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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBZsVkCpc5
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2US0rTOIX
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PZULLwOLF
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9sDxzyRZL
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOGUx2lNLA
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpKLCxPI4f
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDvNTuJWFI
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMxO8GoC5C
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4MhbpDImd
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPmuu66mHx
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu525CCPh0U
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIAgwDIoQq
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2d70e9uw3l
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTVSoyx2Ie
Shoot, was I saying something? 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8NiS4nglV
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3tFoTS2dd
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBC62KPVxn3
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqIYnUfQAc
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7UuxhzcMd
"Nine." He licks his lips. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddMQCwRxjx
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Vc01KEACV
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2gVSnIMqr
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijIXzebuO3
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFgL3STotJ
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOmkpNWXod
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrMgzQL3ey
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJatZq0tkCU
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbdxYpWrZb
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSleiRCDxoE
I could get lost in his eyes.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhCjtuyXYW
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdVcvLG9vH
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzK7sNUZLAx
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIycm6ScxP
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnaUdKYQlA
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2yPAnZDi1
All too soon, he pulls back.808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5iCO5ASTb
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTrgwUSC88
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsf1MZjV71
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRs2wONMsa
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ9ypS0sak
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz46UjOHDbA
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 808Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveOsy79QpT
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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