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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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"That's... not... I wasn't..." I try to explain, but now that the lust haze is gone, I am unable to rationalize my actions. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbtuCIjq9T
Was that what I was doing? I wanted to stop thinking about everything and I figured with what I heard about Ben, he wouldn't complain. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq00vdKVHol
"Ugh... I'm such an idiot." I cover my face with my hands. I just want to get out of here. Laying next to him in my underwear after being rejected is so embarrassing. I need to leave.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNz6JYR9phk
He pulls my hands away from my face. His eyes meeting mine. "No, you aren't. You are just hurting."656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF80OP0uQn3
Is that it?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxb3jzTtmV2
When I caught him with that whore, I was almost relieved. Maybe I'm just not processing my emotions properly... 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwfxXnbmOO
I should be devastated. I mean, I am really upset, but I feel more like I'm mourning the life I lost, not the person. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5it480HM2
I think he wanted to get caught. He probably hoped I would join in or something.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiH7Jxshhk
What a creep. How could I give so much to him? I cannot let myself get wrapped up in another man like that again. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpg4ozwLuYK
I need to be strong. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWJEioBkHu
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I need to be independent. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCqd4MJkJs
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I need to make better choices. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyrTzVD9Fu
I need to... not be here. Crap.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqbrrrq8cI
Ben makes me feel weak and vulnerable.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceKJqcCmop
But also powerful and wanted. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRYexfwt60
Ugh... I am so confused. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwL6Gei8D2
I do know that hopping from one guy literally onto another is not a good choice.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLxqBn7PMi
I also know that nothing casual can happen with my best friend's boyfriend's best friend. That would be all kinds of complicated. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmePCPjXX6
Hopefully I haven't made things too awkward. Oh god, what if they get married? I will have to see him all the time. I will be reminded of this night forever.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUJ5LVStN3
He smirks, tucking my hair behind my ear. "There she is, the wheels are turning again." 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSZL3OruS4
I can't help the laugh that bubbles up. I probably sound insane, but this night is all sorts of messed up. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA2tJ4HYzn
His face lights up and his dimples emerge. Crap. His smile turns my insides to jelly.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxInkEMH0fx
"Come on, Katarina, give the poor little hamster a break. Tell me your thoughts." He gives me a reassuring smile. I'm not sure I like him using my full name, it makes my heart flutter.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJW5aSMebk
"I think..." I need a light topic. I just want to ignore my problems. "I think this has been the weirdest night."656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWcNwJnNxE
He nods in agreement. "Weird good or weird bad?"656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdWbrixSKb
"Hah... Both?" I wince, knowing he's going to prod for more and I don't want to go any deeper.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu2mx45XdS
"I am going to have to agree with you." I was not expecting him to agree. "Although, I think yours had a bit more bad than mine." His hand caresses my cheek and I can't help but lean into his touch. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpdVDCN2nL
I am so weak. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6K7DbQw0d
"Hmm..." His touch is relaxing and I feel the day catching up with me. The emotions and tears taking their toll on my body. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZR2bvtT7t4
"You falling asleep on me, Kitty Kat?" I can hear the smile in his voice, but I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7Dwj422MV
"I am not a cat." I say, as sternly as I can muster, but it comes out weak. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6ycFpO821
"Meow." He chuckles at his own joke.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPh8OmJ7gK
"You are so not funny." I mumble.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaH9WMDNzRK
"Oh come on. You're no fun." He tries to tease me, but he doesn't realize just how accurate he is. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2toHG3HWV
Maybe if I were more fun, things would be different. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZ7sGvc5Qo
"If only you knew..." I snuggle into his hard chest, hoping he won't ask anymore questions. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDTrqDXEgf
I know I should leave, but I just can't bring myself to part with him. I'm sure he's filling some void and I'm being pathetic, but he hasn't thrown me out yet.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSFaYCdFBR
In fact, he pulls me tighter. Resting his face in my hair. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAzkQ0Xf59
"Don't worry, I will protect you." He whispers and as I drift off into oblivion, I actually believe him. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVRalW4UN3
I awake to the sounds of muffled shouting. There is a heated argument somewhere nearby. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN1UeUUXRl
When I try to move, I bump something hard with my elbow and freeze. I hear a groan and feel the bed move slightly. I am not alone.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyY6vTGVJqa
Oh no. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziUpbfVeIs
What did I do? 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXO3EqXUuB4
Scanning the room, I realize I have no idea where I am or who could be behind me.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZEKbJmKyc
Unless Vanessa is having a really rough morning, that was definitely too deep to be her voice.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKV5OhQCzkW
Crap. I am too afraid to look, who could it be? Bits and pieces from the night come to me, but not enough to piece together anything solid.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jPfHTV5LH
I remember crying at some point.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLeIyeTZT7
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I remember drinking more than I should have.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJdFWFeEJt
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I remember Vanessa being her usual self. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCxEI6vhGE
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I remember her new boy toy stuck to her side. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9iXSuXwYF
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And I remember... Uh oh. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7QD1XUvi6
It couldn't be... I wouldn't... Would I?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKcMzHTl4l
Am I really asking myself this after waking up next to some random guy? Well, maybe not so random...656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVrhR2atz9
Oh god, this is all sorts of complicated. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRdj2TA0Zi
Okay, I just have to know... I try to roll over gently, without disturbing him. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lM6Zjhf50
I find a pair of amused green eyes staring back at me. A gorgeous grin with dimples on his stupid perfect face. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5JSjIZBeh
Crap. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuONDlji8f
I know I'm blushing hard, I can literally feel my face burning. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5MoOmDYWv
How did this happen?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrDv5FxlgA
"You done freaking out yet?" He asks with a chuckle. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoK8PpwRXIV
Is he... laughing at me? 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbTfofRnHz
"Uh..." And just like that, he has short circuited the connection between my brain and mouth. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOLarp0ir8
"Don't panic." He talks softly, like I am some wild animal that might bite him.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuc744oznQ
I am totally panicking. I just can't decide if I want to run out of the room or stay and figure out what exactly happened. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybLyQxFAXz
My curiosity wins, just barely. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cfOGhya0h
"Nothing happened." I must look really confused, because he feels the need to explain further. "We didn't have sex."656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbGpm5hwMp
"Oh..." I'm not sure if I should be relieved or hurt that he was naked laying next to me.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnEoyLAlBP
Nope. Not letting my mind go there.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQDJxgoSR7
I choose to feel relief. I wouldn't have remembered it anyway. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWhPDls5LY
"Not for lack of you trying, of course." He flashes a cocky smirk at me. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbHoI3Pqf7
I feel a frown tugging at the corners of my mouth, despite my attempt to keep my face neutral. No, I didn't throw myself at him, did I? 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzv52Sxv2S
I vaguely remember waking up and thinking I heard my name through the wall and then... 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdi5Hqnsax
"No way... I... Oh god!" My eyes pop open so wide, they begin to hurt.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG9JMHE5aa
Crap. Did I really climb on top of him? Yep, I was totally grinding on him.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKisQBkUZk
I gasp, my gaze running down his body before I can stop myself. I take in his muscles, but his bottom half is covered in a sheet. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKh5NZDj7u3
His eyes meet mine. "Reminiscing?" 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvCHgTd2a4
"What! No!" My voice is too high and rushed to be convincing. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzMby1Hr56
I remember licking his defined chest.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4MWmMjtPF
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I remember... 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdVCuXfrLg
he was naked!656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4zVR5dqIB
I inwardly groan. I totally touched him. I know how big he is and... 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XGDbxw6s9
Oh god! I know how he tastes. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0nmaaiM2H
"Shit." I know it's inelegant, but I can't think of anything else to say.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQouYwauCU0
His mouth pops open as his face twists in shock. "Did you just... I can't believe you just said shit!" 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXw9D7AZE2x
"What? Why not?" I sit up, feeling defensive. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkfm5SwMUM
Why is he so shocked? He barely knows me. Why does he assume this? Did I say something weird last night?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRznTdKGzd
"You seemed kinda offended when I cussed, so I guess I just assumed..." He looks shy, almost like he was caught doing something wrong.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07MEGsC3S8
"Based on?" Sure, I don't make a habit of using curse words, but it's more an ingrained reflex than an actual choice. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zZcLeStGW
He hesitates, like he's afraid to say and I begin to feel slightly nervous. Crap, what did I say?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5aIyv4Gkp
"You... uh... kinda flinched." He blushes and looks around the room. Insecure Ben is totally adorable. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOwsfQBuvN
"Oh." I'm honestly not sure how to respond because I definitely can't tell him the truth. "Well, I wasn't offended."656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWJgaNxMDt
"Okay." He blows out a breath, looking up at the ceiling. "If you say so." 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCslq6cfjBA
He looks completely unconvinced but I can't give him more than that. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuY0gexhsUK
"So." He clears his throat. "Not to be totally awkward here..." His gaze drops to the tent of his crotch before his eyes scan the floor. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkMDlrRtv2
"And not that I would mind laying in bed with you all day." He looks down my body and winks. "But, maybe we should get dressed?"656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekqL7V2UJd
I look down at myself, just now realizing I'm sitting here in lacy underwear. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dimXMhAVl
When I don't respond, Ben flashes his smile. "Or not, I mean you look great." 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtmRSLcerq
I am unable to hide the look of shock on my face before I snatch the sheet to cover myself. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3WjegoXTc
Which is no longer covering "Little Ben", if you can even call it that.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSlTmA38kp
Oops.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxytVzsJjmu
Of course that would happen to me! I take a moment to look at it in the daylight and wow, it's like a sculpture. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRuwg2BTUp
Unable to stop myself, I have apparently lost my filter completely around this man. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdK7cKUpRwM
"Well hello, Big Ben." I try not to giggle like an immature school girl, but Ben's laugh makes me laugh harder. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6db8nDlYx
"Big Ben, huh?" He grins, making my stomach flutter. He shakes his head, amused. "What am I going to do with you?"656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzwWBPS6EW
My mouth goes dry as my mind conjures up all kinds of things he could do to me. It feels like all the air was sucked out of the room as I struggle to control my breathing. Is it hot in here, or is it just me?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUoAftpgdi
My gaze returns to "Big Ben", as it seems to grow, straining to reach me. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LUvVKJeRQ
Prying my eyes away, I meet his green gaze. He's no longer grinning or teasing, in fact, it looks like he's in pain. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhVJM9wzVC
"So, you like what you see?" His eyes never leaving mine. I try to close my mouth and steady my breathing. I need to keep my composure, but my head nods without my approval. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWVyfLkls8
I lick my lips, remembering last night. I can't get my mouth to form words.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhmWWVcXrI
"Because I wouldn't mind seeing a little more." He reaches forward, tugging down the sheet. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJKNmpWCU1
He sucks in a breath. "Fuck, Kat."656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vfUqgCIKD
I close my eyes, my insides turning to liquid fire. I love his cussing, like he can't control himself. Maybe it's because of my background and it makes him seem like such a bad boy, but it turns me on, like crazy.656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLo14c8y3sT
He caresses my breasts through the sheer fabric. "God damn, you are beautiful." 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLvZ0lgLyT
I absorb his words as another wave of lust hits me. I know this is a bad idea. I know we should not be doing this, but I'm not sure I could stop it, even if I wanted to. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh4COD2Wqu
His hands move down my body as his mouth meets mine. His kiss is hungry and desperate and I can't get enough. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OOwQNnvKx
His hand grazes me where I'm aching and I nearly explode. I need him. Now. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqolMWNce4
"Do you have a condom?" He has to have one in here somewhere, right?656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3z2trrk2z
He blushes and looks slightly uncomfortable. "Actually..." We both freeze as the sound of yelling grows closer. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sLPrNeVgm
I pull the sheet up to cover myself just as the door bursts open. All I see Vanessa's fiery hair flying around as she takes the scene before her. "What the fucking fuck is fucking going on in here?" 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaJkpWtWaS
I know her well enough to know when she can't think, she drops f-bombs. Her gaze drops to Ben's crotch, before he grabs a corner of the sheet to cover himself. 656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfb9NZwi0G
I can't help the laughter that bursts out of me at the sight of her craziness. "Calm yourself, Vanessa."
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