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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhhJyjsYi1
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQNe67I1mN
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWxAc0z78N
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwIyr5TyQu
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYePyF6p6i
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb05KhWKr2W
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E5cdUNrKs
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfrWTQOiCf
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4pOUxA6pR
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeUQQjnNL9
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWt1a2gQ8PX
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0uprBggVm
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfXyMXEFVb
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGiwR8wA2v
Shoot, was I saying something? 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mjACgcMk8
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXYO9y3kDV
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5R27wHmfy
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Nn8fWh3XB
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrK9BxI07J
"Nine." He licks his lips. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEd3IHG7ekL
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0oH2kKDTo
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnkFOuIEyX
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQN93elmux6
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNFJ9FLKRZ
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YDv1obfN6
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSKelooQi8
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4wonjFi1q
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErOYzBK04u
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBKt2FEHis
I could get lost in his eyes.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrroymw9Cyj
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnVH6H7J2N
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEq6IHVniGM
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXGMgsPpGk
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnWrBg26t7
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjWRcqd5Np
All too soon, he pulls back.765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2eqdafV2r
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIEIr65TpE
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5H0DcYU8U
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxUCuvPtXt
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo0k51W1II
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLkXqV6MXW
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 765Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡML3hQ682oC
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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