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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZZSuTVtIx
This is not me.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrp1ac5Kb3
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I am not impulsive. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyqgUettDs
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I do not lose control.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ3svZkK5c
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I do not kiss random guys.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVRMY4TS4B
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9B9o9HUdOM
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcruf3d0NM
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljx1xU2Loe
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With big bulging muscles. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzi89LaNAm3
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZnOUTnZF6
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And dimples... 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDH5s3vLwSU
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLC8g0PWUi
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQQEGKBPtl
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluwiircjUM
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEairx07T7z
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6ZsJFnVIR
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP8wGvYPSJ
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnopV0YkSjw
The flow... 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Hnr4DOaNG
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhFQBVn5FZ
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bQH5WaVwe
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XZiJl2Sgj
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcKOfONWx6
I am not this girl. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmn8TcML5d
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I am independent. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3Sxqj4tBn
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I am intelligent. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ192uxpMhP7
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I do not crave any guy. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNLLbuyaUZ
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I have my head on straight. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANYUsWInC9
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkegqYyTn3
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0vfi8T15o
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6WqZVYkCM
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwNEqvtJkG
Hey, a girl can hope, right?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUkjWqxMyS
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OMILSzDl8
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRrS6kee5m
Or am I just totally crazy?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEAuvXlbbO
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXp902HSQp
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngo9L2KsDp
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOtTEeA74S
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPMGHVHMqt
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6qM3c6KdV
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1GMZ474FL
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfO1AceTScV
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBtAKm3FgK
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFz1jny0uT
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99RNL1WJgz
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkUUGrhc3v
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnkUVqXFS2
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQbR2etfak
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aoAU7uG1o
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFfuu8kAZe
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT2Z6ZhU6Y
I am so screwed. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5SNzL9osE
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRHmbScERm
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbrDZrNU57
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEpnMXfvpX
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaoJoKP83D
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFsyAOv6Vn
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2JDGQWgJs
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZO9DZRtJ7
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnypGjCVzq
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI3C8GFYgA
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyokta4z3o
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH8ac7Raac
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwjyYnuDPt
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccgjeO9c1A
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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