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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTvUUtvbiP
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Of course I see her.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaba4vAOqFR
I always see her.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSV7SRitmAa
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpi54pnxHkA
Damn it.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhB4cR51ZF
I need to stop looking at her. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCzwAr0RZT
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemvc0R3UPF
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqm0Prhg76
Damn it.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlJkM96PpJ
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcDCzwis3t
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mYPhJJum5
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiur7opUYRr
But I fucked it up. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunaMkUXP7w
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Of course I fucked it up.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyLe01zEFW
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SX4FovqIx
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCV8JbWbnq
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwvMGb11FR
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjojtGUzyzP
Can lips be sexy?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXqepkjfF5
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRywFBGtM9
I need her. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdK7yUtND8c
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzc55mhFgW
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHB7ayUEyp
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItg9lkvIjF
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemQKj7O8ux
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLxeziqM0C
Even her.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqDN3pfSQg
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq50QTiUOkL
I feel something strange as I lay down...796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQkIW7Au3j
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6Bd8QYoLB
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡribcygwYRN
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvkUuGPPFe
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zVatH8tEz
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXXqtGL1iq
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed0PyqHyHw
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhE2mibFwjG
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoMKuvMhoZ
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxG0gc3MzKc
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuqCSCKnyQ
It's not. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEpI67HIU7
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbxRjpS9cl
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MRZBvGEBm
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCC0AAlLez
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFD7iPBKvU
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMHMSZ4OYO
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Y1YTyfIfa
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOJDJGReyx
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVSypMyMFF
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaH4SCIeRlP
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1n3zM75sd
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHE9i820Fw
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvfpcSIjwA
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXbD9DKQVG
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0te7ewFX3
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG42CPLLUl
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVytBcHHoM
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeENtIRqjv
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1kY40mLT
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZy7iGAcUV
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHBYJbnls4
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3QrhX76Uc
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwPoGecOXS
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFI2cflLBi9
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBFn8SbO4j
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pwHmnbzSm
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCe2xgGp5pI
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeokZnfc4S
I missed everything about her.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMR8PRe3EIl
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItlCLTwyhx
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsHf1ONyt8
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGnFS2aMKf
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4SwH6zZXv
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHU5FieHnP
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALcVuW1zFH
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofmQuFILj3
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqxMxHlY9z
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGY13q2QMZ
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZdULYGAsc
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9iy7Ia5yi
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFv8MWLCmL
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2XoEMgIct
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dIKaUJ8S6
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d2h6hjkY0
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbsDMpD8xB
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUby5sFJIo
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcs9H2ZbWf
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF4k1nuZXM
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8E26NZlkq
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDH0PjBV8zq
Shit. This is bad. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UEjSVEcBP
Faking it is going to be so hard. 796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WkNIOreAg
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."796Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7FeoC8khx
I am so fucked.
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