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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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"That's... not... I wasn't..." I try to explain, but now that the lust haze is gone, I am unable to rationalize my actions. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o8qL4OeWu
Was that what I was doing? I wanted to stop thinking about everything and I figured with what I heard about Ben, he wouldn't complain. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDF4yT9SjE
"Ugh... I'm such an idiot." I cover my face with my hands. I just want to get out of here. Laying next to him in my underwear after being rejected is so embarrassing. I need to leave.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFsdzlz5Jp
He pulls my hands away from my face. His eyes meeting mine. "No, you aren't. You are just hurting."624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzf2gs3Ls6N
Is that it?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyzB3AaqGV
When I caught him with that whore, I was almost relieved. Maybe I'm just not processing my emotions properly... 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs11JL5EUrO
I should be devastated. I mean, I am really upset, but I feel more like I'm mourning the life I lost, not the person. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX7n9rcaFb
I think he wanted to get caught. He probably hoped I would join in or something.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYzFmMXQce
What a creep. How could I give so much to him? I cannot let myself get wrapped up in another man like that again. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkyMUa98sV
I need to be strong. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvRf4hSoaH
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I need to be independent. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sh2pOP7DE
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I need to make better choices. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUWkiB9Eir
I need to... not be here. Crap.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAFmr1h7A1
Ben makes me feel weak and vulnerable.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsTmEAoYYM
But also powerful and wanted. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmIQhqK1cy
Ugh... I am so confused. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYYFHc3ueu
I do know that hopping from one guy literally onto another is not a good choice.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w0q0UamAH
I also know that nothing casual can happen with my best friend's boyfriend's best friend. That would be all kinds of complicated. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsSX6L2kW1
Hopefully I haven't made things too awkward. Oh god, what if they get married? I will have to see him all the time. I will be reminded of this night forever.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2uVxOxwLs
He smirks, tucking my hair behind my ear. "There she is, the wheels are turning again." 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzJPz487DA
I can't help the laugh that bubbles up. I probably sound insane, but this night is all sorts of messed up. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeKWix20Nl
His face lights up and his dimples emerge. Crap. His smile turns my insides to jelly.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9X5ONnXlA0
"Come on, Katarina, give the poor little hamster a break. Tell me your thoughts." He gives me a reassuring smile. I'm not sure I like him using my full name, it makes my heart flutter.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfMAwg5TXt
"I think..." I need a light topic. I just want to ignore my problems. "I think this has been the weirdest night."624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfBejRy9Hy
He nods in agreement. "Weird good or weird bad?"624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvuPgBMG8z
"Hah... Both?" I wince, knowing he's going to prod for more and I don't want to go any deeper.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTmJoPS9Iu
"I am going to have to agree with you." I was not expecting him to agree. "Although, I think yours had a bit more bad than mine." His hand caresses my cheek and I can't help but lean into his touch. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡculrLBp8JL
I am so weak. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GWSZpykY1
"Hmm..." His touch is relaxing and I feel the day catching up with me. The emotions and tears taking their toll on my body. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRuRUz4yEx
"You falling asleep on me, Kitty Kat?" I can hear the smile in his voice, but I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvqKOp8KgL
"I am not a cat." I say, as sternly as I can muster, but it comes out weak. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfKZvzZRws
"Meow." He chuckles at his own joke.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuuRk5IF3l
"You are so not funny." I mumble.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hT4WbkgTF
"Oh come on. You're no fun." He tries to tease me, but he doesn't realize just how accurate he is. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK5Wn2fVWD
Maybe if I were more fun, things would be different. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYUOCdsLEt
"If only you knew..." I snuggle into his hard chest, hoping he won't ask anymore questions. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdInULyftVP
I know I should leave, but I just can't bring myself to part with him. I'm sure he's filling some void and I'm being pathetic, but he hasn't thrown me out yet.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBblSe8lzF
In fact, he pulls me tighter. Resting his face in my hair. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NDQ6nHlLl
"Don't worry, I will protect you." He whispers and as I drift off into oblivion, I actually believe him. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkOPxDjQnz
I awake to the sounds of muffled shouting. There is a heated argument somewhere nearby. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0wW3eOzWU
When I try to move, I bump something hard with my elbow and freeze. I hear a groan and feel the bed move slightly. I am not alone.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkwtyHAS2k
Oh no. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lPeucbDEY
What did I do? 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrzWAT3ONg
Scanning the room, I realize I have no idea where I am or who could be behind me.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUAlNMorrK
Unless Vanessa is having a really rough morning, that was definitely too deep to be her voice.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7LReH0fSp
Crap. I am too afraid to look, who could it be? Bits and pieces from the night come to me, but not enough to piece together anything solid.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDdy6IPsJf
I remember crying at some point.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXnclIrTo2
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I remember drinking more than I should have.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOxyWCj7fN
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I remember Vanessa being her usual self. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILEmacEq51
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I remember her new boy toy stuck to her side. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaDwHtrD5U
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And I remember... Uh oh. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCEWFqf81d
It couldn't be... I wouldn't... Would I?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uQGHulkOH
Am I really asking myself this after waking up next to some random guy? Well, maybe not so random...624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXPvGo8oa2
Oh god, this is all sorts of complicated. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpWXhxSbL0
Okay, I just have to know... I try to roll over gently, without disturbing him. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb59d60byXB
I find a pair of amused green eyes staring back at me. A gorgeous grin with dimples on his stupid perfect face. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9jMm3IaSx
Crap. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQrQpwfN72
I know I'm blushing hard, I can literally feel my face burning. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KfHPoglRl
How did this happen?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwpmNsW61B
"You done freaking out yet?" He asks with a chuckle. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJtXWMwQxZ
Is he... laughing at me? 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p4AN2piFq
"Uh..." And just like that, he has short circuited the connection between my brain and mouth. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX39oeBc1OY
"Don't panic." He talks softly, like I am some wild animal that might bite him.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxOK7LCJFq
I am totally panicking. I just can't decide if I want to run out of the room or stay and figure out what exactly happened. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYcxeckHxp
My curiosity wins, just barely. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFkkhziF7j
"Nothing happened." I must look really confused, because he feels the need to explain further. "We didn't have sex."624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwVkZXrwGn
"Oh..." I'm not sure if I should be relieved or hurt that he was naked laying next to me.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmf9B0T53e
Nope. Not letting my mind go there.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdKAMe9cDi
I choose to feel relief. I wouldn't have remembered it anyway. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFqFV60bUx
"Not for lack of you trying, of course." He flashes a cocky smirk at me. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3we3MOOqAl
I feel a frown tugging at the corners of my mouth, despite my attempt to keep my face neutral. No, I didn't throw myself at him, did I? 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHT5sTvb3H0
I vaguely remember waking up and thinking I heard my name through the wall and then... 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKdRSifflN
"No way... I... Oh god!" My eyes pop open so wide, they begin to hurt.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZC1lgco65
Crap. Did I really climb on top of him? Yep, I was totally grinding on him.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6ODMM1021
I gasp, my gaze running down his body before I can stop myself. I take in his muscles, but his bottom half is covered in a sheet. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1Cn8XKBYS
His eyes meet mine. "Reminiscing?" 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHQQmROf6u
"What! No!" My voice is too high and rushed to be convincing. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1jTnSHm5L
I remember licking his defined chest.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPimEZ8JY1
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I remember... 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGdT24n2UD
he was naked!624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERIyDd2MLA
I inwardly groan. I totally touched him. I know how big he is and... 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdi9229WNnh
Oh god! I know how he tastes. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHvqGTV7uR
"Shit." I know it's inelegant, but I can't think of anything else to say.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmIf1cmpl3
His mouth pops open as his face twists in shock. "Did you just... I can't believe you just said shit!" 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRTkQkWzuA
"What? Why not?" I sit up, feeling defensive. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf7d4AcuOa
Why is he so shocked? He barely knows me. Why does he assume this? Did I say something weird last night?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Deqw4IXJC
"You seemed kinda offended when I cussed, so I guess I just assumed..." He looks shy, almost like he was caught doing something wrong.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7HpFHDAji
"Based on?" Sure, I don't make a habit of using curse words, but it's more an ingrained reflex than an actual choice. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEh3tkHVrFT
He hesitates, like he's afraid to say and I begin to feel slightly nervous. Crap, what did I say?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbczpeUc9Q
"You... uh... kinda flinched." He blushes and looks around the room. Insecure Ben is totally adorable. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDr58zbGjr
"Oh." I'm honestly not sure how to respond because I definitely can't tell him the truth. "Well, I wasn't offended."624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc6VehowrL
"Okay." He blows out a breath, looking up at the ceiling. "If you say so." 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡor9spnaYks
He looks completely unconvinced but I can't give him more than that. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEynOZ2yk3Z
"So." He clears his throat. "Not to be totally awkward here..." His gaze drops to the tent of his crotch before his eyes scan the floor. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6iqqe2myQ
"And not that I would mind laying in bed with you all day." He looks down my body and winks. "But, maybe we should get dressed?"624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQFYb1TNw4
I look down at myself, just now realizing I'm sitting here in lacy underwear. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tyr6ErnGq
When I don't respond, Ben flashes his smile. "Or not, I mean you look great." 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIo2yTnzDr
I am unable to hide the look of shock on my face before I snatch the sheet to cover myself. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkjwz3oG1Y
Which is no longer covering "Little Ben", if you can even call it that.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQO1WAWPLB6
Oops.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPv9rHpslv
Of course that would happen to me! I take a moment to look at it in the daylight and wow, it's like a sculpture. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy2N6Gng0m
Unable to stop myself, I have apparently lost my filter completely around this man. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNdKzuuq90
"Well hello, Big Ben." I try not to giggle like an immature school girl, but Ben's laugh makes me laugh harder. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9T9wFzKbc
"Big Ben, huh?" He grins, making my stomach flutter. He shakes his head, amused. "What am I going to do with you?"624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Uq032Nqum
My mouth goes dry as my mind conjures up all kinds of things he could do to me. It feels like all the air was sucked out of the room as I struggle to control my breathing. Is it hot in here, or is it just me?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZ6GgNCgy9
My gaze returns to "Big Ben", as it seems to grow, straining to reach me. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1HdBdi86K
Prying my eyes away, I meet his green gaze. He's no longer grinning or teasing, in fact, it looks like he's in pain. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEHOl87QjK
"So, you like what you see?" His eyes never leaving mine. I try to close my mouth and steady my breathing. I need to keep my composure, but my head nods without my approval. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNE5Xi0uof
I lick my lips, remembering last night. I can't get my mouth to form words.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0iIDENDuP
"Because I wouldn't mind seeing a little more." He reaches forward, tugging down the sheet. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrjSruvYMl
He sucks in a breath. "Fuck, Kat."624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W9x129ssX
I close my eyes, my insides turning to liquid fire. I love his cussing, like he can't control himself. Maybe it's because of my background and it makes him seem like such a bad boy, but it turns me on, like crazy.624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjl5mTItLPD
He caresses my breasts through the sheer fabric. "God damn, you are beautiful." 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2Dx6OrZJf
I absorb his words as another wave of lust hits me. I know this is a bad idea. I know we should not be doing this, but I'm not sure I could stop it, even if I wanted to. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIyyGRKh0q
His hands move down my body as his mouth meets mine. His kiss is hungry and desperate and I can't get enough. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XjaC3CDMh
His hand grazes me where I'm aching and I nearly explode. I need him. Now. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyIA4X56NL
"Do you have a condom?" He has to have one in here somewhere, right?624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oRukkmRBF
He blushes and looks slightly uncomfortable. "Actually..." We both freeze as the sound of yelling grows closer. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGOPEm8r6k
I pull the sheet up to cover myself just as the door bursts open. All I see Vanessa's fiery hair flying around as she takes the scene before her. "What the fucking fuck is fucking going on in here?" 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb3yzYsvxr
I know her well enough to know when she can't think, she drops f-bombs. Her gaze drops to Ben's crotch, before he grabs a corner of the sheet to cover himself. 624Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7G4BBEPJjZ
I can't help the laughter that bursts out of me at the sight of her craziness. "Calm yourself, Vanessa."
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