to sound less exhausted than I am. She needs reassurance more than I need sleep. "Let's play a game. We need to get to know each other."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ6OO9eDGd
"It's easy, just tell me something about you and I will tell you something about me." I know it's lame, but I couldn't come up with anything better. My brain is turning to mush from the alcohol and lack of sleep. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9tZobKn8P
"I think you misused the word 'game'." She giggles. Thank god, crisis averted.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22qVpllfxy
"Maybe." I laugh with her. "Just tell me something about you."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrND6vlN1SS
"No way, your game. You go first." She slaps my arm with the hand I'm not holding. I don't even know why I grabbed it in the first place, it just felt natural, and now I don't want to let go. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gFyKwoc7Q
"Okay, give me a second to think." I hope something comes to me because my mind is completely blank.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRlzZeLNgf
"While you think, can I have my hand back?" She tugs her hand, but mine doesn't budge. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZh1NqaCJMN
"No way, this hand is mine now." I squeeze it tighter. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiym6hHKtxQ
"I am actually going to need it though." I bring our clutched hands to my face to place a kiss on hers.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD3WeIwbZv
"Nope. It's mine. You can't have it." She pulls a little harder, but I'm much stronger than she is. She's not getting it back unless I let it go.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUNWmUXp0b
"Ow. You're hurting me." I immediately release her hand, just before she begins to laugh.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKVHd5SjWa
"You little liar!" I hop up on my knees, to pin her down with one arm as my other hand tickles her side.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EqXgV39jA
She's squealing and begging me to stop. "Who knew you were so ticklish!" I move up to her armpit, continuing my assault.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLStHatc1wR
"Stop! Stop! Okay, okay! Let's play your stupid game." Her breathing is heavy as she punches my chest with her little fists. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3uafn5nkV
"Okay, Beautiful. Let's play, but..." I grab her hand again, locking our fingers together. "...this is still mine. I let it go under false pretenses."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6DOiRoeEm
She groans, but doesn't say anything. Oh right, I'm supposed to go first. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TcGp5tzVD
Dammit. I really didn't think this through.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRosxjOAiDp
"Uhmm... I think we should change the game slightly. Ask me any question and I will answer honestly. Then you have to answer it too. We can take turns coming up with questions." Oh god, what a huge mistake. What if she asks something I can't answer.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuerV0eFZS
Shit. Shit. Shit.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu2waAgeSW
"Okay... Let's start out easy. Tell me about your parents." This could be very bad. Why didn't I think of this?795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzxt3JP9aA
"They are pretty typical, you know, just parents." I didn't think she would start off here. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKJbq6TYiB
"That's it? Seriously?" She sounds disappointed, but I can't get into the truth.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCp7A2CxhVC
"There's really not much to say. My dad runs Alexander-Murphy Enterprises, so he works all the time. My mom is great, but she wants me to get married and it's all she talks about when I see her." There, maybe that will be enough to switch topics. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtemeigX8CU
"No way! Your dad runs AME? So, you're what like, super rich?" I was used to people referring to it by its acronym, but I didn't expect Kat to be that familiar with the company.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKdx7cQoih
"I guess. He owns it, well him and Uncle Declan." I've already said way too much, but for some reason I want to be honest with her.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96YOMW6vQc
"Wait... So is Joseph your brother? And Cole?" Shit. I was hoping she didn't know about my family.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4EnnFWKo9
"No." I blow out a breath. I really didn't want to get into this tonight. "I am Joseph Alexander."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSsRRh8ZJI
"But you go by Ben?" I can't tell if she's more in shock or curious.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7klXxOJnQa
"Nate and I both decided to use our middle names so we wouldn't be as recognizable." I've always hated my first name anyway. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQ09JgmH0S
"Wait... So... Nate is Declan Murphy Jr.?" Shit, Nate is going to kill me. "You two are New York's most eligible bachelor's? Well, according to People magazine anyway."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8F91ZgzjG
"Yeah, but please don't say anything to anyone. The reporters will swarm this place if they find out." I can't believe I told her all this. This could really mess everything up. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8llfeHvbr
"Ben, I would never. I just can't believe you're little Joey. Wow. You really grew up. You were just a little scrawny kid, what happened?" I feel a small victory since I worked so hard for this body, but the memory of the lying, backstabbing bitch is enough to put a pretty big damper on it.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYEVoBkEeI
"Samantha." I mutter, half to myself. Shit. It slipped out before I could think. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflRKfJvbhu
"Who's Samantha?" She sounds so curious, but I definitely didn't want to get into this tonight.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUZFilhhKD
"No way. You've already asked your question. And you got a ton of information. It's my turn. Tell me about your parents." I just want to talk about something other than me.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkDodc08TV
"Well, they are pretty typical, you know, just parents." She throws my words back in my face.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiQCmxWiVU
"Ha ha ha." She's so fucking adorable.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6hP6SMksg
"Okay, well my dad is a little different and my mom, well, she died last year. Brain tumor. My dad prayed and prayed, but it just wasn't enough." Woah. I can honestly say, I did not expect that. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyySeXerHh
"I'm so sorry, Kat. That has to be hard. As annoying as my mom can be, I can't imagine losing her." I hear her sniff and I know she is crying. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjowS3Lkp1
"You know, this game kinda sucks." I try to lighten the mood.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF3jPk12u7
She let's out a little laugh. "Yeah, but it kinda worked. We know more about each other, right?" 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGgMhATzjy
"Yeah, I guess. Let's get some sleep. I'm afraid to know what time it is."795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYQm3vHACj
"Okay, I'll go. Thanks for doing this." She pushes up off the bed. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hLWr9Z4Qa
"No, stay. Please." I hang onto her hand for dear life. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXOePHnloW
"I really shouldn't." She can't leave. I need her.795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCMTHxNvGA
"You're upset and I would feel better if I could just hold you for a bit. Please." I don't want her to be alone right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want to be alone either. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44UvT38mwa
"If you insist." I really do. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Yp6gSAfJt
She lays her head on my chest as I wrap her up in a hug. 795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0y8TgNTY0
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