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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzE0aoiM0i
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSmmIrMnnX
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEcPrkbKsu
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgk5eaPA8z
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQxXorlrYd
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYfUavUuFV
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDVSZ8ccIk
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDy4S8W6mOG
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ivw5pBMFS
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWcqryF8Yh
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JomEwe976
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ40BBtd7H
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeqc796nmb
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxV3tkvl33
Shoot, was I saying something? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt424rO7hn7
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavenVMgivi
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngYMBd11Xq
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaV9RuQHbU
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkDxgiCn63
"Nine." He licks his lips. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8IUOlRKSW
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzZermvBwI
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFBeXmHh7R
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6Y1zklNFg
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6DPrKi89t
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uhi3mIifo
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLR1J02yRmx
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZULHWjLJ1
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5qaajfALx
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2F1AYBUEZV
I could get lost in his eyes.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvctleGSJKe
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiFPtQwEsB
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcjFtXmMrr
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzZfpyySXD
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd012IAYt2
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6q8yDveB6O
All too soon, he pulls back.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKMaHSBKGM
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrzsrFc8N7
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36H3rom91i
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo55q7qvIYE
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD3HpyoB9w
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iiBXZrVjV
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9n5ezHSdS
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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